Um…I dunno what I was thinking. This idea just came to me and it's really short and stupid. Trowa+Quatre ficlet so there's some shounen ai but it's nothing offensive.

Disclaimer: I don't own those tasty bishounen of Gundam Wing. Duh.

Staring at the Sun

I know that he is standing right behind me. I can hear his labored breathing and, even if I couldn't, I would still know by the way the skin on the back of my neck prickles. That always happens whenever I'm close to him. It's like electricity.

"Beautiful," he murmurs and I know that he means the view and not me.

I suppose that it is rather breathtaking up here in the mountains. The sky is a perfect robin's egg blue. I can hear the territorial scream of blue jays and the bold answering chatter of a few gray squirrels who can't seem to take a hint. The air is thick with pine sent, so much that I can barely breathe for fear of suffocation. We are standing at the very top of Jijami hill and spread out at our feet like a child's play set is the quiet village of Yumito. Quite a photo-op I am sure but I do not see it. Instead, in my mind, I see him.

I imagine his hair, a warm buttery clump of bangs that falls across his child's face. I imagine myself brushing the silky strands out of his eyes with an affectionate and easy gesture that I would never be so bold as to attempt in real life. I imagine his aquamarine eyes looking deep within mine, crinkling with laughter at some private joke that only the two of us share. I imagine strong, warm arms wrapped around my waist, holding me close while at the same time, tickling my sides mercilessly. I imagine his smile, a perfect curvature of rose-tipped lips and find myself breathing harder than I did on the hike up here.

"Beautiful," I whisper back. But I'm not talking about the view. My mind is elsewhere, happily immersed in a daydream. I am aware that the real thing stands no more than two feet behind me if I only dare to turn around and look.

But I won't turn around. I can't look at him. It would be like…staring at the sun. It's a dangerous pastime. I'd go blind eventually. So I stay still and silent. It is enough just to be near him. And maybe, if we stand here long enough, the sun will set. And I will be able to look at him in the darkness without fear.

Okay, even thought that was short and stupid, please review. It make me feel better ^__^

Cherry Blossom