Am I gay??

By: TgyamiBakura

Finished at 4:32 AM

Disclaimer: I don't own Tsubasa RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE...I just own at making the fanfiction :smirk:

Wahhh yet another story to add to my collection of stories always started but never finished

This little Ficcy is about how Syaoran discovers who he really is...hehehe XD :First TRC fic!:

I just got into this huge argument with my friend about fanfiction and if it's wrong or right. He has this big thing about respecting the authors, stories and characters. And I mean, sure we're using stories and their characters and making them different, but I don't think it's a bad thing. It's not like we try to tell the authors that they suck and this way of writing is better If anything I think it compliments the author. To show them that we can comprehend the characters so much to an extent where we can write about them using the same personalities, and just express it with our own creativity is awesome. I would be so proud if I wrote something and had this many people who like it enough to do something like that. Tell me you're thoughts on this please. I greatly appreciate it

Now on with the fic!

Changes...

Syaoran sat there thinking to himself as he looked through a magazine. 'Lately...things have been changing...'

Later that day he ended up examining the princess. He told her that he was just sitting there because he had nothing else to do that day, which was partly true, but it was also true that he needed to think about something. Fai and Kurogane were gone for the day and had taken Mokona since he and Sakura needed no translation, so there was nobody to talk to about these strange feelings.

It all started the other night when he accidentally walked in on Kurogane in the shower. It was a moment that Syaoran had felt things he'd never expected. From what he saw he got very hot and his heart rate increased substancially. He could hardly utter a word other than stammer out "Su...su...sumimasen.." and then hastily take leave. Kurogane's body was so...intriguing. He didn't know why it was so embarrassing to look at. They were both guys...Kurogane may have been, tanned...well toned...

and let's face it...larger in other places

But this wasn't something that should bother Syaoran right? It wasn't normal for boys to react this way to someone of the same gender. He had never been the type to indulge too greatly in anything remotely sexual, but this just threw him for a loop. When he left and returned to his room. The area between his legs had become entirely stiff and throbbing. Syaoran was so confused. Nothing like that had ever happened before. His father told him that he would go through puberty around this time in his life...but why did it have to react to another male?

It took him hours to try and think of something...not involving Kurogane wet and naked in the shower. Another thing that bothered him was that, no matter how much he cared for and admired Sakura, he'd never felt this way towards her. Wasn't that how normal boys should react to someone pretty like her?

Now he found himself sitting next to Sakura. Trying to figure out what was wrong. He looked at sakura, her small frame, her silky hair and beautiful green eyes. There was nothing about Sakura that Syaoran would think unappealing. She was gorgeous...but he just couldn't feel the same way towards her that he felt when he saw Kurogane.

The ninja was very handsome indeed. He had dark hair, a very strong build and was tall. His skin was olive and his eyes a deep crimson. He had this confidence about him that interested Syaoran very much. He then wondered about Fai.

Fai was tall, pale and had feather soft hair. His eye's were a shade of blue that reminded him of the ocean. He was tall and had a thin frame. He too had a confidence, although it seemed broken in ways. Fai reminded him of an angel. Something purely good but also missing something important. Fai always had that wonderful smile, whether genuine or fake.

"...Syaoran-kun?" Syaoran looked up, slighly bewildered, but then blushed, realizing he had been lost in thought.

"Excuse me princess...I must not have heard you,"

"Syaoran-kun, if there's something bothering you, you can tell me," There was no way that he could tell her that. What if the princess had feelings for him? She would be heartbroken. No it would be best to wait for Kurogane and Fai and ask them about it.

Just then the door open and Fai bounced inside

"Pon! Kids, Mommy and Daddy are home! We bought treats!" He held up a bag that was from the sweets shop across town. Kurogane growled.

"I told you not to say stupid things! Andy why didn't you tell me you wasted money on a ton of sugar??" Fai pouted.

"Because I knew that Kuro-papa wouldn't approve and tell Fai that he can't. The kids need a treat every once in a while,"

"Not something that will rot their teeth," Fai smiled.

"Kyaaah! Kuro-pon is such a good daddy. Just for you we'll make them wait til after supper,"

"GRRR STOP SAYING WEIRD THINGS!" With that he took off chasing the magician all over the house, the bag of sweets forgotten on the chair. There was no way he could ask them now. He would just have to wait til after supper.

Sitting with Kurogane at the table after the incident was a little awkward for Syaoran. He was afraid to look up at Kurogane in fear of his face turning red. He tried hard to concentrate on his food. It was different. It was a combination of foods from each of their worlds. This weird type of bread from Celes, some sort of seasoned soup from Japan, and their own green dish from Clow. The food was good, that is until Kurogane looked at him.

"hey, you. You're being silent today. What's your problem?" Syaoran cringed at the harsh tone in Kurogane's voice. He realized how low and cool it sounded. It made him shiver.

"I'm sorry...forgive me. I'm just still kinda tired," Fai leaned closer to him.

"You couldn't sleep last night Syaoran-kun?"

"Maybe..." Syaorans eyes widened as he felt Fai's cheek come in contact with his.

"Mmm...you don't seem to have a fever, so I guess you're not sick...is something wrong?" Syaoran wasn't expecting such close proximity. His body tensed and he felt weak as Fai's sweet scent drifted into his senses. He was warm and had a very inviting air about him. It was intoxicating. It was worse when Fai pressed closer.

"you're face seems to be getting hot now. Maybe you are si—Syaoran-kun?!" Syaoran felt himself get dizzy until he finally collapsed into the magician's arms.

"Uh! Syaoran-kun! Is he okay Fai-san?" cried Sakura. Fai put his hand on Syaoran's face and looked confused.

"Well he seems to be okay now...this is odd. His face was burning when I felt it with mine. His breathing is normal. He just seems a bit dazed. "I'll just take him upstairs. He probably just needs some rest,"

"I'll help you," Kurogane got up.

"Hehe, Kuro-chi, I'm more than capable to carry Syaoran-kun by myself,"

"You twisted your ankle today tripping over a rock..damn clutz. Now let me carry him,"

"Meh...if you insist," Kurogane walked over and lifted the sleeping boy onto his back. He went upstairs followed by Fai, leaving Sakura and Mokona at the dinner table.

"I hope Syaoran-kun is okay," said the princess, worry apparent in her tone.

Upstairs, Kurogane gently lay Syaoran into the bed as Fai went and got a warm rag. "I wonder why he passed out like that so suddenly."

"It's peculiar don't you think? Syaoran-kun seemed okay, even though he was a bit quiet. I wonder what's wrong," Fai wiped Syaoran's face clean of sweat causing Syaoran to stir.

"Nn...Fai-san? Kurogane-san?" Syaoran attempted to get up but Fai stopped him.

"Syaoran needs to rest a bit,"

"No...I'm fine really..." Fai cocked his head in perplexity.

"Oh?"

"If your so fine, then why did you just faint at the dinner table?" Syaoran blushed.

"I..I..I fainted?" Fai smiled gently.

"Yup. You sure did."

"I..I'm sorry.."

"Don't be sorry brat, just tell us what the matter is," Syaoran jumped, blushing harder, looking at the blankets.

"Yes! Um...I've been meaning to talk to you two...but it's been..well...rather difficult," Fai attempted to sit next to Syaoran but the younger boy stopped him. "I..If you do that this will be harder,"

"I'm sorry," Fai looked concerned and pulled up a chair. Syaoran took a deep breath.

"Lately...I've been having strange feelings...for certain people...and I really don't know what to make of them...It's really unlike anything I've ever experienced...it's kinda embarrassing"

"And these feelings are?" Syaoran's face turned a deeper shade of red.

"Well...these feelings...are kind of personal. I think one would call it puberty..." Fai smiled inwardly. 'He must be having intimate feelings for sakura-chan'

"Ah..." The mood threatened to become uncomfortable but the two older men tried to stay as open to it as possible. Even though they were somewhat lovers now, there's no reason they couldn't help another boy with his sexual frusteration, even if that boy was straight.

"It happened...the other night, I saw something and then...something happened to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I tried to tell myself it was normal...but I just don't know." Fai smiled sympathetically. Syaoran simply was too innocent. Of course he would react in that way if he saw something like that. It's what normal for young boys his age.

"Syaoran-kun...I assure you that whatever happened to you was perfectly normal,"

"Well...I'm sure it was...but I don't think it's normal to have that reaction to seeing Kurogane-san in the shower..." Fai froze. He slowly looked at Kurogane who was twitching incessantly. Syaoran was blushing furiously. Fai himself started to twitch a bit and he looked back at Syaoran.

"You saw Kuro-myu in the shower?" Syaoran was blushing so deeply, Fai feared he would turn into a tomato. The boy slowly nodded. He looked back at Kurogane who was gripping his forehead and blushing a blush that rivaled Syaorans. Fai smiled nervously.

"You're...reaction was sexual?" Syaoran stared harder at the blanket and nodded. "And...you saw...everything?" Syaoran nodded again.

Kurogane covered his face, his body twitching.

"So now you are very confused, am I right?"

"I've never thought of Sakura that way...and no matter how hard I try I can't...I don't get it,"

"And tonight...?"

"Fai-san...at supper...You were so close to me...Wahhh this is so embarassing! There's something wrong with me isn't there? I'm supposed to be attracted to girls right?" Fai smiled gently and took Syaoran's face in his hands and gently leaned down to peck him softly on the cheek. Syaoran froze.

"Syaoran-kun...it's okay. If you like boys, there's nothing wrong with that. It's just a little different than some others. I'll tell you something okay?" He bent down and whispered in Syaoran's ear something incoherant. Syaoran jumped back, very shocked.

"You mean...you and...and" He pointed at Kurogane. It was amazing at how absolutely clueless the young boy was Fai thought to himself. Kurogane looked up.

"Hey! What did you tell him??" Fai giggled and nodded to Syaoran, who blushed, then looked a bit relieved.

"S...So It's not just me?" Fai shook his head.

"Then why do you guys hide it?"

"Well...some people don't understand the way we feel and think it's wrong...to avoid conflict we don't show it too much in public or around people,"

"You...hide it from us too though..there's no way we would think any less of you," Fai grinned and looked at the ninja sitting next to him.

"Ahh but Kuro-wanwan here is bashful and doesn't want people to know he has feelings,"

"Oi-!" Fai wrapped his arms around Kurogane.

"But...even though he doesn't say it around others...I know he cares for me. That's why it's okay," Fai gently kissed the other, making him blush. Syaoran smiled.

"So it's okay to feel this way? But...even though I'm not attracted to her like that, I still charish the princess...what if she likes me more than that though?"

"I'm sure she'll be okay. I would tell her sometime though, just incase she starts to get hopeful...it will be easier on ther in the long run," Syaoran nodded. He felt sort of bad for Sakura...they had known eachother for ages...even though she doesn't remember their childhood or any of the time they spent together in Clow...she had grown very close to him. All of a sudden he felt a warm embrace.

"F..Fai-san..."

"mm...shh Syaoran...it's okay," Fai whispered In his ear. Syaoran blushed and fell into the mans warm embrace.

"Mage...what are you doing?"

"Don't be jealous Kuro-jiru...I think, Syaoran has gone through enough sexual tension thanks to you," the blonde smirked and Kurogane blushed. Syaoran felt Fai's soft lips come in contact with his cheek.

"I'M NOT JEALOUS...it's just he's a kid," Fai looked up at Kurogane with a mischievous grin on his face.

"Kuro-wanwan...you don't think that I would molest poor Syaoran-kun here now do you?"

"With you I can never be sure..." Fai looked taken aback.

"Now that's not very nice! Well fine then no bedtime yum yum for you for 3 weeks," with that he stuck out his tongue and continued to hug a very red Syaoran. Kurogane twitched uncontrollably.

"Don't say things like that around kids you idiot!"Fai grinned again and pinned Syaoran down.

"Maybe it's time to teach Syaoran about the birds and the bees with a nice 'hands on' lesson..." Fai made a motion to kiss Syaoran, Kurogane jumped up,

Thus the chase pursued...

Weee a nice ending for Syaoran-kun Kuro-puu and Fai!

Hmmm this would be a good oneshot ne? But I dunno I kinda have the urge to write a second chapter for it. I have a good idea...in which maybe Syaoran finds a boyfriend? Maybe some more KuroFai-ness if you make me happy and if you're REALLY lucky a nice lemon XD. But I don't know... it all depends on you guys...the reviewers. Tell me what you think!

Fai: Waiii! Kuro-pon make a new chapter!

Kuro: Are you stupid??

Syaoran: I think a new chapter would be very nice...but Fai-san I don't think that Kurogane-san can make the new chapter...

Fai: Ahh but Kuro-shu is magical!

Kuro: no you idiot...your the one who's magical...

Fai: Ah! You're very right Kuro-pii! Now...what was that spell again..?

SyaoKuro:sigh:...