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Chapter 5: Finding Loss In Love?

I lay there, not daring to speak a word for fear of my voice cracking or other signs of emotion. I don't want Jinn thinking I'm a baby...or for him to think I have feelings for Mugen. I'm not even too sure of that myself yet.

"Fuu." Jinn says simply, bringing me out of my thoughts.

"Yes?" I ask, hoping he'll say more than that, but not so sure he will.

There is a long silence. So long, in fact, that I give up hope of him answering. Then he begins to sit up. My eyes go wide and I instantly cover my chest, while trying to lay him back down.

"It couldn't have been Mugen." He states.

"What?" I ask in surprise.

"Hmmm." He says, obviously leaving me to put two and two together.

I think about it for a few moments.

"Mugen was watching me...and if he'd done it, he wouldn't have come back. And...he wouldn't have been so shocked or worried about me being...," I hesitate. "On you."

Jinn nods. Obviously I hit the nail on the head.

"Jinn, you should lay back down," I suggest. "You may lose too much blood."

Thankfully, he lays back down with a sigh. I wait awhie, then lay back down on him. I don't want to give him the wrong ideas, not that I think he'll get wrong ideas. Not Jinn.

"Fuu, do you care?" Jinn asks.

I'm caught off gaurd and all I can do is give him a puzzled look. He seems to be in a more talkative mood for some reason. And do I care about what? Why would he care if I cared. I shift uncomfortably.

"Do you care that it hurt Mugen to see you like this?" He asks.

I'm not sure what to say. Do I? Why does he want to know?

"I...well," I stumble on my words. "He's my friend, so yes, I care."

I finally got my answer in order.

"Is that all?" Jinn asks.

"What do you mean by that?" I ask.

"You don't have any feelings to return for him?"

His eyes are like needles in my skin right about now. I grit my teeth. My eyes wander around the room. I decide to just shake my head "no" so my mouth dosen't betray me. The moment I do, though, I feel a pain in my chest. My heart is screaming at me to make up my mind. My mind is screaming 'Stop being so stupid!' Do I love Mugen as well as Jinn?

Jinn's eyes...they haven't left me. It feels as if they see straight into my soul. I sit up and raise my hands to my head. Jinn is still staring; I can feel it. I grab my shirt, put it on, and stand up.

"I-" I gasp. "i have to go get some water!"

Jinn says nothing as I run out of the room, tears starting to run down my face. What is wrong with me? Don't I love Jinn? Jinn and only Jinn? Isn't Mugen the one who thinks I'm nothing more than a whiney little girl? Don't I hate how he teases me? What's wrong with me?