I sat there with my wife and oldest daughter waiting...waiting to see how our daughters test results came out. The doctor said by the bruise on her ribcage and all the symptoms he is guessing it is leukemia and that scared the hell out of me
Lack of sleep
Hot sweats
Cold
Fever above 100
Body pains
And those are just some of the symptoms. The thing is I just wish I could take it all away from her and take it on myself she does not deserve any of this she has already been through so much and she is only 16.
I was pulled from my thoughts by the opening and shutting of the door and him walking over and sitting behind his desk.
"How are you feeling Callie? "
"Oh you know like I just won the lottery"
I couldn't help but suppress a laugh that's my daughter she could be on her deathbed and still have a since of humor.
"So Callie I am afraid to tell you that it is in fact leukemia I am going to have you start going through chemo in a couple of weeks and I have written you the start of you're medications. "
I looked at Callie and it looked like the breath had been taken right out if her but I am pretty sure it had just been knocked out if me to. I reached my hand over resting it on her middle back
"Um here are here prescriptions and this is the address for our cancer clinic where j am going to be have DR Grayson be her doctor over there. I will call them to have then set you up an appointment and they can call you?"
"Uh yes yes of course" I said as I took the papers out if his hand and looked over at Lena who I know was on the verge of tears
"Ok so we will be in Touch and again Callie I am so sorry. "
He got up walking out and Lena and I just looked at one another
"Everything will be okay Callie I promise"/Lena said taking Callie's hand in hers
I took Callie's other hand " love look at me" Callie looked up at me with sad brown eyes
"My love we are going to get through this together. I promise you, mama and I are going to be by you're side this entire time we are not going anywhere.
She shook her head looking at me then laid her her head on my shoulder as I kissed the top of her head she moved herself closer to me
" hey cal how about me you and mom go grab a bite to eat?"
"I'm not really hungry" she mumbled
"We can always get something small"/I was looking down at her and she looked up at me. " can we go get pizza for dinner?"
I smiled at her "yes of course love" we all stood up and headed out to the car Lena grabbed my hand lacing our fingers together when we got out to the car Callie jumped in the back seat shutting the door and I was stopped by Lena
"Stef this is not fair" she looked at me j could see the tears welling up in her eyes and it made me want to cry just knowing she wanted to.
" no its not fair you're right Callie is an truly amazing girl and it makes me angry that she can't get a break. But we are going to do everything we can for her"
" we can't loose her, you can't loose her"
"And we won't. I promise" she nodded her head smiling at me weakly and I leaned in and kissed her deeply"
"I love you" I said placing my hand on her cheek caressing it
"I love you to stef, I love you so much"
I opened the door for her and waited for her to get in and j hoped In the other side getting in the car I looked back at. Cal who was just watching out the window so I put the car a drive and headed to the pizza place the kids liked best
"Stef" I looked back at Callie who was looking up at me.
"What's up love?. Are you okay? I kept watching her through the rear view mirror.
" I am sorry for everything "
"My sweet sweet love don't be sorry"
She nodded her head and looked back out the window as I felt Lena gently lay her hand on my leg and I sighed
(Flashback)
"Seriously baby I think we should go out for the weekend just some time just us. "
"Stef as good as that sounds we have 5/kids"
"That can take care of themselves they are all teenagers babe"
She smiled at me, I leaned over softly kissing her neck and she let out a slight moan I looked up at her kissing her deeply in the lips laying her back on our back climbing ontop of her never breaking the kiss...until I heard a knock on the door and a slight giggle escape Lena's lips and a climbed off of her straightening my shirt up
"Come in" I looked to the door and it was my slugger witch to me was very not normal because we always had to go to her...she is very stubborn...Lena claims she gets it from me.
"Hey baby what's up?"
Oh boy she is holding her stomach
"I don't feel so good Stef" she started coughing
"Ok baby come here "
She came over to me and I pressed my hand against her forehead "mm baby ur burning up"
I'll go grab the thermometer " I looked up at Lena "thanks love"
"Stef my stomach hurts I am so cold and my body hurts "
My heart broke I can't handle seeing any of my babies sick
"Here love*
" thank you babe"
I placed the thermometer on her head and not read 103
"Ok deffenetly no school tomorrow"
"But..."
"Not buts love "
"Callie mom is right you gotta stay home and rest"
"Can I stay in here with you tonight?"
"You get the middle" I smiled at Lena when she said that and Callie crawled in the middle snuggling herself under the blanket.
(End of flashback)
At first we thought it was the flue until days turned into weeks of fevers being sick a beyond scary cough the body aches...and that's how we got here where we are now. Sick with leukemia ...and there is nothing j can do to take it away and make her better.
"What you thinking about love?"
"Just wish I could make this all go away"
"Me to , on the other hand ain't she sure when she sleep"
"Oh beautiful I even like the added in snore"
Lena. Laughed at me as i pulled into the parking lot
"So pepperoni?"
"Maybe we should get cheese to just to be safe on her tummy."
"yeah we probably should. I'll go in and get it "
She leaned over kissing g my check before she headed in and I just sat there list in my own thoughts watching Callie as she slept.
"I am so sorry Love. Mommy loves you so much whatever you do don't give up this fight.
" I love you to and i won't "
I looked back at her and she was looking back at me with her eyes part may open. This is going to be a long battle but I am going to jump though every hoop possible to make her better again.