hey! this time It is my personal experience combined with Juvia and Gray. I truely hope you like it!

I still don't own fairy tail but Hiro Mashima does.

summary: Juvia and Gray are best friend but she falls in love with him and Gray don't want her. what would happen if Juvia decided it is enough?

A\U

The end of the beginning

i.

The air stood still. The heavy moisture and noises from the club behind her shook the whole area and made the night substantial. It was late at night, or early morning depending on how you looked at it. Juvia sat on one of the stone steps in the dark driveway, holding the courage to do what she knew she had to do a long time ago. Her blue dress stuck to her body and little drops of sweat drifted on her skin, and the moisture strengthens the fact that she was after extended physical activity. Juvia gathered her blue hair into a clumsy ball at the top of her head.
Juvia didn't mind the fact that she must look awful or that she smelled of cigarettes that she smoked and the alcohol she drank in the club, Juvia wouldn't try to do the hardest thing she ever thought she would do. Juvia looked at the street with a deadly determination stare but her mouth was pursed and closed as if her lips had sewn together, her expression hinting that she wanted to cry but didn't allow herself this content.

The cleared throat behind her didn't surprise her. Juvia knew Gray would come with the typical cigarette in his hand, his usual cleared throat and his constant warmth beside her. Gray settled down beside her on her little stone step. This time, unlike the others, Juvia didn't give him a dazzling smile, or her eyes glowed with happiness at seeing him. Juvia felt the courage slip away from her, and she clutched at it harder. Juvia wanted to put her head on his shoulder and forget why she sent him the message, but she couldn't. It's time to finish it. This time compared to the others, Gray began to talk first because he saw that her lips were sealed together.

"Why are you here? everyone is dancing inside" He inhaled more of the addictive stuff.

"I have to stop talking to you," she said in a sharp, harsh voice.

Gray was shocked.

"what?"

He gasped, forgetting the cigarette in his hand, and inhaling smoke made him choke a little.
He coughed, and she waited patiently. This time she didn't want to help him, Juvia stayed where she was. Gray breathed again after a few seconds and looked at her with his dark black eyes. Her blue ones met his.
Juvia felt her decision slip away from her. She got up and walked away from him as much as possible but still within earshot. Juvia puts her back to him. She did not finish yet. She would stop and then it would be over.

"I still feel something for you. I can't continue to be your friend. It's too complicated, every time I think I'm overcoming my feeling for you, The feelings come back to me overwhelming me every time."
Juvia turned to him. The tears rose in her eyes, her body trembling but her face showed determination.

"Why now?" Gray asked, rising, throwing away his cigarette and cornering her.
She put out her hand and motioned him not to come closer. He stopped in confusion.

"out of the blue, you don't want to talk to me?" Gray says but Juvia cuts him short.

"It's not sudden," Juvia said, her voice sounding neutral but her feelings continued to envelop her, wave after wave of emotions. "For months I have been trying to stop talking to you, for months I've been telling myself I can't go on like this."

Gray looked miserable. "Is it because I wasn't in touch with you?" He asks.

She didn't know how he could think that. Juvia realized he was busy. She understood him too well, and that's why it hurts.

"No, really not, but if you told me you didn't want to be in touch with me I'd stop, I've asked you many times." She choked on emotion in mid-sentence.

Recognition looked on his face. "That's why every time we met you asked that?"

Juvia nodded, and the tears ran down her face, but she continued to speak in a smooth voice."I didn't succeed on my own. I wanted confirmation from you. But you didn't give me that, so I stayed here, hurting myself every time by talking about dating with other people, about relationships that I don't have and I know my feelings for you are preventing me from something real."

Gray knew everything, Juvia always laughed and joked that it was because she wasn't ready for a serious relationship, that she was too young for a serious relationship, but she lied to him, to everyone and especially to herself.
Her body betrayed her, and Juvia took a step closer to him.
Gray took the access to get close too.

"I thought you stopped liking me," he whispered. Gray looked at her with eyes full of emotions she couldn't place. He took another step closer.

"I wanted to tell you that I was cutting off ties and explaining that so you wouldn't hurt." She said abruptly. Juvia felt the conversation was out of her control. She wanted to move from there to return to the club, to wait for their friends to finish and they could go home, and there she would fall apart and cry for hours until the pains in her chest stopped. But something told her not to move, to wait a little longer.
Juvia waited for him to say something, maybe Gray would tell her to go or that he wanted her, but he didn't seem to have decided himself yet.

"Do you think you'll ever feel anything to me?" She asked softly, and despite the music and noises from the club, her voice was evident in the black night.

"I-" Gray came to continue but their friend, Natsu, arrived and hit him on the back. He could hardly stand, and every few seconds he lost his balance "Disturbing?" He said in a voice full of alcohol.

She began to say yes, very disturbing. But she saw Gray shake his head. She stopped the fresh tears from slipping out of her eyes. "Okay ... I'm going back."
She runs to the entrance of the club and searches for her best friends to go home.

It was their end.

A.N soo how it was? I hope you like it!