Disclaimer : I do not own Instant Star, Or Any of It's Characters including : Jude Harrison, Tommy Quincy, Kwest, Sadie Harrison, Spiederman Mind Explosion, Darius Mills, Portia Mills ETC,

I also do not own any of The Instant Star/Alexz Johnson lyrics

Author's Note:- Hey Guys, A Merry and Belated Christmas, Really sorry that the update's so short but I've been enjoying not having to go to school and wallowing in my Christmas pressies (DOCTOR WHO DVDS !!!!! David Tennant HEAVEN !!!) so I haven't even been thinking about updating and I felt really bad about keeping you all waiting though I'm sure that you guys could survive if ya really had to LOL

Listen to me I'm babbling again, I tend to do that a lot …….

Enjoy !!!!!!!!

Please Read and Review + Daydreams and Dreams and Flashbacks are written in bold italics

And lyrics have o0o's before and after them

Passages from Jude's journal are written in italics

I DO NOT OWN ANY LYRICS FEATURED IN THIS CHAPTER/FANFICTION

THEY BELONG TO A RECORD COMPANY/SONGWRITER/ARTIST TYPE PERSON BUT NOT TO ME !!!!

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Kwest strode up the corridor leading to the ICU trying to act as nonchalant as he could since inside his intestines were wrapped around his windpipe with nerves 'If Sadie finds out what I'm doing she will slaughter me, Hell if anyone finds out what I'm doing I'll be dead'.

Kwest's thoughts were interrupted by the sound of breaking glass and a ear-splitting shriek "HOW BLOODY LONG DOES IT TAKE TO ASSESS ONE FRIGGING TWITCH OF A HAND?!?!?!?!?". Kwest ran round the corner to see Sadie looking demented and in a homicidal frame of mind. Two orderlies were cleaning up a broken glass vase and a mess of red roses and water.

Kwest wrapped an arm around Sadie "Hey hey, calm down, what did the flowers ever do to you?". Sadie's eyes were brimming with tears "They made us wait outside nearly an hour ago, what is taking so bloody long?". Kwest had to think lightning fast "Right I think we all need to let off some steam so Jamie and Speed you can wheel throwey here down to the cafeteria and get her some ice cream to calm her nerves". Speed gave a half-hearted salute and he and Jamie veered a protesting Sadie down the corridor towards the hospital cafeteria.

Once they were out of sight, Kwest ducked into the room to see what the doctors were up to. Dr Carlson was scribbling something on Jude's notes but she looked up when she came in "Oh Mr …. ?". Kwest smiled "Call me Kwest". Dr Carlson nodded her head "Kwest we are taking Jude up for a brain scan in about 45 minutes to assess her brain activity further, I'm sure this will please her rather …. abrasive sister" Dr Carlson bit her lip "Oh I'm so sorry I shouldn't have said something derogatory like that, please forgive me it's been a long shift". Kwest held up his hand "Look doc you've survived the wrath of some of G Major's finest and bitchiest drama queens, your allowed to call Sadie abrasive".

Dr Carlson "Thank You" she went for the door but paused "My daughter loves Miss Harrison's music, I'd love to be able to phone her and tell her that I'm treating her all time favourite rock star and idol but it would break her heart if I went into detail" Kwest gave a small smile "Your daughter has good taste" "She doesn't just love her because she is a great singer, she says that she loves Jude Harrison because she inspires her to go for her dreams and tell all the Eden Taylors in the world that she's here to stay and they'd better get used to it"

Dr Carlson sighed "I'll go and arrange that scan now". As the door clicked shut Kwest pulled out his cell and was about to text Tommy when a voice floated out from behind him "You really don't want to be doing that". Kwest turned to see Portia emerging from the bathroom. "How long have you been in there? I've been looking for you everywhere!" demanded Kwest.

Portia chuckled coldly "You obviously were preoccupied with other matters or you would have looked harder". There was something about her eyes that made Kwest feel uneasy "Yeah….well I was worried about Jude". Portia rolled her eyes "Ah yes ……..Jude". Portia went over to her beside and stroked her hair, this was seemingly caring but Kwest detected the hatred in her stare. Kwest cleared his throat causing Portia to look up "Darius was looking for you". Portia smiled chillingly "Okay I'll go find him". Her eyes never left Kwest's until she shut the door behind her.

Kwest shuddered and punched a few buttons on his cell and snapped it shut. Minutes later the door opened and Tommy edged in. Kwest threw him a glare "You better appreciate this, Sadie is going out of her mind and if she finds you here she might flip her lid altogether". Tommy smiled thankfully "I just need to say goodbye properly". "Look man, leaving isn't your only option, talk to Darius, see if he can calm Portia". Tommy shook his head not taking his eyes of Jude's tranquil form "Darius isn't an option, Portia will just do something…..stupid that will hurt Jude".

Kwest threw his hands up in the air "Jesus man it's just one goddamn secret after the other with you isn't it". Kwest swore vehemently "Look sort out your life man before you screw it up permanently okay, I'll be keeping a watch outside because honestly I don't want to die for you". Kwest ducked out the door. Tommy inhaled deeply before turning to look at Jude again.

He shakily sat down beside her. Tommy looked at her and the mess of machinery that she was hooked up to. Gone was the fifteen year old punk-rocker with an attitude that he had met two years ago. She had grown into a beautiful mature young woman. Tommy licked his lips and hesitated before taking her hand "Hey girl".

Tommy sighed "I'm so sorry Jude, I don't even know if you can hear me but I just wanted you to know that I never meant to hurt you, but I guess your pretty tired of hearing that from me, I know I'm tired as hell of saying it". Tommy's eyes filled up but he willed the tears not to fall has he clasped Jude's hand tightly "If I could, I'd stay and I'd make it up to you for all those times I broke your heart girl". The tears in his eyes were threatening to fall.

Tommy cleared his throat and said thickly "Look there is no one in this planet that I love more than you Jude Harrison, I have loved you since the day I first kissed you and I will always love you no matter what". Tommy stood up and wiped his eyes where a few tears had snaked out and bent down and kissed her on the forehead "I love you girl" he murmured before turning and walking to the door.

Just as he was about to turn the door-knob a hoarse voice spoke from behind him

"Tommy?"

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