Hello. Sorry for the long wait. I was kinda side-tracked by the manga(s) i was reading. Sooo, gomen!️️️

P.S: Ignore all grammar and spelling errors and everything that's wrong. I'm really not myself right now.

CHAPTER 4

"I asked what happened to you Kurosaki!" Uryuu later asked again, unable to stand the suffocating silence between them anymore.

"What happened to the brash, rude and stubborn teen I have met before? You are never this...weak. What happened?" He continued solemnly this time.

"Don't you understand Ishida? Things changed and that was then. This is my now. This is me now. This is all I have left. "

"Then what changed? What made you like this?" Uryuu pushes on, deliberately ignoring the continuously growing sinking feeling on the pit of his stomach.

"Did you already forgot? The world made me like this. Everyone made me like this. You made me like this." Kurosaki answered accusingly without meaning to. He just don't know what to think or do anymore, he's just so tired.

Upon hearing it, Uryuu was unable to stop himself from flinching. No, Uryuu is not going to admit it to anyone else but he knew. Even before Kurosaki replied he knew that they've done something unforgivable, but damn if it didn't hurt like bitch.

He had been there. He had felt the hopelessness of losing your powers and being unable to do anything, so he knew that it wouldn't end up well when Kurosaki-sensei told them to give Kurosaki some space and normalcy in his life after he lost his powers(in reality it was actually his way of forbidding everyone connected to the spiritual world from interacting with his son). He wanted to argue with Kurosaki-sensei when he told them that, because Kurosaki didn't left him hanging when he lost his powers, (damn it!, he actually tried to help), but he can't. He doesn't have the right to.

"Why is it so easy for everyone to forget? To forget about me so easily after I lost my powers? I hoped, wished even, for someone to understand, to ask me how I felt losing them or even just to be there for me. It should have been enough. But no, every single one left. Even the one's I hope to stay. Especially you. I thought you'd understand. You've been here before, in my place." Kurosaki ignored the flinch and miserable look in Ishida's face and continued talking. Because damn it! If there is someone more deserving to feel miserable it was him! (If he isn't already feeling it)

"I do. I understand. It may not look like it but I do. You know I do. You said it yourself, I've been there. And it wasn't my choice to make in regards to us distancing ourselves from you. You father told- no, ordered us- to leave you alone to cope. It's a shitty excuse I know but its the truth. We didn't like it but we didn't have a choice." Uryuu interjected on Kurosaki's small pause.

He had to say something. Not to justify their choice but to atleast explain to Kurosaki why they made their choice.

"So you just left? Just like that? Like our times together doesn't mean anything because I lost connection to that something that put us together? My Father didn't have a say on my life, Ishida! You should know that! I may be his son but his opinion cease to matter when he hid the truth all my life! You didn't have to listen to him! You shouldn't have listened to him!"

Kurosaki almost laugh bitterly at that. A parent who should have kept his child from all the pains and heartbreaks the world would give is actually the reason why he's suffering right now. Just how ironic does that sound?

Uryuu, unable to do anything in shame, only bowed his head down.

Kurosaki, unable to hold his emotions anymore, started tearing up, painfully grasping his orange hair.