Author: l'Ciel

Pairing: SS/SB, mentioned: RW/HG,…

Rating: R, for violence and sexual less explicit

scenes

AU: It takes place one year after the end of OotP

(Harry's 7th year), but Sirius is still alive.

Summary: Severus is ordered to rape Sirius and does

so, while Riddle performs an impregnation-spell. Will

they overcome their hatred for their baby-girl???

Warning: Slash, mpreg., violence, rape (references to)

Disclaimer: All characters belong to J. K. Rowling.

01 Punished for Life

The strangeness of awakening

In an oh so silent world

Breathlessly waiting

For the first proud beams of light

As the hours grow longer

And the shadows never fall

My sky has forsaken me

My desperation grows

Bring me the light

In the darkness that never ends

The dawn will never come

Punish my heaven

(Dark Tranquillity, Punish My Heaven)

The old wizard raced down the stairs as quickly as he

could, when he just reached the entry-hall as the

doors crashed open. The black figure swept in, a large

bundle in his arms. Dumbledore threw a swift look at

the man's charge and sighed: "Infirmary, quickly!"

The pale figure nodded and climbed the stairs,

pressing the wounded body against his, carefully, not

to hurt it. Albus Dumbledore had taken the "quick way

up" and already waited at the entrance to the hospital

wing, holding the doors open for them.

Madam Pomfrey, dressed in a baby-blue nightgown,

signalled him to lay the dog on one of the many free

cots in the room, before she made him step back and

transfigured the animal, or better animagus, back into

his usual shape.

She caught her breath, when she saw the countless

bruises and cuts covering the man's whole body, but

the sight of his ripped clothes and the dried fluids

on his abdomen made her scream. Not that she had not

seen it before, but now a friend of her was the

victim.

She took a deep breath and whispered a cleaning-charm,

not able to raise her voice without wavering. The

headmaster beside her cried silently, but the look on

his face was frightening for his enemies as well as

for anybody else. Only a few had ever seen him so

angry.

"Who did it, Severus? Who is the foul creature?"

Snape sighed and moved back from the side of the bed.

He closed his eyes briefly and sat down on a chair

next to the headmaster.

"Me."

"What?"

"I'm sorry Albus, but if I hadn't he would have

suspected something! It was his birthday present for

me, if I had refused he had killed him at once!"

"I see. But there is something else, isn't there?"

"You see everything, don't you?" the Potions master

sighed, "Yes, there is something."

"What is it, Severus? You know I wouldn't blame you

for anything."

"Riddle cast a spell on him. He said death wasn't

enough for a mutt like him."

"That doesn't sound good at all. Please go on."

"I can't… - it is all my fault! When I hadn't stopped

him from killing Black, he hadn't done THAT! Even if

you don't blame me, Black will!"

"SEVERUS! I don't know what upset you so much, but if

something can do that after all these years, I can

imagine very well that it must be more than just

cruel. Tell me, please."

The last word was spoken softly and the old wizard had

laid a hand on Snape's shoulder to comfort the shaking

man. Something horrible must have happened!

"He cast some kind of ancient transmutation spell on

him, before… I had to… rape him… and, I don't know for

sure, but Voldemort said something about a punishment

for lifetime…"

Dumbledore clenched his fist, chuckles white with

anger, as he crushed it into the mattress of the cot

next to him. The blue eyes burned with a new,

dangerous fury even Snape had never seen before in the

old wizard. Dumbledore rose and stepped towards the

injured man.

"He wouldn't dare to…"

The headmaster cast a swift spell on his former

student and friend, but when a golden glow appeared

around the man, he screamed in hate and anger. A

shockwave like a cargo-train in full speed crashed

through the infirmary, further to every stone in the

castle, braking the windows in hospital wing and

flashing over the grounds like a huge lightning.

Snape was thrown against a wall and Poppy Pomfrey had

barely managed to protect her patient during this

outburst of energy. They stared in shock at the

headmaster, who suddenly looked old and drained. He

shook his head in defeat and mumbled a hex to repair

the windows and other things that had been crushed by

the magical shockwave.

"I'm sorry. I couldn't control myself." he stated and

sat down again. Snape carefully touched his back and

took the seat beside the wizard.

"Are you alright now? We don't want to scare the

students, do we?"

"No, of course not. Could you please inform the staff

that everything is all right, or at least for most of

us. - Thank you, Severus."

When Snape returned from the fireplace in the next

room, since there was none in the infirmary, he

swallowed hard, before he looked first at Black and

then at Dumbledore.

"What did you find out?"

"Riddle has once again showed us all too clearly that

he is the worst, inhuman bastard on earth you could

ever imagine. Only his ways get more and more twisted

and cruel."

"…"

"He cast an impregnation-spell on him. That is

ancient, strong magic only a few can perform."

"A dark hex?"

"No. It's pure, white magic and usually used for good

reasons, but in this case it's more or less a

punishment, if he cannot accept it and live with it."

"But… Don't tell me Riddle hexed him somehow pregnant.

Even with those spells you need a second father or

mother to… oh no – NO!"

"Severus…"

"I should have known! Don't you understand, Albus – HE

KNOWS! He knows I'm a traitor, this is not only a

punishment for Black, it's for me! Voldemort gives a

damn about people like Black, he would just kill him,

but instead he used him to punish me for spying on

him!"

"Severus – CALM DOWN!"

"Fuck!"

Dumbledore sighed and cast a quick spell on his

Potions master, who instantly lost his consciousness,

and levitated him to one of the cots. The nurse turned

to them.

"What did you do to him?"

"Thought it better for him to sleep over this. He

needed a rest and I cannot tolerate a

nervous-breakdown in the middle of the term."

"Right you are! Can you just help me with this one? I

fear he might need somebody to talk to when he wakes

up, what he will do soon, and I think he'd prefer you

over me."

"I'll stay with him for tonight, but tomorrow I have a

meeting with the school-governors, so I won't be

available. And we have to inform his godson, Harry

will be sick of worries, when we don't inform him.

Sirius has been missed over a month after all, when he

disappeared after the trial with Pettigrew. Poor boy,

he'll have to grow up now, I fear…"

Madam Pomfrey nodded and checked her charge a last

time, before she made a quick check-up on Snape, which

she had not done in years, since the man loathed these

procedures and he was unconscious at the moment

anyway.

Dumbledore had taken a seat next to Black's head and

caressed the black-haired man's brow, before he gave

him a paternal kiss on the forehead and leaned back to

have a look at the extend of the injuries. Poppy had

told him it was nothing serious beside a few cuts,

several bruises, a few cracked rips and the ripped

backside…

The headmaster sighed and banished these thoughts from

his head. A new life had begun to form inside the man

before him and they, Severus and Sirius himself, had

to find a way to life with the fact that the baby was

theirs, their child – maybe he could help a bit?

The figure on the bed whimpered in his sleep and

struggled against the covers.

Now the headmaster would not only have to deal with

loads of students, teachers, the Order, Voldemort, the

war and the protection of Hogwarts, but with a raped,

pregnant man and the other unwilling father, who

loathed the first, as well, not to forget the

prominent godson of the first. Then a certain nosy

reporter he know would turn up shortly after the news

spread, what they would surely do. And what would

happen to the child? An abortion under the

circumstances was impossible and who would adopt a

child of two male wizards, created by Voldemort? That

made at least sure the child would stay under Hogwarts

care for a while…