A.N So I am rewriting my story Eyes wide open I read through what I had and found it lacking I truly hope that you enjoy this version more I will leave the other up for a while but it will eventually be taken down. Please be warned that there is hints of rape but not very descriptive.

Bella POV

I hissed as I carefully changed the dressing on my arm, It had been three days since the Birthday party from hell and the only one of the family I had seen was Edward. He was acting strangely but then again I was feeling strange as well, the morning after my birthday I had awoken feeling out of sorts, a sense of foreboding had overcome me, and Edward missing school had not helped. When I had seen him this morning I had thrown myself at him like he was the air I needed after holding my breath. Something deep inside me was telling me to run while I could it felt like a fog was lifting but it wasn't lifting fast enough. I wrapped my arm and went to class my mind swirling with dread when the day ended and I saw him leaning against my truck I swallowed heavily he moved until he was in front of me and leaned down to kiss me and for a few moments everything was fine. When he pulled back he lead me to my truck he wasn't smiling like he used to instead he looked determined.

"You have work, yes?" He asked as he slid into the passenger seat.

"Yeah I just need to drop those photos into the post my mum wanted copies" He snatched the envelope up and smiled but his eyes didn't change.

"Don't worry love I'll drop them off" I smiled and thanked him and relaxed as his scent filled the cab I thought I heard him chuckle but I couldn't be sure with the noise from the truck. When I was at work the foreboding returned not as strong as before but it was there. When I finished I went slowly my muscles were coiled ready to spring and my head had started to pound, I could hear my heartbeat in my ears and the rushing of my blood and yet as soon as I was out the truck Edward was there his breath brushing my face as he leaned in.

"Lets take a walk Bella" He took my bag and placed it by my truck and placed my keys inside my bag. He guided me to the back of the house and into the woods that he had told me to stay out of. His hand was around my arm keeping me from falling and pulling me onward. We walked for about five minutes but the pace we had gone I had almost jogged to keep up with him when we stopped in a small clearing he turned on me almost shoving me away as he took two steps away from me. The feelings returned to me and I almost stumbled at the ferocity of them.

"Bella there's something I need to tell you." His voice sounded strange there was an edge that made me put one foot backwards. He chuckled when he saw my movements "Alice said that your instincts had finally worked their way through my thrall." He tutted at me "Know if they hadn't we wouldn't be here now, if you had just stayed complacent, well it doesn't matter now." He chuckled again darkly and my heart picked up speed.

"What are you talking about?" I was torn there was part of me that wanted to turn and run screaming I was in danger but another was drawn to him it wanted to go to him, my body at war with itself, and it froze.

"Bella what I am talking about is the fact I don't love you." My heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest and my lungs suddenly started to gulp in air.

"What!" I cried tears streaming down my face my mind working overtime to try and compute what was happening I knew I was in danger but the part of me that loved him didn't care it wanted to stay to beg him to shout at him he was lying. I had bent over when my heart had been crushed when in a split second I was up against a tree Edwards hand around my throat forcing me to look at him. "Edward…" I managed as he squeezed ever slow slightly his eyes were black and I knew then what was going to happen, my body slumped in defeat but my heart took off to new heights with the fear in me.

"Bella, Bella, Bella… How could you ever think that I could love you, you were simply an experiment, a chance at something that would benefit mine and Alice's goals." I felt another stab of betrayal and he smiled as I whimpered at the news. "Yes Alice knows, in fact at this very moment she is staging your tragic death," he sniffed up my neck to my cheek and sighed "I am actually quite pleased at the outcome it means I can enjoy myself" his other hand trailed down and I gasped in shock more tears fled my eyes as his hand rubbed my inner thigh and moved upwards "I must confess I am not a virgin, it was a lie to draw you in." he laughed then as if to laugh at my stupidity and then he kissed me hard. When he pulled away my mouth still hurt "I won't lie babe this is going to hurt."

It did hurt, every moment seemed to break another part of me both physically and mentally and I knew my injuries were fatal and the part of me that loved him wanted them to be. The logical side of my mind knew he was going to feed and the pressure returned to my head, when he found release he bit down and started to feed, as he fed a part of me did die, the part that loved him withered away and left a hole that filled with pain and hate but the other part clung on even as the world dimmed and I felt my heart struggle against each pull the pressure in my mind built and then without warning there was a pop. I'm not lying it's what it sounded like, like the pop you get from bubble wrap when you have popped just one, and Edward stopped I was frozen my body wasn't moving I wasn't even breathing yet my heart beat slowly in my chest, and I wondered why he couldn't hear it as he moved off me. He wiped himself on my torn jeans before dressing. He licked his blood coated lips and moaned my eyes stared upwards unmoving but I could see him and I could also feel the heat at my neck, and I asked again why couldn't he hear my heart. Not that I wanted him to I wanted him dead and I knew the only way to ensure that was to survive to let myself turn. His phone rang and I prayed Alice hadn't seen anything.

"Is it done will they believe it?" he asked.

"Good, my god Alice she was delicious my only regret is that I can't have more, such a small body." He laughed then "Very funny Alice, Now tell me how is the future now?"

He walked around me then kneeled down he closed my eyes for me and I was still frozen not even breathing, but the heat was getting stronger.

"We always knew that was going to happen eventually, now that his mate is dead he will feel the loss and likely end his own life or get that hillbilly brother to do it for him." Edward chuckled and I wondered what he was talking about. "See you soon." He hung up and then my body was moving and fast as I felt the wind on my skin. I heard ground being moved and then I was thrown down into a hole, dirt covered me but I also felt roots my face remained uncovered and then I was alone. As the heat in my neck grew so did my rage the pressure in me built as the fire ran through my veins inch by inch in consumed me and my rage grew feeding the flame. I swore over and over I would kill them; I would hunt them down and make them suffer. I summited myself to the flames I didn't fight them because I knew they were healing me making me strong. When the fire started to recede the pressure built again and when it was only in my chest it exploded outward I felt air on my skin once more and then debris fell on top of me just as my heart took its final beats and I let a scream rip from my lungs.

With the fire gone my mind went out in a million different directions from what my ears could hear to what my nose could smell I kept my eyes shut as I tried to adjust. A strange vibration built in my chest as I smelt the remnants of him. His scent was sweater but I knew it was his and I wanted it off me my growl built and my muscles tensed as if there was a threat nearby however I knew I was alone. I focused on calming down; first things first get his scent off me. I took a few breaths and focused on what I could hear and I knew it was time to open my eyes, looking straight up I could only see cloud covered sky it was nighttime and yet I could see clearly as if it was a bright sunny day. Dirt and remnants of tree lay across my body and yet I found it easy simply to stand, what remained of my cloths hung from my body and I doubted they would survive much longer. I focused on the thing that had made me open my eyes and the moment I thought it I was running. It took but moments to cover the distance to the rushing river and I jumped in eager to clean myself, what was left of my jeans got washed away and when I finally climbed out I sighed in relief his scent was gone. I had worn three layers on my top half and the jumper was shredded the bra was thankfully intact and my tank top was ripped down the middle I bit my lip and took it wrapping it round my bottom half.

"Well at least I'm covered." My hand went to my mouth at the difference in my voice but I didn't have time to ponder it as the wind changed and brought a new scent hit me. By the time my mind caught up the buck was dead and I was licking blood off my lips. I growled in satisfaction and then the damn broke the hole that was filled with pain and hate burst open and I sobbed.

Although I didn't know the exact date I knew how long I had been awake, it had been two months, After my first hunt and sobbing session I realized that my revenge would have to wait. My bloodlust wasn't bad and I didn't even feel the burning that had been described at least until I was hunting and I wasn't about to test that against humans as when I smelt animal I was feeding before I could process what I was doing.

I hissed as the last remnant of the tank top fell away I was now naked my bra having fallen to a Grizzly I kicked out and smashed a boulder in half, before falling to my knees and crying again. I wasn't even sure where I was. I know I was further south as it was brighter and the forests were less dense, I was hesitant to go further but something inside seemed to be guiding me that way.

"I need clothes" I had taken to speaking my thoughts aloud to try and stave of the loneliness. I spent a week trying to build the courage to seek out clothing; I didn't want to hurt anyone. I edged closer to civilization the less populated towns a few houses backed on to the forest I was calling home, I held my breath it was uncomfortable but necessary.

I watched as far back as I could till there was only one house in view, If I concentrated I could hear the four heartbeats that moved about in the house but I tried not to as my throat would start to burn and the urge to take a breath became harder, during the day three went out so I guessed someone one was working and two were going to school It was the second day that I knew I would have to risk it. The woman who came out the house was middle aged she started to hang clothes on the line and I watched and waited until she went inside, I listened to where her Heartbeat was in the house and when it moved further into the house I dashed across to the clothes grabbing a top and some tracksuit bottoms before returning to the forest.

I Hope you enjoyed the first Chapter working on the second one now and hope to have it up and done by Sunday.