Failed Affections

Disclaimer: I do not, under any circumstances, own the HP Universe.

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He read and reread the note. 'The usual spot… P' He knew what that meant. The only problem was- well, red hair and brilliant green eyes. She said she understood, but he still just didn't know. Well, maybe just this last time… then I'll break it off. Yeah. Easier said than done.

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"So, you showed up," a voice said from the shadows, "The way you were looking at the note I didn't think you would."

"Listen Padfoot… I don't think this is such a good idea…"

Sirius stepped up behind him and slid his arms around his close friend. "Chill Prongs… Lily said it was okay, didn't she?"

"Yeah, but it still feels wrong to be… with you… and her… I don't know," James said, sighing and leaning back into the embrace.

"Just relax," Sirius said, grinning. He stepped away from James, mussing his hair. James grinned back at him.

"Maybe we could just… hang out- or something- tonight," James said, sitting down on the tattered couch.

"Hey, Moony isn't lending us his 'spot' so we can talk, but I guess it'd be okay," Sirius replied, shedding his heavy winter jacket. James followed suit and they sat in their simple muggle clothes- in silence.

"I thought you wanted to talk," Sirius said.

James smirked. "What do you want to talk about?"

"Well… did you see that chick and her boyfriend making out after Potions? I didn't know which one I'd like to shag more… her or him," Sirius purred.

"If you're trying to make me jealous, it isn't going to work," James said stubbornly.

"Damn shame…" he joked.

"Y'know, Sirius, you look awfully tense…" James said, pulling his knees up under him and crawling toward him, "Let me get that for you."

Sirius turned his back to him and allowed him to remove his shirt. James' hands were deft on Sirius' back and shoulders, kneading the knots out of the muscles with all the skill of a professional masseuse.

When he had finished with the massage, James snaked his hands around Sirius' shoulders, pulling him backward. Sirius twisted so that he landed on top of James. He was lying between James' legs, grinning seductively. In a millisecond Sirius had captured James' lips with his own, entwining their tongues in a passionate kiss. Sirius removed James' shirt, along with most of his own clothing, until he was clad in only his black silk boxers. James gasped as Sirius' mouth traveled down his jaw and neck, and then back up again. This is wrong… this is wrong… but then why does it feel so right? he thought. His hands had begun- seemingly of their own accord- moving up and down Sirius' body, exploring the familiar curves and planes of his skin. James' pants were soon discarded as well, as the two lovers became completely involved in one another…

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Sirius woke first, still entangled with James. He simply watched him for a while, before deciding that it was time for him to wake as well. He shook him lightly at first, then a little harder.

"James, hey idiot wake up," Sirius said, "Hey, your girlfriends here and she wants to do another threesome."

James' eyes snapped open and he looked around the room with wide eyes. He turned a sneering face on his friend. "Very funny, Padfoot. A real rib-cracker."

"I thought you might enjoy that one…" Sirius said, chuckling, "Now, let's go, before we miss breakfast."

He had already stood and was pulling on his clothes as he spoke. James did the same, though much slower. He finally pulled on his shirt and looked solemnly at Sirius.

"This can't happen again," he said softly, "I have a committment to Lily… you understand..."

Sirius' smile disappeared and he looked at the floor. "I know," he said monotonously.

"Oh come on! It's not like you couldn't have anybody in the school… guy or girl," James said, "And it's not like we can never see each other ever again… I mean, we'll still be mates."

"Yeah, I know," Sirius said, grinning again, "And you're right… I could have anybody." Except the only one I really want… he thought, You…

They walked to the Great Hall together and walked in, laughing about some new scheme that they had cooked up. Remus looked sadly from one to the other, knowing what had transpired. He'd have to be a doubly good friend to Sirius… considering James still had Lily. But Sirius- Sirius had no one… except Moony.

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So? Wow, my first posted slash fanfic… I'm so embarrassed! What'd you think? Should I write a sequel or leave it as a one shot? Maybe turn this into a prologue? I have so many ideas running around in my head… lol. Review, and help me figure out what to do! After I get around 15 or 20 reviews I'll let you know what I'm doing! Bye for now!