Fifty Shades of Steele

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Chapter Five

Maybe...Maybe Not

It wasn't the first time Ana had done something so spontaneous, but this was the first day she'd ever woken up in a mans bed, and in his arms no less. She was nearly suffocated, being pressed against him so close. He was warm and his arms felt so strong around her, thick and toned with muscle. He smelled so good, and he looked even better.

Upon opening her eyes, she saw nothing but his naked chest at first, and then she looked up, eyes taking in his five o'clock shadow, that strong jaw line and then that gorgeous face of his. He was absolutely breathtaking, and Ana couldn't believe she was actually in the situation she was.

There was no escape. Her first thought was that she needed to get out of there. It would be awkward dealing with him then and of course she wasn't planning to see him again, even though she would have loved to, so she didn't want to have a morning after with him, even if only to say goodbye.

Thanks? Nice doing you… See you around, never.

The thought of it wasn't appealing at all, and now she was wide awake, forced to lay with him as she stressed over what she'd say to him when he woke up, whether she woke him or he woke on his own. He was so appealing that she almost wished she could stay, that things wouldn't have to be so awkward, but she knew it would never work out.

She wasn't good with relationships. Though she enjoyed having good sex every now and then, the idea of being with a single man for a long period of time was frightening for her. So, no matter how interesting she thought him to be, she could never try to find out about him. There wasn't a doubt in her mind that he deserved better than her.

Ana was a girl who'd made many mistakes, and she didn't live a normal lifestyle. She didn't believe in true happiness, or love, or any fairytale fantasies. She was just here, living her life and trying to get by. She wasn't perfect, nor did she claim to be. She was just a girl, who didn't have or need much, but she was toxic, and she never wanted anyone else to suffer because of her.

Though it felt like ages she laid there awake, it was only minutes later that Christian's eyes fluttered open, those dark gray eyes captivating hers instantly. Ana's heart skipped a beat at the intensity she saw in them. She felt truly naked under his gaze. For the first time in the longest time, she felt like she was actually being seen. Her, Ana. Not just her body.

This man, he was looking at her, but there wasn't a trace of lust in his eyes. Just thoughtfulness. With every second that passed, Ana felt as if he was reading her. As if with one look, he could know everything there was to know about her. That was impossible, she knew. But, she'd never looked into such smoldering eyes before.

"Morning." He grumbled, in the sexiest voice, deep and throaty from sleep.

A single word and she was shuddering against him. "Good morning." She whispered back, averting her eyes and squirming free of his hold.

She was scrambling out of the bed before he was even fully awake, and he sat up, watching her as she started gathering her things. "There someplace you need to be?" He asked curiously, a hint of amusement in his tone.

"Uh… Yes, actually." She shrugged as she got into her dress and then sat back on the bed to put her heels on.

Christian sighed behind her and she was sure he could tell by her refusing to look at him as she got ready to leave, that she wasn't interested in anything more than what had already happened. Ana wondered if he was disappointed. But, she supposed everyone was always disappointed in her anyway, so what would one more guy hurt?

Standing as soon as her heels were in place, Ana grabbed her purse and then was ready to go. There was nothing she could think of that seemed suitable to say, so she started to leave without a word. Until he was off the bed and behind her. In seconds he'd caught hold of her wrist and forced her around to face him.

"Why are you running?"

Ana looked over his face, taking in the way his brows pulled together, how he looked so serious with those gray eyes. She had to look away. "Why are you trying to stop me?"

"Maybe I don't want you to go." He said, tugging her against him. His arms wound around her small frame, holding her close enough to steal her breath away.

Maybe she wanted to stay… but, she knew she couldn't.

There were some mistakes even she didn't want to make.

"Trust me, you do."

"And if I refuse?"

Her eyes caught his in a challenging stare and her fingers rose to his lips. "Sorry, but you can't." Standing on her tiptoes as her hand curled to cup his cheek, she kissed him once, a brief but sweet kiss and then she backed away again. "See you around, Christian."

"I'll be seeing you, Ana."

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The next week went by uneventfully for Ana. She was sleeping her days away and working every night. The only thing different in her life was the fact that a certain man kept finding his way into her thoughts. She'd only seen him once, the sex was great and he was interesting, but she didn't understand why she kept thinking about him.

She wondered if they'd ever see each other again, or if he'd thought about her. Why this mattered to her, she didn't know, but she was too curious about this man for her own good. It wasn't like her, and it wasn't like she wanted a relationship or anything. At the same time though, she wasn't just fantasizing about another round with him. Sure, it had crossed her mind, and that would have been just fine with her. However, just thinking about him for no reason at all… it was insanity.

Because of her frustration, she was sleeping a lot more than usual, and into her work more than she ever had been before. She was so out of it, that she had no motivation to work towards anything other than saving her money. But, that was a given. There wasn't a week than went by that she didn't add at least five hundred dollars to her savings, and sometimes she was able to add much more than that. She lived a comfortable life, alone aside from the times she spent with Kate, which wasn't often these days, for Kate was living her own life, and spending more nights away from their apartment than she spent there.

Tonight she had plans with Kate. She'd be leaving the club early, around midnight and then the two of them were going out for drinks. Ana wanted to get wasted, she wanted to drown away all thoughts of that annoying man. She almost hated him for plaguing her thoughts.

Almost…

It was Saturday night; the club was packed and it was a big money night. Had Ana known work would have been going so well for her, she probably would have planned for a later date with Kate. She made the best of it while she was there though. Throughout the first couple hours of work, she'd already been through dozens of private dances. For some reason though, she just wanted to be on stage.

She couldn't even walk through the crowd and pick anyone to hit on before somebody was calling her over. Of course she was always friendly and quick to make herself at home at any table. Always flirtatious and touchy, always sweet and seductive. She was good at her job, and that was why she had so many repeat customers.

Aside from that one… who'd only stumbled in once upon a time. But, Ana refused to think about him again.

In her third hour of work, just after eleven, Kate showed up, throwing money at Ana as she danced on stage. Ana laughed when she saw her, and after her dance they got a table together where Kate had a drink and Ana took a moment to rest and talk to her friend.

"Busy night, huh?" Kate asked as she sipped her mixed drink.

"Definitely. My feet are killing me."

"Why don't you go ahead and call it a night?"

Ana waved her off, rolling her eyes. "You know I can't turn down the money."

Kate laughed, shaking her head at her friend. "More like you won't. But, I know."

"I'm starving, think of somewhere we can start out drinking that has some good food too."

"Okay." Kate nodded as Ana got to her feet and started prancing off to converse with some customers.

Time was flying by and before she knew it, midnight had arrived. When she came out of the dressing room, she stood in the dark hall waiting for Kate who was in the restroom. Briefly, Ana checked her phone before putting it back in her purse and then alone, with nothing to do, she found her mind drifting once more.

"Penny for your thoughts?"

That voice had her head snapping up so quickly she nearly got whiplash and her blue eyes opened wide to take in the very man she'd been thinking about so often standing there before her. It had been a week, but seeing him then made her feel as if he'd never left her sight. She was taken aback from the unexpected encounter, and for too long she floundered for a response.

"Hi," Was all she finally managed and she mentally facepalmed at the epic fail. "Christian…" She added his name in a breathless whisper.

"Ana." He nodded, smiling secretively at her. "Are you not working tonight?"

"Well…" She began, only to be interrupted from Kate returning, throwing her arm around her shoulders as she laughed.

Christian's eyes went to her friend and Ana sighed. "Ooh, who's your friend, Ana?"

"Christian." Ana answered flatly. "Christian, this is Kate. I'm getting off early tonight to spend some time with her."

"I see." He murmured, and Ana didn't miss the way his face fell in disappointment.

"You want to come with?" Kate asked excitedly. "I don't mind sharing!"

Ana elbowed her giggling friend sharply, cursing her for everything in her mind before turning back to Christian with a smile. "I'm sure you don't want to miss the other dancers. We're just going for a few drinks anyway."

"On the contrary," He grinned. "I'd love to join you."

Her luck had to be the worst in history. It was bad enough that she couldn't stop thinking about the guy as it was, and now he'd just shown back up and was tagging along with her and Kate no less. Ana couldn't believe this was even happening to her, and she would definitely be giving Kate an earful about it later when they were alone.

Christian drove them in his car, and they ended up at a twenty-four-hour bar and grill. Things were simple enough to begin with, they ordered drinks and proceeded to glance over their menus. Though Christian only glanced at his briefly before apparently knowing what he wanted for himself.

Ana was in her own world of thoughts while Kate and Christian conversed casually. She wasn't even hearing them, for all she could think about was how wrong this was. She wasn't supposed to see him again. She was damn sure not supposed to be having dinner with him- and what was worst of all, she couldn't stop imagining all these things she would like to do to him.

Yes, she wanted to fuck him again, and again.

Now that she was in this situation, she knew there was no way in hell she wasn't going to have him again- and damn it that was not what she needed. Well actually, she did need it, desperately. But, she didn't need it even more.

The poor girl was stuck between a rock and a hard place.

"Ana, are you even listening to me?" Kate slapped her arm playfully, bringing her back to reality and Ana rolled her eyes as she took a sip of her wine.

"Not really. Sorry."

"Christian was saying that he has a place in Aspens, and he's willing to take us there for a visit whenever we want!"

"Oh, really?" Ana sighed, thinking this guy to be unbelievable. She was trying to do things with her life, not get caught up with him- and it was becoming quite obvious that he wouldn't mind being caught up with her.

"Yes and since my vacation days need to be used within the next month, I think we should go soon!"

"I have work." Ana said plainly, knowing she needed to do whatever she could to keep herself away from Christian Grey. It wasn't that she didn't want him, it was that she did- she wanted him badly and he just couldn't understand how horrible she would be for him. Kate was the only thing she had never messed up in her life, and she didn't need to be destroying Seattle's most eligible bachelor.

"Ana," Kate started, only to be cut off by a sharp look from Ana, a look she understood and respected enough not to say another word.

"We'll think about it. Thanks for the offer." She finally looked at Christian then, giving him a soft but fake smile. The look he gave her was unsettling, but only because she felt like he could see right through her.

"I hope you'll accept, I promise it will be worth your while."

The night seemed to be passing smoothly enough, and Ana kept telling herself that nothing was going to happen. She would go home with Kate, be Christian free and then have no more worries. But with every drink she had, her desire for him became more prominent. She wondered if it was obvious to him, and if his thoughts were around the same as hers. Judging by the way he watched her constantly, she was sure they were both thinking the same thing.

They never left the restaurant, having all the drinks they needed during and after dinner. It was when Kate excused herself to run to the restroom that Ana felt anxiety consume her and she struggled desperately not to even glance in his general direction.

"Does my presence really bother you so much?" He asked, tone thick with amusement.

"Are we being honest?" She asked in annoyance, looking at him then with a sharp glare.

"I certainly hope so."

She shrugged then. "Well yeah. You want to fuck, I want to fuck, but we don't need to be fucking."

"Oh?" He chuckled then. "If we both want it then what's the problem?"

"Because, it will never be more than that, so if that's what you're thinking you should get it out of your head right now."

"More is the last thing I want, I can assure you."

Sipping her drink while pondering his words, Ana felt much lighter about the situation. There was no indication that he was lying and maybe it wouldn't hurt for them to have a little sexual fun together every now and then. She didn't want romance, and if he didn't either maybe there was no way she'd damage him.

If he ever acted as if things were turning different between them, she'd walk away. She could walk away. She'd always been good at that. Too good sometimes.

Just as she was about to tell him they might could work something out, Kate returned and Ana decided to keep her mouth shut. They only had one more drink before closing time came and the three of them walked together, after Christian Grey insisted on paying the bill. Christian drove them back to their apartment. Kate got out of the car quickly, claiming she had to get to the bathroom quickly- and that left Ana alone with Christian, giving her opportunity that she really didn't need.

"This is not something I usually offer but… do you want to come in?" Ana asked him, looking over to make eye contact for the first time since they'd left the restaurant.

"That's not an offer I'd normally accept… But yes."

Kate had disappeared, more than likely on purpose but Ana didn't care at the moment. All she could think about was getting Christian Grey in her bed. There was something about just the sight of him that turned her on like nothing else and she wanted him. She could not deny herself the pleasure of having him, especially if there were no strings attached.

She'd never settle down, or fall in love. She wouldn't answer to anyone, nor put her life on hold for anyone. Not even Kate, and if not for Kate then damn sure not for some guy. Still as much as she wanted it, Ana couldn't believe she was really going to sleep with him again. It was supposed to be over, she'd thought it was and yet… for some reason it felt like it was only the beginning.

The instant they were in her room and she closed the door, she proceeded to strip. Once she was naked she turned to face him, glancing over his still clothed body. He was a sight to behold, even fully dressed. She marveled in the way his eyes traveled her body slowly, but she was in no mood to be patient. She couldn't wait to have him inside her.

"What are you waiting on… me to strip you myself?"

Her words had him grinning and everything about the change in his features made him all the more sexy. She didn't need to say anything else, immediately he started unbuttoning his white collared shirt. Ana watched excitedly, her thighs pressing together as she watched him remove his pants next. Soon enough he stood completely naked before her. He was already hard and ready for her, and she was more than ready for him.

"Come here," She whispered seductively, getting on her bed on all fours. Revealing all of herself was one way to get him hot and bothered quickly enough and he was wasting no time in joining her on the bed. "I want you to fuck me like this, okay?"

"Yeah?" His voice was raspy, his dick hard as it pressed against her leg.

God, she wanted him.

"Yes." She hummed as his hands groped her ass. No foreplay was needed. She was beyond ready to have him inside her, fucking her like there was no tomorrow. "Fuck me. Now."

He didn't deny her. Within her next breath he was buried inside her balls deep and cursing loudly. Ana moaned loudly, gripping her sheets, back arching and teeth sinking into her bottom lip. He felt even better than she remembered and he moved inside her with practiced precision, slowly at times and then hard and fast.

Either way, she loved it. He made her feel better than any man she'd ever been with and the more she had of him, the more she wanted. Spreading her legs, the feel of him became even deeper, hitting a spot inside her that had her wailing. She'd never felt so sensitive between her legs, never wanted to beg a man to never stop fucking her. But damn if she didn't want to fuck this man for the rest of her life.

Of course it was only because of the heat of the moment, or at least that's what she told herself. It didn't matter though, as long as she could feel him- and he could make her feel. Nearly the entire time she was just on the verge of coming and when his hand dipped under her to find her clit, she exploded instantly.

"Christian!" She cried his name, burying her face in her sheets as he pussy clenched and fluttered around him. He didn't stop, his movements only increased in speed and his hand never moved away from her over-sensitive clit.

There was no stopping her screams as her body reached it's second orgasm almost instantaneously. She knew he was coming with her then with the way his strokes slowed and yet became more intense, more profound. It was all a lot to take in, him and the feel of it all, but her ass was still pushing back against him as if seeking more.

He flipped her over onto her back and climbed over her, eyes traveling her naked body as she breathed heavily, watching him through half lidded eyes. She never expected it to end so soon and even though she'd came twice, she wanted more of him. Fortunately for her, it seemed he wanted the exact same thing.

"Oh, Anastasia. If it were up to me I'd fuck you all night long."

"But?" She frowned, her body still far from calming.

"If I don't leave now, I might never leave. And neither one of us wants that, right?"

She didn't know why but she was extremely disappointed in the thought of him leaving. That wasn't how she was supposed to feel and she knew it. It wasn't that she wanted his company, or needed to spend more time with them than she already had, it was just that she hadn't had her fill of him yet. So as he left her in bed and proceeded to get dressed, she watched him, forcing herself to remain impassive.

"Don't worry, we'll do this again soon."

Maybe.

Bad as she wanted him, she still wasn't sure about making this thing with him something reoccurring. To her it sounded like the best worst idea she'd ever had in her life. A mistake waiting to happen.

"See you around, Mr. Grey." She gave him a wink just as he walked to her door, fully dressed by then.

"Yes you will, Miss Steel."

A/N:

Well it's been a while! Sheesh. Lots have been going on but all is well and I'm back with the latest update in history. Haha. Sorry dear readers and fellow fifty lovers but even if I disappear for a bit, I will always be back! One does need this practice after all!

In other news... I saw FREED last Wednesday and omgomgomg my heart is still hurting. Hurting because I loved it, because I hate that it's over, and because I need to see it again like now! GRR.

If you haven't seen it yet, it's a must see for all fifty lovers for sure, and if you have I'd love to hear what you thought about it.

I loved it. I laughed. I cried. It was a great experience and I got to see it much sooner than I'd been anticipating. LOL.

Anyways, thanks for reading, hope you enjoyed!

Til next time!

OH ANND HAPPY VALENTINES DAYYYY!