Summary: Starts off with Ellie's incident and Sean is the only one able to help her. Then it shows small flashbacks from the previous week of the couple getting closer, the cause of Ellie's hurt and the reason why they seem to suddenly break up. Bad summary. Good story.

Rating: PG-13 for Some Languge, Brief Self-Pain Infliction, Thematic Elemants, and Mild Sensual Content.

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi: The Next Generation or any of the show's characters. I do not own the song "Everything" either. I, Myself, own nothing, this fanfic is merely for fun and written from the cause of true boredom.

Everything

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you got a perfect girl
and it's a perfect world
you build a fortress around you
can see no reason not to continue

the things that you always dreamed about
you know that in time they'll be running out
stop turning around and round and round
everything you wanted will be falling down like castles in the sand
everything you needed in the world,
you're holding, holding in your hands

and if this comfortable life is your only passage through time
just make sure you can break through
the walls that you are building around you

the things you always dreamed about
you know that in time they'll be running out
stop turning around and round and round
everything you wanted will be coming down like castles in the sand
everything you needed in the world you're holding,
holding in your hands

wanna be part of the world
you gotta hand something over
wanna be part of the world

the things you always dreamed about
you know that in time they'll be running out
the things you always dreamed about
so turn it around and round and round
everything you wanted will be falling down like castles in the sand
everything you needed in the world you're holding,
holding in your hands

don't you want to hold it, hold it now
everything that you need
you're holding in your hands
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Chapter one: Now or Never

Ellie looked down at her hands, tears streaming down her face.

It's her fault, why did this have to happen to me. We were fine, but now he is never coming back to me.

She reaches under her bed pulling out an old journal with a lace ribbon tightly wrapped around it. She unravels the ribbon tracing her fingers across the cover. More tears start to come down a few dripping onto the book's worn cover.

He was the only thing that held me truly together. He had always been there for me, but when i had needed him more than ever, he wasn't there.

She opened the journal noticing the words written on the inside cover. She read the small note written on it.

-To my babygirl,

may your life be as fufilled as the futre words written on these pages. Have a great birthday from now till forever. Me and your Mother love you so much, Elliegirl.Remember, i am here for you when you need me.

Love,

Dad-

But your not here for me, no one is. No one cares about what or how i feel.

She doesn't bother to hold back any of her tears as she flips through the pages, empty pages. Then she saw her beloved protracter and razor blade in the place of some torn pages.

You were right Dad, my life is in these pages, the only things i can truly depend on to be there.

She took out the razor blade examining it carefully. She then pulled up her right black sleeve revealing her near healed scars. Then taking the razor blade in her left hand she slowly dragged it across her scarred arm.

Sean this one is for you.

She lifts the blade attempting another smooth cut, but as she is bringing the razor across she hears a loud crash of glass causing her to dig the blade far deep into herself. Quickly Ellie throws the blade to the floor and tries to suppress the massive blood flow with her, now free, hand.

I must have cut to deep, it won't stop.

She rumages around in her closet finding a tee shirt and wraps that around her wound. In a sort of panic, Ellie runs down to the kitchen. She takes her arm and rests it on the counter rubs her forehead, soon noticing that the once blue shirt is now on the verge of dark red. She was losing alot of blood and Ellie knew that. Rushing to her hall closet she pulls out towel to replace her blood drenched shirt. She then takes the shirt and tries to rinse it out in the bathroom sink.

My mom is gonna find this, i just know it.

After a few seconds of scrubbing her shirt, she started to become a bitr light-headed. Ellie looked up inot the mirro infront of her, seeing her pale face.

I think i gotta call someone.

She shakily walks into the kitchen, reaching for the phone and dials the only number that came to her mind.

"Sean... I need you-" She managed those few words to slip from her mouth before she passed out on her kitchen floor, the towel on her arm beginning to drip a shade of crimson.

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What had i done, am i truly that stupid to ruin any thing good that comes in my life.

Sean looked over at the open door space where Ellie had been standing moments ago and then looks at the inoccent- looking blonde sitting down on his couch. He then placed his hand on the back of his head and sighed. After a few seconds of trying to soak in all that had happened in the past minutes he returned to his recent seat on the couch.

"Emma, look i-"

"I understand, if there is one thing i know about you, Sean, its that you love Ellie." She said smiling.

"Yeah i do. Ididn't mean to make you think anything would become more than a friendship between us." He said trying his best to be sympahetic.

"I know, it meant nothing."

"Yeah, I still love Ellie you know." He starts to figet with his hands nervously.

She reaches over and places her hand on his to help calm his nerves. "Everything will turn out okay, don't worry, Sean."

"I hope so." He forces a faint smile.

She smiles back pulling him into a comforting hug. "It will, she loves you too."

They stayed like that for a few minutes. then she pulls back from him. "Anyway, thanks for beig here for me, Sean."

"No problem, thats what friends are right?" He gives her a friendly smirk.

"Yeah," She said returning the smile. "I guess i should be going now."

"I guess so." He said in agreement.

She stands. "Tell me how everything turns out with yoiu and Ellie." She wlaks over to the still opened door. "And Sean, i'm here for you too when you need me."

"Thanks."

She nods and walks out of the door, closing it on her way out.

Sean leans his head back, rests it on the couch and sighs.

What if she never talks to me, she looked really upset, ugh.

As he is thinking his phonew starts to ring. Hoping its Ellie he hops up from the couch and rushes to the phone. "Ellie, is that you... listen to me i'm really sorry. Ellie? Talk to me, please."

His hopeful face drops when he hears her whisper his name and a few other words then a sound like someone hitting the floor. Without thinking he throws the phone on the couch, grabs his hoodie and runs out the door.

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(A/N- Hope you guys liked it and i promisethe next chapter will be much better...)