'He reached up to touch her face,

'You're… so beautiful. I don't know why I didn't notice it before.'

She pulled in a breath to steady herself as his hand moved to her neck. He pulled her closer and kissed her, she felt dizzy.When he pulled away, his eyes were heavy with lust,

'God, I want you so bad, I want to put…...myself? My penis? My cock? Too dirty? *EDIT LATER* inside you.'

'I want to feel your *insert chosen word* inside me, I want to feel you so bad.' She replied.

She was ready. So ready, and she wanted him, she wanted him to make her feel…'

Rey stopped writing.

How the hell did she want him to make her feel?

Rey took her hands off the keyboard and let them hover in mid air. What did sex actually feel like? Rey didn't know. She had no frame of reference.

At 19, Rey thought she was a little old to still be carrying her V card around. It wasn't like she hadn't had offers, she had, it's just that she had never felt that need, you know? The need to have someone right there and then, that desperate ache within that begged to be soothed, she didn't even know if she was capable of feeling an ache….the most she had felt was a rumble of arousal, but she might have just been hungry.

Rey scrunched up her face and pulled her legs up under her in her desk chair.

What does one do, she pondered, when they want to write about 'sexy times'….but have never experienced 'the sexy times' first hand?

'Research!' She said out loud pointing her finger at the ceiling. 'I need to engage in some serious research.'

The problem was, she had already exhausted all the resources at her disposal, books, magazines, the internet, television, movies, sure they could show her what sex looked like, but they couldn't tell her how sex felt.

She needed to know what went through a woman's mind when a man thrust his tongue into her mouth and had his way with her right there on the kitchen floor. Was she overcome with sexual desire, or was she just regretting not mopping the tiles earlier?

Rey closed her laptop, it was getting late and it was obvious her fan-fic was going nowhere. What she needed was….hands on experience. Gulp.

Could she really do this? She wondered while she brushed her teeth vigorously. Could she really find a guy and just use him for sex? Just so it would make her a better writer? She spat in the sink then looked up at herself in the mirror. Even if she could do it. Who on earth would she do it with?

She walked into her bedroom, doing a mental rundown of all the eligible bachelors she was acquainted with. The list was…...rather lacking. There was her beloved Finn of course but if she threw himself at him his boyfriend might have something to say about it…. There were a few boys who came into the bar she worked at that were cute but she had never really felt like throwing herself at any of them.

She got into bed and switched off the light. It was a stupid idea anyway! Wasn't it?

Ben Solo adjusted his glasses then took a sip of his Diet Coke. He had always liked Maz's bar. It had a homey feel to it plus the owner and namesake Maz, had always treated him a bit like a son. He adored her though it was a running joke between the two of them that they always acted like they couldn't stand each other in public.

Ben has been out of town on business for a while and Maz's has been the first place he had headed after getting off the plane. He just needed to see a friendly face after spending six months swimming in a sea of anonymous suits. Unfortunately Rose had informed him that Maz was out of town visiting family. He had felt somewhat disappointed but he had shrugged and thanked her as he got up to leave.

At that exact same moment, a girl he didn't recognise ran into the bar apologising profusely for being late. He assumed she must have been a new hire because he would have remembered that face. He was instantly drawn to her, and somewhat startled as he thought to himself that he couldn't recall a time he had ever seen a girl that attractive. As she jogged up to the bar, she promptly slipped on a wet patch on the newly mopped floor and Ben found himself launching out of his seat in order to save her from a nasty fall. He caught her just before she hit the ground. Their eyes met and he just stared at her like an idiot, struck by how beautiful she was but also just enjoying the feel of her in his arms. She was so light, she weighed practically nothing. He could have held her like that all day.

After a while she spoke, 'Um, thanks! Do you think you could let me up now?' She said with a breathtaking smile.

Great. The first girl he had found attractive in years and he basically just held her captive against her will while he drooled all over her. Excellent start.

Now he was sitting at the bar nursing a Diet Coke trying not to follow her around the room with his eyes. She had told him her name was Rey and he had managed to cough out his name to her, Rey, had offered to pay for a glass of whatever tipple he wanted, but he wasn't much of a drinker so he had accepted a glass of Diet Coke and now Rey had launched into a story about how she had came to be late for her shift that afternoon and he was trying to keep up, but she talked extremely fast and as she talked she sped around the bar filling ketchup bottles and salt shakers for the lunchtime crowd.

Ben barely spoke because he felt like an absolute idiot. He couldn't think of anything to say other than wanting to blurt out ridiculous creepy questions like how is it possible you are this pretty? Why on earth have I never noticed you before if we both live in the same town? Are you into older guys? And the one that was on the tip of his tongue, will you go out with me?

Ben hadn't had much time for girls, his career meant he travelled a lot and that didn't leave much time for relationships or at least the girls he had tried to have relationships with had always told him that as they headed out the door.

'So anyway I just moved here,' He focused on her voice again. 'Hopefully I won't always be tending bar, I'm a writer, I mean I want to be a writer, I hope one day that my work will be good enough for publication but I need more….practice.'

Why had she looked at him and blushed when she said the word 'practice?' Was 'practice' some sort of euphemism now? He racked his brain. Nope. He couldn't think of anything other than the fact that she looked adorable when she blushed. Gees. He was in trouble here. He ran his hand through his chin length black hair.

Suddenly Rey stop what she was doing and gravitated towards him. Her eyes were focused on his hair. For a moment she seemed lost in a daydream then she snapped out of it and giggled. 'Oops sorry! I got a bit lost there. I like your hair by the way, a lot of businessmen I see in here keep it shorter but I think it makes you look….softer.' She blushed again.

Softer? Was that a compliment? He thought she meant it to be so he smiled at her. 'Soft' was not usually a word that a man wanted to be associated with but maybe in relation to his haircut it wasn't so bad.

'So Ben,' she said smiling at their new found familiarity. 'What are you doing here and how come I haven't seen you before?'

Ben sipped his drink, 'I actually come in here a lot. I like to make sure to remind Baz that I'm still alive, she thinks I'm going to go first even though she is like a hundred now. I've been away on business. I haven't seen you before, so I assume you must be new?'

'I am. I've only worked here a few months. The last girl went back home for school so lucky me! Here I am!'

I think I'm the lucky one. Ben thought to himself.

'Can I get you something to eat?' Rey asked innocently and Ben tried really hard not to twist her words into something dirty. He really tried….but he didn't succeed.

'Erh, no.' He said. The only thing I want on the menu is you. 'I better be going.' Yeah, got your horny ass gone, pervert.

'Oh okay, well see you tomorrow then, maybe?' She looked as if she genuinely wanted to see him which was flattering.

'Um, yeah. Maybe. See ya.' He took a deep breath the moment he was outside of the bar. He looked at his watch. Fuck. He was late. He smiled to himself as he walked to his appointment. He would definitely be back the next day.

Rey craned her neck as Ben disappeared from view. Wow. If he wasn't a gift from the writing gods she didn't know what was!

It was like something straight out of a story! He had leapt to her aid! Like a dashing white knight!

Rey imagined herself as a damsel in distress, in a long medieval gown, she placed her hand to her head,

'Oh no. I feel I'm going to faint!'

She fell dramatically and in her mind Ben dressed in a tunic and tights, god, he even made tights look good, caught her heroically.

'You are truly the fairest maiden in the land.' He said as he gazed down into her eyes, then he leaned down and their lips almost touched…...

'Earth to Rey?' Rose appeared in front of her waving her arms around. Rey let out a little whine at being interrupted from her fantasy.

Rose looked amused, 'You have your head in the clouds.'

Well you saw him right? I mean come on! He's the full package.' Rey said tilting her head to the side.

'Oh no! No more daydreaming! You stay with me. We have work to do missy.' Rose said grabbing her arm and pulling her behind the bar.

Rey picked up some menus and starting laying them out but her mind quickly wandered back to Ben.

He was somewhat older, probably mid thirties? She hoped he would still be interested in her despite that. He hadn't talked much but then she had talked enough for the both of them.

Rose smirked at her, 'I've never seen you get so worked up over a boy.'

'Man, Rose. Man.' Rey corrected her with a lift of her eyebrow.

'Okay man then. I've still never seen you act like that. You barely stopped for breath!'

'I'm just….friendly.' Rey said. Oh she would like to get very friendly with Ben Solo alright.

'I'm betting he will be back tomorrow.' Rose said as she cleaned some glasses.

Rey felt her heart skip a beat. She hoped so.

The following day came, and Rey waited hopefully, but Ben didn't come. She pouted every time she heard the door and he didn't appear.

Rose was sympathetic, 'Maybe he is just busy?'

'Yeah maybe.' Rey agreed half-heartedly.

Or maybe he was just keeping his distance from the crazy girl with the verbal diarrhea. Why had she talked so much?!

Luckily as it was Saturday, the bar was packed and the day passed so quickly that Rey had little time to sulk. By 11.30pm, the two girls were glad to be shutting the massive doors.

Rose yawned, 'what a day!' She exclaimed stretching her arms over her head.

'Why don't you go? I can do this.' Rey said.

'No, that's not fair….' Rose protested.

'You can stay next time.' Rey said with a smile.

'Okay. Thanks Rey. I owe you.' Rose said with a smile.

Once Rose had left, Rey cleaned the last of the glasses and put them away. She was just tidying up the sink when there was a bang on the door.

'We're closed!' Rey shouted.

Another bang.

'Still closed!' She shouted slightly more annoyed.

A third bang.

'Alright!' Rey shouted. She picked up a pool cue on her way to the door.

Pulling the deadbolts out she pushed open the door with a face like thunder.

'We're closed!' She shouted right into Ben's face.

'I know.' He said looking amused. 'That's why I'm here.'

Rey blinked at him, 'w-w-what?'

'I came after closing because I was hoping to catch you alone.'

He came! He came to see her! He came late because he wanted to see only her! Okay. Okay. This is fine….

'If you had been a few minutes earlier, you would have caught Rose too.' Rey replied.

'I know, that's why I waiting for her to leave.'

Rey gulped. Okay….what was going on here?

Ben walked towards her, 'Have you ever been kissed Rey?'

'Yes! Of course I have!' She said indignantly taking a step backwards.

'Have you ever had sex Rey?' Ben aid, his dark eyes fixed on hers.

She rubbed her lips together. 'Is that any of your business?'

'Maybe.'

Rey looked up into his eyes, 'No. I've never had sex.'

Ben reached out with his hand and cupped her face.

'Do you want to change that?' Before she could answer he pressed his lips against hers…..

Then suddenly Rey woke up with a jolt and groaned. Her arms were folded under her head on one of the small round tables in the bar. Guess she had been pretty tired.

Rey sat up and let out a deep breath. She pressed her fingers against her lips, they felt warm.

'Wow.' She whispered into the empty room.

Oh god! She shouted as he entered her. It feels so…

Rey stopped typing and tapped her teeth with her nail. She picked up her phone:

Rose, how does it feel when a man enters you?

A text pinged back straight away,

What the hell Rey? I'm sitting down to dinner with my parents here! A bit of warning would be nice!

Whoops! Sorry, but still though what does it feel like?

It feels…..well it's different for everyone. I'll text you later!

Rey huffed out a breath. How was she ever going to get this right if she had no experience?

Ben could help with that…..

The thought sneaked up on her and she licked her lips.

A guy like that could surely have the pick of any girl he wanted, why on earth would he be interested in you?

Rey poured herself another glass of wine. Well still she needed someone to 'practice' with. She could go out and pick someone up. Girls did that didn't they? Her heart raced. She gulped down her wine and poured herself another glass. She was alright to look at, she could snare a man if she wanted to! And who would care if she slept with him! Girl Power right? Equal rights and all that jazz! She swigged down the last of her wine.

Okay. She thought as she slammed down her wine glass. We're doing this.

She walked over to her small wardrobe.

'Now….what outfit says…..I want to have sex with you purely for research purposes?' She said tapping her chin with her finger.

Ben sipped his whisky as Maz gave him another lecture about how it was time to 'get married and settle down already.' He rolled his eyes. He had headed to the bar hoping to see Rey, having been unable to visit the day after meeting her as he had intended. He had been disappointed to find that she wasn't on shift but had settled in to listen to Maz's light-hearted scolding.

'Charlie Chaplin was still having children into his seventies.' He muttered.

'Oh yes, you want to wait that long do you? I suppose you could share the same mushed up food!' Maz shot back.

Ben opened his mouth to retort when the bar door clattered open and Rey fell in.

Ben's mouth stayed open as his eyes settled on her. She was wearing a tight black vest top, a red tartan mini skirt and high black knee boots, over criss-cross tights.

Rey straightened herself up and tried to walk. She stumbled a little. Ben frowned, was she drunk?

A blonde boy walked towards her, he looked around her age. He said something Ben couldn't hear and Rey smiled at him and nodded. Ben assumed he must have offered her a drink. He watched them walk to the bar. Maz served them and they settled down at one of the small tables together.

'What's that about?' Maz asked when she returned to his side.

'What do you mean?' Ben asked with a frown.

'You and my new girl, Rey. You can't keep your eyes off her. See! There they go again! Your peepers can't get enough of her!'

'You're seeing things old woman.'

'Ahhhh, Nothing wrong with my eyes Ben Solo. I see things most others don't see. Lovely girl Rey. That boy is no good for her though. He's in here almost every weekend looking for a new conquest.'

Ben gripped his glass tighter.

'Why don't you go say hello?' Maz asked.

'She looks busy.' Ben replied.

Maz sighed and shook her head, 'If a cow doesn't know the grass is greener elsewhere, they will eat whatever is put in front of them.' Maz said with a raised eyebrow.

'And if Rey is the cow in this unflattering scenario what exactly am I?'

'You're the grass, you ass!' Maz said chuckling loudly.

Ben shook his head.

'I'm sure Rey wouldn't look twice at an old man like me.' He said glancing at the boy who was lucky enough to have won her attention.

'Rey is a good, sweet, clever girl.' Maz said. 'I'm sure she knows that good men are hard to find. Maybe she is just done looking and is waiting for one to come to her.'

Ben watched as the boy reached a hand across the table to Rey and she let him place it on top of her own.

'Maybe don't wait until your 73 to find out about that, eh?' Maz said with a pointed look.

Okay. Okay. Rey thought to herself this was fine. She could do this. She could have sex with this… boy. It didn't really matter that he kept talking about his motorbike or that it seemed as if he might actually be in love with said motorbike or….OMG! Shut up! Or just get a bloody room with your bike already!

Rey was plenty drunk but she realised she just wasn't drunk enough to be able to do this. There needed to be some sort of spark, some sort of an attraction. The only 'spark' this guy had was with the spark plugs on his motorbike.

Rey snorted into her drink.

'Are you alright?' He asked her with a frown.

'Yeah, I'm fine.' She replied, trying to maintain a straight face. Okay, she needed to go home.

'Well this was lovely but I'm better be going!' She tried to stand up but the boy captured her hand in his.

'I'll walk you home.' He said.

Uh oh. She knew that look. No way mister!

'That's okay. I don't live far.' She said cheerfully.

'Even better.' He replied letting his eyes run over her.

Rey's heart started to beat fast in her chest, she pulled her hand free.

'It's fine. You stay, enjoy your night.' She said and headed for the door.

The boy followed her outside and cut her off, backing her up against the wall he put a hand above her head.

'What's the rush?' He asked.

Rey swayed a little as the cold night air hit her, she wasn't much of a drinker and she suddenly realised that she had most definitely surpassed her alcohol limit.

The boy misconstrued her silence as compliance and leaned in to press his lips against hers.

Rey open her mouth to protest when suddenly the boy disappeared from her sight. She blinked in stunned silence. Then movement caught her eye and she looked to her right.

'What the hell do you think you are doing?' Ben Solo shouted. He had one hand tightly holding the boys shirt and another pointing in his face.

The boy put his hands up. 'Hey man! I was just going to walk her home!'

'Well she has someone to walk her home now so move along, asshole.' Ben said releasing the boy and taking a step towards him. The boy instantly stepped back then disappeared back into the bar.

Ben turned his dark, angry eyes on Rey.

'What the hell are you doing trawling bars alone looking like that? Do you realise what could have happened if I hadn't been here?'he demanded.

Woah! Wasn't she the damsel in distress here? Where did he get off telling her how to live her life?

Rey glared at him and put her hands on her hips, 'How was I supposed to know he was going to turn into a dickhead? It's not like guys like that have it tattooed on their forehead!' She shouted.

Ben looked taken back. 'You're right. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you. I was just….Are you okay?'

Rey nodded. 'Thank you by the way.'

Ben smiled, 'You're welcome.'

Rey put a hand to her head it was starting to throb.

'Come on, I'll walk you home.' Ben said and Rey gave him a grateful smile.

Rey tried really hard to act sober but the stupid pavement kept getting in the way of her feet and every time she tripped she broke down into a fit of giggles. Ben didn't seem to mind too much but he did eventually wrap her arm around his to help keep her steady. Rey's heart flipped in her chest at the contact.

'Do you usually drink this much?' Ben asked.

'No, I hardly ever drink. I just got a bit carried away tonight.' She said with a blush.

'You can say that again!' Ben said with a disapproving tone.

'Hey! It's my body! I have a right to do whatever I want with it!' Rey shot back.

'Including apparently attracting drunken assholes who you then have to be rescued from. I'm just saying I thought a girl like you would make better choices.'

Rey pulled her arm out from his, 'You don't know me! I'm an adult and if I want to go out and look for a hookup that's my own business!'

'If that's what that was how come you told that guy not to follow you? How come you were trying so hard to get away from him?'

'Because I chickened out okay?' She shouted.

Rey, stop talking. Stop talking. Stop talking…..

'I chickened out because I'm not that girl! I'm not the girl who goes out and has sex with random guys! I'm not! But I need to be!'

'Why do you need to be one of those girls?' Ben asked.

Rey blushed, she had already said too much, 'No reason. Just trying new things, that's all.'

'Then I suggest you take up knitting.'

Rey seethed and the wine started talking for her, 'I can hardly learn what I need to know about sex from knitting now can I?'

Ben stopped. 'What?'

Rey sighed, well she had already thrown her last shred of dignity to the wind might as well just get it all out there, 'There's this fanfic competition, and I really want to enter and I want my work to be good but the theme is 'sex and chocolate' and I've got the chocolate part down! I mean I'm a pro in that arena, but the sex part? That kind of escapes me….'

Ben was silent for a moment, 'Are you saying you're a….?'

'I'm a virgin yes, now please excuse me while I wait for the earth to swallow me whole.' She said, her cheeks blushing bright pink.

'It's nothing to be ashamed of Rey.' Ben said gently as they started walking again.

'I know. I know that. It's just…..how can I write realistically about sex if I have no idea what sex feels like? And sure I can read about it or watch it on tv or have friends tell me about it but it's not the same. Don't they always say you should write what you know? And in order to do that, I need to know about sex.'

'So you're just going to go out and find some random guy to sleep with?' Ben said incredulously.

Rey wondered if it was possible for someone's face to blush so violently it might actually bruise.

'That was the plan, but I couldn't go through with it. Guess I'm destined to stay a loser virgin forever.'

Ben sighed, 'You're not a loser. So what will you do now?'

'Try again.'

'What? No.'

Rey bristled, 'You don't get to tell me what to do Ben! You're not my keeper!'

'You saw what that guy was like back there! Rey, your first time shouldn't be with some fucking stranger you meet down the disco-tech!'

Disco-tech WTF?

'Duly noted, Dad! However, I say again you don't get to make my choices for me and I can do whatever I want!' Rey didn't know why she was getting so mad. Maybe it was just because she was so embarrassed and entirely fueled by wine. She did understand he was just trying to protect her, but for some reason she kind of enjoyed fighting with him.

'So you're not giving up on this stupid plan?' He said with an irritated lilt.

'Nope.'

They reached Rey's apartment.

'Well this is me.' Rey said, turning around to face Ben.

He looked at her intently. 'I'll do it.'

Rey blinked, 'Pardon?'

Ben took a step towards her and brushed a curl out of her face. 'I'll do it. I'll have sex with you... if you want me to.'

Had she heard that correctly? Was Ben Solo actually offering to have sex with her?!

Rey opened her mouth to respond…..and promptly threw up all over the pavement.