Summary: Because the past is better left in the past; because there is hope when everything seems hopeless; because love is love, and there is no why. Sometimes, it takes more than a promise to realize that love is not a burden, but a gift. [Miroku/Sango]
For Sakura. Now where's MY fic? XDXDXD
Experimenting with formatting and stuff. Elaborate and complicated is good. XD
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I think about the years I spent
Just passing through
I'd like to take the time I lost
And give it back to you.
But you just smile and take my hand.
You've been there, you understand,
it's all part of a grander plan
that is coming true.
-Broken
Road, Melodie Crittenden
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Broken Road
*****
He
never realized how much it could hurt to hope.
He stared at his hand as if
the dull sheen of the rosary would fade, the wood would disappear and he'd be
free without having to exert his own will.
He'd had hope stripped from
him once, and it had hurt far more than it should have.
If it were still there, he had
no idea what he would do. Live out the
rest of his days in peace, he supposed.
There was very little else available to him.
However, what if it wasn't
there? What would he do then?
"Houshi-sama?"
The tentative query jolted him
from his inner turmoil, and he smiled pleasantly at the girl before him, at his
answer. "Yes, Sango?"
"Are you…" her voice
faltered. "Are you okay?"
"I'm fine," he reassured her,
but his mind screamed at the lie. She
bit her lower lip and looked at his hand, and he took the opportunity to
examine her.
She was a mess. Her hair was half unbound, due to the
exertions of fighting, and sweat streaked her brow. Tearstains were obvious, and her eyes were rimmed with red. Her body also seemed to be on the verge of
collapse due to exhaustion. Not that,
he was sure, he looked any better, but he had suffered far less than her. After all, he hadn't lost a brother. However, she seemed to have come to a
resolution of sorts with it, as if they'd worked something out before his
death. Perhaps they had, but it wasn't
in his place to ask.
"Houshi-sama, your hand?"
He swallowed. "I don't know," he admitted. "I'm afraid what might be there."
She gently took the hand in
both of hers, unravelling the fingers from its fisted position. Her cheeks were tinted with colour as she
queried, "May I?" He closed his eyes
and nodded, wincing as the heavy, familiar weight disappeared from his hand.
Nothing happened.
His eyes flew open, and he was
surprised to see her smiling gently, depositing the wooden rosary onto the skin
of his right palm, and closing his fingers tightly over it.
"It's gone," she
whispered. "You're free."
Incredulity took hold of him
and finally, he laughed. The hard beads
dug into the soft skin of his palm, and he wondered at how such a simple thing
could give him such happiness.
It was over.
The seasons would now begin to
blur endlessly for him. He would no
longer have to count them as if his life depended on it.
"I…" tears choked him. She said nothing, but there was soft
comprehension, then surprise on her face as he pulled her into a fierce
embrace. "Thank you," he whispered
before releasing her. Her face was
crimson, but her eyes held a little more life, a little more hope in them than
they had before.
"You're welcome," she answered
softly.
Time, he realized, had no hold
over him anymore.
*****
"I'm
going home," Sango calmly said. Miroku
raised an eyebrow. "It's past time,"
the taijiya clarified. Her smile was
almost…sad. "Besides, there's no reason
for me to stay here anymore."
"I suppose not," the monk
replied. He hesitated. Then, "Inuyasha and Kagome-sama won't be
returning for a while." The well had to
be sealed. At least, until the Shikon
no Tama was purified or had disappeared entirely from the world. No matter what time period, it would never
be safe.
"I'm going to miss her," she
commented wistfully. "And Inuyasha as
well. He was handy to have around in a
fight."
He chuckled a little at
that. "That much is true. He was amusing as well."
"I concur," she said wryly
before giggling. "We had some good
times, didn't we?"
"We did."
There was a moment of awkward
silence before she ventured to break it.
"I want to rebuild the village, so I won't be able to return. At least, not for a while." Her eyes held a faraway look as she added,
"and I want to bury Kohaku's remains with everyone else's."
The last syllable lingered in
the air, as if it were waiting expectantly.
However, there wasn't anything Miroku could say to that, and after a
brief moment, she shook herself out of her reverie.
"I'm going alone," she
continued. "Shippou's going back home
to the mountains, and I sent Kirara with him.
He needs her protection far more than I do. She'll join up with us in the village." He blinked a little at this.
Even if Sango was more than capable of taking care of herself, it was
still dangerous. He said as much
aloud. She shrugged noncommittally.
"I'm used to travelling by
myself. I used to do it all the time."
"I see," he murmured. The tension was palpable between them until
finally, "Would you like company?"
She paused for a moment. A faint blush stained her cheeks, and her
lips curved in a minute smile. "I think
I'd like that."
*****
"If I may speak to the owner of this
fine establishment," Miroku said, plastering a pleasant smile on his face. Sango sighed and rolled her eyes
inwardly. Not that she was complaining
about the good food and clean bedding, but the monk hadn't an honest bone in
his body. "I believe that you may be
harbouring some evil spirits unknowingly," he continued, blithely unaware of
her uncharitable thoughts.
"Certainly," one of the guards
said, before summoning a nearby servant to fetch the master. "He'll be here in a moment."
They stood outside the gates
politely. Sango watched almost
bemusedly as Miroku chatted with the guards, and the lord of the home when he
arrived. Finally, he finished by
placing an ofuda upon the gates.
Obviously grateful, the lord offered them a night's worth of
accommodation, which the monk accepted with practiced grace.
"Do you ever tire of this?"
Sango asked when they were readying themselves for bed that night.
"Tire of what?"
"This," she replied, gesturing
all around her. "Lying and
cheating. Is it really necessary?"
He shrugged. "I suppose not," he admitted. "But I've been doing this for so long that
it's become a habit."
"We could just sleep
outside, you know," she reminded him gently.
"I don't mind, as long as the weather's good."
"Why should we when we don't
have to?" he answered philosophically.
"Besides," he said, leering suggestively at her, "the wilds aren't as
comfortable for s—"
She slapped his hand away from
her bottom almost absent-mindedly.
"Don't even think about it, Houshi-sama," she reprimanded, her cheeks
flushing at the thought. He pouted
outrageously, but his gaze was dangerously intent. "We should be there in two or three days, depending on the
weather," she continued, studiously ignoring him.
"Sango…"
"Maybe even four days if
there's rain…"
"Sango…"
"But otherwise, I expect that
we'll run into lit—"
"Sango, look at me," Miroku
said firmly, taking her hand in one of his and drawing her gently towards
him. His eyes were serious, the flecks
of lavender mixing hazily with the gold of candlelight.
"Y-yes Houshi-sama?" she
stammered, aware that her cheeks were burning treacherously.
His face drifted closer to
hers, inching so slowly that it could have been her imagination. "Sango…" he whispered. "I—"
"Youkai!" a guard shouted
outside, interrupting them.
Startled, they moved away from
one another, the moment broken. There
were a few minutes of silence before Miroku cleared his throat.
"I suppose I better go see
what kind of youkai it is," he said, picking up his shakujou. Sango nodded mutely, and he left, sliding the
door shut gently behind him.
There was no rest for the
weary, the girl thought as she pulled on her fighting garb resignedly. Not even for them.
*****
He had to remind himself repeatedly
that he no longer had the Air Rip to depend on, that he couldn't just suck this
monstrous apparition into the palm of his hand. He hadn't realized how much he had come to depend on it, how much
that dangerous void had been a part of him until he could no longer depend on
it. It had saved his life many times,
he realized with no little degree of irony.
Evade, feint, jump. He was getting sloppy, he ruefully thought
as he barely avoided a swipe at his head.
It was only a low-level tiger youkai; he shouldn't be having this much
trouble with it.
"Houshi-sama, duck!" he heard
a familiar, beloved voice order calmly.
"Hiraikotsu!"
He heard the guards whistle as
the boomerang sliced through the youkai's forearms and moments later, through
the body.
"Did you see that?" one guard
asked another.
"That was incredible! I wonder what that boomerang is made out
of…"
"And a woman! I wouldn't mind someone like her…"
He seethed inwardly at the
comments. His envy only heightened when
he saw a startled blush tint her cheeks, proving that she had heard the
comments. She also did not seem
displeased by them. He clenched his
teeth.
He turned his head slightly so
he would not have to witness the spectacle, slowly levering himself to his
feet. The rings of his shakujou clanged
in a discordant, jarring sound, and from the corner of his eye, he spied a
movement from the carcass of the youkai.
"Sango, look out!" he cried,
moving with all of his speed. Cradling
her close to him, he grimaced in pain as lines of fire ran down his right
shoulder and arm. He really was sloppy
if he couldn't avoid that, he thought, somewhat annoyed.
"Houshi-sama, are you all
right?" she asked, touching his arm concernedly, and gasping when she felt
blood. He clutched her even more
tightly to him, afraid to let her go.
He adored her, he adored her, he
adored her. He never wanted to let her
go.
When had this happened?
To me you are a special
girl…
A fragment of laughter, the
whisper of tears. A promise made long
ago.
"I'm fine," he reassured her,
letting himself treasure this moment of closeness with her. Then, out of habit, he allowed his hand to
trail dangerously close to he—
"I was just trying to see
whether you suffered from any physical injuries or not!" he whined moments
later, as she untangled herself from his arms.
A prominent hand mark marred his cheek, and the guards were having
difficulty stifling their chuckles.
"Thank you," she said dryly,
her eyes narrowed angrily. "I'm fine."
He felt the corners of his
mouth lift in an irrepressible smile.
His special girl was safe, and
for the moment that was all that mattered.
*****
"Does
this hurt?" Sango asked quietly, dabbing the wound gently. He winced, and then shook his head.
"It's fine," he said, and then
smiled gratefully at her. "Thank you."
She returned the smile briefly
before she began bandaging his arm. The
roll of strange cloths that Kagome had brought from her time worked
extraordinarily well as bandages, and she was careful to use as little as
possible. They both knew that Kagome
wouldn't return soon, and that they had to conserve the medicines that she had
brought with her.
They would have to delay their
journey, she knew. The lord had offered
his home to them for another day, and Sango had accepted gratefully, knowing
that the monk wouldn't have. This was
her fault. If she hadn't been so
careless, Miroku wouldn't have gotten hurt.
"I'm finished," announced
Sango, tying the last knot on the bandage as tightly as she could. Surprising both of them, she leaned her head
lightly against his swathed shoulder, her eyes shut tightly.
"What is it, Sango?"
"Promise me," she whispered,
"that you'll never do that again."
"Do what?"
"That you'll never take
another blow for me," she answered, fighting back tears. She swallowed. "You wouldn't have gotten hurt if it weren't for me."
"Sango, it wasn't your fau—"
"Promise me," she continued
relentlessly. "Please. I can't lose someone else," she whispered,
choking back her sobs as best as she could.
"It would kill me."
"Sango…"
"Promise me," she choked
out. "Promise that you won't do that
again." His shoulder was so solid and
comforting, even partially covered with bandages.
Using his free hand, Miroku
managed to tilt the taijiya's head to face his. "I can't promise that," he said gently, his hand sliding from her
chin to cup her cheek, "because I'll always take the blow for you when I can."
"Why?" Her hand rose to cup
his out of its own volition. "Why would
you do that for me?"
"Because I'd rather have you
live for me than die for me," he answered simply, leaning his forehead onto
hers. "I'd rather die knowing that a
special girl to me is alive and well than live and see you hurt."
Her eyes grew wide as he said
this. His hand turned to grasp hers and
pull it away from her face.
"Sango, I promise to always
protect you," he said softly, warm breath brushing her face. She closed her eyes and let tears slip down
her cheek.
Thank you," she said softly.
*****
"Sango,
why aren't you talking to me?" the monk nearly whined, pouting
outrageously. "Are you mad at me?"
The taijiya neatly ignored
him, fanning the flames of the fire with practiced ease. Frowning worriedly, she placed a couple
pieces of wood on the blaze carefully, and nodded to herself when she was
satisfied.
"Can you at least tell me why
you're mad?"
They definitely had to find
another source of water soon, she thought as she glanced at the bottles of
water.
"Sango?"
Humming almost
absent-mindedly, she untied her hair, and rummaged in her travel bag for the
strange brush that Kagome had given her, her back pointedly facing the
monk. It felt soothing to comb out her
tresses after a long day of travelling.
She felt a familiar squeezing
on her bottom. Turning rapidly, eyes
narrowed and cheeks red, her hand reached automatically, only to have it caught
in a firm, unrelenting grip.
"Let go of me," she
hissed. "How dare yo—"
"At least you're talking to me
now," he commented almost smugly. She
tried to wrench her hand from his grasp, but to no avail.
"Now," he remarked placidly,
"why are you mad at me?" She glared at
him fiercely, but he merely smiled sweetly.
Letting out an annoyed breath,
Sango relented minutely. "It's because
you're a pervert. Now may I have my
hand back please?"
"As I recall, you like me
as a pervert," he said, leering suggestively at her. His thumb grazed her palm, and she was horrified to find herself
flushing. Turning her head away, she
sniffed, closing her eyes to indicate that she wasn't going to say
anymore. Laughing, he released her
hand, only to run his fingers through her hair, startling her.
"I like your hair," he said
conversationally, tugging the brush from her fingers. He started to run it through her locks gently, and she was
annoyed at herself for enjoying the sensation.
"It's so fine and smooth," he continued when he reached a particularly
nasty knot.
She sighed and relaxed
reluctantly. He was very good at this,
she admitted privately, closing her eyes.
It felt almost sinfully good to have someone else tend to her like this.
"Are you mad at me because I was
flirting with the lady yesterday? Or
that I haven't groped you since?"
"Both!" the answer flew out of
her before she could restrain herself.
He stopped what he was doing, and she could sense that he was
startled. Horrified, she flushed.
"Really?"
"No."
He laughed. "You're a bad liar." His fingers ran experimentally down her
spine through the length of her hair.
"You're jealous."
She glared at him over her
shoulder, trying to ignore the shivers that he was eliciting from her. "Am not!" she protested vehemently, crossing
her arms defensively.
"Oh really?"
Before she could reply, he
dropped the brush and pulled her close to him with almost frightening
speed. Sango's cheeks burned when she
realized that she was being propped against a solid wall of Miroku, and she
made a half-hearted attempt to free herself.
His hands skimmed the length of her arms, and she had to firmly repress
another set of shudders.
"You're beautiful you know,"
he said conversationally, causing even more blood to flood to her face. "You've got a narrow waist, and rounded
hips. And," he added mischievously,
"such magnificent breasts." As if to
prove his point, his left hand squeezed the said part twice.
She growled and elbowed him none-too-gently in the stomach. He wheezed and released her to clutch at his
abdomen. She turned to face him, her
eyes narrowed dangerously.
"Serves you right, you damned
monk."
"You do me wrong," he mourned,
gazing at her through his eyelashes.
"All I did was speak the truth!
And have I ever told you that your butt is ripe and lush, just perfect
fo—owww, Sango, stop hitting me please! I need to use that hand again
someday…okay I can't breat—ow! I didn't
mean it like that! What did I do to
deserve this treatment from you? All
I've done is admire your more salient attributes! Okay, choking me isn't goin—urk…Oh, and by the way, I love you
and I can't live without you?"
Stunned, the taijiya halted
her abuse, making Miroku topple onto the ground with a wince-inducing
thump. Uncomfortable silence stretched
between them. Nervously, she picked up
the brush and put it back in the travelling bag, aware of the heinous flush in
her cheeks. Miroku seemed to be trying
his best to not look at her, and for all intents and purposes that
seemed best.
The fire crackled in a
cheerful irony.
There was a sort of impossibly
tense atmosphere, until finally, Sango ventured a tentative, "Houshi-sama?"
just as he nervously said, "Sango…"
Their eyes met, and
embarrassed yet again, they turned their heads away.
"I'm sorry," he murmured after
a pregnant pause. Tears filled her
eyes, but she clamped them down with considerable force. She swallowed.
"There's
nothing to be sorry about," she answered, just as quietly. "You've already told otherwise before. I'm sorry for being jealous."
Miroku stared at her in shock,
realizing that she was valiantly trying to fight tears. "Sango…"
"You don't have to bother,
Houshi-sama." She stood up resolutely,
her figure straight in the firelight.
"I'm going to gather more wood."
"Please stay. I'm not finished," he said, his voice
gaining confidence as if he had come to a sort of conclusion. She took a deep shuddering breath. "I was apologizing for yesterday," he
continued, when she made no movement.
"I never intended to hurt you."
"I already sai—"
"Let me finish," he
interrupted uncharacteristically, levering himself to his feet. "When I had the Kazaana, I couldn't love
anyone, not even someone as special as you.
I asked you whether or not you'd stay with me, have my children when it
was all over, and you said yes.
"But things are different
now." He let out an explosive whoosh of
air before plunging on bravely. "Sango,
are you still willing to have my children?
And more importantly, is the girl that I hold and treasure so dearly
willing to spend her life with me?"
Her eyes widened in shock and
tears ran down her cheeks. Her head
swivelled to face him, and he was taken aback by the pure well of emotion in
her expression, so much that he nearly did not hear her answer.
"I…I am."
*****
They
made love for the first time beneath a moonless summer night.
It was amazing what a
confession of love could do, but sometimes, that was all it took. The simplest words could create the most
beautiful moments. Or so it should have
been.
It was his first time as well
as hers, and consequently, while he fumbled his way towards ecstasy, she was
left on the brink of desire. She'd said
nothing, but he could see it in the shady disappointment of her eyes that she
tried to hide behind the flush of her skin.
It made him love her more for it, and the realization of that love
warmed him once again. He drew her
close to him, skin against skin beside the dying light of the fire.
"I'm sorry," he said
finally. He felt her shake her head.
"There's no need," she said
finally.
He closed his eyes against the
surge of guilt and emotion that threatened to engulf him. "This wouldn't have happened if I wasn't so
selfish."
"It's not your fault,
Houshi-sama," she said quietly, levering herself on her elbow to look at
him. "It was probably my fault. After all, I've no experience in these
things."
"I don't either," he admitted,
running his hand experimentally along the length of her arm. She raised a disbelieving eyebrow at
him. "I couldn't risk it," he
explained. His hand had extended its
exploration from her arm to her waist and hips now. "I didn't want to have a child with someone I couldn't love."
"Oh," she said. Her face took on a peculiar expression. "Houshi-sama, where do you think you're
putting your hand?"
He chuckled, but didn't remove
the offending appendage. "And you're
complaining?" he asked, leering at her.
He was surprised when she blushed and looked away.
"No," she answered
quietly. "Not this time."
*****
Death,
more often than not, is a catalyst for sorrow.
Even now, it was all she could
do to choke back tears as she knelt and laid quiet, yellow flowers on the
graves of her family and friends.
Miroku made a respectful obeisance and blessing to the dead, and
withdrew quietly. She felt a pang at
his absence, but he was right in doing so; he was not part of her past, but of
her future. She closed her eyes and
prayed silently for a few moments.
"Chichiue, everyone, I'm
home." Her quiet voice broke the silence
of the waiting mounds. "Sorry for
keeping you waiting for so long. I
brought Kohaku back with me so his spirit could rest alongside yours." Breathing deeply, the taijiya struggled for
a moment. "We've avenged you. You can move on peacefully to your next
lives.
Memories slipped over her like
water, drawing her into its depths. Of
laughter and song, learning and play.
Of family and friends, whose lives ended far too soon. Of fire and grief, and the deep, merciful
darkness of vengeance, and the friendship that barely managed to bring her
back.
But then, while there are
always second chances, they always come with a twist. This time, she found love.
"Chichiue, you'd like him," she said at the thought. "He's a bit of a pervert, is a liar, and cheats
people out of their possessions. He's
only like that because he thought he was going to die, but now…" a smile played
at the edges of her lips. "He has a
good heart. I wish you could have met
him." A tear trailed down her cheek just as a familiar mew edged at her
consciousness, and surprised, she opened her eyes.
Her heart leapt. Kirara was sitting beside her on the grass,
and was clearly waiting for her to notice.
It was obvious that the she had been waiting for Sango to notice her for
some time, but she didn't hold that against her mistress. Laughing, the taijiya hugged her neck,
missing the familiar weight and warmth, recalling moments when she watched
Kohaku hold the gentle youkai in his arms.
As if the simple action has
triggered something, more tears fell until suddenly, she found herself laughing
and crying in Kirara's fur.
She wept for the loss of her
family and brother. For Kagome and
Inuyasha, whose love finally could grow in peace. For Shippou, who was denied his family far too young because of
the Shikon shards, but managed to grow up anyways. For Kikyou, whose sacrifice gave them all a chance. For Sesshoumaru, who covertly helped them
even if he would always deny it. For
Miroku, who managed to avenge his ancestors, and most of all, for herself. For her pains, her aches and grief. For the lost of her youth and innocence, the
heavy burden that had been placed unwillingly upon her shoulders, and mostly,
she mourned for what might have been.
The sun shone its light of
blessing gently onto her as she finally permitted herself to heal.
Sorrow, more often than not,
is a catalyst for tears.
Finally, exhausted, she had to
stop. Raising her head slightly from
Kirara's damp fur, she was shocked to find it nearing the end of the day. Rising to her feet somewhat awkwardly, she
winced when her bones shifted and cracked audibly. Kirara transformed into her kitten form and scampered agilely
onto her mistress' shoulder.
Feeling somewhat serene, she
walked towards the light of her home.
Miroku had clearly taken a few liberties, but she didn't mind so
much. After all, they were to be
married soon.
Her cheeks burned at the
thought. Marriage. Her father had never pushed it on her as
previously, she had shown no interest on the subject, and the males of the
village had never regarded her as a female as she was far stronger than most of
them.
In a strange way, she thought
with a certain degree of cynicism, it was as if Fate was trying to make up for
giving her such a hard time. If she
hadn't been forced to change so drastically, hadn't been made to take up the
burden of vengeance, she would never have known Miroku, known what it was like
to fall in love.
If she had been asked whether
she would take her current life over her past, she wouldn't be able to answer
honestly. However, seeing that it was
unlikely that she'd ever have to face such a choice, she could live and learn
to be content.
True love, after all, is not a
burden, but a gift.
*****
The brush moved
skilfully over her hair, and she sighed, closing her eyes and tilting her head
slightly back.
It
had become a nightly tradition for him to comb her hair before they made for
bed. He liked the feel of her locks
through his fingers, and she enjoyed having someone else tend to her for a
change. Kirara drowsed by the hearth,
tired after a few days of hard travelling.
Apparently, Shippou's home had been difficult to find, even for the
kitsune.
"Are
you feeling any better?" Miroku asked.
"Mm." The non-committal answer was unlike her.
There
were a few more moments of silence, broken only by the steady sound of brush
against hair. Then, "What are you
thinking about?"
Her hesitation lasted long
enough to make him put the brush aside and move so he could look her in the
eye. "Sango," he said quietly, "you
know you can trust me."
"I
know," she answered softly. "It's
just…I was thinking that Chichiue would have liked to meet you."
"Ah." For once, he was at a loss for words. She looked at her lap, her hands entwined
rather nervously. "Tell me about him,"
he finally said, his tone was gentle.
Her
words were hesitant at first, but as she gained confidence, they became fervent
and rushed. She talked about her
father, how he seemed so distant and cool at times, and at others, so
loving. She told him a story about her
father, a bottle of sake and the Tanabata festival amidst irrepressible giggles
and fond smiles. From there, she began
to describe other people of her village, her relatives and friends, her eyes
sparkling as she gesticulated wildly.
There were times when she faltered, and he'd wait patiently until she
managed to regain control of herself and start anew.
Finally,
when the fire had burnt to mere embers, she had exhausted her repertoire. By this time, she was leaning against his
chest, his arms wrapped loosely around her, and a light blanket tucked around
them snugly.
"Thank
you," he said, when her voice had died away with the fire, "for sharing that
with me."
She
felt her cheeks burn, and hastily ducked her head so he wouldn't see. "There's no one else I'd rather share them
with." Her voice took on a wistful
note. "I do wish everyone was still
alive."
"But
then, you wouldn't have met me," he pointed out logically, sounding almost
hurt. She drew back slightly to look at
him, and rolled her eyes slightly at the ridiculous leer he was sporting,
absentmindedly grabbing his hand before he could grope her. She was learning to read and prevent his
licentious intentions, much to his chagrin.
"You
idiot," she chided affectionately, bravely twining her fingers with his. "You were coming to find out about the
Shikon no Tama. Of course I would."
"But
then you might not have fallen for my irresistible charms then," he teased,
bending his head slightly towards hers.
"Then
that would mean your charms weren't irresistible," she said, somewhat dryly.
"Ah,
but they are," he answered with proprietary air. "After all, you got caught with them." She narrowed her eyes at him, only slightly flustered by his
proximity.
"You
vain monk! What makes you thi—"
He interrupted her words with
a kiss, and after a few moments, she relented with willing passion. When he finally broke contact, he whispered,
"I love you."
"Why?" The question hung between them, a tangible
thing.
"Because love is love," he answered simply. "Because you're Sango, and because I'm
Miroku and it's easy to love you.
Because now, all Miroku knows is to love Sango. There is no why. It just is."
"So you're saying love isn't
reasonable."
"Very little is, Sango."
She laughed a little at
that. "That would explain why I love
you myself."
He opened his mouth to reply
to that, but then she kissed him, which led to a different kind of
conversation, and another chance to make things right.
Fate can screw up sometimes,
but it rarely does the second time around, especially when it comes to matters
of love.
*****
Notes: (big long ones)
Yukata – a light, informal type of kimono. Kimono didn't actually start showing up until the 18th century (which is waaay past the Sengoku Jidai), and until then, yukata were worn. They still are, and are infinitely more comfortable and easy to move in. (Fighting in a kimono would be nigh impossible, thank you very much.) I'm aware of the linguistic root of kimono, and what its literal meaning is, but technically, "kimono" wasn't really referred to as a garment until actual kimono came out.
Chichiue – a formal, archaic form of addressing one's father. Sango uses this.
"Move on to your next lives." I'm assuming here that Sango is at least fearful enough to have a religion, and in ancient Japan, that would be a sect of Buddhism, and if I'm correct, would lead to reincarnation and nirvana et al.
Tanabata – if I remember correctly, it's an archaic Japanese festival used to celebrate love, during the summer.
Written for Sakura, who still owes me MiroSan. *stares*
Bleh bleh and bleh. This did not come out the way I'd intended for it to. I wanted to explore a few dimensions of their relationship, mostly the physical and the metaphysical. There's a lot left unsaid in the series, and personally, I think Takahashi is going to cop out again when it comes to these two. Miroku doesn't really need a resolution as much as Sango does, so the fic is mostly from her POV.
Originally, this was supposed to be a series of mini-vignettes, one leading after another, hence the disjointed and fragmented feel. My reason for getting rid of Kirara was probably contrived as hell, but ignore that please? There are some scenes from this fic that I'm pleased with, and some others that I'm not, but I think it could scrape by as decent. *squints* Sa-chan, my apologies for not writing something better, but well…this is the best I could come up with.
Acknowledgements:
The, " …And I love you and can't
live without you?" is from Kit.
The "love is love…" line came from Absolut Angel and, "love isn't
reasonable" from her Inu fic, "Scarlet," which is wonderful to the
extremes. Ilana also provided the title
song for the fic, AND she even made me a Miroku/Sango video AND gave me the
summary for the fic. 3 3 3
Flamebyrd gave me the, "…I wish they were still alive" section.
Kaichou, Netchama, Lizlet, daisuki yo~!
Absolut Angel: he would
probably say he doesn't know, because love is love and there is no WHY. Because she's Sango, and he's Miroku, and he
hasn't known anything else but love for her.
Because it's easy. To love her.
Absolut Angel: XD
Silverlight: ...
Silverlight: Ilana, I looooove you.
Absolut Angel: XD
Absolut Angel: Aren't I poetic?
Absolut Angel: lol
Silverlight: very. XD
Go read Scarlet. And Melody of Time. And if you don't, I'll be mean and kick you. XD
