When people said that it was raining all the time, I see sunshine 'cause I know that you are mine…

- Mine, The 1975

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PROLOGUE: The Fall

Maybe it was a little dramatic, to say that, yeah, I had thought about how I would die.

When I thought about it – and I don't want to say imagined it, like I'd been hoping for it – I'd always thought that I'd die because of some stupid mistake I would make. Any which way I considered it – I always thought that it would come down to something I had accidentally done. Cross the road without looking, drink one too many, piss off the wrong person – hell maybe I'd even accidentally poison myself.

I guess, in a way, you could say that I had chosen this. That it was a choice I had made. Even though I was doing it for someone else, out of some dumb nobility that was fading as fast as the water was rushing to meet us, I could consider it a good deed. I guess. You either kill yourself or get killed. What are you gonna do?

Though, jumping off a cliff after a crazy person hadn't exactly ever crossed my mind as how it would end.