DISCLAIMER: Nope not mine.

SUMMARY: Sesshomaru I hate you!" he wasn't letting her go, he wouldn't leave her alone… he wouldn't let her die… he was holding onto her like a fucking lifeline, and she could feel herself starting to break…… " he should have let go."

Chapter one:

She knew she was ugly she knew she was unwanted… and today she knew she would no longer… be a burden.

Broken glass littered the bathroom floor. Water was spilling over the sink… tinted pink.

DRIP

DRIP

DRIP…

Crimson drops painted the walls. Muffled screams echoed through out the empty halls.

And their Rin stood desperately trying to cut away her ugly face. Cut after cut, she tugged at the skin, their voices echoing in her head. Ringing through her ears their cruel laughter… fading on her skin the bruises that they left.

'Laughter' she cut even harder. 'A punch to the face' she cringed. 'Ugly slut!' 'Little whore!' 'Stupid pig!'

A single tear slid down her cut up face. The voice's the words they stung worse than the bruises that they left.

'TRASH!'

"No" Rin tugged at her face harder.

'Whore!'

"Stop" She whispered fiercely as she dug her nails into her skin watching as the blood gushed out, and tears she didn't know she had poured from her eyes.

'Slut, your used up!'

"No" her knees bent as she shook her head

'Used up cunt! No one wants you!'

"Stop it" Rin grabbed her head as she felt herself sinking slowly, she could feel the tears through her fingers.

'Do us a favor and die already!'

"Please…" the voices of her parents suddenly ringing all to clearly.

(Her father) 'Rin you were really never pretty.'

More tears streamed down her blood-drenched face.

(Her mother) 'Rin you were a mistake…you were never wanted'

She could feel herself break as she cried out from the flooding bathroom "SHUT UP!"

Rin suddenly found renewed strength as she grabbed the knife off the counter but instead of her face Rin cut her throat. She could barely feel the knife slipping from her fingers as her vision blurred, it felt like she was going backwards. She faintly felt broken glass crunching beneath her; red seeped into her dimming vision.

Her eyes closed as darkness consumed her and there she died on the bathroom floor… or so she had hoped.

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Her head hurt like a motherfucker, and the intense smell of alcohol wasn't making it any better. Maybe if she just went back to sleep.. Yeah sleep. She faded out.

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Voice's she heard voice's lots of them in hushed tones… what were they saying? Were they even speaking Japanese it sounded so jumbled she couldn't make out a thing… Ugh

There's that pounding head ache again. But wait something was off…Where was she? Why was it so dark? Was she…dead? No it couldn't be, the bed that she was on felt so soft. She wouldn't be able to think when she was dead either… would she?

Unh all this thinking was too much trouble… she should just go back to sleep. Rin let herself relax and felt the effects of sleep slowly pulling her in when suddenly her arm burned with such intense pain it jolted her out of whatever trance she had previously been in.

'Holy shit!' Unknown to her Rin screamed as she jumped up her eyes immediately opening up. "Holy shit, that hurt!"

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Mitomi Mychio (Rin's mom) sat in one of the chairs next to her daughter's bed a tissue held to her face.

She didn't get it how could Rin do this to herself… what in the hell was wrong with her child? Trying to rip off her-own face? Really now. Mitomi put her head on the bed a sigh escaping her lips.

How would she ever live this down? Oh the rumors that would spread about her daughter. Mitomi frowned suddenly a look of pure contempt settling across her face.

'That little bitch how could she do this to me her mother… the one who raised her and took care of her, I knew keeping this little brat was a mistake. I just knew it!'

Mitomi was brought out of her musing when the doctor came in "Hello Mrs. Mychio and how are you this evening?" Mitomi smiled in reply.

"How is she doctor?" The doctor sighed wearily looking over her clipboard before sitting on a chair opposite of Mitomi's. A fake smile plastered on the weary doctors face.

"Well Mrs. Mychio things are looking up, all of her facial wounds have heeled without scaring and her neck wound looks to be getting better unfortunately there may be a bit of scaring there and the cuts on her legs have all but healed and the wound on her stomach is bet-"

The doctor was brought out of her rant by Mitomi resting a hand on the woman's arm "Its ok Miss Onigumo, you can tell me I won't faint I promise."

Kagura chuckled darkly (a.k.a miss Onigumo) "Well I guess there's just no beating around the bush with you. Ok I'll get to the point, her wounds have healed fine as I said some scaring but…" Kagura sighed and looked at Rin's heartbeat monitor.

"But." Mitomi said Kagura sighed again "But, I'm afraid the fall did her in… she has become a vegetable."

Mitomi stared at Kagura confusedly "A what?" Kagura shook her head "A vegetable, meaning her brain can no longer function beyond the very basic of needs, breathing and sleeping, beyond that she is dead."

Mitomi nodded gravely, "My insurance won't cover the life support."

Kagura nodded, "Then we will most likely have to pull the plugs."

Mitomi nodded, "I understand."

"Are you sure?" Mitomi shook her head yes. Kagura shot her a look of sympathy before pulling out a syringe with a clear liquid inside.

Not wasting anytime she pulled out the I.v and gently (hold Rins arm still) placed the cold needles tip to Rin's flesh . She prepared to 'pull the plug' but Rin's arm suddenly flew out of her hand. "Holy crap that hurt!"

Kagura dropped the syringe in shock.

Mitomi looked up 'Damnit!' and then instantly threw her arms at Rin sobbing like crazy.

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Rin Gasped as she felt a pair of arms wrapping themselves just a little to tightly around her neck "Mom please…let…go…your…choking…me!" Rin gasped for air as her mom eased up.

"Oh Rin sweety I thought I had lost you!" Rin looked at her mother confusedly the words tumbling around in her head. "Lost me?" Rin repeated out loud and in her head 'Lost me? What the fuck?'

"Rin I thought you were gone for good, you had me so worried… how could you do this to me? How could you!?"

Rin stared at her mother still not getting just exactly what her mother was talking about. "How could I what? Where am I? What are you talking about mom?" Mitomi looked like she wanted to scream.

In the background you could see, that Kagura stood in shock watching as Mrs. Mychio started to yell at , what was previously supposed to be a dead patient. 'I don't understand? Her vital signs, her brain waves… they were unresponsive…weren't they?' Kagura shook her head as the shock slowly wore off.

Mitomi was about to strangle her daughter how dare she suddenly pop back up after all the shit she caused for her and forget why the fuck she was here in the first place!

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Rin was confused what was going on why the hell was she in a hospitable bed and… Hooked up to shit? What was going on? Rin opened her mouth only to close it as her mothers words registered in her head

"Rin You tried to Kill yourself! You're here because I found you on the floor covered in fucking blood! What in the gods name were you thinking!?"

Rin's eyes widened suddenly as if those 6 words had been the key to Rin's memory. It unlocked the door and it all came as it all tumbling back to her.

The cutting, the screaming, the laughter, the breakdown, the blood, the water, the glass, her face, it all came back to her. 'No' She thought 'I was supposed to die, Damnit!'

Rin could feel the tears spilling over. Rin closed her eyes.

"Rin?"

"Sweety?"

She heard the doctor and her mother calling to her but she was to pissed to even respond, she felt like screaming until her lungs burst. 'I hate her. She saved me, I wished she would have left me, I was so close, I was so fucking close that bitch. I fucking HATE HER!"

(END CHAPTER)

A/N: well there your first chapter, now your all probably thinking oh no not another one of these stories, but I promise it won't suck, I know the summary doesn't sound like it has anything to do with Rin and sessh but it does.

Um so yeah review comment flame whatever just leave me something to read… you pple don't know how frustrating it is to not even see at least a flame.

Koinichi-14