Stepping in the squad room, Olivia is greeting with Elliot's smile "Hi, how was D.C?"

"Emm, yeah it was good thanks" Feeling the heat flushing to her cheeks and the small smile breaking out on her face, she dumps her bags and makes her way over to the coffee machine.

"So the course was that good?" Fin playfully nudged her handing her a cup of coffee, "Did you fall on a hoover, or do you have something to share with the group?" smirking as he pointed to her neck, "You might wanna cover that up, Cragen incoming and he looks pissed!"

"Fuck" she cursed pulling her zip up higher, feeling her face getting redder by the minute she wished the ground would open up and swallow her.

"Liv my office, now!" Cragen's voice bellowed through the Bullpen, Elliot looked over eyebrows raised.

"Here we go" she murmured.

Olivia walked in to the office and shut the door "Liv take a seat, so how was the seminar?"

Wondering how to get out of this one she looked at the floor sheepishly. They had worked together for so long Cragen always knew when she was lying.

"Before you even think of coming up with an excuse I know you didn't attend, I got a phone call from one of my old buddies. I called the hotel and I know you checked in, so what happed?

Feeling like a little kid who's just been caught with her hand in the cookie jar, "Eh…well…you see sir"

"Does it have anything to do with that thing on your neck?"

Frantically trying to work out what to say or do next the fleeting thought crossed her mind, well sir I was actually being fucked all night long and into the next day. She was positive he could tell what she was thinking she broke eye contact and tried to focus on something anything other than the thought currently running through her head right now.

Cragen raised his hands "Stop, I don't want to know! Next time I send you to a seminar make sure you damn well go and don't let your team down again. You've got a witness to prep now go."

Getting up from the seat she heads for the door feeling like she was dying from embarrassment, "Sorry Sir" she mumbled.

"I'm pleased you taking time to enjoy yourself, next time do it on your own time" A faint smile crossed his lips. He knew she'd chastise herself for letting everyone down and he was pleased she was getting out; she spent so much time protecting the victims she didn't take any time for herself.

"Busted" she hears Fin holler across the room.

Sitting at her desk feeling annoyed and angry with herself. One thing she was sure off she didn't regret the incredible time she had, she regretted not coming up an excused before coming in here and not going home first before coming to work at least that way she would have had a chance to cover up her reminder.

That amazing night in D.C feels like a lifetime ago and that satisfied post sex glow is quickly dwindling away.

...

Afew weeks had past and Olivia didn't have time to think about her encounter, shit had gone down with Elliot. There was a shooting in the squad room Jenna had shot and killed her mother's rapist and Sister Peg, and Elliot had shot Jenna, she was armed and dangerous it was a good shoot.

He'd taken some time off, not that she blamed him she was a kid and Olivia knew he'd have been thinking about his own daughters after he'd done it. Olivia had tried to call him, left messages, hell she'd even turned up at his door but it was like he'd vanished.

Sitting in her apartment she poured herself another glass of wine, just as she was rasing the glass to her lips there was a knock on her door.

"Captain, what are you doing here?"

"I thought I'd tell you in person, I've just found out Elliot put his paper in, and….we're getting a new detective this week."

Olivia couldn't hide the look of shock and hurt in her face she felt like she'd been punched in the guts, she stood back to let Cragen in. They both made their way to her couch where they both sat in silence, Cragen noticing the half empty bottle of wine on the coffee table.

"I know it's a shock but he deserves this, he's worked hard."

Feeling the tears spilling over her eyes "I know" was all she could manage.

"Olivia" she couldn't look at her captain, "Olivia, please look at me." Feeling like a silly little girl she dragged her arm over her eyes and looked at him "Olivia you're like a daughter to me and I don't want to upset you, but I had a call from Elliot he needs you to stop calling. He needs a clean break from you and the department, and quite frankly you need a clean break from him."

With the tears falling again, she looked at him through misty eyes "I know we both do, he was like family to me I feel brayed."

Putting his arm round her shoulder she felt herself sinking into the comfort she needed, this was something that didn't happen very often. They'd always had that father daughter relationship and she knew if she needed anything she could always go to him.

Feeling her relax he pulled back and looked at her "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I can't talk anymore Cap, I think I just need to process it."

Taking that as his queue to leave he stands up and takes the glass and bottle of wine before tipping the contents down the drain. Olivia doesn't make any attempts or pleas to stop him; she just sits there pulling at the thread on her jumper.

"Take tomorrow, get some rest and remember if you want to talk you know where I am" He leans down placing a kiss on the top of her head, "Good night."

Olivia does as her captain suggested she spent the next day lounging around the apartment watching some rubbish TV and even finished that book she'd started 4 months ago. She was obviously still upset about Elliot, but she understood he needs time and space. She was determined to put it out of her head if he wanted to get back in touch with her he will.

...

"Captain Cragen?" the blonde Southern woman cheerfully asks.

"Ah you must be Detective Rollins, we weren't expecting you till tomorrow."

"I got in a day early so I thought I'd come by."

He looks at her and smiles grateful of her early arrival. They'd been swamped since Elliot left and giving Olivia the day off yesterday wasn't his best idea but she needed that time to herself to adjust.

"Fin, this is Detective Rollins, Defective Rollins this is Fin" She smiles and holds out a hand "Fin nice to meet you, call me Amanda."

"Fin will show you around, you'll get to meet Detective Benson later she's out on a call just now"

At that Olivia walks around the corner seeing the back of the blonde woman she's talking to Cragen and Fin at Fins desk she notices the removal box on the floor beside them, she realises this is the new detective "Great" she mumbles.

Although she can't help stopping and trailing her eyes down the blondes frame she tilts her head and takes in her ass and the strong muscular legs, feeling that well known pang in the pit of her stomach. Huh maybe this won't be so bad after all, especially if she always wears trousers like that, shaking the though from her head she continues to walk over to them.

"Ah perfect timing" Cragen gestures over to her "This is detective Rollins, Detective Rollins this is Detective Benson."

Spinning round blue eyes meet brown.

"Eh nice to meet you, excuse me I have to go write these notes up."

Fin gives a questioning look but both him and Cragen write it off as Olivia still being sensitive like she has been since Elliot left. Amanda looked surprisingly unfazed.