A/N: Hey guys! I've been thinking about this story for awhile (since the s14 finale) and I am finally getting around to writing it. It will revolve mostly around s15 and the characters' personal lives. I will TRY to update weekly. Please let me know what you think.

She said it.

The secret was out. JJ was as shocked as Reid… well, almost. Of all the times she had imagined saying those words, this was not one of them.

Now, standing outside, Reid getting his hand bandaged, JJ wished she could take it back. All she could picture was the look on Reid's face after her confession. He looked almost broken. She wanted to talk to him, but that wasn't an option with their team, and the other officers, standing around. Even if she did get the chance, JJ wouldn't know what to say. She almost laughed at that thought… no idea what to say to Spence.

"You okay?"

The sound of Rossi's voice pulled JJ out of her head. "Yeah, I'm fine." She couldn't help but steal a glance at Reid.

Truthfully, Reid knew that JJ kept looking at him, but he really couldn't meet her eyes right now. If he did, she would be able to read him like an open book.

All Reid wanted was to tell JJ that he reciprocated the feeling, but it wasn't near that simple. First off, he didn't even now If she meant it. He wished with all of his heart that she did, but he honestly didn't know. Spencer Reid was one of the best profilers the bureau had ever seen, but in that moment, he couldn't even tell if his best friend was bluffing for the sake of an unsub.

Even if JJ did mean it, what could that possibly mean for them?

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The team wrapped up the case and flew back to DC as soon as they could, but by then it was already the next morning.

JJ took her time driving home. She knew Will would be at work, and the boys would be at school. She really just needed time to think. Obviously she couldn't talk to Reid on the plane, they barely even looked at each other, and then Reid had left as soon as they got to the BAU. JJ didn't know whether to be upset or relieved by that.

The truth was, JJ had wanted to tell Reid how she felt at the beginning of her BAU career, but the timing was so wrong. She was scared… and then so many things happened to them and the team. Then she met Will, and had Henry… and Michael, later on. JJ really did love her husband, but she always had this small voice in the back of her mind, saying that she only stayed with him because of the kids. She didn't want Henry and Michael to grow up in a broken home.

JJ sighed. When did everything become so complicated? At least she had the rest of the day off. Maybe she could get her thoughts in order before she had to face Reid again. That would be tomorrow at Rossi's wedding… but before that, she had to face Will, and she didn't know how to do that right now. She felt guilty.

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Reid went home to his silent apartment, not able to keep his mind off of his blonde coworker. He had always loved her… ever since his first year at the BAU, but everything happened with Tobias Hankel, and the dilaudid. By the time Reid had finally gotten himself straightened out, JJ had already met Will.

After that, Reid knew he had lost his chance. So he put everything he had into being JJ's friend, and then the boys' godfather. He did a good job pushing aside his true feelings for her. It had worked… until her confession. Whether JJ meant her confession or not, it brought back all of Reid's feelings… that, if he was being honest with himself, never truly went away.

Spencer knew he shouldn't be in love with his best friend, with his coworker, but he truly couldn't help it. JJ was the best person he knew. She's beautiful… and not just in physical appearance, but in soul and personality as well.

Trying to clear his head, Reid stretched out on his couch with a book he knew from memory. He would give anything to go back and change it all.