A/N: Take your stupid names and stick them where the sun don't shine lol xx Alexis

Bruises and Broken Ribs

The family were being extra careful around me, if I got agitated then so did Squirt, this showed up as large bruises on my abdomen and though not life threatening they were pretty damn painful. Esme, Alice and Carlisle were going back to Forks to be there for the news of our deaths, Emmett, Rose and Jasper were staying with Edward and me, they were meant to be back east at college.

This was so I would have plenty of help when the time came and both Edward and Rose had medical training should anything go wrong or Squirt came early. The others would return, in the guise of shutting up the house here on the island and retrieving our stuff once the news broke. Then by the time, the inquiry was over and as there would be no bodies, the memorials would be taking place after the baby was born.

So hopefully by then, I would be either okay or a newborn vampire. Jasper's brother Peter and his wife Charlotte were coming here just before the others left, to help Edward if I was a newborn. So now that we had all our bases covered, it was just a matter of waiting for Squirt to make an appearance. Jasper and I had played a couple of games of chess, although he won he said I was at least a worthy opponent, unlike the others.

He was waiting for his brother to appear as they had an ongoing game running and it was at a crucial stage. I was starting to grow exponentially now, what should have taken weeks was happening in hours and we were down to the last week and a half.

The only good thing was my mood swings had levelled out and I was just grumpy all the time, grumpy and uncomfortable. The tight conditions for Squirt meant it's every movement now hurt to some degree. The last turn had actually broken a couple of my ribs. So I was on complete bed rest, for both our sakes. Edward was beside himself, unable to protect me was killing him.

He was now talking constantly with the baby, trying to reduce the stress for both of us and it was helping if he hadn't been a mind reader this would have been much worse for me. My blood intake had grown along with my size, my eyes were actually taking on a golden hue, around my brown irises. Edward had been collecting venom from himself to use for my change and we were as ready as we would ever be. Rose was my constant companion now, she kept me from going insane with boredom and I was eternally grateful, or I would be soon.

We really got to know each other much better, having real in-depth conversations and she was a godsend. Rose didn't flap or panic and was very level-headed, the perfect person to have with me. Especially when Carlisle called to say the news had broken in Forks of our accident. I was very emotional then and so sad that I'd had to do this, Edward was feeling guilty and blaming himself for me losing my parents. The only good thing about this was that Squirt had become quite subdued as if feeling my sadness as well.

We had never discussed names for the baby so to distract ourselves, everyone was making up the craziest ones they could think of. Some of Emmett's were so bad, I started throwing pillows, books and almost anything I could reach to make him stop. He was now joining names together

"How about 'Rosemm' or 'Alsper'?" he said,

"Or even 'Belward'?"

" Please stop Emmett that's terrible, next you'll be saying I should put your mother's and Renee's names together and get, eh, oh god 'Renesmee'"

I was laughing so hard now that I thought I'd wet myself, I shuffled to the edge of the bed towards Rose so she could help me to the loo when we all heard the pop!

"Ouch, damn that hurt, I think that's rib number three gone," I said,

shaking my head and was eased to my feet by Rose, as soon as I was done Edward was there to strap up this new injury.

"I didn't know that saying could really happen! See you learn something new every day"

I said on my return to the bedroom,

"What saying?" asked Jasper

" She laughed so hard, she bust a gut," I tell them.

They were laughing at me and shaking their heads.

"See even sayings have some basis in fact, they have to start somewhere," said Edward.

Emmett was not going to be distracted and he asked was that it then, was I calling the baby Renesmee?

I gave him a look that would have dropped a charging elephant at fifty paces,

"Not a hope in hell! I would never be that cruel to my little Squirt" I said emphatically.

"Edward how about, 'Elizabeth Marie' or 'Anthony Charles' Masen Cullen? How do they sound?" I quizzed,

"Perfect, Love and we can call her either 'Lizzie or Beth' or if it's the boy 'Tony'" he suggested,

so we were decided, everyone was nodding and smiling, happy with the choices. I was starting to want this to be over and done with and then realised how absolutely selfish I was, normal pregnant woman have to contend with nine months of this and I can't even cope with six weeks. I just needed to hang on in there it was almost over and I would have my precious little Squirt, in my arms and safe.

A couple of hours later Carlisle phoned again and said that they would be coming to the island by the end of the week, there was no hint of suspicion and the consensus was looking like 'Death by Misadventure'. This would be better I hoped, definitely good news for us and easier for people to accept.

Now it was time for the others to return and I'd get news of my family, Carlisle had also mentioned having a meeting with the pack Alpha, Sam Uley. It too had gone better than planned as he just wanted to know if the Cullens were leaving and would the ever return. He didn't ask if I was really dead, basically, he was going on the 'It can't hurt you if you don't know' system.

The only ones making any noise were, of course, the Blacks, but the council had ordered them to drop it and let things be, I had made my choice and died for the privilege. I hope they do, as hurting my father more and unnecessarily would be hardly the act of friendship. It would not bring me back, that boat had sailed and I could never return to Washington State as long as my father was alive.

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The Countdown Begins!

There was now just under a week to go in my pregnancy and both Squirt and I were getting anxious, Jasper and Edward spent the whole time keeping us calm and preparing us for the birth. It would be by caesarian section and would be less traumatic for Squirt, as I would most likely be changed straight after the birth, it was not really an issue for me.

Rose had spent the last couple of days waxing, plucking and manicuring me so I would be hair free and have great nails for eternity. The topic of feminine landscaping came up and I refused to have it all removed, I would rather just keep my usual neat and tidy below stairs do, thank you very much.

The others returned and were quite subdued, due to the outpouring of condolences from the people of Forks. Esme said

"We usually leave places, not die, so this was very different and I feel rather guilty! The well-wishers were kind and most were really genuine, sorry for our loss and talked of you both fondly. In a way, it's nice to know you made a positive impact, but so sad all the same"

Carlisle nodded agreeing with her. The memorial was to be held in six days time and everyone was going to have to go to that. Carlisle took Edward and me aside to tell us about my parents and how they were coping, Charlie was being stoic, but my mother was highly emotional, about the whole thing, this was not surprising of course, but to me, as that was their default outlooks on life.

But I knew given the time they would both cope with it, that's just the way they were. So I hoped the memorial would bring them a degree of closure. I woke during the night two days later, convinced I'd wet myself, I was embarrassed for a couple of minutes until it dawns on me what had really happened

"Shit! Edward my waters just broke, this is it!" I roared,

everyone moved into high gear as the bedroom was transformed into a delivery suite. The pain was immense, intense and like nothing, I had ever been prepared for. Dear god, why did women do this again? I didn't know my vocabulary was that broad, but I managed to incorporate a few swear words I didn't even know I knew.

Edward was at once totally calm and in control, I told him

"I'd kiss you, baby but you're never getting near my body again, ever!" He smiled,

"I know Love, it was all my fault and I promise to never let it happen again" smart ass,

of course, it won't I'll be a vampire and we'll have endless energy and no restraint will be needed, Ooh the possibilities!

"Okay maybe not never again, but not for the next couple of weeks!" I said and I could hear the others laughing in the next room.

Everything was going well, I was on a morphine drip and quite pain-free and totally high. The initial incision was made by Carlisle and then Edward had to break the hardened wall of my womb to release squirt, nothing gory or blood-curdling, he didn't have to rip me open with his teeth or anything dramatic like that. He sliced it open with his fingernail, like a knife through butter. Our beautiful baby daughter was born, my Elizabeth Marie.

Carlisle placed her on my chest and I felt her little heart beating against mine, it was faster than mine but constant and the most wonderful thing I had ever felt. The problem came when the placenta would not detach from me cleanly and allowed the baby's venom-filled blood back into my body, t

he burning started at once but it was not enough to change me quickly I heard Carlisle saying, Edward had to take the baby, kissing me on the forehead and returning with the syringe that would change me forever.

"I'm ready, Just do it, baby, I'll see you in three days," I said,

between little gasps as the pain increased. He leant down kissed me on the lips and then plunged the needle straight into my heart and this pain just blew childbirth right out of the ballpark. It was liquid fire rushing through my veins and I was convinced I would just burn to dust. Weirdly I knew what was happening around me and inside of me at the same time.

Then as if I'd flipped a switch, I could no longer feel the pain. Even though I knew it was still happening, I was free from it, well my mind was and I knew it was my shield, the one that kept Edward out was now cutting me off from the pain. I was never so glad that this was my gift, the ability to protect myself. I heard Edward ask

"Why has she suddenly gone quiet? Is everything okay? Carlisle?"

he was in full meltdown and I did the strangest thing, I reached out for his mind with mine and allowed him inside my shield and therefore me inside his head.

"I'm fine Edward, better than fine, my shield is blocking the pain baby, don't worry"

He was sobbing with relief and I could hear every thought and sense all his worries and anxieties, was this what it was like for him all the time when he hears others? Wow, so much information and extraneous idea's, how does he not go mad with it, occurring multiple times at the same moment? I start to speak to him quietly and gently, as he calms and realises what has taken place.

"Of course, you would come into my mind Love, anything to stop me getting into yours huh?" he said a little miffed.

"Where's the baby Edward, I don't want to miss anything while I'm changing?"

I want to know she's okay and see her through her father's mind so Esme brings her back to us and Edward climbs onto the bed with me to feed a now clean and adorable Elizabeth, I see everything he does and feel the overwhelming love he already feels for her. This is as close to her as I could get at present and I am happy with it for now, but desperate to hold her myself.

We carry on like this for the three days I lie immobile on the bed with my eyes shut, almost as if I were in a coma. I along with Edward am the first to see she has a gift too, as she shows us what happened when she was first born. Through her touch, she can relay almost like a video, everything that went on. We talk for hours like this, getting to know each other and bonding, having a three-way conversation inside Edward's head and he is overjoyed.

Peter and Charlotte arrive during my third day, ready to help Edward if I become a typical newborn, but none of us think I will. I pray they are right, I don't intend to miss my daughters first year, she's changing already and I wouldn't have seen it if I hadn't been connected to Edward's mind. The best bit about this was seeing just how he really felt about me and it was amazing, I will never doubt his love for me again.

The time for me to awaken was here and I was scared for the first time. I wanted to be able to be with my baby and husband, not insane with bloodlust. I was determined to be in control. I had to pull out of Edward's head as the pain was returning as my mind once more took control of my body. It was hard leaving him, we were used to being linked mentally and it was only the pain that made me sever the connection.

The women all took Elizabeth to the beach, just to be on the safe side, while I awoke for the first time and I was grateful to them, I didn't want to hurt her accidentally. As my heart stuttered to a stop, I felt the fire leave my body and it was so wonderful, I lay there enjoying the utter calm. But the time had come to open my eyes and when I did I quickly closed them again, everything was more, so much more than when I was human. I peered through my slitted lids, taking everything in and getting used to the new array of colour before me.

"Well she's certainly calm," said Jasper and I smiled, I reached to the side looking for Edward, but he was no longer in the bed with me and I pouted,

"What's wrong Love?" I heard from nearby my side.

"You weren't there!" I told him,

and he gently took my hand as I reached out for him once more. As I rose to my feet swiftly, I was shocked, I forgot I'd be fast. But as I turned to Edward I couldn't believe how little I'd really seen him as a human. He was spectacular, his gold eyes actually had a little green in them, the exact shade of our daughters.

"How do you feel Belly?" Emmett asked and I spun to see him,

"Holy Shit! you're huge and powerful looking Emmy!"

I laughed as my eyes slide towards a nervous Jasper and I realised why right away. His scars were so obvious and intimidating,

"Oh Jasper, so much pain you must have suffered, You really are an astounding man and you to Peter, you both look like you took on hell and won!" Peter laughed as Jasper relaxed,

now knowing I was not afraid of them, but showing compassion instead. Lastly, there stood Carlisle and he radiated goodness and faith it was almost tangible,

"Hello, Doctor Dad! I feel so good I don't think I'll be needing your services anymore" I laughed,

and he too relaxed and said,

"Well, if I can't be your Doctor anymore, can I just be you, father?"

I nodded and stepped into his open arms, for a fatherly hug that was most welcome.

"Well I don't think you'll be needing us much Edward," Peter told him but said they would stick around and have a holiday,

but at the other end of the island and come running if we needed them. So it was decided I was the calmest newborn they'd ever seen and in total control. The women were called back with Elizabeth and I took her gently into my arms and felt the most powerful wave of love surge through me. I had given up much to be here but had gained so much more.

Who knew what the future would bring, but with this family, as mad as it was around me I knew we would prevail, eternity might not be long enough!

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Disclaimer: Twilight and its characters belong to S. Meyer. Otherwise, the rest is my musings on an AU.