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A/N: Well...this would be my first story on FFN and this shall be my test story. Constructive criticism is always welcome, but if you wish to flame...make it a flame that has a reason behind it and not just "OMG, Thats the stoopidest thing I eva seen be4" So yeah, enjoy.

Prolgue -------

"Titans Go!"

It was a simple order comprised of just two simple words, 8 letters and 3 syllables, but that simple order was enough for 5 teenagers to throw away all uncertainty and charge forward to defeat the enemy. Whether they were fighting giant blobs of plasma, a midget with more gadgets than Robin had, or a giant slab of animate stone, they never failed to attack once that signal was said. It was after that simple signal was said during a fight with Cinderblock that would force every member of the Teen Titans to realize just how valuable a certain green changeling was to them.

Part 1 Some decisions are meant to be made alone---------

Beast Boy laid in the infirmary bed and stared at the ceiling. Normally he'd be downstairs arguing with Cyborg over what to eat for breakfast. Beast Boy would betrying to convince Cyborg to cooktofu and Cyborg would only ask how someone could eat the tasteless garbage that is tofu. Yet this wasn't like any other day, this day was much different from any other day.

'Do they really even need me here?' Of all the questions that the green changeling had asked himself during his night of sleeplessness, this one question was the only one that he continually asked himself. 'All I ever do is bug the others and I always seem to only get hurt in a fight instead of actually helping.'

flashback------------

Beast Boy morphed into a rhino and charged directly at Cinderblock, ramming directly into him (it, whatever Cinderblock is) and sent it flying into an adjacent building. He morphed back and gave one of his trademarked grins to his companions.

"Piece of cake," Beast Boy said, but his grin changed to a look of confusion as he saw the faces of the other Titans, it was one of complete fear. "Beast Boy, look…" He never had a chance to hear the rest of the statement as Cinderblock had easily recovered from the earlier attack and had slammed his fist into Beast Boy's stomach which lifted him into the air slightly. Before anyone had a chance to react, Cinderblock sent Beast Boy flying at a nearby building. The impact was great enough to leave Beast Boy in his own imprint, completely stuck to the wall while blood trickled down from behind him. His last sight before going unconscious was the sight of Cinderblock slowly ambling towards him, ready to finish the job.

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Beast Boy cringed as he thought of how painful that blow was. While he was used to getting beat up during a fight, it seemed to him that they were getting worse and worse as time progressed. It seemed that everyone else was growing stronger while he was staying the same weakling Beast Boy that he always was. 'Maybe everyone would be better off if I just disappeared.'

Beast Boy's thoughts were interrupted by a discussion going on just outside the infirmary door. Beast Boy instantly recognized the voices as belonging to Robin, the fearless leader of the Teen Titans, and Starfire, the Tamaranean who was the constant source of optimism for the group.

"Please tell me friend Beast Boy will be alright," Starfire's voice had the same worried tone that it always had after Beast Boy was injured. Sure she had that same tone when everyone was hurt, but Beast Boy was injured so often that it was almost exclusive to him now.

"He received a pretty nasty shot, but he'll make it. He always does," Beast Boy couldn't tell whether Robin was glad that he was going to recover or if he was upset that he had been injured yet again. Beast Boy knew it was both, but something in Robin's tone made him feel that it was leaning more towards the latter. Starfire didn't catch the tone of his voice, only the news that came with it. "Oh joyous, I shall inform the others that our friend Beast Boy will recover."

An audible sigh could be heard from Robin as Starfire left. There was something that Robin hadn't told Starfire, but he'd be damned if he didn't tell the person involved. Robin entered the room and almost looked surprised that Beast Boy was awake, but quickly regained his normal demeanor again and walked up to Beast Boy's bed. "How ya feeling Beast Boy?" 'Besides the broken ribs I'm just peachy' Beast Boy thought to himself. "Better than that wall did after I hit it," Beast Boy said in what he tried to mask as his normal, comedic tone but he failed miserably.

"Look Beast Boy," Robin looked over at Beast Boy with concern in his voice. 'Something is not right, why is looking at me like I'm on my death bed? Oh god…' "There's something I didn't tell Starfire because I was afraid she wouldn't be able to take the news. Beast Boy you…" Before he had a chance to finish his statement, a gleeful Starfire burst into the room, dragging both Raven and Cyborg with her as well. 'Damnit! I'm what! What was he about to say?'

"Friend Beast Boy, I have brought Raven and Cyborg to see you!" 'She means well, but sometimes I just wish Starfire would for once just keep to herself' Beast Boy started to sit up to greet his friends, but a sharp pain caused him to cringe and grip his stomach. "BEAST BOY!" It was Starfire who was the first (and surprisingly only) Titan to show concern for his quick movements. "You should stay lying down, you still have not yet recovered."

Beast Boy was about to retort Starfire when he was stopped by a warm liquid seeping through the bandage around his abdomen. "I just dressed that wound too," Cyborg said while shaking his head. 'Way to show you care Cyborg.' Beast Boy thought to himself, but made no effort to say anything.

It wasn't long before Robin was able to get everyone out of the room. But it wasn't that they didn't want to leave, no they didn't care and Beast Boy knew that…or at least he thought he knew that. 'There they go, the Titans, the only people that didn't judge me because of what I look like, but is it really enough? They don't judge me, but am I really their friend?' Beast Boy shook his head to get the thoughts out, but once again he failed to do it, he always failed to do anything right.

'No of course they're my friends. Cyborg and I are practically like brothers. Starfire…well Starfire would call a soap dish her friend and mean it at the same time, but she is still my friend. Robin, actually I'm not so sure about Robin. Sometimes I wonder if he ever even considered me his friend, especially after I turned into that…thing.' After that incident with turning into the beast,Beast Boy entertained thethought about leaving the Titans. Robin was so quick to blame Beast Boy for hurting Raven thathe wasn't even given a chance to defend himself. Not that it would have mattered anyway. "I could have had a videotape of myself playing videogames at the time and he'd still think I did it."

Beast Boy let out an audible sigh at that realization. Robin, the fearless leader, the boy wonder, had no faith in one his teammates. It was hard to believe at first, but than Beast Boy just had to think of twisted logic to go behind it. 'Of course he doesn't. I'm useless to the team. He was probably just using that situation as an excuse to kick me out of the tower and have me out of his life forever.'

'That only leaves one more member…Raven. What was she to me? I don't really know…I mean, we don't exactly fit into the whole description of friends. She constantly insults me, makes fun of the things I do, and all I ever do is get on her nerves no matter what I'm trying to do or what my intentions are. Yet…there are time were we seem like friends, maybe even a little more than that. Whenever something is going on with one of us, the other is always there to help the other. No matter what happens, we always seem to be there to comfort each other like with what happened after Malchior and Terra. But…does she think of me as a friend?' It was a difficult question for Beast Boy to answer. One would think it'd be simple to know who is your friend and who isn't, but this wasn't the case. 'Happy seemed to think of me as a friend, but that's just one of her emotions. What about the rest of her?'

As if fate had heard his question, the object of his self-questioning came through the doorway to the medical wing carrying a small tray with some tofu on it. Seeing that Beast Boy was awake, Raven walked over and handed the plate over to Beast Boy. He was about to ask why she had brought it in when she started speaking. "You looked a little seeing as how you haven't eaten since before you got hurt so I decided to bring you some tofu." Raven was speaking in her normal monotone, or at least she was trying to, but there was something else there that Beast Boy noticed in her tone. An underlying fear that she was trying hard to suppress.

Curiosity got the better of Beast Boy and he had to find out what was going on. "You okay Rae?" Raven stared at Beast Boy as if he had just asked the dumbest question he had ever asked. "You're injured and you ask me if I'm okay?" It was now Beast Boy's turn to give the same stare back at Raven that he had just received. "Well of course, we're friends and you seemed…upset…about something and I just wanted to find out what was wrong." 'At least I think we're friends…'

Raven shot Beast Boy a look of annoyance. "Since when did you care so much about how I was feeling?" Without waiting for an answer Raven quickly exited the medical wing. 'I knew it…she does hate me, but can you blame her? All I ever do is annoy her.' Beast Boy sighed before he made a decision that would change his life forever.

"Tomorrow…I'll be gone tomorrow. They'll probably be so happy to see me gone. Either that or they wont even notice, not even Raven." With that said, Beast Boy closed his eyes and fell into another restless sleep.