CHAPTER 1: The Heartbreak

Because I don't love you anymore –RW

She was speechless. She stared at the words on her mobile phone. Her world came down crumbling on the floor. Her heart, what was left of her heart, shattered to pieces, turned to dust.

Why don't you just say so that day? Why wait? –HG

If I told you that, that day, who knows what'll happen to you? What I've done to you, that's enough. I don't need to hurt you anymore. –RW

I understand. –HG

What do you understand? –RW

This, what happened, it's my entire fault. –HG

Hush. Don't say that. It's not your fault. It's just… Just take this as an experience. Learn from it. –RW

You make it sound so easy. But do you know how hard it is for me to accept all this? You were fine that afternoon. Why? You should've told me a year ago. Not today. –HG

I'm sorry. This is the best decision that I could think of for us. –RW

It's the best decision for you. Not for me. –HG

She remembered what had happened just three days ago.

They were on their way back from a date. Just movie and dinner, nothing much. But that was more than enough for her. More than what she could hope for. She's happy. She needed nothing more than that. Time and attention. That's all she ever wanted from him. The journey back home was in silence before he broke it.

"Hermione." His eyes were still on the road. He suggested muggle way date today. He picked her up using his car that Hermione helped him choose. He booked the movie tickets online. Just the way Hermione taught him.

"Yeah?"

"Be honest. Are you happy being with me?"

Silence.

"I want to know. Because I felt guilty. Guilty for not treating you the way you should be treated. The way a boyfriend should treat his girlfriend." He continued.

"I'm fine. I'm happy."

"I felt guilty for ignoring you. For not texting you often. For not being a good boyfriend."

Silence.

"Please say something. I brought up this issue because I don't want to hurt you if I keep this longer."

"Don't you love me anymore?" Is all Hermione could ask. He hesitated. And that's how she knew the answer. He didn't.

"I've a heart, I've feelings, and of course I love you. But I feel guilty. I don't want to treat you like this anymore. I don't want to keep this any longer. I'm going to let you go. Please. Please don't hate me. Please remember me. And I'll always remember you because you were there in my life even for a short moment."

She was speechless. Tears came trickling down her straight face. She didn't sob. The tears just came out and won't stop. She had never cry in front of him. This was the first time she did.

Her world crumbled down. Every heartstring was broken. Her heart felt like bursting out from her chest. It hurts so much. Her fingers were numb. The blood doesn't reach her brain. The tears won't stop no matter how much she tried to wipe it. But she couldn't sob either.

She didn't trust herself to speak. Let her be the only one hurting. She doesn't want to hurt anybody else. Even her now ex-boyfriend.

"You don't have to tell anybody about this."

Silence.

"Go find your happiness." It's all he could add. He held her hand trying to comfort her.

She held his fingers. She squeezed it hard, knowing that that would be the last time she gets to hold his hand. To feel his skin on hers. Reluctantly, she pulled away. Leaving his hand on her thigh.

She's been missing those hands for a long time. She only got them back on the day they were leaving hers forever.

"You just took it away. Just… Just go home." She said.

"I'll go home when you're okay." He said.

"Then go home in a week! Or a month! Or in ten years!" She said opening the car door and stepped out of his car.

No good byes, no last words. No anything. She walked herself to her car and got in the driver's seat. She let out a heart wrenching sobs that she held when she was in his car. She squeezed the steering wheel until her knuckles whitens.

She cried her heart out in her car that held so many memories of them. And he just drove away. She guessed he just felt his entire burden being lifted by dumping her like a worn out doll. She cried herself to sleep that night. Luckily she lived alone in a small flat.

A/N: ! Long sob story warning!

This was what happened on the night I got dumped. It was heart wrenching. The last paragraph didn't actually happen. When he said he'll go home when I'm okay, I wiped my tears dry and pulled a straight face and looked ahead because I know if I looked at his face, I would cry harder. Then the last thing I said that night to him was, go home. And I exited the car, and went to sit on the nearby bench. I lived in the college hostel at that time. My car was far from where I was so I sat on the bench, when I saw his car turned around; I stood up and went inside the building where I called my closest friend. As soon as she picked up the phone, I sobbed hard as I tell her, he dumped me. She was more than startled as soon as I told her because when she picked up the phone, she said hello in a playful tone. And the sentences where I wrote;

'He held her hand trying to comfort her. She held his fingers. She squeezed it hard, knowing that that would be the last time she gets to hold his hand. To feel his skin on hers. Reluctantly, she pulled away. Leaving his hand on her thigh. She's been missing those hands for a long time. She only got them back on the day they were leaving hers forever.'

Was true. Every word of it. He held my hand as much as I despised it because he was breaking up with me but still had the nerve to hold me, I couldn't let go. I squeezed his fingers not wanting to let him leave me forever but I guess the odds were not in my favor. I pulled my hands away and he rubbed my thigh just above my knee probably hoping that I'll be okay not knowing what he was doing just left more painful memories for me. I really did miss him for a long time before that night. I got to touch him that night after a long time, but he was leaving, on the same night. Imagine how much that breaks my heart. Yeah it still did break my heart.

And you read it right. He actually dared to ask me not to hate him, to remember me and all. I don't have the strength to say no so I just nodded. As much as I would like to curse him, I can't. AND HE DARED ASKED ME TO NOT TELL ANYBODY I KNEW. Of course I didn't do that. I called my friend straight away.

As I waited for my friends to come down, I tried hard to hold my tears until we got to my car. I drove to the nearest park which is almost 15 minutes away, and spilt it all to them. I spilt the stories, and the tears. It was a lot. My eyes were puffy the next morning. The break up was heart breaking. And every single time I remembered how I held his hand and squeezed his fingers for that last time, I still cry and felt my heart shattered just a little more. You see, our college is just small. Two blocks of hostel for female and male. One block of academic building with eight floors. One staff's café on the academic building ground floor. And one student café in the hostel compound. So you will notice everybody. I often see him. And I tried my hardest to not look at him in the eye because all mine will show was just hatred and sadness. We broke up early March 2017. And it's October already. I can't seem to wipe him off. Sometimes I just wished that God would work his way and make me knocked my head off somewhere and make me forget everything. At the park, something was revealed. One of the friends that followed me to the park that night actually had the nerve to meddle in my relationship. She asked my ex whether he loved me or not. If so, he shouldn't have treated me like that. And he really took that seriously. And look what happened. He dumped me thinking I wasn't happy with him, when I was beyond happy just being with him. I'm holding a grudge, 'friend'. You contributed in destroying my relationship. Few days after that, I text him asking why did he really left me. I got the truth and he said he stopped loving me a year ago.

Anyway, I'm sorry for making you read my sob story. This will be a chaptered story. Please expect delay after chapter 18, because I'm currently stuck at chapter 19. Please enjoy, and review. Much love xx