Eesh! I'm really sorry I haven't updated in like forever! Schools been nuts
for awhile and now I have time to write! In response to a review I got, I
will be writing an Inu Yasha fic pretty soon. Here's the next chapter of
'Why Can't I Forget?'.
Spike's POV
Faye's kiss was mesmerizing. I couldn't help but draw her even closer. But that's when something happened. A voice sounded in my head, one pleading me not to leave, not to forget... It was hers... Julia's. Quickly I broke the kiss with Faye. Stammering an apology, something I rarely do, I ran from the room and found my way back to my own small chambers.
After making sure the door was closed tight and locked I collapsed onto the bed, sweating and shaking slightly. "Can I really betray her like this? I know she's dead... I know for certain this time. But can I really just push her out of my mind and fall for another?" I muttered to the dark ceiling above. As usually, I didn't receive an answer. "Dammit, where's Jet when you need him?"
At times like this... that's when I could really count on him. I needed his advice. I didn't act like it much, but I really appreciated having him around. I needed to figure how do deal with this. I remembered so long ago when I was still living with Julia. She made me promise to always stay faithful to her. I told her I would. I gave her my word. But did she want me to love another after her death. I got up and slammed my fist into the door, accidentally opening it. I stumbled back in shock as Faye stood before my open door, her eyes tear-stained.
"I heard all you said in there Spike..." With those words, she ran off. I could hear her start to cry a little more, then the sound was silenced as she shut her own door. I sighed miserably and ambled back into my room, shutting the door and throwing myself onto the bed and into a deep and dreamless sleep.
Faye's POV
After fleeing from Spike's deep gaze and returning to my room, I flung myself onto the bed to cry more tears for this man who drove me insane. "Gods, it's not fair!" I yell to the walls. "Why do I have to realize that I care about him so much? It isn't fair!" I gave way to more tears until all that was left was a few dry shudders. Lifting my head up, I listened intently, someone was landing in the hanger. "It's probably just Jet coming back finally..."
My guess was confirmed when her door was opened and Jet stood in the doorway, hands on his hips. "What do you want Jet?" I asked him lazily.
"Where's Spike? Is he doing okay now?" I could tell Jet's really sorry about storming out earlier, so I just pointed in the general direction of Spike's room. Jet grunted. "Look Faye... can I come in? I want to talk to you about something."
"Sure." I waved him in a pointed to a box that could be used for a chair. Instead he just sits on the bed next to my feet. "What's on your mind?"
"I wanted to talk to you about Spike." I felt my insides twist up at the mention of his name and I wanted to start crying again. But I wasn't going to let Jet see me so upset.
"What about him?"
"Just... I want you to be careful okay? He may not seem like it on the outside, but on the inside, he's hurt pretty easily when it comes to love. Just... be careful. The best thing would be to just leave, but I'm not going to ask you to do that. It'd be too quiet here without you." Was he actually saying he didn't want me to go away?
"Jet, what's the matter with you? Earlier you were yelling at Spike, and now you're telling me to stay away from him? What's going on?" My eyes narrowed dangerously. He had better tell me the truth.
"I just don't want Spike being hurt anymore than he needs to be, okay you stupid wench!" That got me angry, so I stood, pushed him out of my room and slammed the door in his face. With that done, I threw myself onto the bed for another round of misery-filled tears.
Jet's POV
Geez... all I had wanted to do was protect Spike. He's like a kid brother to me. I don't want to see him hurt anymore. I thought all this to myself as I turned away from Faye's door and ran smack into Spike. "How long have you been there Spike?" His eyes were red and bleary. I couldn't tell if it was sleep or tears that caused my best friend's eyes to be this way. It was probably both.
"Not too long." Spike yawned widely. "I just woke up... but I did hear most of what you said... Thanks Jet. I mean that too. I'm glad you're doing what you're doing. I mean, I can't help but find Faye attractive, but I also can't pry my mind away from Julia..."
I stopped him by slinging an arm over his shoulders and leading him back into the living. After steering Spike onto the couch, I cleaned up a bit, then sat across from him.
"It's no problem bud. You know I'd do it any time.
So how did you all like the next chapter? I'll try to get a new one up soon. RR please!!!
Spike's POV
Faye's kiss was mesmerizing. I couldn't help but draw her even closer. But that's when something happened. A voice sounded in my head, one pleading me not to leave, not to forget... It was hers... Julia's. Quickly I broke the kiss with Faye. Stammering an apology, something I rarely do, I ran from the room and found my way back to my own small chambers.
After making sure the door was closed tight and locked I collapsed onto the bed, sweating and shaking slightly. "Can I really betray her like this? I know she's dead... I know for certain this time. But can I really just push her out of my mind and fall for another?" I muttered to the dark ceiling above. As usually, I didn't receive an answer. "Dammit, where's Jet when you need him?"
At times like this... that's when I could really count on him. I needed his advice. I didn't act like it much, but I really appreciated having him around. I needed to figure how do deal with this. I remembered so long ago when I was still living with Julia. She made me promise to always stay faithful to her. I told her I would. I gave her my word. But did she want me to love another after her death. I got up and slammed my fist into the door, accidentally opening it. I stumbled back in shock as Faye stood before my open door, her eyes tear-stained.
"I heard all you said in there Spike..." With those words, she ran off. I could hear her start to cry a little more, then the sound was silenced as she shut her own door. I sighed miserably and ambled back into my room, shutting the door and throwing myself onto the bed and into a deep and dreamless sleep.
Faye's POV
After fleeing from Spike's deep gaze and returning to my room, I flung myself onto the bed to cry more tears for this man who drove me insane. "Gods, it's not fair!" I yell to the walls. "Why do I have to realize that I care about him so much? It isn't fair!" I gave way to more tears until all that was left was a few dry shudders. Lifting my head up, I listened intently, someone was landing in the hanger. "It's probably just Jet coming back finally..."
My guess was confirmed when her door was opened and Jet stood in the doorway, hands on his hips. "What do you want Jet?" I asked him lazily.
"Where's Spike? Is he doing okay now?" I could tell Jet's really sorry about storming out earlier, so I just pointed in the general direction of Spike's room. Jet grunted. "Look Faye... can I come in? I want to talk to you about something."
"Sure." I waved him in a pointed to a box that could be used for a chair. Instead he just sits on the bed next to my feet. "What's on your mind?"
"I wanted to talk to you about Spike." I felt my insides twist up at the mention of his name and I wanted to start crying again. But I wasn't going to let Jet see me so upset.
"What about him?"
"Just... I want you to be careful okay? He may not seem like it on the outside, but on the inside, he's hurt pretty easily when it comes to love. Just... be careful. The best thing would be to just leave, but I'm not going to ask you to do that. It'd be too quiet here without you." Was he actually saying he didn't want me to go away?
"Jet, what's the matter with you? Earlier you were yelling at Spike, and now you're telling me to stay away from him? What's going on?" My eyes narrowed dangerously. He had better tell me the truth.
"I just don't want Spike being hurt anymore than he needs to be, okay you stupid wench!" That got me angry, so I stood, pushed him out of my room and slammed the door in his face. With that done, I threw myself onto the bed for another round of misery-filled tears.
Jet's POV
Geez... all I had wanted to do was protect Spike. He's like a kid brother to me. I don't want to see him hurt anymore. I thought all this to myself as I turned away from Faye's door and ran smack into Spike. "How long have you been there Spike?" His eyes were red and bleary. I couldn't tell if it was sleep or tears that caused my best friend's eyes to be this way. It was probably both.
"Not too long." Spike yawned widely. "I just woke up... but I did hear most of what you said... Thanks Jet. I mean that too. I'm glad you're doing what you're doing. I mean, I can't help but find Faye attractive, but I also can't pry my mind away from Julia..."
I stopped him by slinging an arm over his shoulders and leading him back into the living. After steering Spike onto the couch, I cleaned up a bit, then sat across from him.
"It's no problem bud. You know I'd do it any time.
So how did you all like the next chapter? I'll try to get a new one up soon. RR please!!!