Until further notice, Addison's Anatomy, OH, and Boots are hiatus. After the finale so many ideas came to mind. They refuse to go away. I have so many parts of this story outlined. It is my new baby. This is season 3 through my eyes...

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.1.

Feeling A Moment

Feeling the moment slip away
Losing direction you're losing faith
You're wishing for someone
Feeling it all begin to slide
Am I just like you?
All the things you do, can't help myself

How do you feel when there's no sun?
And how will you be when rain clouds come?
They'll pull you down again
How will you feel when there's no one?
Am I just like you?

Turning to face what you've become
Buried the ashes of someone
Broken by the strain
Trying to fill that space inside
Am I just like you?
All the things you do, can't help myself

-Feeder

.1.

"Meredith?"

Meredith looked from Derek to Finn. She looked at Derek morosely. It was her turn to choose. She wasn't sure which way to go. Her head and her heart were at a standstill. She had two good men in front of her. Two good men that were hoping she would choose one and leave the other to wallow in defeat. She didn't know what to do. She didn't know who to choose.

On one hand she had the man she loved. The man who had broke her and left her a dirty mistress. A man that she thought would give her forever to only rip her heart out. On the other hand was a man that understood her. A man who made her laugh. A man who made her smile. A man who was damaged and optimistic. A man who had plans for what would come next. The other man didn't have any of the answers that she so desperately needed, but the other….

"Yeah, I'm ready to go," Meredith finally answered and took Finn's outstretched hand. Finn Dandridge smiled softly at Meredith. He squeezed her hand reassuringly and lead her away from the mess that had been made. Meredith did not look back, no matter how loud a part of her screamed too. The other part was much louder.

Derek stared at Meredith and Finn's retreating form hoping for something. He hoped for anything that would give him hope, but Meredith didn't give him anything. She let Finn wrap his arm around her and walked out of the hospital. Derek felt like a thousand ton of bricks had fallen on him. She chose Finn. She did not choose him. The stabbing pain in his heart must have been the pain Meredith felt when Derek chose Addison. It must be the pain Addison feels every time she catches Derek looking at Meredith.

Derek's legs buckled beneath him. He grabbed onto the rail of the balcony to steady himself. It hurt. Everything hurt. He closed his eyes. He wanted to block everything out. He needed to block everything out.

"So this is how it feels when your heart breaks," he muttered to himself and hung his head low in resolve. It was over. She had ended it.

Izzie had sobbed in Alex's arms the entire way home. George and Callie had looked on defenseless. Callie felt for the destroyed woman. Izzie had thrown away everything for a man she loved. Callie wondered if she could ever love or be loved in that way. Her eyes traveled to George who was driving. She could tell how affected he was by Izzie's tears. He truly loved his family. Meredith, Izzie, Cristina, and Alex were his family. Callie reached over and took George's hand in hers.

George gave her hand a tight squeeze. He appreciated that Callie was there. He wasn't sure if he would be sane if she wasn't.

Alex murmured soft words of comfort into Izzie's hair. Izzie held on to him tighter as her tears died away. By the time they had pulled into the drive way of the house, Izzie was silent. Alex had carried her up the stairs to her bedroom.

"Don't!" Izzie pleaded as Alex attempted to put her down. "Please don't let me go. Hold me, please. I just want to be held."

Alex bit his lip. " Can I at least put you down to pull back the covers?"

Izzie nodded. Alex set her down at the edge of the bed. Izzie resembled a grieving child. Her hair was matted. Her eyes red. Her nose runny. She was a wreck.

Alex leaned down to kiss her on the top of her head. He helped her into her bed, before he climbed in after her. Alex wrapped his arms around her waist. Izzie laid her head in the crook of his neck and cried.

"You'll be all right, Izzie. Let it out. Just let it all out."

Addison walked out of the elevator in search of Derek. She knew that he would be where she left him. She had watched Meredith Grey walk out with the vet. She had hoped that Meredith would choose Finn. Addison was not an idiot. She knew exactly what had happened. She saw the looks. She heard the gossip. Addison Shepherd was not as ignorant as everyone believed.

Addison found Derek by the stairs with a drink in his hand.

"Are you ready to go home?"

Derek looked at her pathetically.

"I had sex with Meredith," he confessed in a pitiful tone. Addison grimaced at the words. She had expected them to come at some point in time. She had just not expected them so soon.

"I know."

"No, you don't understand. I had sex with Meredith tonight."

"I know, Derek. I knew that you were with her," Addison replied. Addison stepped closer to Derek and removed his keys from his coat pocket. "Come on. Let me take you home."

Derek looked at Addison sadly. "We're even, now. We'll talk about this later. I just want to go home."

Derek nodded and allowed for Addison to take his hand.

Meredith and Finn sat in his car outside of her house. She could see George and Callie sitting in the living room from the window. Meredith suddenly found herself envying George and Callie as they laid on the couch together. She wasn't quite sure why.

"I am not going to ask about what happened up there," Finn said, drawing her attention away from her friend and his girlfriend.

"Thank you," Meredith whispered.

The couple slowly got out of the car and walked up to Meredith's front door. They stood in front of the door for a long time.

"I meant what I said. I have plans. I still would very much like for you to be a part of them."

Meredith looked up at Finn surprised. Finn cupped her cheek in his hand.

"Please tell me that you still want to be a part of them."

Meredith gazed at Finn wide eyed. With all the courage she could muster, Meredith pressed her lips to Finns. "Yes."

Finn smiled and retrieved a box from behind him. "Good, because I would hated if the last piece of cheesecake had gone to waste. I snagged it from the dessert table for you."

Meredith's heart melted.