So this fix-it was the result of a discussion over on the Lauriver discord. I want to thanks everyone over there who participated and who help me when it comes to fact-checking a lot about the later seasons. If anyone reading this fic is interested in joining the Lauriver server, please PM me for a link to join. The title of this fic is borrowed from a M*A*S*H episode of the same name.

Some housekeeping for this fic: 1. Flashpoint changed things so that E1 Laurel also always had a meta Cry, as I always found it weird that the criteria for her "replacement" was a meta Cry when E1 Laurel was never given one. So for this AU, she has it and for all intents and purposes to characters other than time travelers like Barry, has always had it. 2. Oliver and Felicity are not officially married in this AU. It will get delved into a little bit in this first chapter as to what their relationship status is, but just know the reception thing where Quentin gave Oliver his watch and stuff has not happened, and they do not have a marriage license.

I have the structure of the second part to this planned out (as well as a tie-in oneshot to conclude E2 Laurel's story in this AU) but it is not written yet, so I'm not sure when it will be completed. At any rate, I hope you enjoy this first part, and thanks for reading!

Fade In, Fade Out
Chapter One

Laurel Lance, formerly of Earth 2, had a problem. Well, several problems. Actually, they were all the same problems she'd had before, only now they were even more compounded by the precarious position she'd placed herself in. Namely, impersonating a dead woman.

It had been the best way to ensure she could no longer be held by this or that group in this or that cell. She'd been tired and hurting and so, so fed up with it all. So she'd let herself finally do the one thing she'd been avoiding for almost two years now: be seen.

Now she was Laurel Lance, miraculously rescued darling of Star City. A former ADA with a sterling reputation and a loving family and friends. How nice.

While it had bought her a temporary reprieve, it was clear this had not solved all her problems the way she'd hoped it might. Diaz was still sending his men sniffing around to threaten her and her doppelganger's father. The bitch in the Black Canary suit was still breathing down her neck, probably barely holding back thanks to her team. And this Earth's Oliver was continuing his sanctimonious bull about caring one minute then pulling back the next and pretending as if they were perfect strangers.

He was worried she was going to ruin his Laurel's reputation. Maybe she should, since he'd pretty thoroughly wrecked her own image of Ollie, try as she might to maintain him in her mind. But doing anything too out of character for this Earth's Laurel would just put her right back into danger.

Her old way of doing things had lacked security, but now it was hard for her to make any kind of move thanks to public scrutiny. She needed to be able to get away; a new fresh start on this godforsaken Earth. But she needed to keep Diaz and all her other enemies looking one way while she snuck off in the other direction. But how to do it?

And then, it turned out, the opportunity presented itself.

Quentin, her doppelganger's father, took a call late one night. It was from this Earth's Thea Queen, who was apparently saying goodbye.

"And Nyssa thinks there's more of these Pits? Well that's, that's something… I've never even heard of these places you're saying. Ojos del — well, whatever you said. And where's that Kamchatka, that sounds — oh, Russia. Yeah, I wouldn't have guessed that. Well, you'll be seeing a lot more of the world than most people do."

Laurel sat there, not really reading the law book he had pressed on her for the umpteenth time. If they were talking about a Pit, was this that magic Pit thing that wasn't supposed to exist anymore? The one that brought people back from the dead or whatever? The dead were dead, no matter if you came to a whole separate Earth and met them again.

That's something, he'd said, with such a wistful tone to his voice. She knew exactly what he was thinking, and it burned in her gut, angry and jealous despite it all. If he wanted his Laurel back, why didn't he go do it instead of trying to force her to be her? Ugh, it sounded confusing even in her own head.

But as she glowered across the room at him while he talked to the other Thea on that phone, she took him in. Old, thin, frail as he was, he could never make that kind of journey. Great, now she was feeling pity, too.

The more she thought about it, though, the more she realized that these Pits still being active was something. Something that could help her, too. If she wanted everyone's eyes off her, why not give them something else to look at? Watch the birdie.

Laurel took out her phone and made liberal use of autocorrect and suggested search to find the information she needed about Kamchatka. Then she started searching for plane tickets.

Later, after Quentin was sleeping, Laurel went out that night to the cemetery with a shovel, hoping to God this wasn't part of some officer's beat. There was nothing much she could do once she'd dug up the casket besides shovel the dirt back on top and pack it down. Maybe people would assume the casket had been removed since she wasn't supposed to be underground anymore. And now her doppelganger wasn't either.

Getting her on a plane wasn't too difficult, but God was she glad she'd borrowed some money from Quentin so she could hire some help to carry the thing up the mountain.

"I want to see the springs," she told her guides. "The ones off the beaten path. You know what I mean, right?" If there were rumors about these Pits, they had to come from somewhere.

The two exchanged glances. "No one goes to those springs now."

"And why not?" Damnit, had the idiots already destroyed this one?

"There are men. They guard the springs jealously."

Oh. The other guys. Right. Tommy's weird evil dad's minions or whatever.

Laurel shrugged. "I think I can handle myself. You two wait here with my birdcage." Leaving them to exchange perplexed glances, Laurel turned and continued her march through the mountain range.

It was funny. She could have wandered around here for days without finding it, except that, two hours into that, out of the shadows leapt a man in ninja gear. That kind of blew the whole thing, didn't it?

Laurel knocked him right off the cliff with her scream, then twisted the arm of his buddy who tried to attack her from behind, getting possession of his sword and stabbing him in the gut with it. He dropped to his knees, cursing in some foreign tongue while Laurel examines her new sword.

"Not my style, usually, but I think I'm gonna keep this. Thanks."

He didn't reply. Probably because he was dead. Well, she'd at least made this easier for Speedy and Friends whenever they showed up.

She found the casket abandoned on the path by the time she got back. Huh. Maybe she should have paid those guys extra. Quentin wasn't made of money, though. No matter how much he was going to owe her once this whole thing was done.

Few things sucked more than carrying a dead body up a mountain by yourself. One of the things that did suck more was carrying a dead body that looked exactly like you up a mountain by yourself. Laurel did her best to keep her eyes on the path as she put one step forward after the other. When she finally found the crevice in the rocks that led into the springs, she sighed in relief.

This was definitely the place. The ninjas had set up a small encampment to the side of the cave, and in the center bubbled a mysterious-looking water.

"This better work," Laurel muttered to herself, then unceremoniously dumped the body into the waters with a splash that had her quickly backing away to avoid the droplets.

What would it be like, meeting the fabled Perfect Laurel? Was it rose-tinted glasses that had everyone on this Earth making her out to be a saint?

She paced the edge, waiting for some kind of sign she hadn't been duped. The waters had gone totally still. What the hell was she going to have to do, fish her doppelganger out? She hadn't even brought a net.

Then the waters started bubbling again like someone had flipped the switch for the hydro-jets. She slowed, laying a hand on the hilt of her new sword.

With no warning, the previously dead body made an impossible leap from the waters, landing in a crouch with her hair hanging in her face like a wet curtain.

"Shit," Laurel breathed to herself.

Her doppelganger's head snapped up, eyes wild and mouth snarling. Certainly nothing like a saint. She had a split second to recognize the pulling back of her lips for what it was before she was ducking to avoid a sonic scream. She retaliated, catching her disoriented doppelganger in the side and sending her rolling across the cave floor. She didn't get up.

Laurel listened to make sure they hadn't caused some kind of cave-in, but it sounded like the rock was holding. Then she crept over to see if she'd accidentally killed the other woman again. The rise and fall of her chest said she was still breathing. Good.

What the hell had the whole wild woman act been, though? Was it permanent? What was she going to do with her if it was?

It was weird watching herself. Laurel paced to the other side of the Pit and stood against the wall, waiting.

She'd give her doppelganger half an hour before she just placed the return plane ticket at her feet and took off.

Laurel, always of Earth 1 and formerly dead, shivered as she came to, rolling onto her side and curling in on herself with cold. She was soaked to the skin and exposed to the open air of whatever this place was. Her ears were also ringing. She shook her head, feeling her damp hair sticking to the side of her face.

"Ugh."

"You said it."

Laurel blinked and looked around. How had she heard her own voice come from another direction?

Leaning against a rocky wall was her. Or, it looked exactly like her. "What is this?" Was it some kind of illusion? A person that could mimic appearances. Though while this other her was dressed in sensible gear for what looked like hiking a mountain, she discovered she was in one of her nicer but rather thin dresses. God, it was freezing.

"What do you remember?" The other her asked.

"Talking to Oliver?" She'd been trying to encourage him, because she'd known he was probably beating himself up about her getting hurt, and then everything went kind of fuzzy after that. She thought she could remember him shouting for someone…

"Ugh, of course you do," the other her said, rolling her eyes. "Okay, basically you've been dead for about two years—"

"Wait, what?"

"And I just brought you back. You're welcome! Only took your own doppelganger from another Earth to get the job done."

Her doppelganger. That's what this was. So she was from Earth 2, she was pretty sure Team Flash had called it. Where they there now? It would explain why there was what had to be a Lazarus Pit to the right of her even though Nyssa had destroyed the one at Nanda Parbat.

"Why did you bring me back?" There was something about this other her's attitude that suggested it wasn't strictly out of the kindness of her heart. She reminded Laurel uncomfortably of some of her worst behaviors in the midst of her spiral.

Her doppelganger smiled, and it definitely wasn't nice. "Smart question. See, I've been trying to live my life on this Earth for the last almost two years, but things keep getting in the way. Mostly the people from your life. So I figure if I give them you back, they won't keep bothering me. We're even, see?"

There was so much she wasn't being told, and she wished that wasn't a new feeling. "You've been pretending to be me?"

"Only for a little bit. Hey, at least you don't have to come up with a story for the press as to how you're still alive. Someone can fill you in on the cover. I'm heading out of here and do not follow me." Her doppelganger hefted a duffle bag higher on her shoulder.

"How am I supposed to get home from wherever this is?" She gestured down again her bare feet and lack of possessions.

The other her grumbled impatiently. "Here, take some of this stuff." She grabbed a pair of black boots and a League-standard tunic from a small pile near the other end of the cave they were in. Laurel hurried to put both on, not really caring to ask who they typically belonged to when it meant she could finally warm up a little.

A passport hit her in the face. Then a printed out boarding pass came flying, which she caught before it could smack her as well.

"Tag, you're it," her double said. "And I guess you can have your dad's credit card back."

Laurel straightened back up. "You stole his—"

"Of course I did. I'm getting his precious daughter back for him, so what's he going to miss a few hundred bucks for? I only bought plane tickets and a guided tour, calm down."

Laurel did not calm down, and instead marched over to her double and snatched the card from her lose grasp. "You might think the snarky act helps protect you from other people hurting you, but let me tell you from experience that it just hurts worse watching everyone walk away."

Her double glared, leaning into her space. "You don't know anything about me."

"I am you. Or I was." Laurel shook her head. "Why have you even been staying on this Earth? Haven't you got your own?"

"And nothing there to return to." She could see in the mirror image of her own eyes a deep-set pain and sadness. Laurel wanted desperately to ask, but she had a feeling she wasn't supposed to be seeing it at all.

They stared at each other for a long moment.

"Look, there's no point to this. We can't both be you, unless we want to pretend you've been lying about being an identical twin your whole life," her doppelganger finally said. "I'm leaving. Wait five minutes, then head down the mountain path. There's a little touristy station set up at the bottom, and they can direct you to the airport."

"You're really just going to lay low the rest of your life on some totally strange Earth?"

"About the only option I have left. Believe me, I'm looking forward to semi-retirement." With that, her double turned and walked out of the cave, with not even a snarky goodbye to show for it. Laurel winced; she'd been pretending to be her? Did the others know, or did they all think she'd come back from the dead with that attitude?

She had no watch, so Laurel guessed at five minutes and headed down the path. Sure enough, the tourist trap at the bottom of the mountain did have information on transportation to the nearest airport. She also discovered she was in Eastern Russia.

Laurel prioritized getting to the airport over getting access to a phone. Her flight was pre-scheduled, after all. She bought some new clothes for herself before boarding so she didn't have to come into the Star City airport looking like a terrorist. Thankfully, her father hadn't cancelled his credit card. She'd pay him back, assuming she still had a job.

She couldn't believe she was really back from the dead. Around nothing but strangers, it didn't feel real. She also couldn't sense anything like the bloodlust Thea had had, but she wasn't really experiencing anything that might trigger her anger. But she'd need to figure out if there was a way to get more of that Lotus sooner rather than later.

Thea, her father, the team and Ollie, how were all of them? What had she missed in her years of being dead? Did they miss her or think about her at all? It would be selfish of her to wonder if Oliver ever thought about what she'd confessed to him, right? Even she'd known that was nothing but a memory now. Hopefully he and everyone else were just happy and safe, at least as much as they could be in their line of work.

She followed her fellow passengers out into the Star City airport, breathing a little easier now that she knew she was back in her home. No matter how much she or it changed, she'd always feel that way.

Laurel started looking for a help desk, but a hand landed on her upper arm before she could take more than two steps.

"Let's go."

Laurel froze. "Ollie?"

He looked about the same as she remembered. It had only been two years, after all. But his expression was guarded, even hostile as he looked down at her. She almost wanted to draw back from him.

"Quentin called. Whatever you've been setting up in Russia, you're going to tell me and him."

"I wasn't setting anything up. I just came back to life." It was occurring to her that he thought she was her own doppelganger, that this dislike and distrust wasn't really for her. "I'm the real me, Oliver. I'm not the other Earth one."

His eyes widened for a second, before he shut down again. "Come on." He yanked on her arm to get her moving.

He thought she was lying. Well, they were going to see her father, apparently, so she could just convince them both at the same time. It figured her own doppelganger would leave her a mess to clean up.

Oliver didn't trust himself to speak as he guided her out to the car. The fact that she wanted to try this game again, fooling him, was proof that he'd been right to doubt her attempt to turn over a new leaf. God, what was she planning to do to Laurel's reputation? Her legacy?

"Ollie, please," she said as he turned the key in the ignition. "I'm telling the truth. One minute, I was in the hospital with you and the next, I was waking up in some cave in Russia with an identical copy of myself telling me I'd been dead for two years."

"A Lazarus Pit."

"From what I could tell."

He smirked to himself, but nothing was funny. "The only Lazarus Pit my Laurel knew about was destroyed, so why would she assume she'd been resurrected with one?"

"Because I made an educated guess when I woke up soaked to the bone next to a bubbling hot spring. Why can't you ever just believe me?" She demanded, and it sounded so much like her — the real her — that it tore at his heart. Oliver kept his eyes on the road.

"Because you've done this before."

"My doppelganger." Her head dropped back against the seat rest. "Oliver, I don't know what she must have done or said the past two years, but I promise that's not me. I don't want to think I could be that cruel to try and trick you like that twice."

"Then where's your other self?" He avoided describing it in a way that made it sound like he believed her. Even if everything — her tone, her inflections, the chunky knit sweater she was bundled in, just the way that she moved — was perfect in a way Black Siren had never managed.

This Laurel didn't seem like she was mocking herself.

She sighed wearily. "I wish I had a better answer, but she took off. Said she wanted to get away from all of this, so she was tapping me back in."

Oliver frowned. She'd only been impersonating Laurel in the public eye for a short while. Would she really give up the visibility and protection against Diaz that Quentin kept claiming she wanted so soon? Unless — and something cold seized his heart — this was the visible protection. A Laurel out there in the public eye and Diaz's sights while she ran off for who-knew-where.

Could she really be? He looked in her eyes for the first time and couldn't detect any hint of a lie. Yet somehow it still felt like he was falling into some sort of trap.

"Ollie, you're going to miss the turn," she said. "If that's still where my dad lives."

"Uh, right." He made it sharp, then pulled up outside the apartment building. He started up to his unit and she fell right into step with him without a word.

Quentin answered the door after two knocks. He'd been expecting them since he'd been able to get the number of the return flight off his credit card purchase. Oliver had volunteered to collect her in case something more was going on than a simple joyride on Quentin's money. Now he wasn't sure what to say to the man.

"So, five-hundred bucks later, how do you feel?" Quentin asked her.

"Daddy, I'm so sorry," she answered, stepping forward and wrapping him into a hug. Quentin's eyes went wide and his arms hovered in the air. He looked to Oliver.

"She's—" Oliver cleared his throat and tried again. "She's claiming to be our Laurel."

Quentin gaped. "How?"

"I can explain, I promise," She said, then looked up. "But how are you?" One of her hands rested over Quentin's chest.

"I- I'm not sure," he answered.

Oliver started ushering them all inside on the off chance one of the neighbors stepped outside and heard this. They gathered in Quentin's sitting room, Quentin on the couch, Oliver standing against the side wall and her pacing the space between couch and coffee table.

"Okay, so I guess there's a Lazarus Pit or something like it in Eastern Russia. There's this mountain range called Kamchatka."

"I was talking to your sister on the phone about that," Quentin said to him. "She — Earth 2, I mean — was in the room with me."

"I didn't see Thea or anyone else, but I think the League might have been set up there at some point," she continued. "Someone's things were left behind."

"Malcolm's people," Oliver said, and watched her nod. "He's dead, by the way."

Siren already knew that, but this Laurel's shock looked genuine. "How did it happen?"

"He took Thea's place on a landmine."

Her eyebrows raised even higher. "Contradictory to the end, then. Where's Thea now?"

"On a mission with Nyssa and Roy." He wondered if she thought she'd have better luck convincing his sister. Oliver wasn't so sure, because at the moment he badly wanted to be convinced even despite the warning voices in his head urging him to hold back.

"So your doppelganger brought you back with this Pit?" Quentin asked. "I mean, why? And why the hell didn't we think of that first?"

"The bloodlust, for one thing." Assuming she was telling the truth, this Laurel would need the Lotus cure the same as Thea had two years ago. Oliver crossed his arms. "Have you felt any symptoms?"

"Not so far. But it's only been a couple days since I came back." She looked from one of them to the other. "Do I have a grave we could check so you both feel more sure about this? I can tell you I woke up in my navy blue evening dress. It was a little cold for Russia."

"I want to believe you, honey, of course I do," Quentin said. "You have no idea what I'd give to have you back with us."

"Then just give me some trust," she said, reaching for his hands. "I'm your daughter. I almost went to work at a corporate law firm in San Francisco until you called me out because you knew that wasn't who I was. I used to race Sara up the tree in our yard, and I always let her win after the first time when I made her cry and you told me it was my job to take care of her. We went out to dinner before everything at the prison happened, and you told me you were proud of what I was doing as the Black Canary, and I finally felt like I had made it somehow! Like I'd done right by you," She said, her voice wavering.

Quentin stood, one of his hands cupping her cheek. "It's really you. It has to be. Oh, my baby girl." He crushed her to him, drawing in a ragged breath as she held on just as tight. "I don't know why she did it, but I'm just so glad it's really you."

Oliver had to look away. It was too hard to watch. If this was some trick, it would only hurt all the worse once it was revealed. If this was real, then he'd been nothing but cold to her since she'd returned. Why did he always have to screw up when it came to her? He knew what he felt deep in his heart, but every time it came for him to act, he just—

"Ollie." She had come up to him at some point, and he hadn't realized he was that far into his own head. "I know I can't ask you to trust me. But you know me better than anyone."

He stared at her, willing himself to find some small thing out of place. If he didn't see it now and he let himself believe, he would be lost. He knew that much about himself. And if it was all a lie, he didn't think he could find his way back out again this time.

"What did you tell me in the hospital?" He finally asked, his voice sounding gruff to his ears.

"That you shouldn't try to take on everything alone," she said. "Even if you feel you have to to protect everyone."

She was right that those had been some of her last words, and yet he couldn't be certain that they were the only two who knew that; he himself had told Felicity, and as much as he wanted to believe she wouldn't have spread it, he didn't have that guarantee.

"And the other thing?"

She hesitated, glancing back at Quentin and licking her lips. "I told you that you were the love of my life and always would be."

He heard Quentin make some startled sound, but he was too blurry in Oliver's vision to make out any expression. He blinked a couple times, trying to clear it so that he could see her — Laurel — and he stepped forward, cupping her face with both hands, and kissed her forehead.

Oliver wrapped her in a hug after, as it sunk in that he didn't have to leave this time. She was here in the real world with them. Laurel was alive, so much more than a dream.

She rested her hands at his back, seeming unsure, and he felt a fresh wave of guilt over how he had practically shunned her since finding her at the airport. He held her just a little bit tighter for a moment before finally letting her go, stepping back and running both hands over his face in an excuse to wipe at his eyes.

"I'm sorry."

"No, I understand why you needed to check." Her eyes stayed more on the floor than on her father as she turned to him and asked, "Could I use your guest room for a little? The time difference is kind of catching up to me."

"Of course, honey. I, uh, had it set up for your doppelganger, but she took her things with her so it's open." The father and daughter headed back down the hall while Oliver walked over and sank onto the couch with unsteady legs.

Laurel was back. Truly. It was nearly overwhelming in its relief and yet the enormity of that fact was also hitting him. How did he explain this to Thea and the others hunting to find and destroy the Pits? How did he explain this to his team, whose experiences with the Laurel they'd known ranged from bad to worse? To his son, who was aware of the hero Laurel had been — and still was, now — but who had been warned to keep away from the woman who looked like her?

Quentin returned, taking his own seat in the armchair across. "I'm dreaming, right?"

"Feels like one," Oliver agreed, knowing he had the experience to support that feeling. But there had been no strange glitches, and he was aware of all his memories, good and bad. This was all real.

"You'd think I'd get used to this. My daughters coming back, the whole world changing around us."

Oliver nodded.

"Laurel and you."

He froze and looked up, meeting Quentin's gaze. "I… needed to know it was her."

"Course you did. But I need to know things, too. Like just what your intentions are. I mean, you're practically engaged, Oliver."

He winced. "In a manner of speaking." The thought caused his heart to sink deep down into his stomach or somewhere near it. A feeling he'd been having lately when his thoughts turned to Felicity and their tentative agreement.

Tentative because, and perhaps predictably, he'd started reconsidering at perhaps the worst possible moment: after their impromptu wedding alongside Barry and Iris. He had called the speedster up after the West-Allens had taken their honeymoon, just to catch up.

"We're mostly just working on thank you cards now. Apparently super-fast writing also leads to super-fast hand cramps," Barry had told him.

"Well, feel free to skip ours. Actually, what did we get you? Felicity never said."

"Oh. It was, uh, an espresso machine."

There was something off in the way Barry had said it, the pause and then the flat tone at the end. "Is it not working?"

"No, it does. I mean, I think so. I don't actually drink much coffee since the caffeine doesn't affect me," Barry had admitted with an awkward laugh.

"Oh." Oliver had felt his cheeks redden. He'd known that, thinking back on it. Shouldn't Felicity have known that? He should have checked with her before they bought something, but she tended to take those things upon herself since she said teaching him Amazon was beyond her pay grade. "I guess Iris is making use of it?"

"A little. It wasn't, uh, it wasn't on the registry." He'd been able to visualize the uncomfortable shuffling Barry must have been doing on the other end as he spoke. "She kind of had her fill of making coffee at Jitters, you know?"

"Right." Oliver had closed his eyes, very tempted to pinch the bridge of his nose. "Could you send me the registry list? I can—"

"No, don't buy something else. It's fine. I mean, we're not upset or anything."

"About the gift," Oliver had finished for him. "But you're upset about something else." Barry wouldn't have even gone into any detail on the gift like this if something hadn't been bothering him.

"Upset's a strong word, Ollie. It's just, you know, after the wedding was crashed and we lost Professor Stein and everything else, it kind of didn't feel like our day anymore. And then we figured out a way to get some of that back and- and—"

"And we made it about us," Oliver had realized with a wave of shame. What had ever possessed him to think that would have been a good idea? Yes, Felicity had asked, but he had been the one to start using the wedding backdrop as a way to hint he thought they should move things forward, and in doing so had upstaged Barry and Iris at their own celebration.

It had been the Lance family dinner all over again, where he'd subordinated Laurel's feelings or those of Sara's parents to a relationship he and she had wanted to try and force into working. Why was he always so selfish?

"Barry, I'm sorry. I don't know what can make that up to you—"

"Look, we can just drop it, okay? What's done is done." Barry had sounded desperate to move on. "I just hope things work out for both of us, you know? We both got our dream come true."

Oliver had hesitated.

"Right?"

"Yeah. Right," he'd managed uncomfortably. Then he'd made some excuse or other and hung up the phone. He'd only felt it would have been an even lower blow to Barry to admit that his wedding hadn't been interrupted by Oliver's dream — far from it.

His dream was now sleeping just twenty feet down the hall.

Oliver dropped his head into his hands, feeling it starting to throb in his temples. He knew he loved Laurel and always would, had stopped denying that to himself over a year ago. But he was in a relationship — even a relatively chaste one since his misgivings about their not-quite wedding — with Felicity.

He'd been using William as an excuse, which wasn't fair, but what he now couldn't determine was, was it fair to William to have introduced Felicity into his life as a sort of surrogate only to end things with her? Or was his growing unhappiness in that relationship only going to teach his son a warped version of love and family?

They'd had no marriage certificate when they'd jumped in on Barry and Iris' ceremony. They still didn't. They weren't really married. And he didn't really want to ever be now. But was it right for him to start something with Felicity because he had been lonely and heartbroken, only to end it because the reason for his loneliness and heartbreak no longer existed?

"I know how I feel, I just don't know what to do," he admitted finally. Oliver jumped a little when a hand landed on his shoulder.

"Well, the first thing you gotta do is be honest with yourself and with the people in your life about how you're feeling."

"How do I do that without hurting someone?"

"Sometimes you can't," Quentin told him. "Sometimes you just can't control how people are gonna feel, Oliver. But you have to let them feel it in their own way."

He was right. He was right, and Oliver knew it. He also knew that avoiding the truth to avoid pain was one of his greatest failings. But by God, he had to get past this. Not for his sake, but for the people in his life.

"I should inform the team so they can start getting used to the idea," Oliver decided. "And I need to talk to Felicity."

She deserved an explanation, uncomfortable as it might make him to give it. He should have been honest with her about his remaining feelings for Laurel whether she was dead or alive, that it would always be a part of him. He would be honest with her now.

Oliver left the apartment, turning and heading down the block. But as he looked back over his shoulder at the building, he frowned.

The window of the guest bedroom was open.

He turned back around, walking and then breaking out into a jog. By the time he reached the hallway to Quentin's floor, he was flat-out running.

Oliver rapped on the doorframe, waiting with impatience for it to open. Quentin blinked in surprise when he did so. "What—"

"I need to check something." He walked straight back down the hall and knocked on the guest bedroom door. "Laurel?"

"You said you already checked it was her, and she's sleeping," Quentin argued.

"I'm not checking that it's her, I'm checking—" The door was unlocked and almost bounced off the wall when he threw it open.

Oliver's heart froze.

"She- she's gone!" Quentin exclaimed behind him. He brushed past Oliver, going to the window and sticking his head out. "Laurel!"

It did no good, as she hadn't been anywhere outside when he'd noticed the open window. Why had she gone? Where had she gone? Whatever the reason or location, he had to find out, and fast.

He couldn't lose her again. Not this time.