Title: Does it really matter?

Author: .KuroxFye.

Rating: T

Warning: might contain spoilers later… this chapter is spoiler free though.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Tsubasa or any of it's characters.

Overlook: the fact that Kurogane actually does know what snow is.

- Does it really matter?

Fye couldn't sleep, it had been a good few hours since the group had arrived in this new world… At first Fye could have sworn they had landed in his own world but of coarse he didn't lead on or tell anyone. It wasn't until about an hour later that he started to notice real differences among the similarities, though it was cold, lifeless and undoubtedly had the essence of magic about it there were also massive land forms or rock that he had never seen before. Fye, deciding that changes this big couldn't have been made so quickly and concluded that this was not his world.

Once again he was placed in a room with Kuro puu, he and the other resided in a small cabin like shelter for the night, Kuro tan seemed to have fallen asleep amazingly fast for someone who spent all time before night complaining about the cold snow and how he'd never get use to it. The whole scene was hilarious… the ninja had finally met his match…

Flashback

Makona had managed to aim the group of travelers perfectly for a pile of snow, Kuogane (being un prepared and heavy) fell straight threw the snow, he was covered in the pile of white fluff… on top of him landed Sayoran and Sakura who simple seemed pleased that they themselves hadn't directly hit the cold pile, but they climbed off after realizing who they had landed on. Fye however managed to miss the pile… no one knew how, even Makona had landed in the pile but none the less the mage was standing next to the heap dry and warm in his over sized excuse for a coat.

Kurogane climbed to his feat shivering "What the hell?" he examined his cloth and noted the white addition. "What is this stuff?" he grumbled while trying to brush it off.

"That'd be snow kuro puu" Fye gave the tall and confused man a side smile almost teasing the man as if the answer was simple.

"Snow! Snow!" Makona added while jumping up onto Kuorgane's head.

The ninja's eyes glowed fire red "I'm going to kill you"

"Ohh Kuro wan wan don't be so mean to Mako chan" and without thinking he had already fired a snowball straight for the man.

Kurogane reacted out of the corner of his eye to the small ball of fluff headed for his face, he secured his hand on the hilt of his sword ready to attack… when the 'thing' was close enough to kill he would strike.

A big flash of light is all the others saw, Sayoran and Sakura simple watched with a blank and sympathetic look on their faces… they lived in a desert world and even they knew what snow was.

The flash of light had cleared and kurogane looked around for remains. "hn, looks like that thing was to weak for me to have even bothered using strength on… there aren't even remains left." The tanned man had a victorious look on his face like he had just proved his mastered strength.

Fye couldn't contain it any longer, the mage laughed… that man, and he just looks so serious about this.

"What are you laughing at?" kurogane asked while still in his glory.

"it's snow… it's soft frozen water, it's fluffy and harmless and you attacked it." By the end of that sentence Fye could hear his words beginning to crack as he tried not to laugh more. "See kuro muu?" he said while holding out a handful of the stuff and watched it melt against the heat of his hand.

Sayoran and Sakura now were even giggling at him.

Kurogane desperately tried to come up with an excuse but had little luck, embarrassed he simply turned his back and said "lets go."

"ohhhh Kuro tan's blushing!" Fye teased him from behind.

"That's it! You're gone!" and the man headed straight for the mage with angry written all over him.

Fye had done this on purpose… seeing kuro chan's reaction to snow only left the blond man with another question, how would kuro puu deal with ice? Fye quickly moved across the small ice patch near by, Fye was totally adjusted to this climate and had no problems moving around the slippery terrain.

However when the gruff man hit the patch he fell and slid across the span, only to find himself stuck in another snow pile. He just couldn't win.

After a while of exchanging insults and backhanded comments (mainly coming from kurogane) the group finally moved on, Sayoran realized that the sun was almost down and they should find shelter quickly… the whole way there kurogane repetitively mumbled angrily about everything and everyone.

End flashback

Re thinking the whole thing brought a slight but real smile to his face but he was quickly hit with more troubling thoughts. This may not be his world but it was certainly making him think, making him think of things he would rather forget. He looked over at the sleeping man and thought 'if he wakes up now I'll never hear the end of this'. His mask was non existent at the moment; no one was awake to notice so why even bother… none the less he decided that being outside would be a better decision, that way even if they did wake he would still be out of sight.

Fye quietly moved threw the open door and headed outside, tugging the strings on each side of his coat to warm himself, he started to trail off in thought. Staring into the dark open sky he wondered.

'Is this all even worth it, so many things I left behind… but I had to!' his thoughts paused as he reviewed that in caution 'no… that's wrong I didn't have to leave I wanted to, I left them all to die! I caused their pain… not Him ... it was… it was all me.'

Fye could feel his eyes swelling up with tears but he refused to let himself cry, all those people his mother, father, brothers, Ashura ou and so many others… were thrown away by him… it was all him, he couldn't blame it on anyone else. And what killed him the most inside was knowing that it was fixable, if only he had courage, if only he were willing to face the past… but he wasn't. In truth, he was a coward, and willing to admit it. He disgusted himself… everything he did had a reason behind it but if he had only dealt with it differently everything could have been avoided. Everyone could have been saved.

Well, there's a first chapter for you… This is my first fanfic. That I'm actually going to post so please review and tell me if you want the rest because I have the next 2 chapters completed but I'd like to know what you all think first… so maybe I'll make some changes.

- Kuroxfye