Chapter 4

Changes

It had been a few weeks since Buck's party. Dally and I had been hanging out more, we went on few dates, but nothing serious. That was fine by me though because he was still with that slut Sylvia. I didn't know what he saw in her, she was a two-timing whore, he could do much better than that. It wasn't my problem though so I wasn't going to worry about it.

I had been getting into more fights with Two-Bit too which was unusual because we got along most of the time. One fight was so bad Darry had to separate us and the gang had to calm us down. I was beginning to be more independent and feisty which the whole gang was noticing, but I didn't care.

"Hey girl," my friend Jen said to me as I met up with her at the Dingo for lunch. She was one tuff girl. She was skinny and looked frail, but no one would want to cause a fight with her because she would always win. We were complete opposites. She was always over flowing with confidence and that was what I lacked. I had been gaining more and more after hanging out with her.

After we were done eating we went back to her house. She had some friends over that she wanted me to meet. When we got to her house there were five guys there who were passing a joint around. Jen pulled me down and sat me down next to her in the circle. She introduced me to all of her friends, but I instantly forgot their names, I was never good with names anyway. Jen passed the joint to me, and I debated on if I should take it or not. I knew that it was bad and all that shit, but I had to experience things once in a while just to see what it was like. I coughed after I inhaled it the first time, they all laughed at me and I got embarrassed. After a couple of times inhaling it, I got use to it and I was feeling pretty good.

It had been awhile since we had gotten to Jen's house maybe a few hours. It was midnight when I looked at the clock, we had gotten there at 4 o'clock. I guess I lost track of time. I was suppose to meet Two-Bit and the rest of the gang at the Nightly Double at 8 o'clock. I knew they were probably worried. I got up feeling really light and told Jen I had to go. I left her house still completely high and walked over to the Curtis's because I knew the gang would've been back because the movie was only two hours long.

When I walked through the door, the boys were in a game of poker. Well except for Ponyboy and Johnny they were off in their own little world talking about only God knows what. Darry at the kitchen table reading the newspaper. I swear that boy didn't know how to have any fun. I sat down as far away as possibly from the gang because I didn't want them to know I was high.

"Why didn't you go to the Nightly Double, sis?" my brother asked me. I was afraid to talk because whenever I was messed I talked different. I tried to act normal, "Well, I. . .," I forgot what I was going to say. The gang looked over at me, they all looked like they had two heads and everything was getting blurry. I was afraid my eyes and speech were going to give me away.

"I was hanging out with Jen and I lost track of time, maybe we can go tomorrow night or something if ya want" I finally got out. Two-Bit just nodded and everyone turned back to their poker game except for Dally. He eyed me suspiciously. I was freaking out now, my hands were sweating really bad and it was getting way too hot. I got up way too fast and everything went black.