The rain was pouring down heavily, the thunder clouds moving along with its gusts. Down at the station, there sat Madoka and Sayaka. Madoka was holding her friend softly, as she felt tears dripping indicating that she's sobbing. Sayaka for the other hand didn't seem to notice but was very tired the fact after a rough witch hunt where she lost control, feeling no pain at all.
Both girls began to conversate beginning with Madoka who deeply felt heartbroken due to Sayaka's action that occurred previously. Sayaka responds in somewhat like she's given up on something. The conversation went on like that until Sayaka snapped at her dear friend who was basically trembling with widened eyes. The blue stood up beginning to leave the station, Madoka wanted to follow her but then-
"Don't follow me." Sayaka snapped coldly as she then took off, running away.
Madoka stood there trembling with tears running down her face, but it didn't end like that. The pink pig tails ran after her friend, charging at her at maximum level as she caught up to Sayaka, hugging her from behind. Sayaka stopped as she was trying to pull herself away immediately but failed to do so.
"Let go of me, Madoka!" Sayaka shouts coldly.
Madoka didn't respond to that. As Sayaka struggled to break away, Madoka then begins to speak clearly at this.
"I know I couldn't do anything to help you back there. I will definitely agree with that part of your critics, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you."
Sayaka stood silent, though stopped from struggling to break out.
"Seeing you like this, makes me suffer more the fact that I couldn't think or trying to come up with a solution to help you. No matter how much I've tried, I guess I'm really useless at this point."
Sayaka trembled at those last sentences. Why did those words seem to hurt?
"I want to help you no matter how hard it'll seem to be. If you suffer, I'll suffer with you. I may not know your pain but I can bare it with my own hands if I have to. I don't care what other people say about you. You're still Sayaka-chan, you'll always be you to me."
Madoka's words were able to reach to Sayaka's heart. Now understanding this feeling. Sayaka felt ashamed, guilt, and remorse. Not because of what just occurred but for all the crap she put her friend through. Without even considering the fact that she was making Madoka suffer through all that, the blue haired girl felt more remorse than normality. She felt Madoka trembling severely as her tears land on the ground.
"Just please...please...stop all of this...don't hurt yourself anymore. I don't know what to do without you...I beg you."
Sayaka felt like she wanted to cry and turns around softly. Madoka breaks away from her, falling on her knees, crying uncontrollably as tears land on the ground with the mixture of rain drops pouring down heavily. Though the girl didn't care for that matter. As the rain continuously pours down, Sayaka walks closer to the pink pig tails girl, bends on her knees, pulling her into a tight embrace.
Madoka was surprised. A small little gasp escaped from her lips.
"I'm sorry..." The bluenette whispered.
Madoka stood silent, looking down as her front bangs covering her teary eyes, making a dark shadow within. Sayaka was rubbing Madoka's back softly, embracing tightly, wanting her dear friend respond back. But since the silence was there, she was expected to say more than a simple apology. Sayaka doesn't blame her for it, knowing Madoka won't feel relieved.
"I hurt you...I made you go through all my drama not even trying to consider the fact that you were suffering on your own. Because of me...you're hurt, all messed up like this. I don't want you to fight for me...I...I've been a horrible bitch to you..."
Sayaka pulls away softly, now looking at the pink pig tails girl, now seeing her looking at the ground. The tear marks were shown, still tears filling up her eyes.
"Madoka...?"
"Don't ever do this again." Madoka's hand was firmly holding the hand of her best friend, being completely serious.
Sayaka sadly frowned, knowing that she maybe made her dear friend more upset. To make things be cleared, Sayaka helps Madoka get back at her feet, holding her by the waist gently. Madoka looks at Sayaka softly.
"Let's head home." The bluenette says softly.
Madoka stood silent but agreed.
"You're home is a little far so for now, stay at my place." Sayaka says.
"Okay..." Madoka nods.
Sayaka gently places her arm around Madoka's, beginning to walk forward the direction of her apartment. Madoka followed though she trembled the fact that she sensed Kyubey around, urging to convince her to Contract.
'I'm the only one whose fate is going to crumble...I'm going to die aren't I?' Madoka stopped walking, which made Sayaka stop as well, turning to face her.
"H-Hey Madoka...w-what's wrong...?"
Madoka felt the sensation of fear on her spine though slowly snapped to reality. As being all soaked from the rain, it's really hard to see. It became clear that her vision became blurry, her systems seem to be failing and the only reason behind this is because feeling weak, too much for her to handle. Sayaka gasped with wide eyed, knowing what's going to happen next. Madoka collapses towards the wet ground. Before landing, Sayaka caught her in time on her arms. The bluenette feared with utter shock, looking at her friend who simply passed out.
"M-Madoka, hang on!" Sayaka simply carries her friend, holding her tightly and runs off as fast as she could, reaching to a nearby building knowing that arriving home could be far, though if staying in a nearby building, who would help her?
As the bluenette tries to find ways, it seems that It wouldn't be necessary. Finally before over thinking it, she arrived at her apartment. Sayaka ran as fast as she could, still holding Madoka in her arms, soaking all wet from the storm that is still on going at this point. As running up stairs, arriving at her front door of her apartment, and goes in rapidly, the bluenette lays Madoka down gently on the couch.
'Damn it...this is all my fault...what have I done...' Sayaka felt tears filling up her eyes but then wipes them away.
Sayaka knew that Madoka wouldn't want her to blame herself but is it worth it though? 30 minutes they argued then 10 minutes of clearing and making up the situation and now this happened.
'I'll just have to make things up to her again. I'm literally the worst. Madoka...I'm so sorry...I...I...this is all my fault...because of me you've ended up like this...'
Sayaka grabbed the towels just to drying the remaining wet areas on her school uniform. After that she did the same with her friend.As that was done, the bluenette decided to change her clothing, doing the same with Madoka's. When doing so, something fell off of Madoka's skirt. Sayaka checked on the unknown item, which appeared to be a grief seed then along with it was a note. The bluenette was now curious what the note will say, other than that she decided to open it without any precaution.
This was handwritten by Madoka.
"I know...I know this is something I would usually never write...but since lots of frustrations and stuff have been bugging me, I just got to say this: Over the passed few days, Sayaka-chan isn't herself. And I know there's something wrong. She kept mentioning about how she wasn't good enough for the guy she has a crush on. She kept calling herself a zombie after finding out the truth behind magical girls. I just couldn't think of what to do...all I do is stand there and see her suffer...what can I do to help her? Maybe if I contract with Kyubey, maybe I can make things better...but who am I kidding, Homura is prohibiting me from ever doing that. She doesn't want me to go near or ever be a magical girl. If I can't, how am I supposed to help Sayaka? Ugh...I heard about my potential becoming extremely strong I don't know why but that doesn't sound good...I don't know what to do...I need to do something..."
Sayaka clenched on the note. No matter how many times it hurts, Madoka has always been there trying to think of some solution to help her. The bluenette felt bad for ever making her friend involved in her problems. But she needed someone to comfort her. Before doing anything, she resumed in changing their wet uniforms, putting on a warm pajamas on. They weren't the best but this is all she's got. Placing the note down besides Madoka, Sayaka decided to check her friend's temperature to see if she's got a fever.
'Damn it...her temperature is very hot. Not a good sign at all.' Sayaka stood up as she ran to a cabinet just right under the platform of the counter.
As she opens the cabinet, there were a bunch of packed medicine that was often never used, half of them expired since the previous month, the other half expires in 2 months priority. Sayaka grabs one and reads the label, pretty much a fever reducer, which could help her dear friend who just got sick. She grabs it gently, stood up and walks back to her friend who's beginning to wake up.
"M-Madoka..." Sayaka places the medicine down on the small table, and then walks up to Madoka, placing her hand on her forehead.
Madoka looks at Sayaka with small little smile, her eyes were half open.
"S-Sayaka...-"
"Shh...you'll be alright. I promise you. You really gave me a bad scare."
Madoka stood silent, though felt awful for scaring her friend like that.
"Hey...don't give that sad frown. I forgive you, okay? Don't worry about it. What you need is to rest. Here.."
Sayaka serves the medicine of a small cup, before doing so she measures the limit and how much to be given. Madoka just watched her friend doing this process as the medicine was handed to her.
"Here, drink this. It'll help reduce your fever and make you feel better hopefully by tomorrow."
Madoka sat up gently, as she drank the whole thing from the cup. Afterwards, she handed it back to Sayaka and lays down once again.
"Thank you, Sayaka."
Sayaka blushed at this but reassured her with a smile.
"H-Heh no problem. I'm just here to make it all better, Okay."
Madoka only nodded as her response. Before things went a little calmer.
"I want to apologize for what I wrote on that note." Sayaka then completely stopped for what she was doing, frozen.
She turned to face Madoka, who was frowning.
"M-Madoka...N-No don't apologize...wait..how did you know that I've read your note?"
Madoka chuckled a little bit.
"I've heard a small little crumbling noise. At that moment, I knew you were going to read it somehow. I mean I was asleep but since I've felt you exchanging our clothing, I knew you would find the note. I just heard that's all."
Sayaka suddenly sighed abit as she leans closer to embrace her friend.
"W-Well...I'm not mad and hopefully you're not upset about it. I mean...I get it...you were trying to find ways to find a solution with my problems but again, This has-"
"Nothing to do with me. I get that. I just want to help you but I know I'm pretty useless at that..."
Sayaka shakes her head.
"To be honest you're not. Madoka...look...for what I've said an hour ago...I didn't mean it...I was just so frustrated...So depressed so caught up that I thought that Kyousuke wouldn't even love me like this...I'm not even human anymore unfortunately. I knew that I crossed the line...I scared you...and even worst...I snapped and got you sick like this.."
Madoka felt tears filling up her eyes as she let them slip. She embraced Sayaka back. The bluenette knew she was going to be in a verge of tears when saying this.
"M-Madoka...I'm sorry...I really am. I'm sorry that I put you through all of this when clearly it wasn't your fault. I'm sorry for all of the horrible things I've done and said to you. You didn't deserve this. If only I've stopped and think about my actions, maybe things would've gone smoother.."
Madoka sniffed and she stood silent. She really wanted to forgive Sayaka for all that.
"Y-You...jerk..." Madoka mutters as she was sobbing abit from all of this.
Sayaka knew she would say that, but didn't mind at all. After all it was worth it.
"H-Hey...I promise this won't happen again. But can I ask you something?"
Madoka only nods while wiping her tears.
"Why is Homura preventing you from becoming a magical girl? Why is it bad to have a strong potential in you?"
Madoka shrugged at those questions. She really doesn't know how to answer them honestly.
"It's something...that could...um...affect me in a way that could opposedly hurt me or something. I really don't know the details. Though the potential one, I just have a feeling that's not so great...um...I really don't know to be honest but that's all I've got."
Sayaka understood if her friend doesn't feel like talking about it but as far as she knows a little of the reason maybe until she's ready, she could explain why. Though Sayaka looks down just right beside Madoka, it appeared to be a grief seed that she's staring at.
"Madoka...where did you get that grief seed?"
Madoka startled. She didn't contract yet, nor any other reason.
"I kinda stole it from Homura earlier while she wasn't looking. Which reminds me, can you pull out your soul gem?"
Sayaka nods and pulls out her soul gem in matter. Though why? Madoka simply reaches for the grief seed as she takes it from the ground then uses it to purify Sayaka's, taking every dark particles out to clean it up. Sayaka widen her eyes.
"Madoka-"
"Hush. I'm doing this for your own good. Don't ask please, I don't want to argue anymore." Madoka simply sighs and then took deep breaths.
Sayaka gulped and understood. It would be tiring if they argue any further after discussing and clearing up things.
"Thank you, Madoka...just thank you for today...even though I did such horrible things...I-"
"It's fine. I forgive you okay. No need to apologize further. I'm alright with everything. Let's just rest and we'll come up with something in the morning." Madoka reassured her with a smile which made Sayaka smile back.
"Sayaka please don't be upset but I've heard what's been going on between you and Hitomi."
Sayaka jumped and looks at Madoka with widen eyes.
"Y-You heard?"
"Oh yes. Everything. I know that Hitomi might've crossed the line a little but at least she's being a good friend, telling you about her feelings for Kyousuke. Plus if she didn't then that's not being a good friend. She doesn't want you to hate her for it." Madoka sighed.
Sayaka stares at Madoka for a moment and looks down. She's right, If Hitomi didn't tell her any of that then it would mean that their friendship they've built meant nothing to her. But to think about it now. Hitomi has always trusted Sayaka and Madoka. She would never keep secrets away from them or anything like it. She would always come straight up to them and tell everything that she feels she wants the both girls to understand.
Like earlier yesterday, Hitomi confronted Sayaka about Kyousuke, respecting her relationship with him and how she doesn't want to break their bonding and gives Sayaka at least a day to confess Kyousuke before Hitomi does.
"Hitomi doesn't want your friendship with her to be broken. She treasures your friendship deeper that she doesn't want you to think that she took Kyousuke away from you."
Sayaka then looks at Madoka who was completely frowning. In this case, she was right and Madoka doesn't want to see anymore chaos about this all over again.
"Madoka...I know what you're getting at and believe me...I know that feeling. You're right. I guess we can't keep distancing ourselves like this, fighting over someone we admired. But trust me, things will get better over the next few days. Until I get done clearing my head."
"What about Kyoko? You two barely don't even get along either. I know this may upset you at some point but you need to make up with her."
"I'm not so sure about her. After what happened the past few days, she even-"
"Sayaka, listen to me. I get it that she might've been selfish, but once you get to know her a little more than ignorance, you'll probably get to meet her soft side. Trust me, I went to look for her the other day and we started to chat. She told me stories about her family and stuff. That's where I finally get to meet her soft side."
Sayaka looks up at Madoka.
"Why are you encouraging her?"
Madoka looks at her back now a little determined.
"Is it wrong for me to do that?"
Sayaka gulped.
"Uh N-No. But you don't know what she's actually talking about. She may be-"
At this rate Madoka was in her serious mode, looking at Sayaka clearly. The bluenette knew that she might've upset her friend abit more. Which decides to hold back.
"Playing? Joking? A Trap? Let me ask you something, If My family were to be killed because of whatever reason, would you think that I'm playing around?"
"Uh...no...you'll cry and mourn."
"Exactly. Why would I joke around if I'm being serious. Seeing my family get killed...I won't allow that to happen. Heck...it'll be the worst feeling I'll ever experience."
Sayaka frowns. Then began to think about it.
"I'm sorry...it's just...I have lots of trust issues including her and of course that transfer student."
Madoka sighed.
"I knew you would say that. Just please understand this and hopefully I don't have to repeat myself all over."
Sayaka nods.
"I know...I'm sorry."
Madoka simply giggles.
"That's more like it. And I just realized even though I've said I don't want to argue no more, we argued again but on Kyoko this time."
Sayaka simply giggles at that statement.
"Heh my bad. Didn't mean to pressure you into another argument again."
Madoka smiles.
"I'm used to it so don't apologize."
Sayaka smiles and cuddles with Madoka as she lays down besides her.
"Let's just rest and we'll figure out what to do tomorrow."
Madoka nods and smiles.
"Alright then. Goodnight."
"Goodnight, Madoka."
Both fell asleep peacefully as it goes on. It was clearly a rough day but both were able to fix it just a quiet bit.
(To be continued)