A/N: Sorry it's been so long between updates! My real life has gotten in the way of my writing, so I apologize. So far 2020 has not been very kind to my family.
Anyway, I finally made it to the last chapter. Be forewarned- it is kind of short but I think it ends perfectly. Let me know what you all think.
I Don't Know How
Part Six
"Let's dance," I grab Ryder's hand and lead him out into the living room, and weave through a crowd of people until I find an open spot. I spin around so my back is pressed up against his front, and begin to move my hips sensually to the music, determined to erase all memory of the kiss I almost shared with Beck earlier. He's not the only guy that can make me feel good.
Ryder suddenly tightens his grip on my hips and pulls me in even closer. "What are you playing at Jade?"
I lean my head back onto his shoulder and look him in the eyes. "Who said I'm playing anything?" I ask, and wiggle my ass against his groin.
I hear him groan and can literally feel his enthusiasm growing as I continue to rub my backside on him. This is what I want. Not Beck. Not a relationship. No feelings attached.
"God, you are so fucking hot Jade," Ryder whispers into my ear, and then he bites my neck. I can't help but moan at the contact.
"So I'm not a lost little puppy?" I ask, spinning around to face him, throwing my hands over his shoulders.
He pulls me into him. "Not even a little bit," he says, and then leans down and kisses me.
Suddenly Ryder is ripped away from me, and I see Beck's snarling face. "Get your hands off of her!" Beck shouts.
"What the hell Beck?" I scream at him, and watch in horror as his fist connects with Ryder's left eye.
Ryder takes hold of Beck by the collar and backs him up a few paces before slamming him into the wall. "What the fuck is your problem man?"
"Stop it!" I shout at both of them, and try to tug Ryder's strong arm away from Beck. "Ryder, just let it go," I plead with him. "Please." He looks into my eyes for a full minute, before letting go of Beck in disgust.
"You're lucky your ex still gives a shit about you," he says, turning away.
"What the fuck were you thinking Beck?" I hiss at him.
"I….I don't know. I just saw you two and-"
"And what? I'm supposed to be fine watching you flirt with every damn girl in the fucking room, but the second another guy shows any interest in me you have a problem with it? That's fucked up and you know it! You literally just got done talking about how we aren't together like fifteen minutes ago!" I'm so fucking pissed off I can barely see straight. Beck is the first one to point out how we aren't together anymore- how dare he act jealous the second he sees another guy touching me.
"I know! I just….I don't know how….." he trails off, looking at his shoes.
"Don't know how to what?" I ask, dipping my head and forcing him to look me in the eyes.
"I don't know how to just be your friend!" Beck practically yells, causing me to take a step back. "I don't know how I am supposed to be okay with seeing you with someone else. okay?"
I can't help but let a sarcastic laugh escape my lips. "Well you better fucking figure it out Beck. You're the one that forced this whole 'just friends' roll between us. You don't see me flipping out on every girl you've been hanging around since we broke up."
"That's different," he says, dismissing it with a wave of his hand.
"How the fuck is it different? Because it's finally me that someone's interested in for a change? Never thought that could happen, did you?" I ask.
"No-because it's Ryder Daniels!" he shouts angrily.
"So?"
"So he's trouble Jade," Beck says, reigning in his anger a bit. "And you know it."
"Maybe that's what I like about him," I tell him honestly, looking into his eyes.
"Don't forget about what he did to Tori," Beck says, putting a hand on my shoulder.
"Don't you ever fucking compare me to Vega again," I tell him, knocking his hand from me angrily. "And don't act like you give a shit about what happens to me."
"How can you say that?" Beck asks me, his eyes searching my face. "You know I care about what happens to you."
"Whatever Beck," I say, and turn away from him. "I am so not dealing with you anymore," I turn from him, but he grasps onto my hand.
"Jade, just be careful. Ryder likes to use people. I don't want to see you get hurt," he says sincerely.
"Well I like to use people too,," I tell him, wrenching my hand away from his. "That's the only reason I started dating you in the first place," I snarl at him. "Lord knows why I stayed with you for so long."
"I know you don't mean that," Beck says, looking into my eyes. The hurt expression on Beck's face almost makes me apologize, but the stubborn streak in me keeps my lips clamped shut.
"Looks like Ryder and I are a better match than you and me ever were," I tell him, narrowing my eyes. I know I said that last part just to hurt him, but I don't give a flying fuck about his feelings right now. How many times did I have to watch girls hanging all over him, hearing about his random dates, and he has the fucking audacity to act jealous of Ryder? Fuck that.
"Jade-"
"Look Beck, you are just going to have to get used to the fact that Ryder and I are dating," I tell him, "and if you ever touch him again, I'm not going to stop him from kicking your ass." I turn around and stalk away from Beck and walk into the kitchen and grab a Jack Daniels bottle and take a big swig of it.
"Jade, out of anyone you could mess around with- you have to pick Ryder? My ex-boyfriend!" Tori says, taking the bottle from me.
"Oh my god. Get the fuck over yourself Vega. Me kissing Ryder had absolutely NOTHING to do with you!" I can't help but yell at her. How fucking narcissistic does she have to be to think anything I do is because of her?
"Hey Jade, you ready to leave?" Ryder asks, leaning against the door frame.
"Hell yes!" I tell him, walking past Vega and lacing my fingers through his. "Let's get out of here."
Half an hour later I find myself half naked in the backseat of Ryder's car.
"Are you sure about this Jade?" Ryder asks me, as his hands hover over the button of my jeans.
I close my eyes and try to erase all the memories of the past few hours. I mentally erase the image of Beck from my mind. I'm over him, I tell myself and swallow hard. "Are you having second thoughts?" I ask him, arching my left eyebrow, silently praying he can't hear the indecision in my voice.
"Ha, not exactly," Ryder says, thrusting his still clothed erection into my thigh. "I just don't want you to do anything that you regret."
I slowly smile at him, while I slip the button free on his jeans. "I never regret anything I do," I tell him, and unzip his fly. "Now fuck me."
A/N: Please, please review and let me know what you think!