An Athrun Shinn story...

With me

I do not own Gundam Seed Destiny, not making any profit what so ever off this, nor any of the Characters... and trust me, you don't want me to... . you really don't, Finally this is purely for amusement, seeing as there is few Fan fictions that I like that center around these two... that being said, lets move on

I apologize if any OOC-ness occurs... .

Main Paring, Athrun Shinn... some others may come up

R&R please

Pain and struggle are a part of everyday life, simply that, but no one can know true pain till they've felt joy. And that's what Shinn Asuka once had.

Joy.

The raven haired boy had a family that loved him, incased him in a gentle love that he felt secure in, only to have it ripped out from underneath him. Why did he have to lose all that mattered to him in a single instant? The only reason he lived was because of the pink cell phone that fell down the hill. Only because he wanted his innocent little sister to smile, only for them to still be together.

All of them.

Shinn sighed, he wasn't sleeping well, and it was becoming more evident. The war had come to a stop, and hopes were it wasn't a brief one either. He couldn't believe it...

He had no where to go.

Sure, it was great being able to not have to worry about the sirens going off, the voices of the crew ringing in his ears. But it felt so empty in the room where he laid. The couch was inviting, but only he really sat on it. The room was spacious, nothing to place in it, but he hoped that soon there would be. Maybe if he started to collect things, then the room wouldn't feel as hallow as he did.

Often people came by, those from the military, all those he worked along side, just to see if he was alright. And of course he told them he was, although he felt like yelling at them for asking such a stupid question... how could he be alright?

He had no one left.

One person in particular that stopped by was Athrun, although they fought, and that's usually what Shinn sought to do with the older male, he couldn't help but think about it

'Why would he care...?' His red eyes closed behind the pale blinds of his eye lids, he tried everything possible to make the other angry, so why did he come back. A breath passed his slightly parted lips, and his eyes reopened. He found himself waiting for Athrun to knock on his door. 'What's taking him so long?' He pouted, sitting up, his hair now messy from the position he had previously assumed. A soft knocking noise could be heard from the door of his apartment. Athrun always came about this time, on this day and he found a smile spread across his face. He stood abruptly and walked over to the door, fixing his hair as best he could.

Rearranging his expression so that it looked annoyed as he opened the door, only to actually become annoyed.

"Hey Shinn, how's it going? Are you feeling alright?" Lunamaria chirped happily; maybe a little too happy for his liking.

"Hey... I'm good, you?" he could only respond to the pink-haired girl as she invited herself in, he wasn't happy about this at all. Athrun was supposed to be coming by; he didn't want to see her of all people. She was becoming more and more annoying the more he looked at her.

"I'm good too, I'm so glad you're alright!" She smiled and sat down; he couldn't help but criticize everything she just said

"Of course I'm alright, what did you think was going to happen to me in the span of three hours!" he snarled and the girl fell silent. Shinn seemed on edge today "You just visited me a few hours ago, is it really that necessary that you see me... again." He glanced at the empty door frame before closing it.

"Shinn... are you feeling okay, normally you're nicer to me..." Lunamaria had to point out and he sighed, she did have a point, he usually didn't snap at her, and he was starting to feel a little bad about it. And yet she managed to avoid the question completely.

"It's nothing... I'm sorry; I was kind of waiting for something..." Shinn scratched the back of his head, it's not like he cared if Athrun showed up, it's not like he was that important to him... right?

"Oh, I see!" Lunamaria said happily, obviously over it. She patted the seat next to her, giving him permission to sit next to her in his own apartment. He took the invite.

A few hours passed of her relentless talking, although he did nod, and try to pay attention to the pink haired woman, he couldn't. His mind was else were. Finally she pulled him out of his drowning thoughts with a simple phrase, which he couldn't deny, but was glad to hear.

"I'm sorry Shinn, but I have got to go." She smiled and stood

"Its okay" he rose from his seat, looking apologetic himself, and walked her to the door "It's nice seeing you..." he managed to say while opening the door, only to come face to face with the person he had been thinking of the whole time.

"Athrun..."