Yes! Finals are over and I'm updating like crazy! I've also made major changes. Well, not major, but I've taken out most of the Japanese in this story. Two people advised me to slacken up on it, and I agree. I reread it and noticed, I've kinda over done it. I'm sorry to whoever had to suffer through all the Japanese. I've narrowed it down to about one word of Japanese per a chapter if that. Gomen. I hope you guys like this chapter!
~*~Silver Rain~*~
Chapter Nine: Will She Forgive Me?
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Kikyou went through the next two weeks, avoiding Kagome around campus and refusing to go to Spinning Petals. Sango often visited, telling her how Inuyasha was doing, and he didn't sound all that well either. Kikyou shrugged it off and ignored her soul telling her to go back to Inuyasha.
"Kikyou."
Kumako had come over again and was studying with Kikyou. She had been trying desperately to get her and Inuyasha back together, but Kikyou had been ignoring her advice.
"Did you get stuck on 11.4?"
"No. You know what I'm going to say. All I'm going to do is ask you to at least consider it? Think about who we're talking about. Kagome is one of the most honest girls I have ever met. Do you really think she or Inuyasha would do anything like that?"
Kikyou stared at the problem she was working on. She was getting tired of talking about it.
"I don't think they would, Kumako. I just need some time to think okay?"
Kumako looked away from Kikyou, "Alright. You really don't have the time though."
"Why do you care, Kumako? He hates you." Kikyou inquired, turning to face her.
She shook her head, "I don't care if the person wishes I never existed. I can't stand to see someone depressed. Inuyasha may not consider me his friend, but he's mine. I can't bear to see anyone suffering. So he has a grudge against me. It's not his fault. Everyone has a different opinion.
"We should stop studying for now. I can't concentrate."
Kumako nodded, "How about we go to the park? Get some fresh air."
Kikyou nodded as she put her books into her bag. Ten minutes later, she and Kumako were walking past the diner. Kikyou glance at the little restaurant as they walked past it. She remembered that night.
Sango, Miroku, and Kagome had left, leaving Kikyou and Inuyasha all alone. Kikyou wondered if Kagome had liked Inuyasha then as well.
She did miss seeing him. She hated to admit to herself that she did believe him. It had just made her envious when she had seen the two of them together like that. They were both looking at each other as if they had finally found the love of their lives.
Kumako paused in front of Spinning Petals. It looked so dead now. Ever since Inuyasha had gone into his period of withdraw, Ningen-Youkai had no choice but to go on a short vacation. Kumako looked behind her to Kikyou. She had halted though, a look of shock on her face. She looked to where Kikyou's gaze lingered.
Inuyasha had come the opposite side of Spinning Petals and held a look similar to Kikyou. Kikyou was the first to move as she broke their gaze and continued to walk down the street, passing Kumako as she trailed after her, then Inuyasha.
"Kikyou?"
She sighed as she turned towards him, "What brings you here Inuyasha? I heard that Ningen-Youkai is taking a break."
He looked down at the grass, his silver hair falling over his shoulder, "My feet brought me here, I guess. I wasn't really thinking. I'd gone out for a walk."
The wind ruffled their hair, sending more tension through the air, "How are you doing Inuyasha?"
Kumako smiled sympathetically at them as she entered Spinning Petals. Kikyou noticed Kumako's look and for a split second, she saw her mother, the same look she had give Kikyou before she had become a miko several times.
"Okay, I guess." His gaze remained on the grass.
"Inuyasha...I'm sorry."
He looked up at Kikyou with confusion, "What for?"
"Well, when you told me what had happened, I wanted to believe you were lying, even though I knew it was true." Kikyou now found the grass as interesting as Inuyasha had a second ago.
"Kikyou." She noticed his voice was closer and she could hear him walking towards her.
She sighed then looked up into his eyes, "I can't do this."
Inuyasha smiled then nodded his head. Kikyou took a hold of one of his hands, then walked next to him under the overhang of Spinning Petals. She felt a little better, but she now felt there was something more important that would hurt worse than Kagome falling into Inuyasha. Yet she couldn't understand what. The rain started to fall heavy.
She quickly removed her hand from his, "I'm serious Inuyasha. I can't do this."
Confusion clouded his eyes, "I understand."
Kikyou sighed, "No you don't. I can see it in your eyes. Please, Inuyasha. Don't be sad. For me?" she lightly touched his shoulder.
He shrank from her touch, "Feh." He adjusted the bag on his back as he entered Spinning Petals.
"Inuyasha." She sighed as she enter the club. Where had he disappeared? Kumako approached her, "Kikyou. Come on. You don't want to be here."
"What?"
"Ningen-Youkai is playing tonight."
"What?!"
"Let's just go. I'll explain later. Actually, why don't we stop by my place?"
Kikyou drew in her brow, "Um, alright." She stole one glance at the stage, seeing silver hair disappear behind the curtain.
---
They arrived at Kumako's apartment in fifteen minutes. As she opened the door a large, black and white, furry cat greeted then. Kumako scratched the feline behind the ears, "Hey, Turquie. Um, Kikyou, make yourself at home. I'll heat up some tea. I hope you don't mind peppermint."
Kikyou shook her head as she slipped into a round futon like chair. She took a glimpse of the room around her.
Intriguing paintings and drawings hung from the walls. The furniture was similar to the chair Kikyou sat in. On one wall a shelf leaned against the wall, loaded with different types of books from religion and astrology to manga and children books. On the wall a shelf was under a large window. A small stereo and a couple cds resided on the shelf. On the coffee table a candle was lit, a sandal wood aroma engulfing the room. Beside the candle was a deck of worn cards. The room held a serene feeling, the sunset yellow walls adding to the calm. Kikyou reached for the top card of the deck. She rested her fingers on it lightly. Kumako reentered and Kikyou quickly withdrew her hand.
"I'm sorry. Rushing you all over the place like this. I was just worried for your safety."
"Safety?"
"Yeah. There are a lot of angry people right now. Angry fans are hard to deal with."
"I don't quite know what you mean."
"Don't worry about it." Kumako stood up and hit the play button on the stereo.
It was a Ningen-Youkai cd. Kumako stressed, "I'm sorry, I forgot."
Kikyou shook her head, "That's alright, I don't think I've heard this song."
Kumako nodded as Inuyasha's voice rang out from the stereo.
"So many questions
Ring through my head.
Can't stop thinking
About what she said.
Now I've got
Just one question for her.
What will she chose?
How does it hurt?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
I was helping a friend,
Thought she'd understand.
Guess I was wrong.
Now I've got too many problems at hand.
How do I explain?
Will she know?
Can she let it go?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
I'm sorry it hurts.
I'm sorry she left.
But now,
All I have
Is her in my head.
I can't let it go.
So now,
All I can do.
Is hope she says yes.
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?"
Kumako turned down the music, "He put together these recordings after you two got into your argument. All the songs are pretty sad though. Kind of reminds me of you Kikyou."
Kikyou nodded then looked out of Kumako's large window. The rain was coming down even harder now, "Silver Rain, huh?"
Kumako nodded, "Kikyou?"
"Hm?" she was starting to get lost in her thoughts.
"So what's your answer to his question?" a sly smile creeping onto her face.
Kikyou looked at Kumako and smiled, even though her icy sadness still resided there, Kumako could see a small tint of her happiness. Perhaps she would have some before...
"I should head home. Thank you, Kumako."
Kumako tilted her head, "For what?"
"Just because." She stood up and left. Kumako looked out her window as she watched Kikyou walk down the street. She smiled sadly to herself as she sat in the seat Kikyou had been in before. She took the card that Kikyou was going to draw and flipped it over. The Wheel of Fortune. She shook her head as she slide the card across the table.
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Okay! Yeah, I'm really hyper right now. I actually drew that card. I couldn't decide which one to put so I grabbed my deck and drew the card. Creepy, cause it was going to be judgment. Either way it worked. I can't wait to write more. Oh. Also, a lot is going to happen in the next chapter, so stay tuned. Oh! Let me know what you think by reviewing. I have no other way of knowing if people are reading.
Luv, Bearmoon
~*~Review Responses~*~
TuEsDaY: Of course I'm writing more. Thanks for reviewing. Is it really that sad? Anyways, I can't wait to hear more from you! I hope you liked this chapter.
Yukatado: Yeah, I know, lighten up on the Japanese. I'm soo sorry that you went through and made all those corrections for nothing! I've ended up removing 98% of the Japanese in the fic. But you were right. It was very excessive. But thanks for all your advice.
Misa-chan: Don't worry about seeming harsh. I know I've used a lot of Japanese and I actually went back and changed it all. It wasn't really necessary. But I loved how long your review was! Those are my favorite kind. I'm very glad you liked my songs as well. I can't believe you actually thought they were really another real band's songs. Do they really seem like it? Anyways, Thanks for your advice! If you go back and check it out, I've narrowed the words down to one or two. I think the main word that I kept was miko because I don't think that there's an exact translation for that word. I mean there is, but yeah.
LewdaKris: Oh wow! Thanks! Your review made me want to cry. I didn't think it was that good. I 'm glad you've been enjoying it thus far. I just hope I don't rush the ending once I get to it.
Jea: All I can do right now is laugh. You're too funny sometimes. You really need to be patient about Kumako. Actually, I'll strike you a deal. If you write another chapter of Hitomi's Fan Club ~doo doo~ I'll add more on Kumako, kay?
toysrusgirl: Don't start crying yet, it gets even more sad. I'm just warming up.
~*~Silver Rain~*~
Chapter Nine: Will She Forgive Me?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kikyou went through the next two weeks, avoiding Kagome around campus and refusing to go to Spinning Petals. Sango often visited, telling her how Inuyasha was doing, and he didn't sound all that well either. Kikyou shrugged it off and ignored her soul telling her to go back to Inuyasha.
"Kikyou."
Kumako had come over again and was studying with Kikyou. She had been trying desperately to get her and Inuyasha back together, but Kikyou had been ignoring her advice.
"Did you get stuck on 11.4?"
"No. You know what I'm going to say. All I'm going to do is ask you to at least consider it? Think about who we're talking about. Kagome is one of the most honest girls I have ever met. Do you really think she or Inuyasha would do anything like that?"
Kikyou stared at the problem she was working on. She was getting tired of talking about it.
"I don't think they would, Kumako. I just need some time to think okay?"
Kumako looked away from Kikyou, "Alright. You really don't have the time though."
"Why do you care, Kumako? He hates you." Kikyou inquired, turning to face her.
She shook her head, "I don't care if the person wishes I never existed. I can't stand to see someone depressed. Inuyasha may not consider me his friend, but he's mine. I can't bear to see anyone suffering. So he has a grudge against me. It's not his fault. Everyone has a different opinion.
"We should stop studying for now. I can't concentrate."
Kumako nodded, "How about we go to the park? Get some fresh air."
Kikyou nodded as she put her books into her bag. Ten minutes later, she and Kumako were walking past the diner. Kikyou glance at the little restaurant as they walked past it. She remembered that night.
Sango, Miroku, and Kagome had left, leaving Kikyou and Inuyasha all alone. Kikyou wondered if Kagome had liked Inuyasha then as well.
She did miss seeing him. She hated to admit to herself that she did believe him. It had just made her envious when she had seen the two of them together like that. They were both looking at each other as if they had finally found the love of their lives.
Kumako paused in front of Spinning Petals. It looked so dead now. Ever since Inuyasha had gone into his period of withdraw, Ningen-Youkai had no choice but to go on a short vacation. Kumako looked behind her to Kikyou. She had halted though, a look of shock on her face. She looked to where Kikyou's gaze lingered.
Inuyasha had come the opposite side of Spinning Petals and held a look similar to Kikyou. Kikyou was the first to move as she broke their gaze and continued to walk down the street, passing Kumako as she trailed after her, then Inuyasha.
"Kikyou?"
She sighed as she turned towards him, "What brings you here Inuyasha? I heard that Ningen-Youkai is taking a break."
He looked down at the grass, his silver hair falling over his shoulder, "My feet brought me here, I guess. I wasn't really thinking. I'd gone out for a walk."
The wind ruffled their hair, sending more tension through the air, "How are you doing Inuyasha?"
Kumako smiled sympathetically at them as she entered Spinning Petals. Kikyou noticed Kumako's look and for a split second, she saw her mother, the same look she had give Kikyou before she had become a miko several times.
"Okay, I guess." His gaze remained on the grass.
"Inuyasha...I'm sorry."
He looked up at Kikyou with confusion, "What for?"
"Well, when you told me what had happened, I wanted to believe you were lying, even though I knew it was true." Kikyou now found the grass as interesting as Inuyasha had a second ago.
"Kikyou." She noticed his voice was closer and she could hear him walking towards her.
She sighed then looked up into his eyes, "I can't do this."
Inuyasha smiled then nodded his head. Kikyou took a hold of one of his hands, then walked next to him under the overhang of Spinning Petals. She felt a little better, but she now felt there was something more important that would hurt worse than Kagome falling into Inuyasha. Yet she couldn't understand what. The rain started to fall heavy.
She quickly removed her hand from his, "I'm serious Inuyasha. I can't do this."
Confusion clouded his eyes, "I understand."
Kikyou sighed, "No you don't. I can see it in your eyes. Please, Inuyasha. Don't be sad. For me?" she lightly touched his shoulder.
He shrank from her touch, "Feh." He adjusted the bag on his back as he entered Spinning Petals.
"Inuyasha." She sighed as she enter the club. Where had he disappeared? Kumako approached her, "Kikyou. Come on. You don't want to be here."
"What?"
"Ningen-Youkai is playing tonight."
"What?!"
"Let's just go. I'll explain later. Actually, why don't we stop by my place?"
Kikyou drew in her brow, "Um, alright." She stole one glance at the stage, seeing silver hair disappear behind the curtain.
---
They arrived at Kumako's apartment in fifteen minutes. As she opened the door a large, black and white, furry cat greeted then. Kumako scratched the feline behind the ears, "Hey, Turquie. Um, Kikyou, make yourself at home. I'll heat up some tea. I hope you don't mind peppermint."
Kikyou shook her head as she slipped into a round futon like chair. She took a glimpse of the room around her.
Intriguing paintings and drawings hung from the walls. The furniture was similar to the chair Kikyou sat in. On one wall a shelf leaned against the wall, loaded with different types of books from religion and astrology to manga and children books. On the wall a shelf was under a large window. A small stereo and a couple cds resided on the shelf. On the coffee table a candle was lit, a sandal wood aroma engulfing the room. Beside the candle was a deck of worn cards. The room held a serene feeling, the sunset yellow walls adding to the calm. Kikyou reached for the top card of the deck. She rested her fingers on it lightly. Kumako reentered and Kikyou quickly withdrew her hand.
"I'm sorry. Rushing you all over the place like this. I was just worried for your safety."
"Safety?"
"Yeah. There are a lot of angry people right now. Angry fans are hard to deal with."
"I don't quite know what you mean."
"Don't worry about it." Kumako stood up and hit the play button on the stereo.
It was a Ningen-Youkai cd. Kumako stressed, "I'm sorry, I forgot."
Kikyou shook her head, "That's alright, I don't think I've heard this song."
Kumako nodded as Inuyasha's voice rang out from the stereo.
"So many questions
Ring through my head.
Can't stop thinking
About what she said.
Now I've got
Just one question for her.
What will she chose?
How does it hurt?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
I was helping a friend,
Thought she'd understand.
Guess I was wrong.
Now I've got too many problems at hand.
How do I explain?
Will she know?
Can she let it go?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
I'm sorry it hurts.
I'm sorry she left.
But now,
All I have
Is her in my head.
I can't let it go.
So now,
All I can do.
Is hope she says yes.
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?
---
Will she forgive me?
That's what I said.
I've made a mistake
Somehow and now,
I've gotta ask,
Will she forgive me?"
Kumako turned down the music, "He put together these recordings after you two got into your argument. All the songs are pretty sad though. Kind of reminds me of you Kikyou."
Kikyou nodded then looked out of Kumako's large window. The rain was coming down even harder now, "Silver Rain, huh?"
Kumako nodded, "Kikyou?"
"Hm?" she was starting to get lost in her thoughts.
"So what's your answer to his question?" a sly smile creeping onto her face.
Kikyou looked at Kumako and smiled, even though her icy sadness still resided there, Kumako could see a small tint of her happiness. Perhaps she would have some before...
"I should head home. Thank you, Kumako."
Kumako tilted her head, "For what?"
"Just because." She stood up and left. Kumako looked out her window as she watched Kikyou walk down the street. She smiled sadly to herself as she sat in the seat Kikyou had been in before. She took the card that Kikyou was going to draw and flipped it over. The Wheel of Fortune. She shook her head as she slide the card across the table.
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Okay! Yeah, I'm really hyper right now. I actually drew that card. I couldn't decide which one to put so I grabbed my deck and drew the card. Creepy, cause it was going to be judgment. Either way it worked. I can't wait to write more. Oh. Also, a lot is going to happen in the next chapter, so stay tuned. Oh! Let me know what you think by reviewing. I have no other way of knowing if people are reading.
Luv, Bearmoon
~*~Review Responses~*~
TuEsDaY: Of course I'm writing more. Thanks for reviewing. Is it really that sad? Anyways, I can't wait to hear more from you! I hope you liked this chapter.
Yukatado: Yeah, I know, lighten up on the Japanese. I'm soo sorry that you went through and made all those corrections for nothing! I've ended up removing 98% of the Japanese in the fic. But you were right. It was very excessive. But thanks for all your advice.
Misa-chan: Don't worry about seeming harsh. I know I've used a lot of Japanese and I actually went back and changed it all. It wasn't really necessary. But I loved how long your review was! Those are my favorite kind. I'm very glad you liked my songs as well. I can't believe you actually thought they were really another real band's songs. Do they really seem like it? Anyways, Thanks for your advice! If you go back and check it out, I've narrowed the words down to one or two. I think the main word that I kept was miko because I don't think that there's an exact translation for that word. I mean there is, but yeah.
LewdaKris: Oh wow! Thanks! Your review made me want to cry. I didn't think it was that good. I 'm glad you've been enjoying it thus far. I just hope I don't rush the ending once I get to it.
Jea: All I can do right now is laugh. You're too funny sometimes. You really need to be patient about Kumako. Actually, I'll strike you a deal. If you write another chapter of Hitomi's Fan Club ~doo doo~ I'll add more on Kumako, kay?
toysrusgirl: Don't start crying yet, it gets even more sad. I'm just warming up.