Summary: SasuNaru. As time went on, his mask started to break, but without it he doesn't know what to feel. Watch as Naruto figures out just what he never really knew; whether it is good or bad.

WARNINGS: Lemon, yaoi, cussing, and I think that's it.

Disclaimer: If I owned Naruto, the show would NOT be child appropriate.

Lyn: -Ninjas in- BAM, I edit this conversation!

Naruto: What? Why?

Lyn: Because I said so!

Sasuke: That is a horrible reason to-

Lyn: ON WITH THE STORY! –Ninjas out-

Chapter 1: Emptiness

Naruto's P.O.V

After I brought Sasuke back everything changed. My mask...it's broken. I can't be the loud, hyper, happy, idiotic person I once was. The mask Naruto loved orange. I hate orange. He loves ramen. Well, it's the only thing I can afford. He loves Sakura. I don't care for her beyond a friend. He hated Sasuke... I love Sasuke.

Of course I'd never tell him that! Who could love someone like me? Someone who was pretending to be someone else for such a long time? I've lied to them all. I don't deserve any of my friends I have now. I don't think I ever will. How can any love someone with a demon inside of him? Besides, Sasuke isn't gay. If anything he's probably a homophobe.

I hate that my mask is broken because I can't even pull off a fake grin in the mirror I'm looking at now. I don't know how it broke, but it did. You know the worst part? I faked so many emotions I don't really know what any of them are. Well, I know what they are but I've never really experienced them. The most important one being love. I may love Sasuke, but I've never been loved.

So what am I supposed to do now? I guess I'll just have to go on with my life. Damn.

I slowly pull on my orange jacket only to throw it back in the drawer. Now I can't even stand to put that thing on. I move towards my other drawers and pull out a pair of black sweats and a red shirt. This will work.

After I'm done I don't bother eating anything. I'm tired of eating ramen. As I leave I can't help but feel an emotion that I can't really put a name on, and as I walk towards the bridge it's still there. Maybe it will still be there long enough for me to find out what it is.

I could tell Sasuke and Sakura knew I was here because they could sense my chakra even though they weren't looking at me. Right when I stepped on the bridge Kakashi appeared.

"You're late!" Sakura screamed by herself. I didn't feel like shouting.

"Well you see I-" Heh, seems like they noticed that I didn't say anything since they all turned to me. Their eyes widened.

"Naruto what are you wearing?" Sakura asked looking me up and down. I didn't need her stupid questions.

"It's called clothes Sakura; think once in a while." I snapped at her. If I thought their eyes were big now boy was I surprised. I have better things to do then stand around getting gawked at by my friends.

"Well I just wanted to tell you that there are no missions today so-" I didn't let him finish; I just started to walk away. He was probably going to say we were going to spar today, but I don't feel up to it today like I used to. Stupid mask...

"Naruto, I wasn't done." I looked back at Sakura's anger face, Kakashi's annoyed face, and Sasuke rolling his eyes. I'm not stupid. I know they're thinking that I'm trying to act cool just leaving when I thought there was nothing else to do when there really was. That made that feeling from before come back again.

"I know. I don't feel like sparing today. So go back to reading your stupid perverted book and let Sasuke and Sakura spar. It's what she'll want. Of course Sasuke will want to spar while she will bug him about some date. Frankly I don't want to be around to watch." As I start to walk away I can't help but smirk at them mentally. I showed them. I really did know what I was doing...or did I?

People were glaring at me. And some of them were shocked when I glared back. So what? Not like they'd ever allow me to be Hokage. So why bother being nice to someone who hates you? It's pointless. I guess a lady didn't like that I glared at her little girl when she glared at me because she threw an apple at me. But I just threw it back at her hitting her in the head. Serves her right, I'm not going to take that shit any more.

I enter my empty apartment and look around. I sigh as I look at the picture of all of my friends and me on my last birthday. I hate my birthday but somehow managed to smile in this picture. I looked at the faces of all my friends and couldn't help but getting that emotion back again. They won't accept the new me. No one would. I no longer had my friends. Not really anyways, not when they see the new me. I now know what I was feeling earlier.

So this is emptiness...

A/N: Onwards to the next chapter!

Lyn: -Ninjas in- BAM! Story and conversation edited! I've decided not to really change how I wrote it, such as the p.o.v and much of the content, but my writing style has changed as you'll see later on.

Naruto: You can't keep doing that, Lyn.

Lyn: I'm the writer; I can do whatever I want.

Sasuke: You interrupted me in the last conversation. You are not allowed to inter-

Lyn: BAM! Interruption ninja skills activate! Ja ne!

-To be continued…-