Chapter 57
Two days later Joanne pulled up outside the house in Miami and looked over at John. After she'd told him what had happened she decided to fly out to him to make sure he'd be okay.
Joanne was worried about him, she had dreaded telling him the reason Becki had gone but John didn't react at all when she told him, he simply stared at the envelope Bex had left behind that Joanne had brought to him. He sat in the car staring at that same envelope, he still hadn't opened it.
"You coming?" Jo asked as she hopped out of the car.
John nodded, his eyes not leaving the envelope in his hands "Yeah, in a minute"
"Okay" Jo nodded back and walked away leaving John to his thoughts.
John raised his eyes to see Joanne walking into the house and sighed before turning his gaze back to the envelope. He couldn't explain why he hadn't opened it yet, probably the same reason that he didn't want to go into the house. It made it real. He wouldn't be able to wake up and find it was all just a dream.
He worked on auto pilot for the past two days, he had no idea how he got through it. Bex consumed his thoughts. She didn't have a cell phone so he couldn't call her and he couldn't contact David because he was with Melody. Jo had told him what happened with Mel and the only thing he could think about was how upset Becki would be when she found out. You could say anything to him right about now and he'd get back to Bex somehow.
When he thought about Randy he was numb. He wanted to be angry, he wanted to tear Randy to pieces but he just couldn't do it. It wouldn't make Bex come back. He had nothing to say to Randy.
With a sigh he climbed out of the car if he had the energy he would have slammed the door but as he didn't he just pushed it half heartedly.
'Best get this over with' he thought as he stuffed the envelope in his pocket and headed towards the house.
Inside the house Joanne had been shocked to find Randy still present.
"I didn't think you'd still be here" she said coldly
"I cant avoid him forever" Randy replied.
She could tell he hadn't slept much and Jo found herself feeling sorry for Randy. It was obvious he was overcome with guilt about Bex. On top of that when Jo had finally remembered to tell Randy what happened to Mel he took it pretty badly. She knew he wanted to go back to England but because of the situation with Bex it wouldn't be a good idea.
"Have you heard from Bex?" Randy asked quietly
"No, not Bex but her dad called to say she arrived" Joanne had managed to contact David when John couldn't to let him know what was happening, John was unaware that David had called her to say Bex had got there. Jo didn't tell him as David told her Bex didn't want to speak to John and Jo didn't want to cause John anymore pain, it was best he didn't know anything.
Randy was about to reply but was stopped by the front door opening. He was sure the colour drained from his face when John walked in.
Joanne braced herself for the fight she was sure was about to break out, but it didn't!
John locked eyes with Randy and stood still, he thought that maybe seeing Randy would change his mind about not killing him but instead of that it just made him feel more numb. He was past the stage of being angry.
"I'm so sorry John" Randy said watching John warily, he'd expected John to lunge at him and he was caught off guard when John just stood there, looking him straight in the eye.
Joanne watched all of this with a frown on her face, she never expected John to be like this. He was just staring Randy in the eyes and Randy could hardly look at him.
"John.." Randy tried again but John just walked away, he made his way to the room he once shared with Bex.
When he opened the door he was hit by her scent, it lingered in the room. Her things were still there, she hadn't taken them with her. A tear ran down his cheek as he walked over to the bed and picked up the folded jersey that lay on the end of the bed, it was the jersey he'd left her sleeping in.
'The last time I saw this she was asleep in my arms' he thought to himself sadly 'I shouldn't have left'
Clutching the jersey in one hand, he pulled the envelope out his pocket with the other and fell down onto the bed.
He held the jersey to his chest and stared at the envelope in his hand before placing it on the pillow beside him. He'd read it, just not now. The only thing he could do right about then was cry.
Joanne slowly pushed the door open a few hours later and found John lying on the bed staring at the envelope Becki had left. He still hadn't opened it.
"John?" she whispered
"Why Jo? Why'd she have to leave?"
"Maybe that will explain" she pointed to the envelope as she sat down beside him.
"She didn't have to leave" he whispered
"I know but she's been through so much she wouldn't have known what to do"
John wanted nothing more than to go after her but he knew he couldn't. There was no way he could get the time off work and because Bex didn't want him to lose his title or his job he wouldn't do it, even though at that moment he didn't care about his job.
"Why'd he do it?"
"I don't know! It wont help but there was nothing between Randy and Bex he was just confused"
"Nah doesn't help" John muttered
"I'm sorry John"
"Thanks"
"You should read that" Joanne pointed to the envelope again before adding "I'll leave you alone"
John stayed silent as she left, once he heard the door click shut he reached out and took the envelope.
He turned it over a dozen times before he ripped it open and unfolded the piece of paper that was inside.
John,
I'm so sorry it has to be this way. You mean so much to me but I cant stay. You love your job so much and me being here is getting in the way of that. I should have never let you get dragged into the situation with Dean, I know he's not gone and if I stay you could get hurt. Its hard enough knowing Mel was hurt because of me, I couldn't bear it if you got hurt too. I'm not good enough for you, by now I'm sure you know what happened. Please don't be mad at Randy, I kissed him back. I cant explain why but I did, I betrayed you and I'm so sorry. Randy's your best friend please don't let me come between you. Just always know that I love you.
Bex
John read the letter over and over again, it wasn't much of an explanation but how wrong could she be? She wasn't getting in the way of anything and she was more than good enough for him. If anything she was too good for him. As for Dean, John wished he had killed him, he didn't care about getting hurt.
'I love you too Bex, that's why you shouldn't have left me' he thought to himself angrily.
There was a knock the door and Jo stuck her head round.
"Oh….Sorry" she muttered when she saw the letter in his hand.
"It's okay, come in"
Joanne watched him read the letter and shake his head before he passed it to her.
"You sure you want me to read this?" John nodded
"Kay" Jo read the letter and sighed, poor Bex, Jo was pretty certain Becki wasn't thinking straight when she made the decision to leave.
"Once she's thought about it maybe she'll come back" Jo said handing him the letter back.
John shook his head sadly, he knew Becki better than that.
"She's not coming back Jo"
That thought drove him nuts, he'd fallen so hard for her, he didn't know how he could live without her, he didn't think he could even breathe without her.
The End?
Okay guys before you threaten to hunt me down this isnt the end! A few people have asked me how I was gonna end this and when I thought about it, I didnt know. I need to move the story forward and decided to dothat through a sequel. The response i've got for this story has been amazing and I cant thank you all enough, its because of you guys I keep writing! So I hope you all have the same love for the sequel, it's called Find Your Way Back and the first chapter will be posted in the next couple of days. Once again thankyou so much for your reviews, I luv em and I luv each and every one of you that's taken the time to read and/or review! Angel xx