See chapter one for disclaimer. Slash again but not incest.
How am I suppose to live without you? Chapter Three
Dad sent us to Lawrence again. But this time it was for something else. My birth and adoption papers. God I can't believe it. We aren't brothers which means I can finally tell you how I feel without the thought of incest on my mind. I'm still scared though. How can I tell you? How will you react when I tell you? Will you run away or will you stay and tell me you love me? I hope the last part. I want the last part. So much. God I want to tell you Dean. I want to kiss you.
I love you Sam. I'm so glad you aren't my brother so we won't commit incest. You're just staring at me with a look on your face I can't read. I want to read it, to believe you feel as I do. But I don't want to get hurt, to face the harsh reality that you don't feel this way toward me.
The lawyer left us alone. Doesn't he know what's going to happen? I think he does which is why he winked at me before leaving. I get up and move toward you. You look at me scared. I lean down and kiss you. When I'm about to pull away you start to kiss back. God! You taste so good. I love you Sam. I love you so much.
It's been two months since I found out the truth. I loved these two months. Dean is so caring, so open. He doesn't care who finds out about us. He just lets it show. These guys where hitting on me and he came out of nowhere and pulled me to him. I can take care of myself but I let him tell the two guys to leave me alone. To go away. We got into a fight but when we left, the guys were on the floor and we were even richer than earlier that night.
Stupid idiots friends had decided to bet on them against us. So Sam said that if we won we got the money. If they won they got Sam. I got pissed at that as Sam knew I would and practically took them down myself. No one tries to take Sam from me, no one. God, Death, and every demon, werewolf, etc can go to hell before I let him go. I won't let him get hurt. I won't, I swear on my life.