A/N: So, I have been trying to get the muses talking on my current stories…silence is all I heard, not even crickets. I ran with the thought process of just write and taunt the muses into talking. Only thing I managed to do is get two more muses. This Sam muse and a Paul muse. I'll be posting that one soon too. This is new for me as I've always had Bella with Jasper, so this has taken me in an entirely different direction…one I'm not unhappy about going. So, I will tell you that this is a Sam/Bella pairing and I am having a bit too much fun tossing the sand around in this sandbox and making a mess. Now that I've explained a bit, I'll let y'all read the first offering of Destine to Be and await your thoughts. Enjoy…

I ran. I couldn't take it anymore. There were too many painful memories. So, I ran, until I couldn't run anymore…

All I could feel was pain. At first, I thought I had been bitten somehow and I was changing, but this pain wasn't like the pain from James' bite. I didn't feel like I was burning from the inside out. This was more like I had a really bad case of the flu, just without the nausea. I was tired and just wanted to sleep, but the pain was keeping me awake. I wasn't sure where I was or how long I had been there; I just knew that I wanted whatever was causing the pain to stop. Instead it only seemed to get worse.

After what seemed like days, I sensed someone near me. I couldn't open my eyes, but I knew they were there. A faint noise from across the room had me holding my breath, trying to figure out who was there.

"I mean you no harm, child." A kind voice said next to me moments later. "I have been waiting a long time for you to visit me."

Who was this woman? I felt like I could trust her so maybe she was family or a family friend that I didn't remember in this pained state.

"I know you are confused and I will try to explain what I can now." A damp cloth was gently brushed across my forehead. "I know you are aware of your surroundings and that you can't sleep. I also know about the pain you are experiencing right now and for that I am sorry. Legends can be a real bear sometimes, I should know."

I listened to her chuckle like she had made some kind of a joke. The more I thought about it, the more confused I became as I knew for a fact that I didn't know this woman and yet I felt like I should.

"My name is Annie and my son will want to speak with you when you are through this phase. It was a good thing that he had his boys patrolling that night." Annie sighed. "They found you passed out in a snow bank, no clue how you got there, but they brought you here to me to tend to. I am like the mother figure of this village and I take care of everyone here. You are now under my wing, child, and I promise that I will do whatever I can to help you. Although, I think my son will be of more help in the long run."

I wracked my brain but couldn't think of anyone named Annie that I would know. And snow? It wasn't snowing in Washington when I left. I also don't remember it snowing in Canada or at least the part of Canada that I remember. So, where the hell did I end up?

"I know you are confused, Aylen, but I promise all will be explained." Annie paused at the sound of a knock on the door. "Yes?"

The door opened, and I heard someone enter the room.

"I just wanted to check on our guest." A deep masculine voice spoke from the foot of the bed.

"Our Aylen is doing as well as can be expected." Annie responded. "She is in immense pain and yet does not make a sound. I was just speaking to her about who I am and where she is. I imagine that she will be able to sleep soon. Then we will have a bonfire to welcome her and explain all that is happening. She will need you the most, my son."

I was still thinking over their odd exchange when I felt the pain I was in starting to ebb slightly. I still didn't want to move for fear of the pain coming back. I took a deep breath and let it out; then I waited. It seemed like I had been in pain for so long that I wasn't sure how to deal with the lack of it. The name, Aylen, kept running through my mind and it felt like it meant something to me. I wasn't sure what it was, but I just knew that it felt right.

"My child." Annie called as she entered the room again. "I can sense that your time of needing me is coming to a close. Are you able to talk yet?"

Turning my head in her direction, I tried to open my eyes and they started to open and then the light hit my eyes. Swallowing, I tried speaking. "Light…hurts."

"I know dear." Annie moved closer with a glass of water. "Here, sip some water, that might help as I would expect your throat to be sore from disuse."

I gratefully sipped at the water and almost moaned as the cool liquid coated my throat. "How long?"

Annie sighed as she placed the glass on the bedside table. "That is a good question. You were unconscious when they brought you to me and we are unsure how long you had been outside before they found you. I can tell you that you have been here in my home for just over a month. You spent most of that time unconscious."

A month? I thought to myself. How did I lose a month? Come to think of it, how did I end up in a snow bank and not in my truck? Wait… "What day is it?"

"Day? Oh…" Anny looked at the wall behind her. "It's September 10th."

"Oh…impossible." There is no way that it was three days from my birthday. If she was telling me the truth, then that meant I had lost almost two months. There is no way that I could have survived out in the snow for almost a month. What happened during that time?

"Aylen, I know you are needing to rest so I will leave you alone for now. I imagine this will be all over in the next few days." Annie smiled at me as she moved out of the room.

I wanted to ask her what was going on, why she kept calling me Aylen and truly where the hell I was. As I opened my mouth, a yawn escaped, and I could no longer keep my eyes open. Seeing as how the pain had receded enough for me to sleep, I decided to take advantage of the quiet. Closing my eyes, I was asleep within minutes.

I don't know how long I was asleep, but I could feel hands holding me down. The pain I felt had me wishing that I could go back to sleep just so that I wouldn't feel this pain anymore. At first, I couldn't understand why they were holding me down until I felt the spasms hit my limbs.

"Aylen, can you hear me?"

I heard Annie calling to me, but I couldn't speak. I had my jaw clenched so tightly to keep from screaming that I refused to do anything other than nod.

"Aylen, it is time. I am sorry that you must go through this, but it must happen. My son is here, and he will be the one to help you through this." Annie placed her hand on my forehead as she spoke, and I felt a fire race through my body.

The pain increased and with it the spasms. If this kept going I wouldn't be able to contain the screams much longer.

"Get her outside, my son. It will be only moments until this is over."

"I will take care of her." Arms tightened around me as I felt myself being lifted. "Don't worry, Naku, this will be over soon."

I tried to focus on his words as I felt myself being carried out of the house and into the cold air. Not sure how far he walked, it surprised me when I felt myself being lowered to the ground.

"Now, the only way to stop the pain is to think of something that makes you angry. Anger is the emotion that you need to trigger the final step to end this." A deep masculine voice spoke from my right. "I will be right here with you, just focus on becoming angry."

Angry? Why would I need to be angry? It's not like I was going to turn into a big green monster. Wouldn't that be something? If that did happen it would make dealing with my problems that much easier. Even if that was the case, it would still ensure that I wasn't normal. I haven't been normal since I met the Cullens and then the damn wolves of La Push. Well, maybe not all the wolves, just one. I still bear the marks he gave me when I denied his claim on me. What gave him the right?

Just thinking about him got the desired reaction, anger, white hot anger. The more I thought about him, the angrier I got, and the pain began to increase as well. I had thought that the pain from James' bite was bad, there was no comparison. I almost wish I could trade pains, but there was no way that I would ever want to become a vampire at this point. My life was ruined by vampires and I just wanted them all to die.

With a scream the pain tore through my body on a wave a fire and I felt my body begin to spasm again. I tried to control my body, but the pain was all consuming. I couldn't fight it any longer. I gave into the anger and the pain. Letting out another pain filled scream, I felt myself explode.

As the pain receded, I felt my body fall back under my control. The fire calmed down to a simmer and heaving a sigh, I finally opened my eyes. What I saw had me backing up and landing on my ass.

'Aylen, calm down.'

I looked around me trying to find where the voice had come from. I saw no one near me and yet, I wasn't alone. Looking in front of me again, I saw a giant polar bear staring at me.

'Aylen, I know you are confused. Let me start by introducing myself. My name is Johnny H. I am Annie's son. She told you that I would be the one helping you. Do you remember?'

I shook my head as yet again, I heard a voice but there was no one around that could be speaking to me. As the voice kept talking I could only imagine that it was the giant polar bear talking to me. But that was impossible. Right? If I think back on all that I have learned in the past two years; if vampires and shifters are real, why couldn't a giant polar bear be talking to me? In my head?

"My name is Bella." Well, that's what I went to say at least. Somehow that is not what came out, it sounded more like a garbled bark like sound. Confused, I went to stand up and found that it was impossible, and I only understood when I looked down at where I expected to find my hands and feet, but instead I only saw paws. Paws. I saw paws. Snow white paws.

'Aylen, calm down and look at me.'

I snapped my head up and stared at the polar bear. This is so not happening to me.

'Aylen, when you are in this form, you can talk to me through the mind link.'

I nodded even though I didn't truly understand what was going on. 'What's happened to me?'

'This may be easier to explain after we get you to phase back.' The polar bear, or Johnny H, walked over to a bush and nodded at the ground. 'I had Annie put some clothes here for you for when you phase back. Unfortunately, until you are able to control your anger, you will go through a lot of clothes.'

'Phase?' I thought back at him. I don't understand any of this.

'Yes, phasing is what we call the changing between forms. For us, we change into polar bears as they are native to our area. You, Aylen, have a natural form of the area of which you belong. To phase back, you must think calming thoughts or human thoughts.'

'Human thoughts.' I can do this. Happy thoughts. That was going to be hard. I didn't have many to choose from. Thanks to the Cullens, I had lost my parents and thanks to one, I no longer have my wolves as a happy memory. I cringed as I thought about them and what happened.

'Aylen, stop. I can feel your pain and anger. That is not what we need. All of your memories cannot be painful. There must be something happy that happened.'

I looked at him and mentally sighed. 'All of my memories have been tainted. I can't think of my childhood without the pain of losing my parents and the family I had after them, well, I would rather not talk about them. There is something that might work.'

I though back to when I first met Annie. Yes, I may have been in pain, but it had been so long since anyone had shown me any form of kindness. Then again here with Johnny, he was showing me yet another form of kindness. I felt accepted here even though these people were strangers to me and I to them. They took me in and well, I wasn't really sure what was going on, but I knew they would tell me. I kept thinking about how I have been treated here and I started to feel a tingle along my spine. Not being sure what was going on, I darted behind the bush and I was just in time.

"I hope the clothes fit, they belonged to my sister and she was about your size."

I made a non-committal sound as I picked up the clothes. It was a simple pair of what looked to be yoga pants and a t-shirt. Stepping out from behind the bush, I automatically started rubbing my arms for warmth before I realized I no longer felt the cold even though I was standing in snow. "Well, this will come in handy."

"Follow me back to the lodge and I will explain." Johnny turned and started walking once I was beside him. "The heat you are noticing comes from what you are. You are a shifter, like myself and some of my tribe. We run at a higher body temperature which as you noticed, does have its benefits. Also, its draw backs. For those who don't know about us, we still have to act like a normal human around them."

At this point we were walking through the center of his village and not a single person looked at us strange for being barefoot in the snow. "Is your whole village made up of shifters?"

"No. As the chieftain of this tribe and the alpha of all shifters, I decreed that in this village all will know of shifters. It helps in the rare instances when we have to actually protect out people." He paused as he held open a door for me. "I hope that we can get all tribes with shifters to follow our example."

"Well I guess that makes life easier." I mumbled as I looked around. There was a fire burning in a pit in the center of the room and a few chairs placed around it. Taking one of the chairs, I turned to Johnny with an expectant look on my face. "Explain please."

"Alright but let me ask you a question first." He said as he took a seat next to me. "Why are you not freaking out over turning into an animal?"

"Oh, I've been told that I'm good with weird." I chuckled at the memory, one of the few not tainted by what happened. I caught the look on his face and elaborated. "I may have dated one of your enemies as well as befriended a pack of shifters. I just never expected to be one myself."

"That explains a lot as well as the phone calls that I have been dealing with. You must be the infamous Isabella Swan."

I ducked my head, hiding behind my hair. "How do you know who I am?"

"I received a phone call about two months ago letting me know that there was a battle going on with some cold ones in Washington. I was not given the particulars as to why the battle was occurring, just that it was to protect one of the tribe." Heaving a deep sigh, Johnny took one of my hands. "I was also told of the outcome of that battle and I offer you my sincerest apologies. I hate that you lost someone to those parasites as well as what happened to you by one of my shifters. It does help to explain a little of why you have phased. Would you mind giving me a little bit more detail of what happened?"

I looked into his warm brown eyes and sighed. I didn't want to go through all of that again, but I knew that he needed to know. So, I told him about my move to Washington and how I came to be dating a vampire. When I got to the part about James attacking me he stopped me.

"He bit you and you are still human? I am not sure I understand how that can be?"

"Edward sucked the venom out while his siblings dealt with James. He claimed to love me too much to let my soul be tarnished by changing into a vampire." I shook my head. "Back then I hated him making all of my decisions for me and yet now I am glad that he did."

"As am I, Igido. I apologize for interrupting, please continue."

I gave him a confused look, yet another name I was called that I didn't understand. Deciding that I needed to get this tale over with more so than learn a new language, I continued. I told him everything that happened from James' attack up to the god forsaken birthday party that I never wanted. I only stopped when I heard the low growling coming from him.

"I know what you're thinking but stop please. I heard these same growls the last time I told this story. I fully believe that Jasper was going to protect me from Edward as I was his singer, but Edward used it as the perfect opportunity to make me see that I didn't belong. I forgave Jasper the second it happened and after a lot of thinking, I thanked Edward for what happened next."

"I fear this story is not quite over."

"No, you are correct, it is not." I looked down and noticed that he still held my hands in his. I focused on the comfort he was offering as I told the rest of the story. He wasn't too happy about how Edward ended things but perked up when he learned that I was getting help from the pack. As I started to recount what happened after I finally got myself together and graduated high school, his joy began to diminish again. The random 'animal' attacks that had Charlie searching the woods for missing hikers as well as the cause of the attacks.

"So, your father never knew what was going on around him?" Johnny was equal parts proud of the fact we had kept Charlie in the dark as long as we did as well as sad for the same reason.

"Not until the day he died." I looked down at our still clasped hands. I had never before felt such comfort being offered, not even when I thought Jacob was still my friend. With a sigh I met Johnny's worried face. "It was kind of hard to hide what was going on at that point. He had watched what Victoria did to Renee and Phil. There was no way that he wouldn't have questions if he had survived. Thankfully the pack arrived at that point and took Victoria out. But the damage was already done."

"Where were you when this was going on, Igido?"

"I was a witness to the bloodbath. She thought that it was a fitting torture for me to witness the deaths of my parents. She wasn't too happy that I was the cause of her mate's death and that I had avoided her for as long as I did thanks to the pack." I closed my eyes as I remembered that night. It changed everything. "She had her lackey hold me down and forced me to watch. I don't know how the pack knew that I needed help, but they came charging in, most in wolf form. One of the younger ones managed to grab me and shield me with his body, but as I said, the damage was already done at that point."

He tugged on my hands that were still in his until I looked at him. "This damage that you are referring to, what was it?"

"Well, other than the obvious of losing Renee and Phil, I lost Charlie. When I was grabbed from the leech holding me I was blocked from seeing what was going on with Charlie. The wolves went after her immediately, but she still had time to bite Charlie before they took her down." I pulled a hand free and covered my mouth. "I can still hear his screams in my sleep. The pack wanted to put him out of his misery as they couldn't let him turn into one of their enemies, but I begged for a few minutes with him. I remember moving to his side and taking his hand in mine. I knew I needed to say my goodbyes, but I couldn't get anything to come out.

"Charlie opened his eyes and looked at me, the sorrow and pain was evident as he squeezed my hand. I could see him trying to say something and it broke my heart. I finally managed to apologize for allowing that to happen to him and that I loved him. I knew what they were going to do, and I held his hand through it as I couldn't leave him. The Alpha understood and made it quick, snapped his neck. We agreed to burn his body as a precaution. I watched as the pack took the vampires out first and then my father. We had two pyres that night. It wasn't until after the fires burned out that the shit hit the fan."

I heard a door open and close behind me, turning I saw Annie silently move over to sit next to us.

"Don't mind me. You were taking longer than I expected and I knew there would be questions only I can answer for you." Annie smiled and gestured for us to continue.

Taking a deep breath, I nodded. "I thought the worst was over, I mean, what could be worse than watching my parents being murdered right before my eyes? Well, it seems that of everything that could happen, my night wasn't over yet."

Flashback

I was walking back towards the house, not really sure what I was going to do. There was no way I would be able to go back into that house tonight. I was just about to step out of the trees when I was pushed from behind. I stumbled forward trying to keep my balance not understanding what was going on.

"Are you happy now?"

I looked into the angry face of my best friend. "What are you talking about Jacob?"

He snarled as he moved closer to me. "Well, it's your fault that Renee and Phil are dead, and we lost a friend to our tribe. If you never dated that bloodsucker this never would have happened."

"What the hell?! I just watched as my dad's body burned to keep him from turning into a vampire and you decide now is the time to vent your frustrations with my love life?"

"Well, if you would have just kept your legs closed and stopped sniffing around that leech like a bitch in heat then Charlie would still be alive right now." Jacob snarled in my face. "I have spent more time than I should trying to protect you from yourself. Maybe I should have just handed you over to the red head a long time ago. At least your parents would still be alive. Such a pathetic fuck up!"

I didn't know what to say. Why was he saying all of this to me? "Maybe I am, but it's not due to falling for a leech as you like to call them. I think it was for believing that changing into a wolf didn't turn you into a monster. If you didn't want me around maybe you should have said so a while ago. I'll make your life easier. You can leave, and you'll never see me again. But I want to say one last thing before you tuck your tail and run away. I hope you never find your imprint and I feel sorry for her if you do. You are such a self-centered lying bastard and I regret ever thinking that anything you said was the truth. You never loved me, you just loved messing with me. You'll never be Alpha of this pack as to be Alpha you have to have respect and I bet you just lost any chance to have that with this pack."

He stood there, nose flaring as a growl rumbled out of his chest. He clenched his hands together as he started shaking.

I knew the signs and I started backing away from him as the shaking got worse. I was about to turn and run when I saw my world stop. I managed to turn to the side as he phased, his left paw slicing his claws down the right side of my body. As I fell, I saw a silver blur knock Jacob away from me. I heard growling, but I couldn't focus on it. I knew I deserved this for the pain I caused everyone, but I never really believed that Jacob would be the one to hand out my punishment.

"Bella!"

I moaned as I felt warm arms wrap around me, seeming to be holding me together.

"I've got you, Bells." A voice said as he tightened his hold. "Someone needs to call an ambulance; she's going to bleed out."

I was starting to feel numb which I knew wasn't good and I just wanted to say goodbye, but I couldn't get my mouth to work. I groaned as I felt something nudge the side of my face, but I couldn't open my eyes. I heard them talking around me, but I didn't understand what was going on. The last thing I felt as I gave in to the darkness, was the feel of a wolf tongue licking at my wounds.

End of flashback

I unconsciously reached up to the right side of my neck where the scars started. I hadn't thought about that night in a long while and I truly never wanted to think about it again.

"What happened next, Aylen?"

Annie's question brought me out of my thoughts, making me realize that I must have described everything as I relived it. Shame flowed through me to think that they now knew how horrible of a person I was, and I knew that my welcome here was going to be short-lived.

"Aylen?" Annie placed her hand on my arm in comfort.

"I woke up two weeks later in the clinic on the rez. They took me to the doctor the wolves go to if they get injured beyond their natural healing abilities. I was alone when I woke up and only had a nurse to ask questions. I found out how long I had been there, that due to the severity of the injuries they put me into a medically induced coma so that I could heal. A wolf had always been posted outside my room in case Jacob decided to finish me off. It was a rare time when I woke up, all the wolves were in a meeting with the elders, so I was all alone. I released myself from their care after asking for a cab to be called and paper and pen.

"The clothes I had been brought in were destroyed thanks to the attack, so they gave me a pair of scrubs to leave in. I wrote a letter and left it at the nurse's station for the Alpha, letting him know that I didn't blame the pack for Jacob's actions, but I couldn't stay there anymore after everything that happened. I took the cab back to the house and found that someone had been there to clean up the mess left by the leeches. It didn't take me long to pack a bag and head out of town. I felt like my heart was breaking, but I knew I couldn't stay there. I didn't have a destination in mind, so I just drove. I made my way north, but the farther I got from home, the worse I felt. I don't remember much after I got to Alaska, but I do remember the pain in my chest getting to be so painful that I needed out. I stopped somewhere on the side of the road and got out of my truck. I don't remember anything else until I woke up here."

"Thank you, Igido, for sharing your story with us. I want to apologize on behalf of all shifters for the pain that one caused you that he had no right to. I know of the chief in training of which you speak, and I hope that the pack and their Alpha have been able to deal with him properly. My focus has been on you since you arrived, so I have ignored any and all correspondence from the other tribes." Johnny moved off of his chair to kneel before me. Reaching up, he placed a hand over mine that was still covering my scars. "I now understand a bit more as to why you have phased as well as to your coloring."

"What do you mean?" I looked at him, confused. "I just know that I'm white, not even the animal."

"Well, pale face, you are white." Johnny smirked at me causing me to chuckle. "Let me ask you this, based on what I told you earlier, that you will have the shape of the tribe you belong to, what animal do you think you are?"

"Really? I only know of two tribes and I obviously don't change into a polar bear like you. There is also no way that I belong to the tribe from my home, they wouldn't want me anyways."

"Isabella, I don't know what all happened to cause you to have such a low opinion of yourself, but you do belong. Don't let the actions of one wolf turn you against the whole pack." Annie frowned at me.

"Are you saying that I'm a wolf?" I looked to Johnny as he had been the one to see me.

"You are a beautiful arctic wolf."

Alright, so there is my new muse at work. As much as I want the other muses to talk to me, I will admit that this new muse is an enjoyable twist on what I normally write. This muse is a talkative one, so I hope y'all enjoyed it. Please let me know your thoughts, good or bad, I appreciate honesty in reviews. If the muses work with me, I hope to have a new chapter to post, regardless of the story, each week. TTFN my lovelies!

Aylen means happiness

Nuka means younger sibling

Misun means little brother

Tanis means daughter

Nizhoni means beautiful

Igido means sister

Shilah means brother

Hoquat means white man