Well everyone else was doing one of these spoiler-like-woah fics so I just decided to jump in the boat too while I was still inspired and obsessed with these two. I swear ever since chapter 120 I've been obsessed with KuroxFai. OBSESSED.

Thus, I offer my first fic in what has quite probably been forever.

Title: Logical
Rating: G.
Genre: Angst.
Pairing: Kurogane/Fai.

WARNING: OMG DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T READ CHAPTER 125 BECAUSE IT WILL SPOIL THE WHOLE THING. kthx.

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Nothing was logical now, to be honest.

Pain that throbbed relentlessly still lingered near the wound, but it didn't hurt anymore. He could feel his senses slowly slipping away, numbing the pain and obscuring the world. But he still felt pain somewhere.

How could you feel pain when you were numb?

It made no sense.

It seemed his hearing was dulling as well, for all he heard was concerned mumbling of his friends and people he would never see again. However, he could pick out enough words to follow along with what they were saying, especially when Kurogane spoke, for he did so with much loudness and anger. He could hear the ninja ever-so-clearly when he started yelling at him for so blatantly giving up, and every word stung.

And as Kurogane stared him down, all Fai could do was apologize.

Then, he couldn't hear even Kurogane anymore. All he could hear now was the dull buzz of pain inside his head, threatening to kill him. But then, that was what he wanted, wasn't it? To die.

If this is what he wanted, then why did it hurt like this? He wasn't thinking of the pain caused by the wound, he couldn't feel that anymore anyways. It was the pain in his heart that was unbearable. But why? Is this what death really was? Hurting no matter what?

That didn't make sense either.

He wished he could just die now and end this, all of this. He wasn't strong. He was never strong, and never would be. So why wasn't he dead yet? This was his wish.

But… maybe his heart had created a different wish. And maybe this wish, whatever it was, was the reason why he was still alive. But what could have become so important to him?

Suddenly, he was vaguely aware of being held by someone. And somehow, he didn't have to open his eye or listen to the voice to know that it was Kurogane. He strained to listen to what was happening, forcing himself to pay attention.

He heard them discussing a plan with Yuuko. But it was ridiculous. Kurogane could not wish for Fai to live, he just couldn't. Kurogane should kill him instead and end everything that much quicker. That ninja… he couldn't become Fai's prey. He couldn't.

"D… don't…" was the only thing he could manage to say before Kurogane interrupted him.

"SHUT UP!" The ninja shouted, surprising Fai. Despite every stupid or annoying thing he ever did, Kurogane had never sounded as emotional as just then. "If you wanted to die that way, I'd kill you. Until then, live."

Those words hit him harder than the ones that foretold his death. They hit him hard and fast, and they made him realize what exactly the wish his heart had made was.

It was for Kurogane.

And for the first time, he truly smiled, because now, everything started to make sense again.