A/N: I'm so sorry. It's been such a long time since I last wrote something, so bear with me if this chapter is a little off. This story is about to get really angsty, which I also apologise for, but I'm going through a really bad break up at the moment, and I don't think I could write fluff. Oh, and there'd be no story if I got them together straight away, would there? Well I've rambled for long enough now so….
Chapter Six
"Sara?"
"Mmm…"
"Sara. Wake up."
I look up and Catherine is fully dressed, standing over me. I grab her arm and try and pull her back into bed.
"Come hug me. Please? Just five more minutes…"
"Sara. Gil's here."
I sit up straight away. What does he want? Oh god…has Catherine told him about us? I was planning on telling him, but I just needed a little more time for me to get used to the idea of us. But Catherine is his best friend – of course she's not going to keep stuff from him.
"Have you told him? About us?"
"No, but I thought you had."
"Catherine, not even I'm used to the idea of us yet, and I don't think he's going to take it well, just give it a little more time."
Her face clouds over and she looks sad.
"Maybe you still care a little too much about what he thinks.."
"And so should you. He's your best friend Cath."
"And as my best friend, he should accept the idea that you and me are together."
"He's still in love with me. Feelings don't just go away."
"Have yours?"
"Catherine…"
Her voice is getting louder and louder. I didn't realise she was this insecure. I know Gil's my ex, and I understand that she's a little paranoid, understandably so, but does she really think that I'd split up with him and get together with her if I still had feelings for him? I guess I have to do what's best for her…
"Alright. I'll tell him. By the way, did he say why he was here?"
"He said he had something to ask you…"
She's still mad, but seems a little calmer.
"Go keep him company then. I need to get dressed."
I lean up to give her a kiss but she walks out the room so I pull myself out of bed and try to find some clothes. God, her mood switches from one extreme to the other, but I know what that's like. She's going through a hard time at the moment, so its understandable. I'm just dreading this conversation I have to have with Gil…I've already hurt him enough and now I'm doing to hurt him even more. I walk slowly into the front room and his face lights up.
"Sara…how are you?"
He gets up and gives me a kiss on the cheek. I chance a look at Catherine and she's fuming. God…
"Gil, I-"
"Can I take you out for lunch?"
"I need to tell you something."
"Tell me over lunch then."
What am I supposed to say? It might be better to tell him when we're alone anyway, I think he'll take it better.
"Alright then, we can go for lunch."
He smiles and I can't help but smile back. He is my friend after all and I'd like to keep it that way.
"Why don't you go and wait in the car, I need to go, and, um, brush my teeth."
He leaves and I turn to Catherine.
"Look, I know what you're thinking, but I'm going to tell him over lunch, ok?"
"Right."
"Cath, I am, I promise."
"Just go."
Lunch goes really well, and before I know it, we're wandering along the Strip talking away. He's acting like we used to, before we were together, and it's wonderful. I meant to tell him over lunch, but we were having so much fun that I just didn't get round to it. Shit, what's the time?
"What time is it?"
He checks his watch.
"4pm, why?"
Catherine is going to kill me, we left at 1. If she thought something was going on then, what is she going to think now?
"I need to get back, I've been out for hours."
"Why?"
"Catherine will be wondering where I am."
"Why are you worried what she thinks?"
"Because…"
He's silent for a moment, then when he looks back at me, I'm shocked by the anger I see in his eyes.
"There is something going on between you two, isn't there?"
"Gil, I…"
"Why did you lie?"
"I was trying to spare your feelings."
"Why her? Out of all the people you could have picked, why did you choose her?"
"Feelings don't work like that Gil, you can't choose who you love."
"You LOVE her?"
"I.."
"Don't bother, it's obvious."
Then he walks away. I'm torn – I know I should go after him, but I also need to get back to Catherine. I have to put her first, she's important, and Gils right, I do love her.
When I get home, the apartment is dark and empty. Where are they? Lindsay should be back by now. I notice a note on the coffee table. Maybe they went out or something.
Sara.
You aren't ready for this, and I'm not ready for more pain.
It's clear where your heart lies, and it's not with me.
I've got all our stuff together, and I've gone back to my place.
Thank you for the last week.
- Catherine.
I'm alone again.
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