My truest love came to me when I least expected him.
Unfortunately I least expected him in my dreams.
Now that he's gone I wonder if he really was my true love because…
He and I were perfectly alike and in the end, he hurt me like I hurt myself.
So I hurt him back… A lot worse.
It was after that, when I met another in reality and found him quite different that I came to this conclusion.
True love is complimentary.
Gaara's POV
For three days I wasn't bothered. Not because Naruto left me alone, no, the day he did that would be the day Sasuke stopped bitching about his past and got over it.
I grinned.
Neji had said something like that.
I had wondered a lot what made him the way he was. How he could sit at the foot of his father's grave, radiating joy. But now, I feel like I'm doing it myself.
When I say that though, I mean this:
For the past three days I have almost floated through life. When I do not think of Neji and his voice and warmth, I picture the sky that we look at, the food that we eat, the grass that we lay on.
I feel… Free.
I feel like I can walk through life without everything suffocating me. I can go to school and not care when I see Sasuke and Naruto together. I can be happy, and there isn't anything anyone can do to stop me.
Neji…
Ne-Ji.
There's a type of perfection to his presence. Something that I bask in and draw strength from. He resembles the moon in appearance, but I can't help but think of him as the sun.
I've heard people refer to Naruto as something like the sun.
It caused me to scoff at first. Yes, he has blond hair, he's loud, cheerful, jumpy. But no, he is not that sun.
Neji does not have to raise his voice like Naruto does, he doesn't have to wear those obnoxious colors, he does not have to even smile (although he does for me).
The sun sits in space, a bright, warm star. That is Neji, he speaks softly, he wears mostly white and grey, his face is so neutral. But when I look at him, I feel a burning to live and breath and just --- Be!
Neji gives life, Naruto is just… Exhausting.
Gaara copied down the homework assignment in his last class for the day and promptly tossed his notebook and textbook into his bag. He patiently waited until everyone had left before doing so himself.
He and Neji had been grave yard chums for three weeks and the weather was beginning to get that slight Autumn crispness.
He pulled his sweatshirt a little tighter around himself before heading towards the parking lot. He knew that if he managed to catch the bus he would get let off two blocks from the cemetery.
Suddenly a twinge caused Gaara to pause.
He knew what it felt like, he used to always feel like it. Someone was standing behind him, glaring at him with a glare that froze many in fear.
Gaara turned bravely, he would not be frozen, not when he had his sun.
"What do you want Uchiha?"
Sasuke only glared at him, "you're upsetting Naruto" He said simply, with the same clipped tone.
Gaara stared back boredly, "Oh no, I think I died a little from regret" Neji had said that once when Gaara snapped at him for taking the last cucumber and peanut butter sandwich. Though the Hyuuga's tone had been for more playful.
Sasuke raised an eyebrow, "Stop it"
"I don't force him to be around me," Said Gaara, adjusting his bag, "He seeks me out and annoys me"
"He just wants to be friends" Sasuke was clearly displeased that Naruto wanted to be friends with the redhead.
Gaara shrugged, "I have no interest in being friends with him" Gaara went for yet another blow that Neji had already taken, "His past actions have hardly spoken any positive volumes about his character"
Sasuke's eye widened for a split second before he growled, "So you're jealous" He wasn't asking, he was assuming.
Gaara would not stand for it.
"Jealous of the fact that he managed to steal away a fickle, brooding brat who treats everyone like guests at his pity party where he plays 'crawling in my skin' or whatever?" Gaara smirked, "Why would I be jealous of another man's partner in premature ejaculation?"
That was it, as soon as he got to Neji he was going to kiss him right on the mouth. Gaara nearly jumped as a tingle ran up his spine at the thought. If Neji himself was warm, his mouth must be molten.
Sasuke was staring at him in barely seeable shock when he opened his mouth to respond. But Gaara had been held up long enough, "No" He said and then he turned and ran to the bus stop, just before it pulled away.
Gaara slumped in his seat near the back, taking deep breaths.
He still felt so cold, it was slightly true… He was still bitter. Still wanting Sasuke, and still wondering why it had to happen.
He scowled, 'I won though. I won and now I'm going to see Neji'
Neji was already waiting for him when he arrived. He had discarded his coat despite the nippy air and donned only a long sleeve white shirt and long grey pants.
Gaara's breath caught in his throat as he approached.
It wasn't hard to figure out what was wrong with him. Hell, he had figured it out over night.
He was in love with Neji.
He couldn't blame himself though, after all, Neji was beautiful, caring, nurturing, protective, intelligent, wise, witty and the fact that he spoke to Gaara at all showed that the redhead was incredibly special to him.
Gaara sat down, offering Neji a small smile and the story of what had happened with Sasuke.
Neji laughed that melodic laugh and Gaara sighed contentedly, "Aren't you cold?"
Neji shook his head, "I don't get cold" with yet another angelic smile.
And really, those for words meant the world to Gaara. He looked straight at Neji, offering some words of his own, "I'm in love with you"
The smile on the brunette's face disappeared.
AN: The thing at the top is just something my sister said. I liked it and thought it fit really well.
I told her and she said she mostly thought it up for the story even though it's actually her opinion.
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