A/N: Hello people!! Chapter five!!! Sorry for the let update guys...my computer's 'ill'!! So had to beg my friend to do this. But please bear with me okay?? Lemon ahead...and on the chapter, eh??
Disclaimer: Standard ones apply!!
Chapter five
Rin was almost in the state of biting her nails. Ofcourse, she didn't want to spoil her french manicure.
She sighed. It didn't matter now. She will not go back to future leaving Lord Sesshoumaru like this. How could she? She loved him and cared for him a lot. And the physical attraction she felt for him...well that was a different case.
She sat under a tree and Miroku joined her.
"Hello Miroku-sama..."She greeted him and he smiled at her.
"So Rin-chan, how do you feel back here?"Miroku asked and she smiled to herself. She distanced herself a little from him, she didn't want to create a scene. She knew this pervert monk and even when she knew she wouldn't dare hit him, she was sure he would eventually recieve a blow from either Sango or Inuyasha.
"Mmm...its complicated. I feel like coming back home but still..."She let it hang and sighed.
"Still doesn't feel like coming back home? Its alright Rin. No one is forcing you to do anything. Have you tried the well?"He asked and she looked at him helplessly.
"No, I actually don't feel like now."She said slowly and grasped her sketch book and her graded pencil pouch.
She randomly selected a pencil and found that it was a 5B.
Fine with her. She opened her sketch pad and gazed at Miroku.
"I can't do it when my gaurdian is in a...vulnerable position."She said and Miroku's eyebrows went up.
"Just a gaurdian? Is that how you see him?" Miroku smiled with an evil glint in his eye and Rin blushed and despite the clouded moon's rays, her color was evident. She was reminded of the passion filled kisses...
"Well...he is. He was the one who saved me, gave me this life. I will remain loyal to him. Now that I am here...actually Miroku-sama...I don't know. I didn't miss him particularly in the last few years. I was busy with my life there, trying to prove myself and acheive something, make Mama and Kagome proud. Wanted to be one up always when Souta-kun was concerned. I miss both of them a lot...that it hurts. I have a family back there...and they obviously are worried about me. And then my studies...my friends...and now that I am here, its all changed. And...at the moment, I want to stay here. Besides, I don't think I can take such decisions right? There is always some force at work..."She said and was interrupted by Miroku.
"Yes, the Buddha..."He smiled and she smiled back.
"Yes. God. Right now, I can see that my place is here..."She said concentrating on the paper and her hand itching to draw something.
"Good. You are taking this quite well than I had expected Rin. You are like Kagome, with your own thoughts. And a fascinating young woman. But life can be difficult as you know, for a human ward such as yourself, with an inu-youkai Lord. But...let us see, eh? Then I will take my leave."Miroku said and left smiling at her warmly.
Rin was sketching not really into what she was doing, smoothing, smearing and scratching with her pencil as the drawing came to life, she was thinking furiously.
"Just a gaurdian? Is that how you see him?" Miroku's question plagued her.
Maybe...but as before, the question of the culture and species erupted. Again. Literally erupted.
There was nothing that she could do about her crush!
Crush! Her cheeks were tainted with pink again. Ofcourse, the two kissed that she had shared with her Lord was truly speaking, soul searing ones...and so passionate that it blinded her.
But there was again nothing she could do about it. She would remain his ward and no way she was going to be his mistress. She was too proud on her self respect to allow that, besides she had Kagome and Inuyasha to think about. They would kill her personally before she stooped so low.
But what was this feeling then? She was sure she never felt like this with Jerry, the exchange student, she'd been going out with. Okay, John Ravek maybe. But...she was sure that her experiences with her Lord was much more spicy, hot and all...
She shook her head. This was going nowhere. He hated humans. Despised them with a passion although she never really understood why he'd put up with her or kissed her.
'There I go again...imagining the kisses...'She sighed thinking about this.
Even if his father and his half brother had taken human mates, Inuyasha was taking Kagome anyway and all over the demons did take human mates, she was sure of Sesshoumaru-sama. He will never...
Why was she thinking about this anyway? She would wait until this whole fiasco was over and surely get the hell out of here, if the sweet Kami wished.
And she silently prayed that the well would work, for Kagome was sure to be here, and she would be accepted back in that world. By that way, the balance thing that grandpa talked about would be satisfied.
But even as she was thinking about this, a light pang of pain in her heart unsettled her.
What was she thinking? Why was she thinking all these unruly, wasteful things anyway??
"Lady??"The clear voice jerked her bodily and her sketch pad fell down, the soft moon light illuminating it.
Rin's hand went to her thumping heart as she eyed with widened eyes, Sesshoumaru who looked apologetic as he stooped down to get her book.
Okay...that really scared her and what scard her the most was Sesshoumaru's face and the expressions that altered his beautiful cold face, into something more beautiful and endearing.
She was busy watching his face that she didn't realize that he was pouring through the contents of the sketch book.
Sesshoumaru's eyes widened at the sketches.
He had gotten up to find a hanyou and a miko staring at him. The first one with irritaion and a mild curiosity and the latter with lots of concern.
They told him that he was Sesshoumaru, The Lord of the West and the great Inutaisho's son. Not that it meant anything to him because he was searching for something familar. That woman...he closed his eyes and her beautiful face flashed before him. He could smell her all over him and was sure it was her taste that was on his lips. And what was her name she'd said...Rin. An apt name for a girl who had sunshines for her smile and the deep oceans for eyes. Not to mention the countless blooming flowers for her scent. He longed for her presence, for it seemed to calm his rattled nerves. Besides, she was the only thing...that saved him from going completely insane for he knew nothing.
He'd excused himself politely and noted with amusement, the way the hanyou's mouth hung open. For one thing, he sure acted the alpha male around here. But there were many demons out there as he found out. Many injured and it seemed like a camp site.
And he found her under a tree with a monk. Pure jealousy coursed through him, which he immediately fought down.
As he was about to go seek her, the miko told him to get Rin for dinner. She was very polite and Sesshoumaru obliged.
And now, here he was, staring at the creations of the woman.
It was filled with his figures. In different ways.
And finally as he reached the last page, the one which she was busy with, his heart beat skipped a beat.
For it was him and her, kissing. He was seated beneath cherry blossom tree and she was sprawled on his lap, with his hands supporting her upper part while her hands were holding his hair in a possessive yet passionate way. And he could feel the waves of emotions from that sketch...
Rin yelped when she realized what he was seeing and grabbed it away from him.
"Gomen" Both said together and stared at each other, Rin with utter shock and Sesshoumaru with a mild confusion and apprehension.
Rin gulped slowly. So he didn't get his memory back.
"The miko, Kagome, has called for you to have dinner."Sesshoumaru said and Rin nodded slowly.
"She sent you to fetch me?"She asked a little surprised and shook her head.
"So...do you know who you are now?"She asked and he looked ahead, walking along with her.
"The hanyou told me that I was Lord Sesshoumaru. Of the Western Lands and heir of Inu-taisho. And...he seems to be my blood relation. And that is all I was told but..."Sesshoumaru sighed noting that she was walking along with him. And no human walked along a demon unless...
He smelt her, no she was not mated to him. But his smell on her was unmistakeable.
As they settled for a quite meal, Sesshoumaru took the herbs along with his food.
Okay...he was going to go crazy. And he was grappling at every corner of his mind, but there were just walls. Nothing made sense except this woman who was seated next to him, looking at him quite blatantly, not hiding her concern for him.
"Are you going to be my mate?"He threw the question at her and she froze. Inuyasha choked on his food and Kagome was shocked. Sango shared Kagome's reaction and Miroku had an evil amusement at this development.
"Ohh...umm...wow...uhh...why are you asking this question Sesshoumaru-sama?"She asked not daring to look at Inuayasha or the others.
Sesshoumaru placed his bowl down and looked at her, his face riddled with tension.
"I don't remember anything, I don't know anything. But, I can smell myself on you and you on me. Why else would I have kissed you then? I did kiss you, I am sure of it...unless you are a geisha...but you are not. You are a virgin!"Sesshoumaru stacked his reasons and Rin grew from pink to red with embaressment.
"Sesshoumaru-sama!" She squeaked in horror and Inuyasha growled.
"What were you thinking kissing her, you bastard!" Inuyasha ground out and Sesshoumaru looked at him with a sharp glance.
"That is not the way to talk to your blood relation, my brother! I believe that I am elder to you and you are my brother, although you are a hanyou. I will not tolerate this from you." Sesshoumaru said icily and suddenly everyone recognized the old one in him.
As for Inuyasha, he was stunned for he had called him his brother and had meant it. Truly meant it. And for the first time, he shut up before muttering an inaudible 'sorry' only for Sesshoumaru's ears. His ears were flat against his head and he continued his dinner.
Sesshoumaru turned toward Rin and looked at her pink face that was looking for something in the ground.
"So, you are my mate-to-be?" Sesshoumaru asked and Rin looked at Kagome and Inuyasha first.
"He must know the truth." Kagome said and Sesshoumaru glanced at Kagome.
"Here?"Rin squeaked and Kagome flicked her eyes outside. Ofcourse, Rin was the closest one to Sesshoumaru at this moment since he seemed to trust her now. The only one whom he trusted and he would hang by her since he felt safe with his vulnerability.
"Okay, Sesshoumaru-sama. We are not engaged. I mean I am not going to be your mate. You...you actually dislike humans although I...was your ward, I still am. You saved me with your Father's sword and I have followed you ever since. But I was...away from you for the past eight years...while you...fought with these people against a demon called Naraku."Rin couldn't continue for Sesshoumaru was standing too close to her now, all imposing on her and overwhelming her to hardly think.
"Where did you go? Did I send you?" He asked and she thought about what to say.
"Umm...kind of. I was under Kagome's care. And yes, your brother is to mate Kagome, the miko." She clarified and Sesshoumaru nodded.
"So, a miko and a hanyou..."He said and took her gently in his arms and kissed her for he was yearning to do that ever since he saw her sitting under the tree with the monk.
Rin was surprised for a moment and she stood rigid, her lips parted open and his tongue gently coaxing her to respond. He was again beginning to pull her strings and pure passion flowed through her. She could not think of anything else other than to return his kiss.
Then he half heartedly pulled himself away from her and gazed into her darkened eyes.
"Then what is this between us Rin?? This way your heart beats faster like mine. I can feel it, you know. I can feel everything you are feeling."Sesshoumaru said and crashed her against his chest.
"No...no. You don't understand, my Lord. This...is not how it is..."She stammered, his presence crowding her thoughts.
"Don't say what you don't mean Rin." He lifted her face by his finger under her chin.
"Sesshoumaru-sama!" She breathed, closing her eyes and he smiled. Really smiled.
"Hmm. Open your eyes Rin."He commanded her and her eyes fluttered open, then looking at the fire burning behind his amber depths, lowered her gaze.
"Then explain what I see in your eyes, that is for me. Do you know what I see in your eyes whenever you see me?"Sesshoumaru asked her and she looked at him helplessly.
This can't be happening. Ofcourse, Rin loved and cared for him, but it didn't mean she was in love with him. Her body was a betraying shell and she hated herself for succumbing to Sesshoumaru's masculine charms.
Charms! Okay, that was a very light word. Magnetism was more like it and of all the time to show it. That too, to her!
"No Sesshoumaru-sama. Please don't do anything that you might regret when you gain your memory back." Rin said her hands lifting to push him away.
Her hands found his chest and applied a little pressure.
"Rin...Rin..."Sesshoumaru drawled, his voice very husky and desire burned his whole body.
She was obviously lying, this woman in front of him. As if he loathed humans, for his own brother, Inuyasha, was a half demon with a preistess for his mate-to-be. And they were in an old miko's hut with a demon slayer and a monk!
But it was obvious, this strong pull he felt toward her, the effect she had on him. It was as if she had a power over him and the way she seemed drugged when he touched or kissed her.
Rin's eyes flicked again to lock with Sesshoumaru's and she was caught again. She was a moth that was putting up a failing fight and the flame was going to consume her whole, destroying her. She knew it, but it was as if...as if she didn't mind risking herself for him. Her gaurdian, her Lord, her savior.
But something inside told her that what ever she felt for him, loyalty, care, passion or whatever...it was running deep and the way he uttered her name in an urgency, seemed to plant something deep within her, sprouting out something that seemed to envelope her in a warm wrapping.
And her hand that was meant to push him away, went past his shoulders, feeling the warmth and the smooth hard muscles beneath his shirt, to knot at the base of his neck. Eventually her fingers curled at the base of his neck, filling her hands with his silvery locks.
With a groan, Sesshoumaru bent down and was met half way eagerly by Rin.
Rin was reminded that she might be taking advantage and it slackened her response a little.
Sesshoumaru was frustrated at this. This woman! She was so damned stubborn. Didn't she know that she was the only hold for his sanity. He needed her and craved for her and she had become a fever in his body.
His hands that had held her so roughly against him became gentle and moved sensuously on her, coaxing her little frame to mould his much larger frame. And how beautifully it moulded!
His inner demon wanted to be released now, to make her completely his. To stop her lies and...
His claws slashed away her clothes and Rin gasped. She didn't have much time to think as she was pushed against the ground with his warmth to cover her fully.
Okay, by now he had fully crowded her thoughts, mind...now body!
Rin felt as if she was hot and cold at the same time and felt a new sensation in her body due to Sesshoumaru's ministrations. As he dipped his head from her mouth to take one of the nipples, she arched forward to meet him and gasped a desire, not known to her, shot from there to her sex.
"Sesshoumaru-sama..."She breathed and he grunted in an animalistic way.
For a moment it all stopped and Rin was brought back to reality, breathing heavily.
This was insane! She was not even in love with him and she was not supposed to feel this way with him.
As for Sesshoumaru, as he stripped his clothing, was aware of the carnal desire for this woman beneath him went too deep within him that it seemed to burn under his skin.
He had to have her. Now. It was a sudden urgency and he had to satiate it.
"Uh...no..."Rin murmured as she tried to pull away from beneath Sesshoumaru in lust induced haze.
As his naked chest came in contact with hers, Rin gasped at the warmth and something else that shot through her. She felt herself torn. She was loyal to her Lord, and he was bound to regret this but...somehow now, she felt herself wanting him the way he seemed to want her. When he does get his memory back...Rin shook her head to clear her thoughts and Sesshoumaru mistook it.
He pulled her up roughly, crashed her against his chest and kissed her with as much ferocity.
He broke the kiss halfway and Rin had a disappointed and confused look but her eyes were dark mirroring Sesshoumaru's own. The simple difference was, his was a glowing red.
Rin gasped. She was in deep trouble!
"Don't deny me Rin!" His voice, did not sound normal. It was as if a beast were talking.
His claws dug her shoulders enough to draw a little blood but that was it. Rin bit her lips to stop herself from wincing.
"I can smell you...you want me as much as I want you. Stop denying yourself. Tell me you need me..."Sesshoumaru's gruff voice was low and seemed dangerous. But to Rin, it seemed oddly sensual! And erotic for she could feel his voice penetrate her leaving her wanting him.
He smothered her neck and breasts with kiss, "Tell me Rin...tell me..."He commanded and Rin found her hands roaming his taut chest and digging her perfectly manicured nails into his skin.
"Yes...oh..yess...I need you...I want you..."Rin moaned blinded by the bouts of passion that made her feel hot and tight in her belly.
"Yes..."Sesshoumaru growled satisfied and laid her on the cool grass.
She made a disapproving sound, reaching blindly for him, to feel his against her.
She'd read this in the books and heard from the other girls...but this was way much greater than them!
"Patience...little woman..."He chuckled and she blushed to the roots.
His little woman. Nothing else mattered as long as she is his.
"Look at me Rin!" He ordered again and she looked into the red depths.
He gripped her hard and entered her with one fine thrust and tears blurred Rin's vision. She felt as if her flesh had been torn and she felt afraid. For the pain was too much. Sesshoumaru held her and he murmured that it would be alright.
The endearments he spoke in that moment made Rin forget the pain and even in that state, she was aware of her Lord's change.
She felt herself slowly adjusting to his length within her and the pain was replaced by something passionate that was building up within her.
Sesshoumaru waited until she was ready. He knew she'd become afraid due to the pain but he had entered her easily, her body welcoming him. Not that she knew, he knew she was a virgin and was inexperienced. She didn't know what or how to take it.
"Let me show you..."He whispered and he withdrew slowly making her gasp and her eyes widening in a new found sensation.
And she wanted more. As he thrust again, she went up to meet him, to take him whole inside her. She wanted to feel him so badly. Within her.
They slowly went into their own pace and Sesshoumaru found it difficult to contain himself.
As his thrusts became more powerful and hurt her a little, she opened her eyes to look at him. And she was suprised at what she saw.
It seemed to be a battle within himself, the amber and red seemed to fight in his eyes. His demon wanted control. And his body was getting bigger, she could say that...along with a slight protruding jaw with elongated fangs.
One more thrust came and Rin knew she was coming to her climax but she wanted him too, to join her.
"Let go, my Lord...its okay..."She said urgently at the same time softly as she gathered his face in her arms and kissed him, not minding the fangs that were hurting her soft lips.
She pressed even more for she knew he was resisting her , she tugged his lower lips with her teeth and at the same time heaved up with all of her.
He kissed her back, tasting her sweetness as well as the metallic taste of her blood.
That did it, and Sesshoumaru lost himself.
"Where are they??"Kagome asked worried and Inuyasha nodded.
"Its okay Kagome. Rin is a smart girl. She can handle herself and Sesshoumaru. Just you..."Inuyasha's voice trailed off without further saying as calm night atmosphere was pierced by a howl.
Kagome's eyes widened and Sango got up as if something had struck her.
"That...that is..."Kagome stammered and Inuyasha looked sharply in the direction of the howl.
"Its Sesshoumaru alright. But that howl..."Sango looked at Inuyasha alarmed.
"What does it mean?" Kagome asked and Inuyasha looked down as if defeated. Ofcourse, what could be done now!
"Seems like Rin was not as smart as Inuyasha thought her to be..."Sango murmured and Kagome slowly recognised that howl.
Inuyasha went out of the hut with his arms across the chest.
'If only you knew guys...'Inuyasha smirked remembering Sango's comment on Rin.
But his smirk died as he recognized the scent in the air.
He drew his tetsusaiga and went in the direction of Sesshoumaru's scent.
A/N: Okay fellows...no no...Rin and Sessh ain't mated. She is not even in love with him, which she will be ofcourse...but wait for the next chapter.