I'm Sorry

by crazykitsune17

Disclaimer: I'll bet it comes as no surprise that I don't own YYH.

-X-

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for never telling you how I felt.

I'm sorry for holding back,

and I'm sorry saying things I did not mean.

I'm sorry for all the times I lied when I said that nothing's wrong,

and I'm sorry for all of the fake smiles I let you see.

I'm sorry for all the tears on my pillow

and the gems on the floor;

I had to throw them away

because I didn't want anyone to know

that I was crying over you.

I'm sorry for all the nights I spent alone

but in my mind I was with you the entire time.

I'm sorry for not realizing that I have to be honest with myself

and with others.

I'm so sorry it had to end up this way.

I'm sorry for taking pills to help me sleep at night,

and I'm sorry shutting myself out during the day.

I'm sorry for getting so wrapped

in you.

I'm sorry for all of the letters I never sent you

Sorry for the sad songs I sang alone.

I'm sorry for all of the poems I wrote about you

and I'm sorry for keeping my secrets.

I'm sorry I love you, Kurama,

but it's too late.

-X-

Yukina stood outside the heavy oak doors of the church, one small, frail hand on the wrought-iron handle. Heaving a soft sigh, she let her hand fall limp and began to walk away.

"I've waited too long," she whispered, clutching the little leather-bound notebook where she kept all her journal entries, letters and poems in her other hand. The notebook began to slide from her grasp, and it hit the top of the ice-covered steps of the church which a light "slam".

"I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your wedding, Kurama." Yukina's voice was so soft that the wind seemed to steal it away, taking her words to the bare, snow-covered trees. "It just… hurts too much. I'm sorry."

A burst of frigid air nearly froze the door shut completely. A black shadow stepped out from behind the corner of the old church, his scarf flapping energetically in the gust of freezing wind.

"You're a fool," the shadow said in a low voice.

A tear slid down Yukina's cheek and solidified into a perfect, spherical gem. "I know…" she whispered. "I know."

-X-

-crazykitsune17-