Don't Be So Hard On Yourself

Happy/OC!

This will purely be a Happy and Original Character Story, not in connection to any of my other Sons of Anarchy stories unless stated other wise.

Disclaimer: I do not own Sons of Anarchy, Mayans or Any other club mentioned as well as anything you might recognise, the story will be slightly AU and might not follow the SOA series.

Note: Anything racist or derogatory mentioned in this story is not a reflection of what the author thinks, it is purely fiction!

Face Claim: Ana De Armas

Age: 23 to Happy's 41

Height: 5'4" to Happy's 6'2"

Chapter One

3rd PoV

She walked from Vivica's, the warm humid breeze flowing through Bakersfield blew her dark wavy chocolate brown hair with natural golden caramel highlights behind her as she smiled at Alonso and Julia Alvarez, giving them a wave as they rocked on their porch, Mrs. Alvarez's hair white and braided over her shoulder as she sipped a cold lemonade while he husband was peeling an apple into chunks and popping a slice into his mouth. She smiled, making her way to Maria's house with the vegetables she'd ordered.

"Hola Feliz" Mr. Sanchez called from his front garden, giving Feliz a sad smile, his ginger cat curled up under a tree, watching them.

"Hola" She called, jogging up Maria's steps, noticing the three bikes in the drive way on the side of the house and biting her lip. She knocked and walked in, not waiting for an invitation, she hadn't need one since she was six, juggling the brown bags in her arms, her black t-shirt knotted at the back and fake blood splatter on the front with white writing saying, 'This Is My Zombie Killing Shirt' a thin golden chain over it with a small and simple cross and ripped up low rise red jeans and old scuffed flat leather boots that went just over her calf.

"Hola, Feliz" Maria said, sat at her worn dark mahogany wooden table drinking tea with her sister Louisa, and three Sons. Happy being one of them, sitting close to his mother and rolling a joint for her. Maria looked better today then she had all week, her short curly salt and pepper hair wrapped in a bandana, dressed in a short sleeve blouse with decorative flowers on the collar as well as a long black skirt and a thin pink cardigan open over her top.

"Hey Maria." Feliz smiled. "Enjoying the weed I got you?" she chuckled, walking through to Maria's kitchen, giving Maria a kiss on the cheek and squeezing Louisa's shoulder before putting the groceries on the counter and putting it all away for her, seeing she was low on the basics, Feliz made a note of it and slid the piece of paper into her back pocket.

"So, do you help out a lot?" Kozik asked, having watched her take note of what Maria needed and knew she was the one who paid for most of Maria's food, even though Happy sent what he could, even paying for the Hospice nurse that came by every morning and evening, and helped with the bills, he couldn't pay for everything and Happy was proud to say he didn't like asking for help, but not proud enough to deny it either. Whenever he got more than he needed, he put a nice little gratitude bump every birthday for her, or bought her a charm on his travels for the bracelet she wore that her father gave her before he left.

"Every now and then, I try to stop by at least twice a week … you a friend of Happy's?" She asked, washing her hands of the dirt after dealing with the veg. "He doesn't bring a lot of club members around his Ma, the only member I've ever met is Quinn." She explained, leaning back against the sink and drying her hands, taking the blonde biker in her fully inked right arm crossing over her bare left one under her chest.

"Yeah, we were in SAMTAC together, both making the transfer to SAMCRO, he went Nomad about 6 months ago to help with Maria." Kozik told her, leaning his shoulder on the door frame, giving her a charming smile.

"You're saying all these words like … I'm supposed to know what they mean. I take it their club names right?" Feliz asked, playing dumb. She'd known Happy since she was a kid, hadn't seen him in over 10 years, but as a freshly turned teen she'd hung on every word he'd had to say while explaining how the club worked without telling her actually anything.

"Yeah, SAMTAC is in Washington, it's the Tacoma charter, SAMCRO is in Charming, about 3 and a half hours, maybe 4 hours north of here." He smiled. "Maybe I could show you around some time, it's not that big but I'm sure we could find some sights to see."

"Stop winding him up" Happy growled, squeezing passed Kozik and going to her, his hand going to her hip and his lips grazing her cheek, just like he used to do when she was a kid when he'd draw pictures for her to colour before she started drawing them herself, his touch making her cheeks warm and Kozik gave her a knowing smirk.

"I've known Happy a while, I know all about MC's, Blondie" Feliz chuckled, pushing off the sink seeing Happy wanted to talk to his friend and patting his chest as she walked passed. "How you doing Maria?" she asked, taking the chair Happy had been in. "Hola Louisa" she greeted Maria's sister.

"I'm okay dear." Maria said. "Roll some joints for me, would you? I love my son, but he can't roll for his life." She told her, teasing Happy who stood with Kozik in the doorway whispering back and for, the barest of lip twitches in acknowledgement as he flipped his friend the bird after he chuckled. Feliz rolled her eyes and started on the joints, making an even ten faster then the Son at the table could comprehend. "Feliz is a dab hand at joints, made a fortune in High School" She explained, not exactly proud of that information, but proud she knew how to take care of herself, something she learnt quick in Bakersfield.

"Sold the weed and the deserts, made quite the little nest egg." Louisa chuckled, winking at the girl as Feliz put them in a baggy and handed them to Maria, who tucked them in a ceramic jar in the middle of the table and kissed her cheek.

"Yeah well, I needed a car." Feliz shrugged, everyone knowing when things got tough her and her sister slept in there when their mother got worse than normal. Feliz flashing Louisa a smile. "I have a shift at the shop, but I'll stop by later in the week, okay?" she said to the older ladies at the table. "Te amo, Tia's" she said to the women, getting up. "Later Hap, don't be a stranger." She said, watching him as she walked backwards a little before turning and walked out the door closing it softly behind her, not realising the Tacoma Killer himself had been watching her and stalked to the window to watch her bounce down the steps from the front window, wondering how someone could change in so many ways.

"Where does she work?" Happy asked his mother, taking a Cigarette from his pack after bumping the bottom for one to pop up and fishing a lighter from his inside pocket, watching Feliz go across the road and just down to her own house where she lived with her mother, who just kept her and her sibling around for the welfare cheques.

"Grim Ink with Freddy and Carlos" Maria said, watching her son. "She has for 4 years now, did Natalie and Samuel's wedding ink." She told him, smiling knowingly.

"I always thought it was ironic" Louisa said, leaning back in her chair as she watched her nephew closely. "Having two Happy's on the Block, even with the age difference she was one of the few people who could make you smile." Louisa said smirking.

"I don't get it" Tig said, leaning back in one of Maria's old wooden chairs close to Louisa, scratching his goatee.

"Feliz ... it means Happy in Spanish" Maria said, stubbing her Cigarette out.

"She's changed" Was all Happy said, trying to change the subject, shoving his hands in his pocket.

"A lot can change in 10 years, Mijo." Maria said, climbing to her feet as she went to stand by her son. Feliz was stood at the bottom of her porch, one knee on a step as she bent over, talking to a 5 year old girl who was laying on her stomach, colouring in a book. "She's stretching herself too thin, she's practically raising her sister, buys grocery's for half the Block, as well as most of the bills to that house." Maria told her son as Feliz handed her sister a few dollars from her wallet, neither Happy nor Maria missing the frown when she looked back in her wallet before stuffing it back in her front pocket.

"Yeah, I noticed she made a note of what you were missing in the kitchen." Kozik said.

"She does it for a lot of the people. She's a good girl." Maria said, patting Happy's cheek. "Could use a man though, boys these days ... they don't have the respect they should for their elders." Maria said, watching Happy out of her eye.

"Leave it be, Ma" Happy said, folding his arms. "You aint no match maker." He said, kissing her cheek.

"She got Mr. Sanchez and his Wife together." Louisa said.

"His wife died a week later." Happy huffed.

"Semantics" Louisa waved him off, dabbing her half smoked cigarette out and put it away. "You can't help who you fall for, Happy" Louisa said sagely. "I'm going to go Maria, Natalie and Samuel are arguing again and she's staying with me, that girls crazy enough to set the house on fire if I leave her alone long enough." She said.

"See you tomorrow, Lou" Maria said waving her sister off as she left. Happy helping his mother to her chair before she stopped. "I think I'll take a nap instead, Mijo." Maria said, Happy nodded, redirecting his mother to the back room they had turned into a Bedroom for her so she didn't have to keep going up the stairs and it was closer to the downstairs bathroom.

"Love you, Ma" he growled, pulling the comforter up.

"Love you too, Mijo." she said, smiling at him slightly.

He walked back into the living room and started to clean up the delicate China tea cups and saucers, as well as empty the ashtray into the bin and quickly wash the few dishes in the sink.

"Who was that chick?" Kozik asked, moving next to Happy and started drying the cups. In any other situation, it would have been comical, two large bikers, handling the delicate teacups and putting them away.

"Feliz, the town practically raised her, she would be ... 23 now?" he said, shrugging. "She's a good girl."

"She's Hot" Kozik said.

"Don't even think about it asshole." Happy earned, his voice going deeper then his usual rasp.

"Hey, Maria said she needed a man." Kozik said smirking.

"So that counts you out, dick for brains." Tig said, putting the dried cups away. "Anyway, Maria was hinting for Happy to make a move, not you." He said, rolling his eyes.

"I've known her since she was a kid." He pointed out.

"So? She is definitely not a kid anymore brother." Kozik smiled.

"No she is not." Tig leered.

SO! What did everyone think? Keep writing, as well as another fiction for the other's on my list, or no?

Let me know, and if anyone can help me with the Spanish that will be in this story, please do … or it's going to be a Google Translate Job.

Much Love

Lauren