Prologue: All That She Could Be

After the spell was cast, Bonnie didn't know how to face her friends after she betrayed her own grandmother. She just couldn't even imagine the way that they would look at her, if they only knew everything that she had done, even if it was to save them. In saving them, she nearly destroyed herself in the process. It seemed like everything that she has done, just leaves her standing alone in the cold once more. This is what made her decide that she wasn't going to let anyone else into her life or her heart because it was just too much of a risk to take.

She decided to take a page out of Damon's book, drink her troubles away. She went the grill, it's late enough that none of her friends would be there but early enough they would still be open. She knows that she is so much more than her magic that her so called friends use her for and this makes her wonder if the magic was gone forever would they even remember her name. As she walked into the grill, the last thing she expected to find was Damon Salvatore sitting alone at the bar.

Her first instinct is to flee as if her life depended on it but her instincts have been off lately, which is why she finds a seat near the other end of the bar. She still wanted that drink but she didn't want to deal with Damon at the moment. Bartender made his way towards her and asked her, what her poison was. She told him that she wanted straight gin and to leave the bottle with her. She had hoped that Damon would leave and not even notice her at all but she was dead wrong about that assumption. He's sitting next to her before she even had time to finish her 2 drink.

"So what brings the little witch to my neck of the woods and isn't that drink a bit too strong for you?"

"None of your business, please leave me alone Damon, I had a rough night and I don't need you making it any worse."

"What is your problem, I was here first. And you are not the only one that thinks life sucks at the moment. I mean until you have to hear your brother having sex with the woman that you love down the hall from you then you can tell me it sucks to be you."

"Damon that is your whole problem, long before you ever became a vampire, you always wanted people that were already taken. I think the only draw that both Katherine and Elena held for you was the fact that they both loved Stefan; which is self destructive behavior to me."

With that Bonnie reached for her bottle and decided to call it a night but as she started to walk away Damon followed her towards her car. She failed to notice that he was following her until she reached her car.

He slammed into her and turned her towards him and then he said, "You don't get to say something like that to me and then just walk away from me. I always get the last word in and this time is not going to be any different. What you said back there was dead wrong, I am not only interested in women that sleep with my brother and not that it's any of your business but I was with Katherine first until Stefan stole her away."

She didn't like being this close to Damon at all but as she tried to push him away and stop him from invading more of her personal space, this only made him move closer to her. After a moment she found her voice and said, "That's right play the victim because it is never your fault everyone else is to blame. I mean God forbid if you actually took responsibility for your own actions. You are so pathetic that not even Rebekah wants you, now get off of me and stay away before I finally put an end to your existence."

Damon didn't take her warning seriously enough because he moved even closer and said, "Or what are you going to do to me because there's nothing that you could do to me that would cause me more pain than I've already caused myself."

He let his grip on her loosen and gave her a few inches of space as he hung his head down as if he were ashamed of his actions for once in his life. Since he didn't let go completely or back off enough, Bonnie decided to give him one of her witchy headaches. He fell to the ground in pain clutching his head and she thought that now is a good time to leave. She got into her car and drove away from Damon.

She didn't want to go home though; so she went to her grandmother's house instead. She had forgotten all about her run in with Damon until sudden someone was at the door. She got up to answer it and was surprised that it was Damon standing there in the pouring rain.

"Well are you going to invite me in or not?"

"Not, it would be a cold day in hell before I invite you into any house that I live in. What do you think that I am crazy or something?"

Then to her complete surprise Damon walked right into the house, she was beyond shocked.

"How did you do that?"

"It was easy because no one ever transferred the deed of this house over to a living relative therefore; I can come go as I please in this house."

Suddenly she began to get nervous about being alone with Damon.

She backed away from him slowly and said, "I don't care about how you did that but please leave I'm not in the mood to deal with you tonight."

He was taken aback by the looks of the room; he looked around the room and noticed that it looked like a tornado hit it. There were spell books scattered everywhere and countless empty bottles of alcohol as well. The only time he had seen a room look worse was when he was on a bender.

"What the hell is going on here Bonnie?"

"Nothing that concerns you now please leave before you force me to use my magic on you."

"No, I'm not going anywhere until I'm convinced that you are not going to do something stupid. I know all about self destruction and I don't think that you should be alone at the moment."

"Well that's too bad because I am alone, I'm always alone or did you miss that memo?"

"You don't have to be alone right now; I'll stay with you if you want."

"No, I don't think so because the minute Elena calls you will go running to her and I'll be left with nothing yet again."

"I never knew that you felt that way about Elena. You hate her now?"

"No, I don't and if I did I would never made her a day walking ring. I just wish it would stop, I mean how much sacrifice is one person supposed to make just so Elena can live? I have lost so much because of her and I love her still like a sister. What is wrong with me, the alcohol is not working no matter how much I consume. That is why I am looking through these books on dark magic to numb the pain but I haven't found anything to help me."

It seemed like Bonnie was on the verge of having a breakdown right in front of Damon, he didn't know how to respond to her. She was on a ledge ready to jump over it and none of her friends seemed to notice at the moment. He wasn't usually the one that saved people that was reserved for Stefan. He was in uncharted territory at the moment but he didn't want her to fall over that ledge because there would be no coming back from that.

He decided to go on instinct; he grabbed her, started shaking her.

Then he said, "You need to get a handle on things and this is not you. Bonnie wake up and fight to get your life back, it is not over yet, don't give up on yourself. You are stronger than that I know you are. What happened to the fire you had in you all those times you tried to kill me?"

"She's gone and nothing can ever bring her back it's over, Damon now get the hell out of here now."