Pain
Chapter 24

I'm outside. I'm walking. I'm lost.

Not literally. I know exactly where I am, exactly where I've been and exactly where I'm going. But I don't know. I just don't know. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix anything. Can anything be fixed? I'm so lost.

I don't know what to do. Where to go. Where I'll ever be again.

I need help. Who would I go to though? I have nowhere to be. Nowhere to go. No one to rely on. How will I go on? There has to be a light at the end of the tunnel. There has to be. Even if it's an oncoming train.

I really hope to God it's not, though.

Maybe if I just kept on walking, maybe if I didn't look where I was going, I'd end up somewhere without complications: somewhere without pain. However reckless that plan was, it was the only one I had. Should I? Should I not? It was smarter to think a little bit more before risking my life. For all I know someone could kidnap me in a minute and rape me and kill me. But was that a risk I was willing to take?

I think this is for the best. I think I should just start over. Just go somewhere where no one knows me. Somewhere where no one can find me. Somewhere where I'm just Cindy. Not Silent Cindy, not Bitch Cindy, not Freak Cindy, but just... Cindy.

Yeah, that's what I'll do. I'll just go somewhere.

"Goodbye, Retroville. Goodbye forever," I whispered with a smile, walking slowly toward the bus stop...

A/N: That's the end, but I might write an epilogue or a sequel. Most likely it'll just be the sequel. Anyways... Here's an excerpt from a song I like:

"Stay On The Ground"
By: Armor For Sleep

Holding your head up,
is hard when you just want,
to stay on the ground,
to stay on the ground,
to stay on the ground...