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Crossroads
By: liljaneybelle
"Set a course…for home," the captain ordered her
voice nearly betraying the myriad of emotions she was feeling.
Shock, joy, and sorrow – to name a few.
The bridge remained eerily silent. Harry leaned on his console bowing his head
to hide the tears threatening to tumble down his cheeks. The last time she gave that exact order they
were all strangers at the beginning of an incredible journey. And now they were home, at a time which fate
planned as the beginning of another journey – the life of Voyager's newborn
daughter. It was a new life for all of
them he supposed. Harry glanced up to
look at the viewscreen. In the distance
a small but familiar blue marble was gradually growing clearer.
A sniffle broke the silence. Then another.
Harry slyly glanced around to see who it was.
There was a cough, then a sigh.
Harry saw the commander's shoulders begin to shake.
There was another sniffle and soon after a stifled
sob.
Harry brushed away the few tears that slipped from his
control and watched the commander's shoulders shake harder.
A chortle. A
cough. Another soft sob.
Seven glanced at Harry curiously. He just grinned and ignored the tears that
continued to escape. He nodded in
Chakotay's direction, whose shoulders were shaking uncontrollably now. The captain noticed as well and asked wryly,
"Commander, are you quite all right?"
Chakotay tried to compose himself as he turned to
address her question. He maintained it
as best he could until he looked in her eyes.
They were red-rimmed with unshed tears yet dancing with laughter and
full of relief.
He threw his head back and laughed until he
cried. Harry immediately joined
in. Several others soon accompanied
their jubilant giddy relief on the bridge.
Seven, who had never laughed a day in her life that she could remember,
felt a curious sensation tickle her throat that was relieved when she expelled
a breath with a melodious sound. She
put her hand over her mouth in surprise making Harry laugh all the harder.
"Ensign, that sound I just made…"
"A giggle, Seven.
You giggled," said Harry with gasping breaths, leaning on the railing
beside her for support.
Then someone snorted making everyone burst out
laughing once more. Chakotay was
doubled over at the helm taking heaving breaths and wiping the tears from his
face. Harry sat against the railing
laughing and crying, enjoying watching Seven enjoying the new sensation of
laughter. Behind them Ayala was sitting
against his console holding Sue Nicoletti in a bear hug. Tuvok stood poised as ever with an eyebrow
raised in curiosity at this odd human behavior that even Seven was
participating in.
Kathryn Janeway had stood startled when Chakotay
pealed with laughter. She surveyed her
bridge as his release had a cascade affect on the rest of her crew. When Seven giggled she threw her hands up in
the air and snorted with laughter and let a few tears freely flow. She stepped forward to lean on the railing
near the helm.
"I'm sorry…Kathryn," Chakotay sputtered, "we were just
sitting here…and we're home… and we just…sat here…" he coughed, trying to catch
his breath. Then his face contorted
realizing they were here and everything was different now.
She didn't see his expression change, she only
laughed…or cried…harder over the irony.
Was it irony? She was sure
something about all of this was ironic.
They were home. She had, in a
way, died to get them here – something she vowed she would do if
necessary. But she was also here, alive
and well, standing on her bridge reveling in the sheer wonder of it all with
the people, the family she loved more than almost anything she left behind
seven years ago. And they were moments
from Earth, not thousands of light years.
Everything was different now; they were all home safe and sound. The journey, the commitment fulfilled. Was that a part of the Admiral's plan? She barely had time to register that thought
when she heard a wry voice speak up behind her.
"I swear, Doc.
They were all sane when I left."
Tom, B'Elanna, the Doctor and Voyager's littlest
crewmember were just outside the turbolift.
After a brief but furious debate – the young parents adamantly for and
the Doctor hopelessly against – the group came to the Bridge to complete the
last leg of this journey with the rest of their family. However, they hadn't expected the scene they
stumbled upon. The bridge nearly echoed
with sounds of giddy laughter, heaving breaths and gasping sobs.
When tom spoke up heads swiveled in their
direction. The laughter and tears of emotional
release quickly dissolved into congratulatory remarks, exclamations of delight
and a few tears of joy over Voyager's new daughter. Harry, eager to hold his best friends' child, charged over to
them, claiming an uncle's privilege on the way. Seven peered over his shoulder in curious fascination at the
squirming newborn as Tom looked on with unabashed pride.
The Doctor guided B'Elanna down the steps gently
where Chakotay and Kathryn greeted her eagerly and assisted her to a seat to
the left of the captain's chair. Harry
had followed and handed the baby to an uncertain Seven who held the child
carefully in her arms. Her wide eyes
gazed at the small creature in amazement; she had never experienced first
contact with an infant after witnessing the events before and during its
gestation period. The wonder of it all
awed her and she felt tears sting in her eyes.
"Lieutenant Torres," she whispered, "she is
perfect."
B'Elanna exchanged a surprised look with her husband
and captain before replying, "well, thanks, Seven."
The bridge crew had gathered close, eager to see the
little one who made such a grand entrance into their world. She soon began to fuss with all of the noise
and attention making Seven, her parents and her godfather nervous. B'Elanna took her child from the uneasy
Seven but the wee babe continued to squall – loudly. The Doctor whipped out his tricorder and began to scan his
goddaughter in earnest as the captain chuckled softly.
"She's fine, Doctor. She just needs to know where she is." As she reached for the baby she asked the new parents, "you
haven't changed her name have you?"
"Only slightly," Tom replied exchanging a glance
with B'Elanna who continued, "Miral Kathryn," then added softly, "for the
Admiral."
Kathryn cradled Miral in her arms and bit her lip,
nodding slowly. She rocked her slowly
then sat down in her chair making soft shushing noises. She studied the young teary face carefully
before she spoke, remembering something the Admiral had told her. "Crewman Miral Kathryn Paris. Welcome aboard, Voyager." Miral had quieted a bit by then but when the
captain spoke to her she stretched her little hand up to the voice. Kathryn gave her finger to which the little
one clasped onto tightly. Kathryn
looked up with a wide smile.
"Looks like she knows who the boss is," Chakotay
teased quietly.
"Miss Paris knows she is home," Tuvok
corrected. They all turned to him in
surprise. "It is only logical," he
continued. "The excitement made her
nervous. It is common knowledge that
even during gestation that children are somewhat aware of their
surroundings. The noise that accosted
her here was unfamiliar but the captain's voice in the midst of chaos is not. Instead it is reassuring to her, giving her
the impression of security and therefore home." No one was quite sure what to make of Tuvok's analysis but the
Doctor turned their attention away from that for the moment.
"Speaking of home," he said, "take a look at our
view."
All eyes turned to the viewscreen where Earth loomed
large before them.
"Mr. Paris, would you care to guide your family the
rest of the way home?" Kathryn offered.
He grinned.
"Yes, ma'am."
Everyone understood that to be their orders to get
back to work but Kathryn continued to cradle Miral in her arms. It was times like this it was good to be the
captain. With everyone more or less
distracted Kathryn took the opportunity to have a private moment with her
youngest crewmember.
"You made one heck of an entrance, little one, one
definitely worthy of a member of this crew.
How I envy you – you're journey is just beginning. I have it on good authority you've done
great things with your life once already…and we got to be pretty close. Let's hope some things stay the same. To your journey, Miral Kathryn."
B'Elanna was the only one to overhear the captain's
one-sided conversation. Kathryn felt
her chief engineer's inquisitive gaze upon her. Kathryn leaned to her right, so no one else could hear and
whispered, "Let's just say she's more than just the Klingon savior." B'Elanna's eyes widened in surprise and
curiosity but before she could ask the captain what she meant Harry's excited
voice announced Starfleet Headquarters' hail.
"On screen," the captain ordered rising. B'Elanna rose with her, touching her arm and
gestured to the baby. Kathryn rolled
her eyes. Answering Starfleet's hail
with an infant in her arms would have been interesting to say the least. She turned to see Admirals Paris, Hayes, and
Necheyev on the viewscreen.
"Admirals," Kathryn said nodding her head in
greeting.
"Captain Janeway, crew of Voyager, welcome home,"
Admiral Hayes said proudly. "We've
cleared the grounds of the Presidio for your landing."
"The Presidio?" Kathryn repeated, her voice barely
more than a whisper.
"Yes, Captain," Necheyev replied glancing at her
counterparts. Hayes was grinning
broadly, rocking on the balls of his feet delighting in the news her had just
delivered. Paris' eyes were fixed
elsewhere on the Voyager bridge.
Necheyev sighed and continued.
"You'll all have to remain on board the ship while doctors from
Starfleet Medical examine your crew.
Meanwhile you can send us any final reports and logs. Pending Medical's decision you may
disembark. As per regulations quarters
wile be provided for all of you during the debriefing process. We'll begin as soon as you are on the
ground."
"Understood, Admiral," Kathryn replied hoping she
didn't sound too much like…well like Tom.
Necheyev had always gotten under her skin but now she'd have to get used
to taking orders after seven years of being the law. Getting used to working with the Admiralty again would be
interesting.
Necheyev turned to her counterparts, "if there is
nothing else, gentlemen?"
Hayes shook his head still grinning. Admiral Paris didn't take his eyes off of
the swaddled bundle in the young half Klingon woman's arms.
"Is that…" he began gesturing in B'Elanna's
direction with a nod. All but Tom
followed his gaze.
"Yes, sir," Tom replied knowing to whom the Admiral
was referring.
Admiral Paris nodded shortly but with a ghost of a
smile. "I'll see you all soon." The Admirals winked out giving them the view
of Earth once more.
Kathryn blinked, wondering briefly what the outcome
of that particular reunion would be.
Then she snapped into action.
"Well if we're going to set her down, let's set her down in style, Mr.
Paris."
Tom was relieved to have something else to focus on
for the moment. He took the captain's
order as his cue for free reign in bringing the ship down. "Yes, ma'am," he replied as incorrigible as
ever.
"Commander Tuvok to all hands: go to condition
blue. We are preparing to land the
ship. Please report to code blue
stations."
"Notifying Headquarters of our immediate decent,"
Harry added.
The crew quickly and uniformly performed their
various functions as Tom lowered Voyager into Earth's atmosphere. As they neared the west coast of the North
American continent Tom glanced over his shoulder to ensure the landing was his discretion. Kathryn gave him a nod and a crooked grin,
having a good idea of what he wanted to do and knowing full well she would do
it if she were at the helm. He grinned
and returned his attention to the helm.
He sharpened the angle of descent just enough so they all could vaguely
feel the sensation of the ship hurdling towards San Francisco causing B'Elanna
to let out a small yelp of laughter and Harry to chuckle knowingly.
"Hold on to your hats, kids," Tom announced as he
manipulated the controls. They all
looked at one another a bit confused at his words. Kathryn barely got out her confused, "what?" when the ship nose
dived towards the San Francisco Bay; they couldn't feel it but they could see
it on the viewscreen and it was quite a sight.
To the crew's delight fireworks exploded in a wide range of colors all
about them despite their midday arrival, increasing the excitement on
board. Tom allowed the ship to soar
over the water and then he glided it gently over the Golden Gate Bridge. Chakotay and Kathryn glanced at one another
sharing a knowing, amused and somewhat triumphant look. Something in their expressions made them
hold their gaze a bit longer than intended.
It was a gaze with intensity that did not go unnoticed and the observer
knew the decision made had not been in vain. Chakotay blinked first and Kathryn returned her attention to the
landing. Tom was turning the ship to go
for another pass over the bay.
"Tom," she said half-scolding.
"Just heading back to the Presidio, Captain," he
called cheerfully. "It's been awhile
since I've been there. I went the wrong
way." A few chuckled softly at that,
knowing he wasn't exactly truthful.
Minutes later Voyager's landing struts were lowered
and the ship gently touched down on Terran ground for the first time.
"We're down, "Tom announced needlessly.
"We certainly are," Kathryn said with a smile. She rose to stand in the middle of the
command center, hands on hips. She took
in the scene around her and then spoke carefully. "I'd like to say now while I have the chance that I am extremely
proud of all of you – in the courage, commitment and trust over the years. Now let's show the brass how things were
done in the Delta Quadrant. I want
reports from all departments in an hour.
Let's work on getting this ship ship-shape for our visitors. Doctor, go to Sickbay and prepare the
medical files for the representatives from medical." He nodded and left. "Tuvok, I want a deck by deck examination of
the ship." Tuvok replied with a crisp
'aye' and left with Lt. Ayala.
"Chakotay, oversee all repairs.
Seven focus your efforts on the recent events. Tom go with her and compile the report on all other sensor
data." They left and Kathryn saw
B'Elanna move to converse with Nicoletti, her daughter in hand. "B'Elanna where are you going?"
"Engineering," B'Elanna replied, her tone implying
that should have been more than obvious.
Kathryn shook her head.
"Harry, Nicoletti, go down there and get things
started." B'Elanna's eyes grew wide in
frustration. "I know you don't want to
be coddled, B'Elanna, but you gave birth what?
A couple hours ago?"
"But Captain, I'll just…"
"You won't just anything. You have the Bridge, Lieutenant," Kathryn said firmly. "Handle any incoming messages from command,
collect the incoming reports and handle any issues that arise. And I'd like you to contact Pathfinder and
set up a comlink to the Delta Quadrant."
B'Elanna thought her frustration impaired her
hearing. "What?"
"Call Neelix," Kathryn clarified. "Tell him we're home." B'Elanna smiled.
"I'll be in my ready room," Kathryn finished but
added under her breath, "trying to figure out how the hell I'm going to explain
this."
The following hours were by far the most
tedious. The anticipation of being home
but stuck on the ship was agonizing.
Per the captain's orders the crew reports were in within the hour
specified and repairs well underway before they were interrupted by the medical
exams. It was the medical exams that
were taking all the time, as the Doctors were being more than thorough. Kathryn Janeway got hers out of the way
early on in order to focus her attention on matters she thought to be far more
important. She was in her ready room
reviewing the damage reports when the chime rang.
"Come in," she called, slightly distracted.
"I have the last report," Chakotay announced with a
smile as her entered.
Kathryn didn't look up immediately, "They never
cease to amaze me. They were on top of
things before we knew there were things to be on top of!" She waved the PADD she was holding as proof. "They are simply wonderful." She took the PADD from him. "What is this one?"
"Crewman Wildman's report about the experience," he
replied unable to hide his amused grin.
Kathryn skimmed it briefly, chuckling softly.
"That girl is a first rate Captain's Assistant," she
clucked proudly. "Have you been
examined yet?" she asked wryly.
"Just came from mine actually," he answered tugging
on his ear. "They're meticulous aren't
they?"
"To say the least."
She rolled her eyes. "I'm just
glad its over. Now…onto the
debriefings, B'Elanna relayed the schedule," she said handing him a PADD, "and
I'd like you to review my report as well."
"All right."
He took both and glanced at the schedule. "We're going to be pretty busy."
"Starfleet bureaucracy – the one thing I did not
miss," she joked. The truth be told
she'd gladly face any number of debriefings knowing it meant they were home
safe and sound. He knew it too and simply
smiled. She headed for the replicator.
"Coffee?"
"Sure but…"
"With two sugars," she finished for him. She got their drinks and gestured to the
couch. "Have you given any thought to
remaining in Starfleet?" she asked casually.
"Some. I'm
not sure what I'll be doing. I guess it
all depends…"
"On Seven?" she asked quietly. He looked at her sharply.
"You know about that?" She nodded.
"The Admiral?"
She nodded again.
"Kathryn, I'm sorry you had to find out
from…yourself? But you need to know…"
"Chakotay," she interrupted, "there is no need to
apologize. I only wish you told
me. Why didn't you say anything?"
"I just didn't know what or how to tell you."
"The truth would have worked." She tried to joke but it fell flat.
"I'm sorry, Kathryn. I didn't mean for this to happen but I have to tell you…"
"What happens…happens." She shrugged. "There were
no promises to keep. We had everything
but time. I wouldn't expect you to wait
forever anymore than you expected me to change my principles."
"Kathryn, let me finish. There isn't anything to tell anymore."
"There isn't?"
Now she was confused…and a bit nervous having made a revelation she
hadn't expected to make.
"No." He
sighed. "She tried to break things off
because the Admiral implied my feelings for her would cause me pain in the
future. I tried to protest, telling her
she needed to get to know me a little better before she made that kind of
decision for me. She said she had been
observing me for four years and she believed she knew me rather well. She explained that she was just a part of
what would make me happy. She said I
wasn't the type to settle and if I remained with her that is what I would be
doing. According to Seven she was not
the woman I wanted, but she was trying to be more like her." He stared intently in her eyes, imploring
her to understand. Why could he never,
they never, say what they meant?
"Torres to Janeway." Kathryn ripped her gaze from Chakotay's standing to reply.
"Go ahead."
"Headquarters reported that we are fit and have
permission to disembark whenever we're ready."
"Thank you, B'Elanna. I'll be right there.
Janeway out."
"Never a dull moment around here," Chakotay said
rolling his eyes.
"We'll finish this soon. I promise. There is
plenty of time. They have waited for
this day long enough."
"Agreed." He
rose and gestured to the door, "after you."
She nodded graciously and headed for her bridge to
finally give her crew permission to leave the ship.
As Voyager's crew disembarked from the landed ship,
they noticed a large crowd had gathered to greet them. It was their families. As soon as Voyager was first spotted in the
alpha Quadrant Reg Barclay used every comline available to him to contact
everyone he possibly could. He did a
marvelous job, word spread quickly and family members came from all over. It was fortunate the medical examinations
had taken as long as they did, for many had to travel some distance to get to
Earth in time. The initial moments were
awkward, no one quite sure of how to behave.
Fortunately for everyone, Lt. Ayala's sons, two strapping young men, the
elder a first year cadet, and their young sister, born months after her father
had gone missing, dropped all sense of decorum and charged the crew, tackling
their father in greeting. Their gusto
broke through the hesitation of both sides and soon a lively reunion
began. Sam Wildman grabbed Chakotay's
arm, half-gasping, half-moaning, as she saw her husband for the first
time. Chakotay and a few others quickly
parted the crowd, clearing a path for her.
Young Jerron swept little Naomi into his arms and charged through to
deliver daughter to father.
Even crew whose families hadn't made it in time
found themselves welcomed with open arms into the families of their
friends. Chakotay found himself on the
receiving end of a bear hug from the particularly emotional mother of one
Ensign Harry Kim. Reg Barclay found the
Doctor quickly and they at once began an animated conversation of life since
they last met. Seven and Icheb however
did not know what to make of the chaos around them. They had expected an emotional display however what was occurring
was more than they were prepared for.
Holding Miral close, B'Elanna made her way to the two bewildered former
Borg.
"Are you two alright?"
"Lt. Torres," Seven responded, "are you uneasy with
all of…this as well?"
She shrugged.
"Maybe a little. But I didn't
want to fight the crowd with Miral."
"Most understandable," Seven agreed, her eyes wide.
"I noticed Tuvok and Vorik head over that way,"
B'Elanna said pointing to her right. A
few meters away the two Vulcans were greeting their families calmly. "I'm sure Tuvok would like you to meet his
family."
A look of relief passed over Seven's face and she
smiled softly. "Thank you, Lt., we
would very much like to meet his family."
"That was considerate," Tom said coming up behind
her.
"It's a good day to be nice."
Kathryn Janeway smiled on the scene before her. It really was the most beautiful thing. Ever the captain, she watched to see that
all her crew met up with someone before searching the crowd for her own
family. She was grateful Ayala's
children had broken the ice; she feared the reunion would be uncomfortable, but
the children freed everyone to embrace the moment. She nearly laughed out loud when she saw five large men rush the
Delaney twins. Five older brothers
explained a lot about those two. It was
with regret that she noticed B'Elanna and Sue Nicoletti in a solemn
conversation with Joe Carey's wife. His
loss had been one of the last. She
observed that there were a number of people she recognized as family of those
that died. She vividly remembered
writing letters to them, memorizing their faces from her crews' pictures in
order to speak with them one day. She
watched several members of her crew detach themselves from the arms of their
loved ones to see the families of their lost friends. Upon speaking to them later, she discovered that the families of
the lost also wanted to greet the lost crew their loved one had died for, to
thank them for bringing home some knowledge of the life he or she had led. Though she would always feel guilty for not
getting all her people home safe and sound, she was touched by their families'
gesture. A sudden thought interrupted
her musings and she began to scan the crowd worriedly.
"Hey."
She turned quickly, "Chakotay! I can't find Seven or Icheb. They must be lost in all of this!"
"Don't worry. I just saw Tom. They are with Tuvok and Vorik.
B'Elanna found them quite disturbed by all the excitement and thought
they would be more comfortable with a Vulcan reunion."
"B'Elanna?"
Chakotay nodded grinning, "And
speaking of the Paris-Torres family, the Admiral has been looking for you."
"I just want to make sure everyone
gets settled first."
"They will. Come on.
Have you met Mrs. Kim by the way?"
She shook her head. "Well, be
prepared for a big hug. According to
the Admiral, Starfleet has arranged for everyone to be quite comfortable for
the duration of the debriefings and any other hoops we have to jump through
before we're on our own. From what it
sounds like we'll be extremely well fed."
"I don't doubt it. A home cooked meal sounds good right about
now."
He nodded. "Admiral Paris is having
the senior staff to dinner tonight, provided Harry's mother will let him
go. I don't think his mother will let
him out of her sight for a while yet."
"I don't blame her. Did you see Libby here? She actually waited all these years for
him. I can only hope that it was worth
it, for the both of them."
"I think it will be. It will be hard at first, seven years is a
long time, but I think they'll make it.
If love can make it through that, it will make it through
anything." She stopped walking to look
at him, wondering what he was implying when a shout was heard over the rumbling
crowd around them.
"Captain!!!"
The source was soon obvious. Tom
Paris was jumping over the crowd, aided by a nearby bench.
"It appears I am being summoned,"
she said dryly, "shall we?"
The command duo made their way
through the enthusiastic crowd, greeting numerous crew and their families along
the way including the emotional Mrs. Kim who did indeed bear hug Captain
Kathryn Janeway, much to Chakotay's amusement and Harry's embarrassment. They eventually did make it over to the
leaping Tom.
"Momma?"
It is said that only one's parent
can reduce one from adult to juvenile in a matter of seconds. The strong-willed Captain her crew thought
to be tougher than the hull itself found herself feeling like a seven year old
who had been lost in the woods. She
collapsed into the safety of her mother's hug, aching for the comfort only a
mother could give while fighting her desire to sob out her worries, fear and
relief. As a few stray tears made their
escape, Chakotay exchanged a pleased look with B'Elanna and Tom. B'Elanna gave him a teary smile while Tom
buried his face in his wife's hair and held her close. The Admiral turned away briefly, becoming
quite intent with his granddaughter's face.
Knowing how her daughter as she did,
Gretchen Janeway spoke up.
"Well, it's about time you got
here. I was beginning to worry." She pulled out of the hug and passed a hand
through her daughter's now short locks.
"What in heaven's name did you do to your hair?"
"It was even shorter at one point,"
Tom piped up taking the fussy baby from his dad.
"It was easier this way," she
replied. Then she noticed the
Admiral. "Admiral," she started as she
stuck out her hand, "thank you for…"
His eyes were gleaming brightly and
he cut her off by pulling her into a hug.
The movement surprised her but she returned the hug warmly.
"Your father would be so proud,
Kathryn," he whispered softly. Then he
released her quickly. "Tom tells me
little Miral Kathryn made quite an arrival. Have you ever seen a baby so beautiful?"
Those initial moments were merely a
forerunner for the events that followed.
Oddly enough there was very little formality involved in the entire
process. From the time Voyager made
first contact with Starfleet in Federation space, the event was treated with a
somewhat less than formal air. There
were some days when Kathryn felt she was out for coffee with friends rather
than at a formal debriefing. This isn't
to say that all of the debriefings were a tea party, but things went much more
smoothly than she expected. She finally
confronted Admiral Paris about the casual attitude and he informed her that
Voyager's homecoming has been the highlight of the past few years. They were still rebuilding and recovering
from the Dominion war and could only imagine how those on Voyager felt as the
only ship against countless potential hostile forces. Rather than subject all of them to the rigorous pains of
inquiries and such, the Admiralty agreed that Voyager's homecoming should be an
exalted event. Since Voyager was able
to send their logs to Headquarters during the past few years they have already
been reviewed, debated and settled upon.
Overall, the majority understood the choices made and decided not to
pursue any further action than to discuss the events with the crew and leave it
at that.
The circumstances of their arrival had caused a bit
of a stir, but with the Borg threat seemingly neutralized and no one to hold
accountable for the crimes committed in a time line that no longer exists not
to mention the useful technology the encounter provided the entire affair was,
more or less swept under the proverbial rug.
It was with great relief to all involved that they were here, safe and
sound. This relief gave way to the one
formality strictly adhered to – a celebratory homecoming party. At the end of the two weeks of meeting and
debriefings a lavish affair was held in honor of the crew. The best chefs in three sectors prepared a
feast, the best musicians came from all over to play for the Intrepid crew, their
friends, family and the A-list guests invited from the quadrant over.
"Here."
A glass of champagne appeared in
front of Kathryn Janeway. Looking up
she saw the grinning face of her first officer.
"Thanks. Enjoying yourself?" she asked.
"More or less.
Are you?"
"I'm taking a break. I am sick of answering questions about the damn Borg. Though Jean Luc Picard and I had a great
chat about assimilation and the Borg Queen," she said softly.
"I'll bet," Chakotay said wryly as she took a
sip. Her eyes widened in delight.
"Is this what I think it is?"
"Fedelaian champagne? Yes."
"Isn't this made with the fruit that
got Naomi drunk? How did you get this
here?"
"Yes, it's from the fruit that got
Naomi drunk. When I toured the vineyard
I was told that the fruit naturally fermented on the vine. Unfortunately that wasn't before Naomi got
her hands on those berries. As for how
it got here, Mr. Neelix had the good foresight to obtain several bottles and
hide them from all of us. When we were
within range of Earth I got a message from him telling me where to find the
bottles and to make sure we drank this when we celebrated, to remind us of our
adventures."
"That dear man. I miss him terribly. No one could plan a party like he could."
"Speaking of parties, have you
noticed anything odd about this one?" he asked sounding slightly concerned.
"Could you be referring to the fact
that the guests of honor, whom we know to be a raucous group, have suddenly
become wall flowers?"
"That would be what I noticed."
"How could we not notice? The conversations I have overheard,
Chakotay! Nicoletti, Lessing, Celes,
and Dalby were sharing Prixin stories.
Chapman, Anderson, and Gilmore were having an animated disagreement
about a pool game in Sandarine's. Tom
actually told me that he thought tonight's meal was rather bland. I have to say I agree. Naomi, Icheb and Jerron were talking about
the swimming hole they found on that last planet we visited. Seven and Tuvok were reminiscing about
Neelix and debating how the non-Voyager persons present would react to the
culinary delights of the Delta Quadrant.
B'Elanna, Vorik and Chell were discussing the depletion of the power
relays on Voyager and how Carey would have found a way to slow that down. The Delaney girls, Jarvin and Tabor took a
survey and informed me that 53% of the crew thinks we should have had our own
party in the mess hall, 47% said Sandarine's though Naomi Wildman did ask for
the "Forest of Forever" for old times sake, as she put it. 68% agreed we should have, and would have if
Neelix were here while the other 32% said we should go do just that right now."
"Ouch."
"Yeah."
"I guess we're all a bit
overwhelmed. Too much of home, too
fast. I really don't feel like we're
here yet. I guess none of us do."
They sat pondering that for a moment
until she asked, "where did you say?"
"What?"
"The survey. I know everyone answered. Where did you say?"
He smiled sheepishly, "the mess
hall."
"I said Sandarine's, though I could
have gone with Naomi's request with the way I've been feeling."
"You responded?"
"Of course. I told you everyone did."
"The 68% or the 32%?"
"Honestly?" He nodded.
She leaned over and whispered, "the 32%."
He chuckled. "Me, too.
All of this was never my cup of tea."
He swallowed the rest of his champagne and looked at his glass
thoughtfully.
"I know that look. What are you thinking?"
"I've got an idea. Come on."
He dragged her to a group of their
crew, where Harry was. He whispered something
in Harry's ear causing the younger man to grin and run off. Soon the majority of the crew gathered in
one place.
"What are you doing?" Kathryn asked
curiously.
"Just watch."
The band stopped playing as members
of Voyager's crew took the stage. After
a quick whispered discussion, the band members left, turning their instruments
over to the new arrivals. Harry and the
Kim-tones took their places as Tom Paris took the microphone. The crew began whispering and murmuring
excitedly. B'Elanna moved closer to
Kathryn and Chakotay and mumbled, "I hope he doesn't make an idiot out of
himself."
"We apologize for the
interruption. Thanks to the band
members for letting us steal the stage for a bit. Weren't they great ladies and gentlemen?" The crowd applauded in agreement.
"During our Delta Quadrant
expedition we got into the habit of providing our own entertainment. One of those sources of entertainment is the
group behind me. You'll be hearing from
them in a minute. While they get
settled I'd like to do something that hasn't yet been done tonight. If you'll all take a glass…"
He paused for a moment, taking a
deep breath. He hadn't planned on
saying anymore than an introduction to the Kim-tones. But then the words tumbled out of his mouth. He had to say something now and he wanted
it to be just right.
"Now that I have your attention, I
don't know what to say."
He heard chuckles from the crowd,
picking out a few that he recognized.
'No more jokes, say what you mean,' he thought. His expression sobered notably. Kathryn and B'Elanna exchanged a curious
look.
"That's not true. I know what I want to say. And this may take a minute because there is
a lot to say." He sighed. "We've been
to hell and back countless times while trying to get here and somehow along the
way we had fun too. A lot of us didn't
know each other from a hole in the wall in the beginning and some of us who did
didn't like each other very much. We
were Starfleet or Maquis or in my case a little of both and neither. We were young or angry or troubled or
inexperienced but we all were very much afraid. But we learned to trust each other. We put our doubts aside and worked together. We picked up Kes, Neelix, Seven, Icheb and
the Equinox crew along the way. We
incorporated all of them into our community.
"Unfortunately, as life would have it, we lost
people too. Neelix chose to leave, live
with his people and deprive you all of his inspired cuisine. And Kes…oh how I wish you could have met
Kes…she left to explore life in a way we couldn't. She was a true Voyager.
Because of her, we got our first boost home. Hers was but one example of the many sacrifices we all, living,
dead, or left behind, made in the effort to get here. Despite all the hardship we faced we've succeeded both as a crew
and as individuals. We're each more
than we were. Most of you in this room
know what I used to be. Now I'm a
husband, a father, a pilot, a friend, an officer…and a son." He stared intently at his father who nodded
proudly. "We all grew volumes on this
trip. Whatever skeletons were in our
closets, reservations we had or fears we kept locked away, all dissolved and we
all became better people."
He paused once more; taking a
breath, then began again, "After seven years on a fifteen deck ship you get to
know your fellow shipmates pretty well.
So I can tell you what all of them are thinking right now. As I stand here making this toast to the
crew of Voyager one person is carefully reflecting on my words, recalling each
moment of our journey. Meanwhile every
other person is thinking about who they were, where they were headed, who
they've become and the reason they are who they are today and proud of it. I say, with great confidence that they are
thinking the reason we are who we've become is because of that very person who
is reliving our journey in her thoughts and who never stopped believing we'd
get here and went above and beyond the call of duty to make it happen. So, ladies and gentlemen, I ask you to raise
your glasses in a toast to the crew of the Intrepid starship Voyager but
especially our caretaker, Kathryn Janeway, the reason we are all here tonight."
The crowded room erupted with
applause. Kathryn stood stock still,
mouth slightly open in surprise. She had
not expected Tom's eloquent words not to mention his accurate knowledge of her
thoughts. She looked at her crew who
stood around her grinning, shouting 'here, here,' or nodding in agreement with
Tom.
"I believe the words he was looking for are, 'in the book that is
my memory, on the first page of the chapter that is the day I first met you,
appear the words: here begins a new life.'
Sound familiar, Captain?"
"La Vita Nuova," they whispered
together.
"Your own quotation comes back to
haunt you. Now go, they are calling for
you."
She turned hearing the crowd chanting, "speech,
speech." Unwilling as she was, she set
a course for the stage to the delight of those around her. She took the microphone from a grinning Tom
and whispered her thanks to him. She
stood before the crowd contemplating her words unsure of how to address a
roomful of hundreds when little more than one hundred of them could truly
understand.
"I promise I won't keep you. I really want you to hear the talented
musicians behind me." She sighed. "I have to admit Tom was right…and I hate
admitting that Tom is right." She drew
a number of laughs at that, mainly from her crew. "I was reliving moments of our journey though perhaps not in the
way he expected. I'll admit I initially
thought of the hard times but so many other memories drowned them out. Neelix and Kes volunteering to join us.
Hustling Tom at pool." She winked at
him. "Finding my spirit guide. The birth of Voyager's first born, who
became a first class captain's assistant."
She saw Naomi stand up a little straighter and smile proudly. "My last conversation with Kes. Neelix's last gift to us" and she raised
her glass. "Talent nights, Icheb asking
to take the Academy entrance exam and everyone volunteering to help him…by the
way, Congratulations, Cadet – you start next term."
She paused waiting for the cheers from her crew to
end. "There was the adventure of eating
meals in the mess hall and more importantly the latest coffee creation. The day we got our first letters from home,
the day of our first com link. Holiday
celebrations like Prixin, First Contact, and creating Ancestor's Eve, April 22nd
if anyone is curious. Birthday parties,
quiet dinners, and the away mission we found the most delicious berries and the
whole away team, myself included, was purple stained and laughing. The ingenious holodeck programming and the
adventures we had there – where else would you have seen me play Queen
Arachnia? Neelix's ability to find some
reason, any reason, to have a party and always knowing when we needed it the
most. Voyager's youngest daughter,
little Miral Kathryn Paris' triumphant entrance into the world. My crew surprising me every day with their
ingenuity, creativity and unwavering loyalty.
"What I am trying to say, and I am
not sure I am doing it very well, is that I made a choice for all these people
and set a course. They chose to trust
me, and each other, and make the most of this journey. Their enthusiasm and devotion kept me
going. I literally wouldn't be here
without them. We became a family out
there. A mixed and matched motley crew,
but the most loyal, dedicated and fun group of people I will ever have the
privilege to serve with."
She slowed herself, looking over her crew carefully,
emphasizing her words.
"Our lives will be drastically different from the
past seven years, but we will adjust, as daunting as it seems at first. If I have learned anything during these
years it is that this crew is capable of absolutely anything when they work
together. So to my marvelous crew; I am
proud to be your captain…and your friend."
The
applause rang loudly once again.
Kathryn turned to Tom and whispered, "let's show them how we party on
Voyager."
"Yes, ma'am."
He grabbed the mike.
"Ladies and gentlemen! I now give you a rare musical treat, straight from the Starship
Voyager and the Delta Quadrant – Harry and the Kim-tones with the vocal
delights of Holodoc and Seven!"
The Voyager musicians began to play and the rest of
the crew was infused with a new energy.
They quickly moved to the dance floor, taking over their party. Kathryn found herself twirled and spun from
crewmember to crewmember, a new place for her.
Ordinarily during such functions on the ship her crew had only shyly asked
for the occasional dance, something she thought they had done only out of
obligation. Tonight however, she was a
popular lady, all of them eager to take her for a spin on the dance floor. She did wonder if this newfound courage was
the joy of being home, a stronger obligation, the alien champagne or actual
desire. As Ayala spun her in Tom's
direction she realized she didn't care, again whether it was the joy or the
champagne, she didn't know. Or
care. She was surprised though when she
found herself dancing with Tuvok.
"Tuvok! I
thought you didn't dance!"
"I do not.
However, due to the festive nature of this occasion I determined it
would be appropriate to make an exception."
"Well, you are an excellent partner."
"Thank you, Captain."
The night was much improved once the crew felt more
comfortable. The wallflowers began to
own their night to the delight of their captain. The emotional and chaotic days had taken their toll on the
exhausted crew and despite the welcoming attitude of Starfleet, their families,
and their friends they had felt out of place.
They all knew on some level that the return after seven long years would
be difficult. The awkward beginning of
this night would be the first of many uncomfortable situations. The days and weeks that followed would prove
to be a challenge – yet another transition.
They would need each other now more than ever.
It was these thoughts that brought Kathryn Janeway
out into the warm night air. She
strolled the old familiar path and found herself on a bench near the roses she
loved so well. She picked one carefully
and breathed in its cent, shivering as a cool breeze brushed her skin.
"I thought I might find you here."
She didn't look up.
"How do always find me at just the right moment?"
Chakotay chuckled softly. "In the words of Tom Paris 'after seven years on a fifteen deck
ship you get to know your fellow shipmates pretty well.' I think it more than applies here."
"All right, if you know me so well what was I
thinking just now?"
"You were thinking about the crew. How you are so glad the Kim-tones played,
they all began to enjoy their own party and that they are still helping one
another and how we will need to be there for each other as we adjust to life in
the Alpha Quadrant."
She stared at him for a moment and then
smirked. "You're good."
"I try."
There was a long silence before she spoke again.
"Did you hear that Boothby died?"
Chakotay took a deep breath and sighed. "Yeah, I was
looking for him this morning and a cadet told me."
"I thought he was going to live forever. I really wanted to see him when I got back."
"For the roses?" he smiled.
She smiled back, "Only partly. I know he would have loved to get his hands
on the seedlings from our Airponics Bay.
But mostly I wanted to talk him.
He always had a way of putting things in perspective. What do you think he would have said about…"
she waved her hand above her head…"all of this?"
"I imagine something along the lines of, 'young lady
what's the problem? Ya got 'em home right?
When they got stuck in that damned quadrant, they adjusted, didn't
they? What makes you think they can't
do it again? Aren't they the same kids
that battled everything that hellhole threw at 'em? That asinine trip turned you into a worrywart, that's what.' Or something to that effect."
Kathryn laughed out loud. "That was pretty good.
So…I'm a worrywart now?"
"Well, not exactly, but worrying has become a
significant part of your nature."
"Can you blame me?"
"Not really.
I worry too. We've gotten so
used to it that it will be hard to let them go."
"I don't want to lose any of them," she
whispered. He put his arm around her
gently.
"I know. I
don't either." They sat in silence
contemplating how different life will be without the crew.
"Seven is coming to Indiana with me at the end of
the week," she announced suddenly. "I
promised her long ago that I'd take her there.
She's going to be staying with me at my mother's until she gets her
bearings, quite possibly until Icheb finishes at the Academy so he has a home
to go to during breaks."
"I see," he said uncertainly.
"I think I'll be there most of my leave…unless I go
to Lake George."
"Sailing?"
"Of course."
She paused, considering her thoughts carefully. "Would you come up for a sail?"
"I think I could find the time. Every skipper needs a good first mate." And then he blushed. She chuckled softly and looked out over the
gardens invoking a memory.
"I did say years ago that I knew where to go if I
had any questions about mating behavior."
He looked at her incredulously, not sure she knew what she implied. She felt his stare on her and smiled slyly
giving him a look out of the corner of her eye. His jaw dropped slightly; he wondered what she meant by it
all. Before he could ask she stood up.
"Come on.
Let's go enjoy our party."
They returned to hear the Doctor and Seven finished
their duet of a wonderful 23rd century ballad, "Passion Nova." Harry manipulated the final notes of the
song to break into a hauntingly beautiful clarinet solo. His fellow musicians broke away slowly,
unfamiliar with the tune he began to play.
Harry himself couldn't explain why he chose to play this piece. He hadn't played it for anyone, save Tuvok
who nodded to him appreciatively. The
concerto was a low, melancholy tune; an interruption to the lively ambiance he
and the others had created. Every note
carried a hidden desperation but a minute impression of faith.
As the chilling melody separated from the former
tune, two dancers took the floor together for the first time that evening. The piece suited these dancers. It combined agonizing loneliness and the
camaraderie of hope. The other dancers
made room as he twirled her uneasily around once and pulled her close to the
gentle, languid tone of the single instrument.
Cautiously and carefully they began to move together. No one had ever, nor would they ever, see a
dance quite like they saw that night.
To quote an old cliché, it was poetry in
motion. The initial stumbling movements
became those of a perfected art, neither leading nor following but a practiced
and polished rhythm. A balance of
elegance and instinct in which they personified the transition from an uneasy
cooperation to a fine-tuned cohesion they had experienced with one another and
with their crew. One had been sent to
capture the other but instead fate captured them, bonding them in a friendship
rivaled only in Literature. It is a
friendship where when there are no words to say the other will understand. The slightest shift of position or change in
expression speaks volumes over the words spoken. A bond that, for lack of a better word, is telepathic. It has its own silent language written in one
another's eyes and felt in every touch.
Their eyes were an intense component of their dance;
they always had been. Not once did one
remove the other from their line of vision.
It was as if they were staring into one another's soul, becoming one
entity, breathing, living and moving within the melody itself. It is rare to find two people who could move
together with such precision, predicting the slightest movement of the other as
if it were their own. But these two
dancers were bonded in a timeless pattern of souls craving completion and upon
encountering the source of that wholeness they merge, braiding themselves to
one another in a bond unbreakable. The
conventions of humanoid order and culture mean little when the power of the
soul is at hand. Those who fear it
explain such a concept away as myth, lore, or romantic fantasy but long for the
sense of completion such a bond can bring.
These two understand their bond, though the lesson
was long in learning. Early on they had
vowed their existence to each other and their crew. Had they not been the people they were they would have mistaken
their friendship for something that it was not and jeopardized all that lay
before them. The discovery that once
they stopped fighting what could not exist proved to be the day when balance
was restored. This equilibrium gave way
to understanding and the understanding to the instinctual communication. The dance they shared celebrated their
achievement and was performed with the reverence of a prayer, becoming its own
song – a song of the tranquility and joy that found its way out of the melancholy
tune it began in.
For the first time they allowed themselves to fully
embrace the moment and in doing so, lost themselves in their dance. And as suddenly as the dance began, it
ended. A quick hug and they moved
apart, each seeking someone else to converse with, as their dialogue was
complete and a wordless commitment made.
People would later recall that night and say there was something
electric during that dance that disappeared when it ended. With the ambiance shattered, the party
winded down. Soon, only a little over
one hundred people remained. Tables
were dragged together and coffee was poured.
They sat for hours, laughing, reminiscing, joking and at times crying,
remembering all the events that gave them this night. Promises were made, plans for the future shared, and pledges to
get together sworn. In the wee hours of
the morning they finally went their separate ways, knowing they would see one
another soon. Before long, only the two
remained, standing once again at the beginning of a journey. They shyly reached for one another's hands,
feeling like strangers but at peace with themselves and one another. They wound their way through the gardens,
not speaking but sharing their thoughts, each knowing full well that the
journey never ends; it merely has new beginnings.