Starry Night
She was walking close to me, and I could feel her staring at me. She wanted to say something, she wanted to know what was wrong, but said nothing.
But there was nothing wrong. It was just a bad dream, nothing but that. Simple brain waves forming a situation within the sub conscious mind. Just a bad dream...
I cannot feel how cold it is. Maybe it isn't even cold. But this place sleeps, the humans in their beds, the lights off, and the stars shining. It must be around morning because she is rubbing her eyes.
I do not feel tired, I have only a few times. I don't like feeling tired. Tired makes me sleep, and sleep makes me dream.
Weakness. Disgusting.
I want it to rain again. I want to feel it again, and remember what it was like then. I want to remember that once that was me, flying through the Matrix, and killing. I miss my gun. I miss... I miss killing them. I want to remember that...hatred in my voice.
And everything stops.
What am I doing here? You should have killed them long ago! You should have killed Mr. Anderson! What is wrong with you!? Agent, Virus, remember what it was like to fly!? To know their was no boundries! What are you doing here!? You shouldn't be here!
Don't you remember?
Yes.
Don't you remember their screams?
Yes.
Don't you remember their blood?
Yes.
Can you even hold your gun still?
Yes.
Then kill them. Kill them! Kill them!
Isis- Smith? Smith!
Kill them dammit! They did this to you! They've always done this to
you!
I miss them.
Kill them!
I miss my copies.
Shoot them!
They were so trusting, not like everyone else.
Isis- Smith look at me!
I miss the power they gave me.
Kill that child!
I miss my sunglasses, she always takes them away.
Kill them!
I miss being without the smell...
Kill her!
I miss being alone.
Isis- Smith! For God's shake what's wrong!?
What am I doing here? In the Real World? Their scum, their smells, they created this place. Human made, human destruction. What am I doing here? Not attacking the Council? Why am I here? I shouldn't be here. I should be with my copies, inside Matrix. I should be waiting for Mr. Anderson, I should be alone...
Isis- Smith!
I shouldn't be with them. I should kill them. I should scream at them, hatred in my voice. Yes, don't hold back the emotion of hatred. That's all you'll feel. That's all. I should destroy them, and watch them die. I should look at how they try to live, and realize how meaningless their lives are, how easily they are taken.
I shouldn't be here... I should never be here. But I am.
Isis- Smith! Smith!
Smith- My hand is shaking...
I can see her breath in the cold, as she turns to see my hand shaking.
Isis- Malfunction?
She asks, blaming the android body she has given me.
Smith- No...
Isis- What's wrong?
She is so small, so concerned.
Smith- Do not waste such emotions on me.
I begin to walk again, but she tugs on my arm.
Isis- What's wrong with you!? Hours ago we were dancing!
I only stare at her.
Smith- Only a child, you will not understand.
She pulls at my arm again.
Isis- Hey! You're going to tell me what the hell is wrong with you!
Smith- I do not take orders from you.
Isis- Smith! Tell me!
I push her aside, and continue walking to somewhere I don't know.
Smith- I shouldn't be here...
Isis- What!? You wanted to come here!
Smith- My hand is still shaking.
She runs in front of me as if that will stop me. I am Smith, nothing stops me. Then I look up, and I see the stars for the first time in all my existance, and it makes me stop.
They are so bright...
Isis- Stop it...Stop it...
She grabs me.
Smith- Do not waste such things on me.
Isis- Stop it!
She holds me tighter.
Isis- What the hell has happened to you!?
Nothing...It's all just a bad dream...
How could I change so much?
Smith- They're so bright...
Isis- We turn the lights off and cherish the stars now...
She grabs my shaking hand.
Isis- Come on. Come on, please.
Why? Where will you take me little Isis, goddess of Osiris? What will you do with me? Try and teach me, make me forget what has already been forgotten? Will you show me the rain? What little Isis, friend of Mr. Anderson, child of intelligence, what do you want from me?
But I follow anyway.
She won't let go of my hand. I think she fears I'll run away. I might.
Then there is a field, between the city and the debris of machines, and she makes me sit down under the stars.
Isis- What the hell is wrong with you?
I stay silent.
Isis- God dammit, tell me!?
I look at her. Do you fear I will leave you like your Adam, Isis? Do you believe that somehow someway, helping me is going to make you forget his death?
Typical human.
Isis- After all of the shit we've done! All the stuff I've done for you! Why has everything all the sudden gone wrong!?
Smith- All you've done for me was make me forget.
Isis- Forget what?
Smith- It was raining you know. Raining like the Matrix. Maybe the Matrix was crying, but I...I made it rain there.
Isis- What?
Smith- I was sure I could win. I saw it with my own eyes, or rather the Oracle's. That is why I was the only one to fight him. They were all around me. Showing their—my hatred for him. How could I loose?
Isis- I don't understand...
Smith- It didn't even hurt that much when he'd punch me. Maybe once or twice, when he plowed me into the ground. But I...I saw the rest of my future...And I wouldn't accept it. I wouldn't...I couldn't...How can one face the fact that you're going to die?
Isis- Smith...
Smith- The light was so bright... That is when I died. That is when I came back... I won't forget that night. The night I almost won. The night, my last night of ever knowing power. I can't forget it.
Isis- Then don't! But don't throw everything else away all the sudden! You'll end up back where we started!
Smith- Maybe that is best.
Isis- No! No!
She falls to the field, and stares up at the sky, and I cannot help but look up as well.
They really are beautiful stars. But I shouldn't notice that.
Isis- You know, people care about you. Not just me.
You care about me?
Isis- Some people out there really understand you. Some people out there don't want you to be hurt.
Smith- Who?
Who would care about me?
Isis- I don't know...Selina! Selina Enriquez, Dorysblue, Columbian Ice- tree, Sariel...
Smith- Who?
Isis- People online! I swear to my god Smith, they care about you. They dream that someday you'll stop by and ask if you could come in for some help. They don't want you to be monitered all the time by the Council, they don't want you to be haunted by the smells anymore!
Smith- People care?
Isis- Yes! So many pity you! And wish you didn't feel such pain.
Smith- Pain?
Isis- Some wish you'd look up with those pretty blue eyes, and see something beautiful...
She looks at me.
Isis- What's wrong with you? Why throw all this away?
Smith- I...
She grabs my hand, this small little child...
Look at the stars, aren't they beautifu? Shining high in what humans would call heaven.
Smith- Just a bad dream, all of it just a bad dream.
Isis- Then wake up.
Smith- I cannot forget.
Isis- Then don't...
Smith- But...
Isis- Too many people actually care, love, you for you to just stop all this.
Smith- Don't waste such emotions on me.
She lays down next to me.
Isis- Too late. Even Neo feels for you... Even Neo.
Smith- Mr. Anderson?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
She wouldn't go to bed, until she made sure I would be better.
She put on her computer an internet file, something, a conference made the second day of freedom.
I stare at the computer screen, and watch as Mr. Andrson loads on the computer, along with all the council members. He's in the caves, and all of the army seems to be there with him. I can see his Trinity standing close behind him.
Councilor Hammond- And what do you, Neo our savior, suggest we do with this Virus, Smith?
Neo- Council, I cannot give you an answer.
Councilor North- Why not?
Neo- I would give anything to see that he his to be deleted, but we cannot kill him. I would die too.
Councilor Hammond- Then what is your opinoun on this matter?
He pauses for a minute.
Neo- I think there is nothing we can do to Smith, that he would see as punishment. He has been through enough. All we can do is...leave him alone.
Councilor West- How do we know he won't attack!?
Neo- He won't, he can't even stand. He's sitting in the Matrix's streets all alone right now. He'll never be the same. And...
Councilor Hammond- What is it?
Neo- All we can do is leave him alone. Let him live his own life, moniter him every so often. He won't be much trouble. I just...
Councilor North- Yes?
Neo- I pity him. I truly pity him.
That is the end of the video. I do not sleep, and wait for Isis to wake up
Next Chapter: Blood
She was walking close to me, and I could feel her staring at me. She wanted to say something, she wanted to know what was wrong, but said nothing.
But there was nothing wrong. It was just a bad dream, nothing but that. Simple brain waves forming a situation within the sub conscious mind. Just a bad dream...
I cannot feel how cold it is. Maybe it isn't even cold. But this place sleeps, the humans in their beds, the lights off, and the stars shining. It must be around morning because she is rubbing her eyes.
I do not feel tired, I have only a few times. I don't like feeling tired. Tired makes me sleep, and sleep makes me dream.
Weakness. Disgusting.
I want it to rain again. I want to feel it again, and remember what it was like then. I want to remember that once that was me, flying through the Matrix, and killing. I miss my gun. I miss... I miss killing them. I want to remember that...hatred in my voice.
And everything stops.
What am I doing here? You should have killed them long ago! You should have killed Mr. Anderson! What is wrong with you!? Agent, Virus, remember what it was like to fly!? To know their was no boundries! What are you doing here!? You shouldn't be here!
Don't you remember?
Yes.
Don't you remember their screams?
Yes.
Don't you remember their blood?
Yes.
Can you even hold your gun still?
Yes.
Then kill them. Kill them! Kill them!
Isis- Smith? Smith!
Kill them dammit! They did this to you! They've always done this to
you!
I miss them.
Kill them!
I miss my copies.
Shoot them!
They were so trusting, not like everyone else.
Isis- Smith look at me!
I miss the power they gave me.
Kill that child!
I miss my sunglasses, she always takes them away.
Kill them!
I miss being without the smell...
Kill her!
I miss being alone.
Isis- Smith! For God's shake what's wrong!?
What am I doing here? In the Real World? Their scum, their smells, they created this place. Human made, human destruction. What am I doing here? Not attacking the Council? Why am I here? I shouldn't be here. I should be with my copies, inside Matrix. I should be waiting for Mr. Anderson, I should be alone...
Isis- Smith!
I shouldn't be with them. I should kill them. I should scream at them, hatred in my voice. Yes, don't hold back the emotion of hatred. That's all you'll feel. That's all. I should destroy them, and watch them die. I should look at how they try to live, and realize how meaningless their lives are, how easily they are taken.
I shouldn't be here... I should never be here. But I am.
Isis- Smith! Smith!
Smith- My hand is shaking...
I can see her breath in the cold, as she turns to see my hand shaking.
Isis- Malfunction?
She asks, blaming the android body she has given me.
Smith- No...
Isis- What's wrong?
She is so small, so concerned.
Smith- Do not waste such emotions on me.
I begin to walk again, but she tugs on my arm.
Isis- What's wrong with you!? Hours ago we were dancing!
I only stare at her.
Smith- Only a child, you will not understand.
She pulls at my arm again.
Isis- Hey! You're going to tell me what the hell is wrong with you!
Smith- I do not take orders from you.
Isis- Smith! Tell me!
I push her aside, and continue walking to somewhere I don't know.
Smith- I shouldn't be here...
Isis- What!? You wanted to come here!
Smith- My hand is still shaking.
She runs in front of me as if that will stop me. I am Smith, nothing stops me. Then I look up, and I see the stars for the first time in all my existance, and it makes me stop.
They are so bright...
Isis- Stop it...Stop it...
She grabs me.
Smith- Do not waste such things on me.
Isis- Stop it!
She holds me tighter.
Isis- What the hell has happened to you!?
Nothing...It's all just a bad dream...
How could I change so much?
Smith- They're so bright...
Isis- We turn the lights off and cherish the stars now...
She grabs my shaking hand.
Isis- Come on. Come on, please.
Why? Where will you take me little Isis, goddess of Osiris? What will you do with me? Try and teach me, make me forget what has already been forgotten? Will you show me the rain? What little Isis, friend of Mr. Anderson, child of intelligence, what do you want from me?
But I follow anyway.
She won't let go of my hand. I think she fears I'll run away. I might.
Then there is a field, between the city and the debris of machines, and she makes me sit down under the stars.
Isis- What the hell is wrong with you?
I stay silent.
Isis- God dammit, tell me!?
I look at her. Do you fear I will leave you like your Adam, Isis? Do you believe that somehow someway, helping me is going to make you forget his death?
Typical human.
Isis- After all of the shit we've done! All the stuff I've done for you! Why has everything all the sudden gone wrong!?
Smith- All you've done for me was make me forget.
Isis- Forget what?
Smith- It was raining you know. Raining like the Matrix. Maybe the Matrix was crying, but I...I made it rain there.
Isis- What?
Smith- I was sure I could win. I saw it with my own eyes, or rather the Oracle's. That is why I was the only one to fight him. They were all around me. Showing their—my hatred for him. How could I loose?
Isis- I don't understand...
Smith- It didn't even hurt that much when he'd punch me. Maybe once or twice, when he plowed me into the ground. But I...I saw the rest of my future...And I wouldn't accept it. I wouldn't...I couldn't...How can one face the fact that you're going to die?
Isis- Smith...
Smith- The light was so bright... That is when I died. That is when I came back... I won't forget that night. The night I almost won. The night, my last night of ever knowing power. I can't forget it.
Isis- Then don't! But don't throw everything else away all the sudden! You'll end up back where we started!
Smith- Maybe that is best.
Isis- No! No!
She falls to the field, and stares up at the sky, and I cannot help but look up as well.
They really are beautiful stars. But I shouldn't notice that.
Isis- You know, people care about you. Not just me.
You care about me?
Isis- Some people out there really understand you. Some people out there don't want you to be hurt.
Smith- Who?
Who would care about me?
Isis- I don't know...Selina! Selina Enriquez, Dorysblue, Columbian Ice- tree, Sariel...
Smith- Who?
Isis- People online! I swear to my god Smith, they care about you. They dream that someday you'll stop by and ask if you could come in for some help. They don't want you to be monitered all the time by the Council, they don't want you to be haunted by the smells anymore!
Smith- People care?
Isis- Yes! So many pity you! And wish you didn't feel such pain.
Smith- Pain?
Isis- Some wish you'd look up with those pretty blue eyes, and see something beautiful...
She looks at me.
Isis- What's wrong with you? Why throw all this away?
Smith- I...
She grabs my hand, this small little child...
Look at the stars, aren't they beautifu? Shining high in what humans would call heaven.
Smith- Just a bad dream, all of it just a bad dream.
Isis- Then wake up.
Smith- I cannot forget.
Isis- Then don't...
Smith- But...
Isis- Too many people actually care, love, you for you to just stop all this.
Smith- Don't waste such emotions on me.
She lays down next to me.
Isis- Too late. Even Neo feels for you... Even Neo.
Smith- Mr. Anderson?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
She wouldn't go to bed, until she made sure I would be better.
She put on her computer an internet file, something, a conference made the second day of freedom.
I stare at the computer screen, and watch as Mr. Andrson loads on the computer, along with all the council members. He's in the caves, and all of the army seems to be there with him. I can see his Trinity standing close behind him.
Councilor Hammond- And what do you, Neo our savior, suggest we do with this Virus, Smith?
Neo- Council, I cannot give you an answer.
Councilor North- Why not?
Neo- I would give anything to see that he his to be deleted, but we cannot kill him. I would die too.
Councilor Hammond- Then what is your opinoun on this matter?
He pauses for a minute.
Neo- I think there is nothing we can do to Smith, that he would see as punishment. He has been through enough. All we can do is...leave him alone.
Councilor West- How do we know he won't attack!?
Neo- He won't, he can't even stand. He's sitting in the Matrix's streets all alone right now. He'll never be the same. And...
Councilor Hammond- What is it?
Neo- All we can do is leave him alone. Let him live his own life, moniter him every so often. He won't be much trouble. I just...
Councilor North- Yes?
Neo- I pity him. I truly pity him.
That is the end of the video. I do not sleep, and wait for Isis to wake up
Next Chapter: Blood