Written by: Ria Cola, and Shinobiwolf05

Title: Whole Again

Chapter one: Past events

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, if I did I'd be at the mall duh. But (but kiji moms name here) I do own.

Summery; Kakashi has a deep dark scerect. A teenage girl is the only survivor from her village that was burned to the ground. The people of Konoha have decided to take the girl in as one of their own ninjas. But what's this all have to do with Kakashi.

Whole Again

It was an unusual thing to see his three students out to train so early in the morning. They normally complained about coming to train so often, but Kakashi was impressed that they were so determined to grow stronger. Even Sakura was taking a bigger part in training with her teammates.

As Kakashi watched his young charges, his mind began to wander. Thirteen years… Tomorrow would mark the thirteenth anniversary since he lost the love of his life. Just one day… His team carried on with their training as he fell into a memory-filled sleep.

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The time had come again when Konohagakure celebrated one of its many annual festivals.

Weaving through a crowded room, a younger Kakashi approached a girl with beautiful auburn hair and dazzling hazel eyes; she was approximately the same age as him. They had grown up together, and they knew each other like the back of their hands. She was not one well suited to the rigors of being a ninja, and chose to become a medical student instead. In fact, they met when Kakashi had taken a particularly nasty wound to his stomach. Her superiors enjoyed humoring her, and assigned her as his nurse on numerous occasions. Kakashi may bashfully admit that he faked a couple of injuries just to be in the presence of this angelic beauty. Her family moved to a far away village, but they wrote to each other often, and she never failed to show up for the same annual festival. As she had done tonight…

"Hey there, hot stuff. Are you waiting for your handsome date?"

Her angelic, teasing voice was like sweet music to his ears. "Knock off the charades, Kashi-kun." She playfully glared at him, giggling when he smirked back.

They had spent the entire night in each other's company, indulging in activities that were perhaps not the best choice at the time… A biology lesson for two, so to speak.

Another year passed and the two lovers had come to a prime age for marriage. The life of a ninja could take one away for weeks on end, but Kakashi did not want to leave Tenchiko to spend so much time alone. And there was always the risk that he would not come back from a mission alive. He was willing to throw away his active career to be a loving and devoted husband. Boys like that are always rare…

Tenchiko would not have it.

Kakashi remembers that rainy morning as clear as day. He had awoken from peaceful slumber and reached over the other side of the small bed to embrace his lover. His hand met nothing but a blanket, neatly made, as if no one had ever lay under that side. A neatly folded peace of paper sat forebodingly on her pillow.

To my dearest Kashi-kun,

Before you come to any conclusions, I want to say this

I have loved you more than any other man in my life;

You are the only one I have given myself to, and it will

remain that way forever. My heart is intertwined with

yours, and there will be no undoing it. I am not worth

you quitting a job you've worked so hard for, and neither

should I jeopardize your honor as a citizen of Konoha.

I may not be a ninja, but I understand the philosophy that

is taught to you. I do not wish to distract you from doing

your duty. I wish to set you free, Kakashi. Don't dwell on

what could have been, but what should be. Farewell, my

love, and may peace always be in your soul.

Yours, and only yours,

Tenchiko

Kakashi had never forgiven himself for letting her go. Seeking to fill the void in his pathetic life, he buried himself in those smutty books that he is always seen reading. The stories of cheap romance and sex he read about were like a drug, giving him just enough respite to get through until he needed to read it again. He laughed to himself many times, imagining how Tenchiko would react to his questionable reading interests. She would no doubt set a match to those little books. Kakashi used the knowledge and secrets he acquired as an Anbu to search for where she ran off to, away from her family. His efforts were in vain, but he refused to give up. He kept asking himself if she knew he would give up everything for her.

"Maybe that's why she left. At times I'm jealous of you, my Rival. You have a woman whose love for you is stronger than her own concerns." A much younger Gai had had told him. The rather homely young man was always in competition with Kakashi, but he never failed to support the silver-haired jounin when it counted. It was one of the few times he saw Gai with a serious face…

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Well reader what did you all think did ya like it. don't worry there a lot more coming I've got 6 more pages already typed up Shinbiwolf05and i just got to edit. Read and review.

A/ni know the letter may or may not have been to clear on why Tenchiko left. So if you didn't catch it she is with child, Kakashi's child.

God bless