Gah! I so posted this days ago!

Maybe I should start this with a "dear diary."

Dear Diary,

I found this- you, I guess- in a box at the bottom of my closet. I had completely forgotten about it, and I only have one other entry from when I was in rehab.

Cal is dead; dead and gone, and he's never coming back. If he does find a way back, I'm pretty sure that he'll be sorry if Paige ever sees him.

Things have almost gotten back to normal around here. Well, as normal as life with the Halliwells can ever be. I've started back at school, and it's not as hard as I thought it would be to catch up. I've seen Jamie a few times, but I haven't really spoken to her. I like her a lot, but I can't take the risk of associating with people who could drag me back into the drug scene, you know?

I also saw Parker once, and he caught my eyes across the room. I was pretty scared because I thought he was coming over to me, but he looked terrified and almost ran the other way. I talked to Piper about it, but she was really vague and just told me that she simply asked him not to bother me anymore because I'm off drugs. I don't think that I believe her.

I feel really bad that Prue can't see her sisters when she visits me because I've seen Piper go into her room when she thinks nobody's looking and take out the shoebox of photo albums that she hides under her bed. It's worse now that Leo's gone, too. I've almost let it slip a few times, but I managed to catch myself at the last minute. I bet that Piper would be less than pleased finding out about my one last secret.

Phoebe doesn't really talk about Prue much and she has no hidden shoebox that I know about, so I don't know how she'd react to the situation if she ever saw her dead sister.

Paige probably just wants to meet her. I can relate, with Christy and everything.

Either way, I'm just happy that I can still see Prue.

Dave called me the other day and asked me out. I wasn't sure how I felt about a real date, as I hadn't been on one in a long time, but it was Dave, so I said yes. I was a wreck before I went out, though, and Paige had to pick out my outfit for me. Of course, I'm pretty sure she would have anyway- Paige doesn't have a lot of self-control when it comes to clothes.

It turns out that Dave's job was a CD deal, and he didn't tell me because he didn't want to brag about something that hadn't happened yet. And he wasn't sure how I felt about the fact that his job doesn't have the most stable income. I guess I was just being paranoid.

I still have nightmares about Cal, and I don't know if they'll ever stop completely. But I've got four friends to help me through it, and I know that they really want to help. I don't know if there's a feeling better than that.

Paige and I have been spending more and more time together, and one time I was watching The Ring, and when I screamed, she orbed in right in front of the TV. I got kind of annoyed because I need a good steady flow when I'm watching movies, but Paige had this ridiculous grin on her face when she realized what had happened. I don't know why; she's just really weird some times.

Anyway, I better go, I've got another date with Dave, and I don't want to be late. I'm making him watch 'Alice in Wonderland' with me, and I'm going to prove that there's nothing to be afraid of. I mean, I've literally lived it, and I can still watch the movie, so I think he can too. Paige is here to make me wear the outfit that she picked out… again. I'm not even nervous this time, and she's still a clothes Nazi.

Bye!

Well, it's been quite a ride. We've had ups, downs, smooth sailing and bumps, but overall, I think this series is the piece of work I'm most proud of to date, and I'm so glad I could share it with such awesome readers like you guys. I want to give extra thanks to people like BlueFlamedFire, lizardmomma, RiverKirby, Shawn-n-Bell, charmedcrazy14, LtMsYsF and everyone else who's been with me, reading and reviewing regularly. (Especially when you thought I'd gone all General Hospital on you with the baby scare) Also, huge thanks to Sabrina S from Germany, who gave me literally hours of enjoyment from having to actually translate a review. I don't really know why that struck me, but it did. Lastly, thanks to the best beta/friend a girl could hope for, Fay - CharmedOneForever. All of you rock so hard, it's like a tiny concert in my head. I've got some vague plans for a third installment, but right now I want to concentrate on other works. I hope to see you guys around, thanks again!

Love, The Tourist