When I Was A Little Girl
Prologue
By: Chibi J
Rated: G, but does involve death
This is an alternate reality. Eventually, all of the senshi will be involved, if Pluto doesn't kill me for messing with the time line first!
I don't make any claim to owning Sailor Moon. I leave that to people who can afford to pay their rent.
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When I was a little girl, my mother told me that I was a miracle. She said that an angel had descended from heaven and blessed her with the most beautiful baby girl. My father told me the full moon had shone so brightly the night I was born that it seemed almost daylight. He said that I was born with a full head of hair that shined so that even the sun was jealous. Grandmother Tsukino believed that I would change the world. Grandfather Tsukino said that I would break hearts.
When I was five years old, my mother gave birth to a boy. My parents named him Shingo. My mother said that he was a wonderful gift and my father was proud to know that the family name would carry on. I thought that he was a little squirmy, but Grandfather Tsukino assured me that I was worse when I was a baby. Grandmother Tsukino told me that I should be proud to be a big sister. I promised her that I would always take care of him.
When I was seven years old and Shingo was two, my mother sent us to visit with our grandfather, her father. My mother, father, Grandmother and Grandfather Tsukino were going on a trip to America. Grandfather Tsukino's brother had left a large estate to my family and they had to go to New York for the reading of the will.
Although I hated being separated from my parents, I rather enjoyed visiting with Grandfather Hikui. My cousin Hino Rei, although we looked nothing alike, was the same age as me. It was nice to play with her, especially since Shingo was going through his terrible twos and often threw temper tantrums.
My parents had been gone almost a week when my Grandfather Hikui told me that my mother was on the phone and wanted to talk to me. She assured me that they were finally completed with all of the paperwork surrounding my great uncle's death and she would be home in a couple days.
"My little bunny, I will see you at home shortly. I have presents for you and Shingo. I also have a special surprise for you both. I love you dearly. Give your brother a kiss and tell him that I'll see him soon."
"Momma, I miss you."
"I know dear. But do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
"Yes Momma. I love you."
"I love you too, my darling Usako."
I hung up the phone and smiled. Shingo walked in the room and I shared the news that mother and father would soon be returning. At first he pouted, because I did not call him to the phone to talk to mother. But as quickly, as all two year olds do, he became excited, knowing that our parents would soon be home. We began dancing around the room Rei looked on us with sad eyes. When I noticed her watching us, I stopped dancing and ran to give her a big hug. When Rei's mother had died, her father sent her to live with Grandfather Hikui. Although she loved Grandfather very much, she missed the closeness that her family had shared.
Twelve days had passed since my family left for America and they were due back in six hours. I had been playing with Rei all day and felt exhausted. Although I had grown out of taking naps, I knew that my parents flight would be in late that evening and I wanted to be wide awake.
As often in sleep, I didn't feel that I had been asleep for very long when I began to have a strange dream. My mother and father were sitting in large chairs with my grandmother and grandfather sitting behind them. They were smiling and laughing at a joke my father was telling. My mother was lightly rubbing her belly when there was a loud banging noise. Mother looked up startled as father rose to his feet. There was another loud bang and my father hunched over and disappeared. Suddenly, there were more loud bangs and my grandmother and grandfather hunched over and disappeared. My mother stared forward, not really seeing anything. There was another bang. As my mother began to fall over, she turned and looked to me.
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
I shot up in bed, panting, with sweat dripping down my face and back. I turned to look at the clock. It was six in the evening. I had been asleep for two hours, although it felt like less than ten minutes. There were still four hours until my parents' flight was due in Tokyo airport. The dream stuck out in my mind as I dressed and descended the stairs for dinner. Rei and Shingo were sitting at the table watching Grandfather cook. I joined them, although I truly did not feel hungry.
After dinner was complete, I began to wash the dishes with Rei. Shingo was running around the dinner table as Grandfather tried to catch him to give him a bath. I was passing a dish to Rei when the phone rang. Startled, I dropped the plate. I began to pick up the pieces of the plate while Grandfather answered the phone. I began staring out the window behind the sink as I half listened to him answering questions on the phone. Although it was dark outside, I thought that I saw someone standing outside dressed in a beautiful white dress.
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
I felt the blood rush from my face as I fell from the stool at the sink. Rei began to shake me and ask me if I was all right. Ignoring Rei's pleas, I silently stood and turned to look at Grandfather on the phone. I could feel tears rushing down my cheeks as his eyes met mine. There was no use in his attempt to hide the horror that shone in his eyes. At that moment I knew that my dream was not just a dream. It was a living nightmare.
When I was seven years old and my brother was two, I watched our parents being lowered in the ground. The next day, I watched my Grandmother and Grandfather Tsukino join them. Rei stood on my right side holding my hand and Shingo stood on my left with his arms wrapped around my legs. Grandfather Hikui stood behind us with one hand upon my shoulder and one on Rei's. I felt great comfort from his touch, although it did not heal all of my pain.
Throughout everything that had occurred, I had not yet cried, not since the phone call had first come to the shrine. I could not cry. I needed to be strong for Shingo. I had promised Grandmother Tsukino that I would always take care of him. However, two days after my grandparents' funeral, after tucking Shingo into bed, I finally allowed myself to cry. I was crying so hard that I never heard Rei enter my room.
"Usagi. I know you are sad. I was very sad when my mother died too. I know the pain will not go away, but I promise you that it will get better."
I wiped my eyes and looked up at Rei. Although I knew she was right, I still was not quite ready to accept what had happened to my family. Rei sat down next to me and wrapped me up in a big hug. I began to cry on her shoulder and slowly drifted into sleep.
I awoke the next morning to find Rei sleeping on the floor next to my bed. I was very grateful to have such a good friend in my cousin. I quietly got out of bed and walked over to look at myself in the mirror. My face was slightly pale with dried salt trails where my tears had fallen. As I stared at my reflection, I thought I saw something move behind me. I looked around to see Rei still sleeping in the same position. I looked back to my reflection and saw something glowing behind me. I closed my eyes and heard some whispering behind me. I closed my eyes tighter and concentrated on the whispering.
"My little bunny."
"Momma, I'm scared. I will never be able to see you again."
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
"Momma, I love you. I miss you."
"I love you too, my darling Usako."
I opened my eyes and found myself staring at my reflection in the mirror. I rubbed my eyes and turned around to see Rei still sleeping on the floor. My cousin had lost her mother and her father could not take care of her, yet she was still able to go on.
In that moment, I decided that everything would be all right. I decided that it was okay to be sad, but I still need to live my life and help my brother live his. I know that I will never forget my mother and father or my grandparents, but I am sure that they would want Shingo and I to live a happy life.
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Prologue
By: Chibi J
Rated: G, but does involve death
This is an alternate reality. Eventually, all of the senshi will be involved, if Pluto doesn't kill me for messing with the time line first!
I don't make any claim to owning Sailor Moon. I leave that to people who can afford to pay their rent.
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When I was a little girl, my mother told me that I was a miracle. She said that an angel had descended from heaven and blessed her with the most beautiful baby girl. My father told me the full moon had shone so brightly the night I was born that it seemed almost daylight. He said that I was born with a full head of hair that shined so that even the sun was jealous. Grandmother Tsukino believed that I would change the world. Grandfather Tsukino said that I would break hearts.
When I was five years old, my mother gave birth to a boy. My parents named him Shingo. My mother said that he was a wonderful gift and my father was proud to know that the family name would carry on. I thought that he was a little squirmy, but Grandfather Tsukino assured me that I was worse when I was a baby. Grandmother Tsukino told me that I should be proud to be a big sister. I promised her that I would always take care of him.
When I was seven years old and Shingo was two, my mother sent us to visit with our grandfather, her father. My mother, father, Grandmother and Grandfather Tsukino were going on a trip to America. Grandfather Tsukino's brother had left a large estate to my family and they had to go to New York for the reading of the will.
Although I hated being separated from my parents, I rather enjoyed visiting with Grandfather Hikui. My cousin Hino Rei, although we looked nothing alike, was the same age as me. It was nice to play with her, especially since Shingo was going through his terrible twos and often threw temper tantrums.
My parents had been gone almost a week when my Grandfather Hikui told me that my mother was on the phone and wanted to talk to me. She assured me that they were finally completed with all of the paperwork surrounding my great uncle's death and she would be home in a couple days.
"My little bunny, I will see you at home shortly. I have presents for you and Shingo. I also have a special surprise for you both. I love you dearly. Give your brother a kiss and tell him that I'll see him soon."
"Momma, I miss you."
"I know dear. But do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
"Yes Momma. I love you."
"I love you too, my darling Usako."
I hung up the phone and smiled. Shingo walked in the room and I shared the news that mother and father would soon be returning. At first he pouted, because I did not call him to the phone to talk to mother. But as quickly, as all two year olds do, he became excited, knowing that our parents would soon be home. We began dancing around the room Rei looked on us with sad eyes. When I noticed her watching us, I stopped dancing and ran to give her a big hug. When Rei's mother had died, her father sent her to live with Grandfather Hikui. Although she loved Grandfather very much, she missed the closeness that her family had shared.
Twelve days had passed since my family left for America and they were due back in six hours. I had been playing with Rei all day and felt exhausted. Although I had grown out of taking naps, I knew that my parents flight would be in late that evening and I wanted to be wide awake.
As often in sleep, I didn't feel that I had been asleep for very long when I began to have a strange dream. My mother and father were sitting in large chairs with my grandmother and grandfather sitting behind them. They were smiling and laughing at a joke my father was telling. My mother was lightly rubbing her belly when there was a loud banging noise. Mother looked up startled as father rose to his feet. There was another loud bang and my father hunched over and disappeared. Suddenly, there were more loud bangs and my grandmother and grandfather hunched over and disappeared. My mother stared forward, not really seeing anything. There was another bang. As my mother began to fall over, she turned and looked to me.
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
I shot up in bed, panting, with sweat dripping down my face and back. I turned to look at the clock. It was six in the evening. I had been asleep for two hours, although it felt like less than ten minutes. There were still four hours until my parents' flight was due in Tokyo airport. The dream stuck out in my mind as I dressed and descended the stairs for dinner. Rei and Shingo were sitting at the table watching Grandfather cook. I joined them, although I truly did not feel hungry.
After dinner was complete, I began to wash the dishes with Rei. Shingo was running around the dinner table as Grandfather tried to catch him to give him a bath. I was passing a dish to Rei when the phone rang. Startled, I dropped the plate. I began to pick up the pieces of the plate while Grandfather answered the phone. I began staring out the window behind the sink as I half listened to him answering questions on the phone. Although it was dark outside, I thought that I saw someone standing outside dressed in a beautiful white dress.
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
I felt the blood rush from my face as I fell from the stool at the sink. Rei began to shake me and ask me if I was all right. Ignoring Rei's pleas, I silently stood and turned to look at Grandfather on the phone. I could feel tears rushing down my cheeks as his eyes met mine. There was no use in his attempt to hide the horror that shone in his eyes. At that moment I knew that my dream was not just a dream. It was a living nightmare.
When I was seven years old and my brother was two, I watched our parents being lowered in the ground. The next day, I watched my Grandmother and Grandfather Tsukino join them. Rei stood on my right side holding my hand and Shingo stood on my left with his arms wrapped around my legs. Grandfather Hikui stood behind us with one hand upon my shoulder and one on Rei's. I felt great comfort from his touch, although it did not heal all of my pain.
Throughout everything that had occurred, I had not yet cried, not since the phone call had first come to the shrine. I could not cry. I needed to be strong for Shingo. I had promised Grandmother Tsukino that I would always take care of him. However, two days after my grandparents' funeral, after tucking Shingo into bed, I finally allowed myself to cry. I was crying so hard that I never heard Rei enter my room.
"Usagi. I know you are sad. I was very sad when my mother died too. I know the pain will not go away, but I promise you that it will get better."
I wiped my eyes and looked up at Rei. Although I knew she was right, I still was not quite ready to accept what had happened to my family. Rei sat down next to me and wrapped me up in a big hug. I began to cry on her shoulder and slowly drifted into sleep.
I awoke the next morning to find Rei sleeping on the floor next to my bed. I was very grateful to have such a good friend in my cousin. I quietly got out of bed and walked over to look at myself in the mirror. My face was slightly pale with dried salt trails where my tears had fallen. As I stared at my reflection, I thought I saw something move behind me. I looked around to see Rei still sleeping in the same position. I looked back to my reflection and saw something glowing behind me. I closed my eyes and heard some whispering behind me. I closed my eyes tighter and concentrated on the whispering.
"My little bunny."
"Momma, I'm scared. I will never be able to see you again."
"Do not fear. I will be in your dreams as you will always be in mine."
"Momma, I love you. I miss you."
"I love you too, my darling Usako."
I opened my eyes and found myself staring at my reflection in the mirror. I rubbed my eyes and turned around to see Rei still sleeping on the floor. My cousin had lost her mother and her father could not take care of her, yet she was still able to go on.
In that moment, I decided that everything would be all right. I decided that it was okay to be sad, but I still need to live my life and help my brother live his. I know that I will never forget my mother and father or my grandparents, but I am sure that they would want Shingo and I to live a happy life.
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