AN: Carly never went crazy, that's all you have to know. Her and Sonny are broken up and she and Lorenzo did get a divorce but going crazy, the train wreak and Rose Lawn never happened, everything else is the same, this story starts when Robin comes back into town to help Jason. EnjoyJ

Falling Memories

Chapter 1

She sat at the small table at Kelly's diner just staring down at her coffee, how did it become like this? She wondered with a frown. She had been so sure she would have him forever in her life and then when she wasn't looking, he was gone.

He was still around but he didn't know her, remember the love and friendship they shared, it was all simply gone, just like that as if it never existed for him.

Carly wiped the single tear away and finished her coffee. No matter how much she cried or wished he remembered her, it wouldn't work.

Trying to find the truth for her son Jason Morgan took a risk and lost his memory and now maybe his life. She remembered the night she bumped into him right outside that same diner; he didn't know her. She hadn't seen him in a few weeks and in that small time so much had happened; she lost him.

It broke her soul, ripped her heart into pieces to see that look in his eyes, he didn't know her, he didn't care for her because now she was just a stranger, some woman from a life he didn't remember or care to.

That broke her heart as well, he didn't want his life back, he was happy forgetting it all and just living with Sam. Carly sighed at the thought, Sam, she was all who mattered all he cared about and why? What did she do to make him want to leave it all.

She was all left alone with one-sided memories and no one left to care. I can't focus on the past, Carly thought as she rose from her chair and left the diner after paying for the coffee.

She walked along the cold streets of Port Charles and wondered what came next, now she was all on her own. She was excited and scared at the same time, she was glad to start a life with just her and her boys, no dangerous men holding her back. But she was scared of failing, screwing up as she was known for doing.

"Hey Carly."

Carly looked up and saw the only friend she had left. "Hey Courtney, what are you doing out so late?" she asked with a faint smile.

"Late night snack or craving, something like that. You?" Courtney asked. Now that she was having a baby she craved Kelly's cupcakes every night.

"Just thinking. "Carly admitted. "Everything's just so different now. Everything that happened with me and Sonny, you and Jason now this memory loss thing. It's killing me you know? He's not my friend anymore, he's not there to catch me when I fall." she explained as fresh tears surfaced.

"Oh Carly, it'll be ok. Maybe with this new treatment he's going on hopefully he'll get his memory back." Courtney said to lift her friend's sprits.

Carly frowned. "What treatment?"

"You don't know?"

"No, what's going on?"

"Robin came up with a drug treatment for memory loss, it's experimental but Jason agreed to try it, she's back in town for it." Courtney explained.

"Oh, I had no idea." Carly didn't want to gamble and put all her faith in hope but she began to think maybe she could get him back, just maybe it could be ok again. "Thanks Courtney." she said with a smile as she left.

She wanted to stay away and honor his wishes of having no ties to his past life but now she just had to see him, just once. Courtney had also explained Jason was at the hospital now, Sonny had filled her in just that afternoon.

Carly kept walking before hailing a cab, she was in a rush and the place she needed to be was at Jason's side. She didn't want to admit it but she was hoping for a miracle that he would want to see her, recognize her and their deep meaningful friendship.

At the hospital she found Robin looking through a file. "How is he?" she asked, it was all she cared about. In that moment her feelings of hate for the woman before her just faded away.

Robin looked up at the familiar blonde, she saw the worry laced in her gray blue eyes. "I just started the first regimen, right now he's in and out of consciousness." she answered.

"Are you sure it'll work? He'll be ok and get his memory back?" Carly asked.

"I hope so but right now it's wait and see."

"Can I see him?"

"Yes but Sam's with him---"

Her words were lost in the nearly empty hospital, Carly was gone. She didn't care what was going on, she was going to see him. She found his room and saw Sam sitting at his side, fury surrounded Carly's chest as she opened the door.

Sam looked up when the door opened. "What are you doing here? Jason wanted everyone to stay away epically everyone from his old life."

"Shut up." Carly said with her eyes on only Jason, he was asleep or so it seemed. She knew this was one of this unconscious times. "He's my best friend if he cant remember it or not or if you like it or not. I'm here so deal with it. I just want him to be ok." she explained.

"He doesn't need you Carly."

She wanted to snap at the smaller woman, snap her in two but Carly kept her calm because Sam didn't matter. She kept her eyes on Jason, her eyes filling with tears again. "You'll make it through this and you'll be ok." she spoke, never minding Sam was in the room. "You never break a promise Jason, never. And you promised to always be there for me, to catch me remember? I'll give you all the time you need, I'll stay away because I know in the end of all this you'll be there." she slightly smiled and used that moment to say a silent goodbye to him before walking out the door as easily as she came.

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Isabelle A.