Chapter 19

Elsa's POV

I stood on the side, watching as the wedding continued. I was so happy to see my sister smiling so bright. Anna's lucky she found Kristoff, and I couldn't be happier that she did. I know for sure that he'll continue to treat her well and that these two are truly meant to be. I shed a few tears as I listened to the two share their vows. Each of them had their own bit of personality in them. Kristoff stumbled a bit and was very bashful about it. It's nice knowing how gentle he is and I can tell from the look in his eyes just how much he loves Anna. Anna's vows were very bubbly, a bit lengthy and random, but overall still cute. Everyone laughed at her childish antics and how she got off topic, however, she is the happiest she could ever be and nothing could destroy her spirit right now. I looked into the crowd and saw all of the smiling faces of my people. It feels good to know that maybe I'm doing something right. If only I could keep those smiles on all of their faces. As I looked around, I caught eyes with one particular person. Their eyes were a deep hazel and bore deep into mine. I had gotten lost many times in those eyes, however, now is not the time. And so, I resisted. I tore my eyes from his and listened as the priest said his final words before Anna grabbed Kristoffs collar and kissed him. I giggled at her eagerness. The crowd cheered, their claps deafening.

At the reception, I watched as all of the happy couples danced around with huge grins on their faces. There were the newly weds who starred lovingly into each others eyes and laughed out of pure joy. There was Rapunzel and Eugene who held their daughter's hands and danced happily in a circle. Their family seemed so perfect in contrast to how ours were. I remember the times where mama, papa, and I would dance like that. I pushed those thoughts away as I continued to look around. I saw Prince Naveen and Princess Tiana dancing in a not so formal way which was quite entertaining. Those two have a very beautiful story as well. I then moved on to see Princess Melody and Jack. The two could not be close thanks to Melody's stomach, however they too were smiling as they simply talked. I'm glad Jack was able to find happiness. I am sure Melody gives him much more joy than I ever could have done. The two look good together. However, as I told myself this, I felt a burning sensation in my heart. My mind felt fuzzy and I had to close my eyes to prevent from any tears rising up. No, I will not cry. I am strong. I am happy as long as everyone else is happy. These days, I feel like the power of everyone else's happiness has begun to slowly diminish. Life just seems much duller.

As I stood there, I felt so… alone. I had been isolated my whole life, you would think that I would be used to this feeling, but no. Somehow, now felt lonelier than ever before. Was it because I was actually standing here alone as my guests danced? Was it because my little sister got married today? Was it because my snowman even had someone to dance with? Was it because the one I thought I would marry is standing with the mother of his beautiful child to be? I have constantly wondered why universe loved to just make me miserable. Why it forced me to be alone. And yet, I can't really blame the universe can I? Because in reality, I'm the one who has chosen to be miserable. I chose to be alone, to push people away. I made my decisions and, now, I have begun to regret them.

Jack's POV

Melody had begun to feel tired after the long day of traveling, and so she decided to head up to our chambers. I, however, was left to talk to the diplomats and form good relations for the sake of Marecia. "Sweet dreams," I said to Melody as I kissed her forehead and watched her leave the ballroom. I was left alone and watched as everyone else danced around. It was then when I noticed her once more. Her platinum blonde hair was half up and half down with a small bun in the back. Her dress was a beautiful aqua green and flowed elegantly making her appear like a goddess. She emitted regalness and sophistication. I was surprised to see her alone watching the crowd for who wouldn't want to dance with a queen, a gorgeous one at that. No. I shouldn't be thinking these thoughts. Melody would kill me if she knew. I can't help it though. There's just something about her that intrigues me. My heart began to beat faster the more I stared at her. She seemed lonely and her delicate features were in a frown as if she was in deep thought. For some reason, I felt the need to make her smile. It pained me to see that frown on her face. And so, without thinking, my body began to bring me towards where she stood. I knew I should stop, but it was as if my heart was reaching out to her. She did not acknowledge me until I was directly in front of her. Her eyes went wide at the sight of me and I swear I saw fear in them.

"Your highness" I said as I bowed. At this point, my brain felt like a pile of mush. My mind felt hazy, however, it was a nervous feeling that I didn't exactly mind. "Prince Jack" she said with a bit of surprise in her voice. "Where is Princess Melody?" she asked, her voice gentle, but shaking with a bit of… nervousness I presume. "She felt tired due to travel and asked me to stay here in order to talk to the guests," I replied. The queen simply nodded. There seemed to be an awkward tension between us. It seemed as if Queen Elsa looked at everything but me, as if she was avoiding me. But why? Before I knew it, my mouth opened to talk again. "Would you like to dance?" I asked. Her eyes widened once more and a faint blush rose on her cheeks. "Thank you… only I don't dance," she said kindly. Her voice was like that of an angel. It was soft and light, like a melody floating across the wind. "Are you sure you don't?" I asked with a smirk, challenging her. I know for sure that someone of her standing must know how to dance. She smirked back at me as something sparked in her eyes. "You must not know much about me huh?" she replied. "And why, may I ask, do you say that m'lady," I said in a teasing manner. Her grin only widened as she held up her hand. I looked and watched as a snowflake magically appeared in her palm. It was beautiful and intricate, almost like a crystal. My eyes widened at the sight of it. I had completely forgotten about her powers. I heard her giggle at my reaction. The sound of her laugh was beautiful and caused my heart to beat a hundred times faster. I blushed at the sound as I wished to hear it more.

I looked back up into her eyes and saw a spark of pride in them. "Your powers are magnificent," I said. This caused her to blush. "Thank you, but they're also dangerous sometimes. It's why I can't dance," she said. "Dangerous?" I asked. Her powers are beautiful, how can they be considered dangerous. "I fail to see how something as amazing as your powers could be dangerous. Well besides the whole freezing of the kingdom. But, you have control now so it should be fine," I rambled. Noticing my informal speech I instantly blushed and rubbed the back of my neck. She smiled a bit before her smile fell once more and a serious look formed on her face. "I-I still lose control sometimes," she said ashamed. "Lately, my emotions have not been the most stable, I fear that they will soon burst," she said as she rubbed her arm and stepped back from me. Before I knew it, I grabbed her hand. This action shocked both me and her as she gasped and looked up at me with wide eyes, fear clear in them. Despite my shock, I continued. "Your emotions will only overcome you because that is what you fear. In my opinion, you just have to let it go," I said as I pulled her to the dance floor. I don't know why I was so determined to dance with her, but I just wanted to spend time with her. I wanted to know about her. I heard everyone whispering and staring at us. I knew it was because I was already married and here I am dancing with the queen. However, I also knew for a fact that many other royals did this as well. Every prince, duke, and king would dance with the host. It was tradition. However, as we began to dance, I realized that maybe it's not so much of a tradition in this kingdom. Especially considering their queen.

I chose to ignore the stares of the crowd and focused on the dancing. I looked at Queen Elsa. She was angelic and I felt like my heart would burst from being this close to her. She was looking around at the crowd nervously. When it seemed that everyone had moved on with their own lives she sighed of relief and then looked down, her lips tight. "Are you alright?" I asked. She looked up and I could finally see her eyes. Her beautiful crystalline eyes that I felt myself getting lost in. "I'm fine. I'm just, not used to this" she said nervously. "We can stop if you would like," I suggested, scared to make a bad impression on her. "No, no. I-I'm fine. It's just, this is my first time dancing at one of these," she said. I could tell there was more to it, but I decided not to push it. "You're good at dancing for someone who doesn't have much experience," I complimented. She blushed. "Thank you," she said shyly. As i looked into her eyes, I couldn't help but feel something akin to nostalgia.

As we danced, I felt the queen slowly lean into me and began to feel both nervous and excited at the same time. Her head touched my chest and the world around us seemed to disappear. I felt my heart beat so much faster than it ever had before. The feeling of her in my arms somehow just felt so… right. It somehow made me feel younger, more alive. Suddenly, I was brought back to reality as I heard her gasp and felt her move away from me. I looked and saw a bit of fear and sadness on her face. I reached out to calm her but she instantly stepped back from me. "I- I'm sorry." she began, her voice shaking for a reason unknown to me. "I- I should go. Thank you for the dance," she said as she turned her back to me and walked away hurriedly. I was left in the middle of the ballroom with my hand reaching out to the mysterious queen Elsa.

Not long after Queen Elsa had left me, the party ended and everyone retreated to their rooms. As I walked through the corridors, I could not help but feel empty. Somehow this castle was so familiar to me. Of course, I had probably run through these halls plenty of times due to my mother. However, I can't seem to remember much of my time in these walls. I looked at the pictures in the hallways and was surprised to come across a portrait of two little girls and what seemed to be… me? Why am I in this portrait, with the princesses no less? I don't recall ever interacting with them, only helping my mother. We all look so happy… so close. I racked my brain for any sort of answers to my questions. I'll have to remember to ask the Queen or princess about this later. Maybe I could ask my mom.

The next morning, Melody and I headed down to eat breakfast with many of the remaining diplomats. We decided to sit by Princess Rapunzel and Prince Eugene while they converse with Princess Anna and — starting yesterday— Prince Kristoff. "How was the party last night?" Melody asked me as we ate. The image of the queen and I dancing appeared in my head. I smiled a bit at the thought, feeling that not-so-uncomfortable nervous yet exciting feeling in my stomach once more. "It was fine." I replied simply, realizing I had spaced out a bit. "That's good. I'm sorry I had to leave early," she said kindly. I smiled at her, "it's fine. I understand considering you're taking care of two people," I said as I looked at her stomach. She smiled up at me, her eyes filled with the same amount of love that she had when we were younger. Every time I looked into them, I couldn't help but feel guiltier. While her love has grown, my love has begun to diminish.

"So what shall we do today?" Melody asked me. "Perhaps we can just walk around town and just walk leisurely." I suggested. "We should make sure not to make it too strenuous on you," I said. Melody smiled. "That sounds perfect."

Elsa's POV

How could I have let myself do that? What am I doing? "Please close the gates and inform the guests that the party is ending. I am going to retreat to my chambers now" I told a guard. I hurried back to my room, sliding down the door as I closed it. What is wrong with me? It just felt so nice to be in his arms again. What am I going to do? Conceal it. Don't feel it. Don't let it show.

I somehow managed to fall asleep, my dreams filled of our memories together. My face felt wet and stiff. I sat up and brought my hand to my face just to feel tears coming down. I'm crying? Why? I feel so stressed. Why am I crying when my sister got married yesterday. I'm supposed to be happy. I really have to get it together. I got out of bed and put on a simple royal blue dress which I adorned with some frost. I looked in my mirror as I attempted to put my hair up. It proved to be of no use so I just kept it down and pinned it up. I looked up at my reflection. My eyes were red despite having slept. My face was tear streaked. I looked miserable. I washed my face hoping to fix my appearance. Okay Elsa, here we go. Just remember your mantra. Conceal, don't feel, don't let it show. I have to keep my powers under control.

I headed into the dining hall for breakfast where I sat beside Anna and Kristoff. "Good morning Elsa! How was last night?" Anna asked as she munched on her chocolate pastries. "It was… nice," I replied, trying not to think about my mistake from last night as I tasted a bit of my own pastry. Anna gazed at me silently, raising her eyebrow. "What?" I asked curiously. She leaned forward with wide eyes as if trying to reach into my soul with her gaze. I looked to her and then to Kristoff who simply shrugged. After about a minute, she finally sat back down. "There's something you're not telling me Elsa," Anna said as she stroked her chin in thought. Suddenly, Rapunzel and Eugene entered the room. "Good morning to the newlyweds… and Elsa" Rapunzel said as she sat down and began eating. "Good morning!" Anna and I chorused. "How does it feel to finally be husband and wife," Rapunzel said teasingly. "Oh it feels absolutely amazing!" Anna said as she began to ramble on about all of the new things she was excited to do now that they were married. I zoned out as Rapunzel and her conversed and watched as their husbands watched them with amusement on their faces.

As they conversed, Prince Jack and Princess Melody came in and sat beside Rapunzel and Eugene. My eyes lingered on Jack for a bit longer and the memory of our kiss and all that came afterward played in my mind. I felt tears begin to collect and I quickly shook my head to clear my mind. Conceal it, don't feel it. I scolded myself. Unfortunately, this did not go unnoticed by Anna as she once again looked at me with a gaze that seemed to pry into me. Suddenly she leaned over to me as Rapunzel was talking, "Don't think I didn't notice your zoning out and lingering looks," she said smugly. "Anna please just leave it," I said, trying to seem calm about everything. Anna huffed and leaned back. "Fine, but we're talking about this later. No more secrets remember," she said firmly. I simply nodded and watched as Jack and Melody conversed. Her smiling up at him the same way I used to… the same way I still do. And I know I am not looking forward to talking about this with Anna later.

Hey everyone, I know it has been a while since I last posted. I have been working on this story, but I am having problems figuring out how I want it to progress. Pretty much I have three ideas and I do not know if I want to do all three or cut it down. I am thinking about just doing 2 and maybe making the other idea into a new story since it is kind of just another idea that I was trying to incorporate into this story. Idk you tell me. So far I have an idea for one in the modern world, one in the spirit world, and then one with like a modern world with magic, so far I think I am going to do the last two, but if you think other wise or have any ideas please let me know.