How long have I been watching this blood fall
How long have you been wielding the blade
That cuts us so thin we bleed black
And makes us forget the things we've said
For how long have you been watching me
Waiting for that single perfect time
To drive the knife deeper within
And carve out the word "Mine"
It feels like I've been trapped here
For years beneath your rule
Chained to your exterior walls
To be used as your relaxation tool
How long have I been lost in your arms
Blind to the lies you feed me
Listening to sweet innuendo and mock
Seeing the emptiness as what I want it to be
I can't remember how long you've occupied my dreams
Or for how long I've wished you were more than what you seem
I don't remember if 'love' was ever part of the deal
But I know that 'lust' was needed to for it to be sealed
Need, want, lust, mine
They're the only words I'm fed
But when I wake up from my secret dreams
I forget the awful things you've said
And the only thought in my head is
"You need to be saved"
'Cause I'm enslaved